yea... i am basically barely even functional.. The quality of life in this country has been flushed to far down the toilet and the sense of community has long been destroyed. I live with this impending sense of doom/despair and anxiety 24/7 that doesn't make me really feel joy. enjoying and actually being happy and excited about things like when i was a child is just a distant memory. I feel like i can get murdered at any second. like i said, its fucking horrible.
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also deep down, I feel like the whole "le just let go and be happy" meme its a farce. The "it'll take care of itself" shit is a lie. The more you row the more problems you create, the more you sit still, the more the current drags you further out to the open ocean.. Thats how i feel right now. I tried going to church but it just keeps coming back. and its the most horrible shit ive ever felt in my life.