>>508764144 (OP)>Is it conscious?>Why do they do it?I actually think it's not conscious. Some BPD women are extremely manipulative, but I actually know a fat BPD chick. The stereotype is usually that they are hot but crazy, but this one chick I know is fat. She used to be a non-fat hot blonde chick in her teens and early 20s, then she got fat, but she kept the crazy. She breaks down on social media and will even post saying she doesn't know why she's like this and doesn't know how to cope with her feelings and mood swings.
Best case scenario, BPD is a trauma response to some kind of abuse at young age. But even then, I sometimes think it is a form of demonic possession or some other entity controlling these women.
My ex would either attempt or threaten to kill herself multiple times per week. I lived in an apartment and she would often stand on the balcony ledge and threaten jumping off (was 3 stories high, enough to seriously injure yourself at least). She also once told me she killed a grown man who was a homeless alcoholic when she was just a child. I pressed her on this last point years later and she was legitimately freaked out and thought I was crazy, said she had no recollection of saying that. I told her I wouldn't judge her if it was true but I just wanted to know. So, my running theory is either she was somewhat possessed and legitimately didn't know what she was saying or doing some of the time, or that the crazy behavior itself is a manipulative tactic, basically "how crazy can I be and still get this dude to put up with me?".
Either way, it wasn't fun. Sure, it's nice to be able to have sex with an attractive woman whenever you want, but eventually that gets old. And these women are often hypersexual. My ex would become irate if I only had sex with her once or twice a day. She wanted it 5-10 times minimum. At a certain point that's just exhausting and repetitive