>>509212953I was a particularly bright lad, excelled in mathematics in particular. gave up at about 14, due to only negative reinforcement, and declined from there.
i did try various ventures for some years, everything was crushed underfoot by evil people or extremely poor luck, and that cemented my doing nothing for over a decade.
when I finally escaped the gravity well, with a plan of how to rehabilitate my mind, and was finally on the road to expanded horizons, I met a girl who shredded my brain, self confidence. when I escaped that, I had a sudden catalysmic health failure out of nowhere, and life more or less ended there.
i consider that I am cursed, and I don't know why. but on paper I should be extremely successful, with reality being I'm a couple of steps from being a homeless drifter