do you ever feel like you're being punished by some divine entity for something you're not even aware of?

No. Just unlucky.

>>508737455 (OP)
Not necessarily punished but prevented. There is an unseen force that wants you wallering in the dirt begging for mercy and the only way to escape its constant bombardment is attention to detail

>>508737455 (OP)
Handsome guy

>>508737455 (OP)
Every single day.

>>508737455 (OP)
Mkultra schizo bible stuff. Getting reduced to a lowly person, surrounded by enemies accusing you of crimes you know nothing about.
Couldn't find anything about the tinnitus though

>>508737455 (OP)
No, I feel blessed.

>>508737455 (OP)
>for something you're not even aware of?
Yes, but through my research I've come to realize it's not an entity, it's a structure. One so big that it overlap with reality itself, we do not live inside a dream, we live inside a nightmare. Once you accept it even became easier to understand.
Bear in mind that complex beings produce ever more complex nightmares

>>508737455 (OP)
The people destroying your life have names, they have addresses, most of them attend shabbat every Saturday night

>>508737455 (OP)
You're not Anon. You're just interacting with the wrong places at the wrong time. What do you want? Eternal life? Videogames? Your favorite characters from a movie or a book to save you from the rising tide? What is it you really want? The Apocalypse? Ragnarok? Maybe just a picnic under a tree. A place to dream. Maybe the secrets of The Omniverse? If there is a "God" or something close to it. Well? I offer you The World to shape in your image. What would you mould it to? Heaven? Or Hell?

No God loves me. I don't even feel judged anymore.

No.

>>508737963
>Tries to shape the world in their image
>Killed by a nigger at a stoplight

Many such cases.

Punishment doesn’t require a reason, God is a sadist. He makes us suffer so that he can steal all our positive energy.

>>508737932
The people destroying my life have a mirror. One they are being forced to look into every day. I'm not here to judge them Anon. They are judging themselves, and of the two, none can compare to the terror of the feeling of their own personal judgement, for it is also their jury, and executioner. All I ever wanted. Was to sleep. They should have let me sleep. Why didn't they let me sleep?

>>508737455 (OP)
just today i told my wife the universe likes to fuck with me, then i wonder if i was hitler in my previous life

>>508737455 (OP) Digits.
I am aware of all I have done prior to this incarnation, but that is not the entirety of why I am here either.
Divine punishment coupled with my will to help others.
In order to extract gold from stone, you must first crack and destroy the host rock.
This is necessary.

>>508737455 (OP)
Sounds like someone needs to stop (((masturbating))).

You are being punished for not being a real chad

>>508737455 (OP)
I had a lot of success until a few years ago (things are getting better though): women, career, Tinder/Bumble babes, a marriage, etc. My brother shot himself in the head and it sort of fried a circuit in my brain I'll never re-activate. Got divorced, series of jobs in which I was essentially insubordinate just to be an asshole. I'm not sure what the fuck I was doing. I'm not even 40 but feel like I've lived 10 lifetimes. In a way yes but in a way it is just the lot I was given.

>>508737455 (OP)
Once you realize that this is a soul farm and you're being harvested for your emotional energies it makes sense. If something pisses you off, you'll see more of it because the suffering is the point. Defiantly don't let these things get the best of you, and you'll be surprised how many of your problems disappear.
However, if you find love in things, the archons will reluctantly give you more of those things because the energy they get from that is still worth the squeeze but just less valuable than the suffering. This is the secret of the law of attraction.
Just pay attention to your emotional reactions to your surroundings, and learn to control them to get the best of the archon's rules.
If you don't want to play by the rules, become a monk up in the mountains lol.

>mass incarcerated enemies collectively agree that they don't understand why "life" is so hard for "each" of "them"
fuckin die lmao

>>508738893
Weak faggot

>>508737455 (OP)
I had a dream recently where I went to watch a movie alone, but getting there I ended up meeting a cute girl that looked a lot like Brittany Venti but with dark hair and eyes, she was with two friends, and she liked me a lot, we were having a lot of fun and her friends were nice too. I accompanied them home but when I was about to leave to mine, a mudslide of concrete start over their house, which was shared with a lot of people. I tried to help them leave, and then close the door to delay the mud, but I couldn't, a lot of people died, including them. And at this point, I started sobbing, I felt my life was a joke made by God, that I was completely powerless about the rules of the universe, I thought of shooting myself but I felt that I'd just restart the cycle, and in the end I was left with a feeling that I can only describe by spiritual claustrophobia, something I never felt before in my life. When I woke up, the feeling kinda stayed and I can still feel it a little. I have the impression I'll feel it again when my parents die.

>>508737455 (OP)
No, that would imply things that can’t be proven
Then we end up making our perception of reality meaningless as it’s limits would be based on subjective shit, which is on par with being mentally ill

>>508737764
Wtf I have ringing in my ears too

No I'm getting punished for the actions that I've committed or not committed in my life
I think you need to take more responsibility over your own life, nobody owes you anything

>>508737455 (OP)
I know what I'm being punished for.

>>508738598
Oh I can do so much more than draw mere gold from a rock. I can make crystal silicates dance for me like golems, sing my praises and my sorrows. I can incarnate flesh from mere clay and imbue it with the spirits of entire armies or a genius. I can raise the dead, restore mortal wounds and even rain down fire from the stars and from the heavens.

>draw fire from water, from fire draw stone, from stone draw air, from air draw fire
>know this cycle and the world will be yours

But all I ever truly wanted Anon. Was to sleep. For in dreams. There. I was free...

https://youtu.be/MChIvjLGyfQ

nope.

>>508737696
This

But also
>>508737793
This

>>508737455 (OP)
Let's go with the premise life is shit.
Either 1. You were created to live this shit life or 2. As some unlucky twist of the universe, you are forced to live through this shit.
The answer is irrelevant.
What will you do about it is what truly matters.
Will you fight against this disgusting world or will you perish like a dog?
And by "fighting", I don't mean political shit.
I mean metaphysically defying your own creation.

>>508737455 (OP)
You would love to know, don't you, FBI. I'm not wearing this hat for nothing, what do you think I am, stupid? Ha!

>>508737455 (OP)
No, but I do wonder if the point of this life is experience to be able to better appreciate what comes next.

Let me show you all, just like last time... how I destroyed... The Entire.... fucking... World...
https://youtu.be/E52OdWPzyKM

>>508739962
>what comes next

>>508737455 (OP)
Earth is sort of like a a school. It's also sort of like a prison. Make no mistake, you are supposed to be here, it is not an accident.