Thread 508981049

Yep, it's true.
I don't mean like, I'm scared of catching a cold or covid or the flu or whatever, not even vaxxed. That shit is easy.
I mean I'm absolutely terrified of catching a chronic illness that slowly kills you and is debilitating.
I can get one minor symptom and send myself into silent panic attacks, researching for hours on what it could be. It ruins my life and makes me not want to be alive, but at the same time I am terrified of death.
You would think im so health freak who takes care of myself, I'm not, I eat like shit, I sleep like shit, I vape, I smoke, I drink.
Go ahead and ban me jannies for it being off topic, this is my only way to vent since I am so alone.
Every living thing on this planet dies alone.

frogposts continue being worthless

I just don't care anymore. If i get a fatal disease, It's possible I might go on a politician killing spree in minecraft

>>508981049 (OP)
This place is made by an evil being.

I don't want to bring any one else here.

There are 2 noble paths;

1. Spiritual dissolution of the world. I am taking this path, my goal is to dissolve the world spiritually and defeat the Demiurge. I will accomplish it.

2. Simulation of the Matrix. You create a simulation within the simulation by building advanced AI robots who run society while the true souls are only in the elite class.

a little fear is okay, but don't be TOO frightened of dying or else life might cure you of your fear of death by making you wish for it
life is funny like that :)

It baffles me how people just assume bringing more people here is a moral good.

"Oh yeah let's have that lady shit out a flesh blood birth for the Demiurge system. That's completely beautiful. The Miracle of Life"

If you want to keep playing this game. Invest in robot children.

It's grotesque. All of it.
I won't subject someone to it.

The cycle ends with me.

>>508981049 (OP)
yeah i get it anon. im not that different really. you just have to stop that shit...seriously. just stop it. the anxiety you cause yourself is far more likely to cut your life short than the rabies you think you have. trust me, ive done all that crap. relax. make yourself relax.

>>508981049 (OP)
...this is normal ?

just don't be a fag and deal with it like all humans have who come before you

>>508981049 (OP)
Nothing lasts forever. Enjoy life while you can.

>>508981049 (OP)
Nigger