>>510400877 (OP)https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E-pw4mD_9ZA&list=PLFIc5Y7xpsJK6d_ZvdTNI4zgT6q46TQeI&index=4
This world is always going to be horrible and evil, until Jesus returns on the day of redemption. If you expected good things to happen to you in this world because of what you do then you didn't do it out of your own free will, you did it expecting something in return.
Jesus Christ is God who died, was buried and resurrected to save you from hell. Do you want His blood to wash away your sin permanently, making you righteous to God? Nothing else can save you no matter what, and it's your choice to accept or refuse this gift. God is ready to forgive you but waits for your answer, so decide now before it's too late.
What more do you want other than an eternal, happy life in heaven, and being saved from hell? Be happy in the grace you received when you believed in the Lord Jesus Christ for your salvation. Because anything else compared to that is completely worthless. And no matter how much you hate God isn't going to change the fact that you got saved forever when you confessed to God that you want the blood of Jesus Christ to wash away your sin