What is the most emotionally painful experience you have ever went through? Well...?

>>510516616 (OP)
Let me tell a stranger online about myself
Yeah no thanks

>>510516616 (OP)
Probably you making this thread.

My whole family died at the same time except my dad, and he’s (actually) autistic and extremely hard to tolerate. So I am a very lonely person.

I lost a lot of friends during the lockdowns because I did not take the vaccine.

Just not doing so well these days. I don’t think I’ll make it to 40

>>510516616 (OP)
Being molested as a child.

>>510516616 (OP)
reading this post

>>510516616 (OP)
I heard that there was an unforgivable sin in the Bible when I was 12, and I thought I committed it and I was going to go to hell for an eternity no matter what
Imagine the psychological damage that would do to a 12 year old
I had several years of bad depression from it until I discovered weed

>>510516616 (OP)
Learning the truth of my circumcision, then the struggle to cope, but that's more of a lifelong ordeal than it is a single event.

>>510516616 (OP)
Living in the same space with anti-christs on 4chin. I will surely seek their death if I know where they live.

>>510516616 (OP)
when i started balding at a young age, it has successfully destroyed me as a person and compelled me to take 5a blockers and stuff.

>>510516616 (OP)
>What is the most emotionally painful experience you have ever went through?

For me it was finding out your mom is a tranny

>>510516755
*hug*

Jesus loves you

i cum on cat she hiss at penis

Watching Jerry Springer.

>>510516755

What’s wrong fren

>>510516616 (OP)
I ordered the TPain Munchie Meal from Jack in the Box the other night (no I dont listen to nigger music I was just curious about the promotion) and they just gave me the regular munchie meal instead. It didn't include the air freshener or the stuffed cookie. So I was pretty bumbed about that.

>>510516755
Stay strong friend.
I often wonder if losing your parents to death would be harder or easier than having them be a life long plague.
Did you get to enjoy the comfy times in the long long ago, or are you in your 20's?

>>510517189

Kek that nigger is still around?

the wording of your post and your flag makes me realize you are either a jeet or Quebecois. However, I will indulge you on this.

I've been through more and seen more than any single one of you. My scars and continued methadone treatment alone can attest to that. But in singular I have one thing that I think of daily and unfortunately it involves a woman.

When I was 14, decades ago, I decided to go with a friend to his cabin for fireworks on 4th of july rather than spend my time with the girl I loved then. A guy we both knew moved in on her that day and ended up raping her. Even if you cant call it rape, even if it was just a woman lying, it cant change that I still think about it daily. The last time I spoke to her was over 10 years ago. I had just met my now wife, who is worlds away a better person than she was, I might add. But we fucked, and she told me "I still wish you had been there for me that day... well, fuck me like you did when we were kids". Because what happened was we got together at 15, and we both felt we were broken and indulged on things we knew we shouldn't have.

It ended up breaking both of us. She became the town whore, and I did things I'm not proud of.

Some things in life will stick with you, is the point I'm trying to make here. As ridiculous and unmeaningful as they may sound to anyone else.

Also, HERB'D FUCK YOU NOT POLITICS
TAKE IT TO R9K YOU FUCK

>>510516616 (OP)

I was beaten and humiliated by my "gang" in highschool who I thought were my friends but turned on me all in one instant.

My closest friend also self-deleted when I was a university student.

>>510517302
idk anything about him. I want my stuffed cookie still

My grandfather went from farmer to marine to gambler to utilities engineering partner and then owned 15 banks, was board of trustee member for sun trust and then got himself a trophy wife.

He had more pocket change than the DuPont next door.

Soul grandson, he respects gets nothing at the funeral. Got cheated from a college fund and watched his fortune and mansion sold like cheap candy.

Bitch even took the race horse and the private jet.
I could have made the world better. Saved you all. I’m sorry.

>need to go to work
>don't want to go to work
Yes this is unironically one of the worst things you can experience.

>>510517439
Its all going to burn soon anyways. We learned the value of honing skills that others cannot.

>>510516616 (OP)
Its hard to explain

>>510517439
So...you were gifted the experience of having to work for what you have like I do? I come from nothing and now own a successful business. You mean more to me now than you would have as a nepo baby.

Also, you wouldn't have done a damned thing for me.

*Sole, not "Soul", you ungrateful fuck

>>510517038
No he doesn’t you moron can you read?

>>510517246
They weren’t all good people but it’s pretty tough either way.. I’m in the 30’s. Unsuccessful because of a deep inability to sleep anymore

Raised by a narcissistic mother and a weak push over father. I’ve banged a few five out of 10 Fattys but I’m otherwise completely dysfunctional. I would imagine there are tons of people here with a similar background. Something about that combination makes us immune to propaganda and unable to be normies

>>510516616 (OP)
watching my 12 year old golden retriever die in front of me. nothing even comes close to the despair and dread I felt/feel

>>510516616 (OP)

Being born into this time of lying cucks and faggots. Those slime make everything bad.

>>510516755
>My friends left me because of the clotshot
They were never your friends if they love the clotshot more than they love you.

>>510517613
Do you also happen to be mixed germanic/anglo? I have a theory about this

>>510516616 (OP)
I was abused for my entire childhood and now Im slightly racist so i mean idk.

>>510517682
Yeah, I know. Thanks though anon

>>510517332
Gay

I didn't rape her she asked for it btw

>>510516659
Come on, goy. He's not a moderator in contact with moderators from other sites through a discord server. They're not sharing your data with eachother and building a more complete profile of you. That would be a conspiracy, and you know what we do with people who think about conspiracies. Now turn around I have a suppository for you.

>>510517409
Europoors would kill for that

>>510517747
Damn thats rough man fuck that if I were you id be living life like it were GTA

>>510516616 (OP)

This is going to sound a little stupid since I've had appendicitis, broken bone, etc.

When I was a kid, I really wasn't athlete. I didn't really feel like I was good at anything. What I was known for was "being the funny guy". I was constantly the most outgoing, class clown type person.

I had a falling out with my friend group in elementary school and made the decision to change schools. At the new school, I immediately became very shy and was made out to be a loser since I wasn't good at sports. It was clear that avoiding my issues put me in a worse situation.

I had made friends with some of the girls at the new school and opened up a little with them, telling jokes, etc. Soon afterwards, the guys all gathered around me one recess and asked why the girls liked me. One of the guy's said "because they said anon is funny". The most popular guy there said "anon is the least funny person I've ever met and everyone agreed and laughed at me (ironically enough)".

In that moment, I thought that being the "funny guy" was all I had. I was proceeded to be picked last every day at recess, shunned and made no new friends.

It's not even like it was the most terrible thing, but I randomly imagine being an 11 year old kid standing in a circle of kids and being told that.

>>510517701
Yes. What’s the theory?

>>510517581
Shitty.
I wish I could say it gets better, but its the same shit all the way down.
Rocking 40 now and all I see is boomers clutching pearls and tossing their kids to the jews.
1 in 10 men have the balls to do something, and half of them run with the mid wits to use their output, while the other half of us force the path ahead.

After reading some of the posts, I don't want to say.
Sending love for all frens ITT.

>>510516930
Ooo...that's very original and clever.

>>510517792
It was ok. They subbed in another taco for the cookie though. I might order it again before they stop serving it.

>>510517027
I'm sorry she sodomoized you.

>>510516875
Flag checks out

>>510517929
I hope you are kind to yourself and make a full psychological recovery in time.
I honestly need to take some time to process my own feelings brought on by the trauma in your story.

>>510517515
go to work but don't work then.
my mom constantly does other people's job for them so you can probably get away with not doing your job too.

>>510516616 (OP)
Psychological datamining thread to profile you freaks.

>>510517537
>>510517568
Well you both are correct.
As a manic depressive, every day is agony, except when I’m too delusional to care. Pretty good chef though.

For the record the worst thing I ever heard happening to someone else?

Man could go down the mountain into town, or stay in the noble home with his kid, pregnant wife a dog. They try to make it into town, and a tree lands right on their car. Kills the kid, wife’s legs are gone, him?

A few days later he comes back to work.
Also when the Orlando branch of the DuPonts got cut out of the main house’s banks. Horrible thing to do to your family. It’s why they put a gun to their own head now instead of backing down.

My Dad and my oldest brother departing

>>510518050
Thanks Bosnianon, I'm trying.

>>510517637
That is terrible. Your firend will be waiting for you in heaven.

>>510516616 (OP)
Parents were abusive and medicated me heavily so I would comply with it. Since I was 7 they stacked on tons of SSRIs, benzos, gaba analogs and other things to "fix me" but it led to a severe iatrogenic brain injury and two years of withdrawal. I have permanent physical and cognitive injuries from what they did, including neurogenic sleep apnea, hearing loss, ossilopsia, phantom pains, the list goes on. I've barely spoken to them for two years, I've distanced myself greatly from them.

>>510517770
There is a hidden camera in your bedroom and you still haven't found it.

>>510518183
Why didn't you sue them?

>>510518076
So?

>>510517806
I dunno man, lol I'm so fuckin stoned
Aloha from Hawai'i

>>510516616 (OP)
Had my soul stolen by fiends, they extorted it by taking my spirit to hell and compelled me to give up my divine right to my soul.

>>510516616 (OP)
when i realized, jesus was a jewish agent born out of a whore who pretended she was virgin but pregnant to hide her infidelity causing an entire nation cope with this shit by birthing slave values which gets reduced to total equality of humans causing smart people to reject it and fall into nihilism all the while unempolyment rate goes up killing your chance to be independent of your family with those values

>>510518199
If I haven't found it, then it hasn't found me.

>>510518088
>
Where are the boards I can talk to bruddahs like you guys but without the fags and je(w)ets
Haven't posted on r9k in over a decade

>>510518088
The time we grew up in was a mystical era. A time between times, like the boom era. Most of my childhood memories that made me smart and strong and capable, are all illegal now.
>seen the Hollywood sign and went in the hoover dam as a Canadian before we needed jew permission to come to your country
Necessity is the mother of all creation; the time to create will be upon us soon my friends.
The lands are literally shaking, breaking and sinking.
Make sure you have a sharp knife, and good boots.

>>510518285
Malpractice cases in psychiatry, let alone intertwined with abusive behavior are extremely difficult things to prove in court beyond a reasonable doubt. All I can do is live my life the best I can on my own terms.

>>510517800
When I was that age I was eating bugs at recess for clout
But I have a big dick and then that was all I had going for me. To this day, maybe, its all I truly have going for me.
>Muh dick... muh dick is all I got

>>510516616 (OP)
My mom let her boyfriend beat on me, and only me, and when i tried telling my school counselor I was called a little bastard and that I deserved it, Cops were told, and instead of looking at my lashes they sided with my mom, and I was placed in a mental hospital for 7 months for drug use, until they tested and found none, and then for schizophrenia, which I don't have.

Then there was my female therapist, the first I came out to about being molested at 4 by my stepfathers sister. I was suicidal, and my therapist didn't ever want me calling crisis lines, but her. I trusted her and believed that she wanted to help me, but when i crisis called, while under the influence of medications, she came to my home at 3am and "had sex" with me, this went on for two weeks, and then she disappeared, and I had PTSD so bad that didn't sleep for four days and lost 100lbs in a week. No one would help me, and because I am a man, they said it was my fault.

I called a suicide hotline at 16 just to talk to someone and after telling them about myself, I was told to hang up and kill myself.

When I as 1 months old my grandmother (black... I am mixed race) burned my thighs with cigarettes because she hated me for being born looking white.

My mom told me never to tell her friends that I am black for fear that it wold make her look bad.

As kid my brother had to have his birthday party when mine came, but also his own when his came, and the cakes were always his choice. My whole life has things like this in it. I was not loved at all.

When mom moved to be near my brother he forbade her from talking with me, and when she died I didn't get anything, I don't even have any pictures. He kept it all and sent me her ashes instead.

My neighbors are so violent that care providers fear coming to my home. I got a wheelchair to try going out, but my neighbors hang around, making sure that I know that if I try even using my patio that I am not safe.

I go for weeks without seeing a face.

>>510518599
>I go for weeks without seeing a face
welcome to working from home

>>510518395
Dope. Reminds me I should post that folder on /b
I find co/ and tg/ are decent but lit/ and out/ were my favorite.

The real kicker? 100k funeral with a negress priest. He would have hung fifty niggers for the thought. It was like swallowing sugar sand watching the Haitian jigaboo doing her best version of English and giving the corpse his last rights.

He would have settled for a decent southern black preacher even. Just, a woman? Who can’t speak English? 100k?
If war comes I’m the man in front.

>>510517332
>someone else gets raped
>why did this happen to me

Honestly /pol/tards are the most pathetic human refuse to draw breath.

>>510517382
Nothingburger.

>>510517439
>materialism

>>510517613
Oh how terrible.

>>510517914
After reading all of these posts I'm fucking nauseous. You're exactly the pussies I imagined you to be.

>>510518599
>lost 100lbs in a week
To the jew writing this. Kill yourself. That is not possible in any way shape or form.

>>510518428
Never gunna get that bad. The closest we’ll get here in the states is a march. Maybe drones v duck gun warfare. As for you leaf I fear for your safety but not for your future. They will break first I am certain.

>>510516616 (OP)
without going into details - realizing that sympathy is not a substitute for a solution for almost any problem but especially for problem that require decisive actions.

the even was so brutal it almost killed me.

biggest change to my life

>>510518972
None of it happened. Most of what has been complained about here is minor as suspected. You all have a huge chip on your shoulder and retreated into unreality because of one or two minor setbacks due to incredible delusion and entitlement. Quelle fucking surprise

>>510518869
Fuck you I could have been Batman.
I spent my life trying to be Batman.

Now I’m just a chef with a forensic accounting degree. When I could have been beating bankers to death.

>>510519002
Hope you get your $20 back bro

>>510519073
Just be Bantman. You don't need 15 banks

>>510518599
When you are suicidal the last thing you want to do is tell someone. Like exposing blood to hungry sharks.

>>510518869
it's more what I perceived him to have taken from me. We wanted a perfect life together, and that was shattered. If women are truly child-minds then how can they be taken accountable for things like this?
Many years of pain, an opiod crisis, subprime mortgage economy, pain clinics, robberies, near death misses, and other key points missing from that snippet.

You're not even wrong though. Cheers!

>>510519083
> thinks $20 can completely change personality
tell me you're a kike without telling me you're a kike

Accidentally manslaughtering a family of 14 in Iraq when the tank I was driving malfunctioned. I was acquited but I can still hear their screams and bones being crushed. I havent had a good sleep in years.

>>510518986
I don't even lock my front door kek.
The weather is going to change, and the food will get scarce. The is the next test. The hungry mouths in the streets

>>510519231
I hope you get your $10 back bro

>>510517332
You sound like such a faggot

>>510519264
What happened to his $5?
>>510519246
I mean, sounds kinda based. But you're fucking lying again, jeet.

>>510519264
>i want attention
here's your (You)

My Dad finally told me he loved me after 20 years of no contact...I raped him in his sleep

>>510516616 (OP)
She said she loved me and then went to have a baby with another man. RIp in pepperoni

>>510519356
I was sure I paid him his $2.50

Thanks for the proofs guys. Everything going into my collection.

>>510519351
I FUCKING KNOW! thats why its so fuckin retarded that I think about this shit so much!

>>510519426
you forgot to ask me

>>510516616 (OP)
From physical standpoint i had head fracture and because of that i had to skip 2 years of school from that point i got really fat later lost fat again but it took me good 10 years, i couldn't focus for shit and my hands were shaky as fuck for another 5.

From mental... well woman i loved died and it fucked me for another good 10 years. Since then i stopped caring about relationships completely. I honestly wanted to kill my self but still had my parents around so i didn't do it at the end... but somehow i helped my self and put my self together.

When I was 16, a man jumped from a building and landed head first before my feet. I had his brain on my shoes.
With 18, I’ve seen someone being disemboweled on the streets in a fight.
With 19, I found a friend in his apartment with a needle in his arm; we never knew he did heroin, nor if he killed himself on purpose.
As a kid, we were extremely poor, I shared a room with my brother for 10 years, he’s 8 years older then me. My mother slept on the couch for 10 years.
I had a tumor in my brain, which made me epileptic. It was removed and now I’m halfway to being retarded.
My ex wife left me when I had my first seizures, and she is trying to alienate the kids from me.
I am 27.

>>510519557
/thread

>>510518972
I have a long history of eating disorders. The f my mom had used to punish me for eating so I hated food. Worked on fixing that for years.

You are right, I misremembered that. I went from weighing about 165 to about 125. I ate nothing (my longest time without food was 12 days...)

I ate nothing in that time after she vanished. She was my only source of help, and the only person I ever trusted.

>>510519416
He never saw that $1.25

>>510519057
I think you replied to the wrong person I simply called out this schizo. I havnt even posted anything else. Are you a schizo too?

>>510519126
If you mean the therapist, it was her job to know. If you mean the hotline that told me to kill myself, I didn't tell them that I was suicidal, they would have called the police. Instead I just talked, and they were cool about it until that woman said to kill myself.

I was 16, didn't have many options then. I tried talking to phone sex workers as well, but after a huge bill, my mom caught on (obviously) and I gave my word that I would stop, and I kept it which was when I started calling suicide lines.

>>510518298
Boli mi kurac

>>510519612
40lbs is physically impossible as well. Why are you making all this shit up?

>>510518869
Ok let's see yours, faget

>>510519002
Zero information in your post. Kys

>>510519792
my friend literally gained 70 pounds of muscle in one year. What are the chances of him being genuinely natty?

>>510519614
It's just 75 cents, I don't know what he's complaining about.

>>510519805
No. But you guys are pathetic and have not suffered

>>510516755
Do trauma release exercises

>>510519557
Damn, I think you take the prize so far

Discovering this website. I spend way too much time here. Just got back from holiday and I feel like I'm back moreso out of habit than genuine interest. Missed you guys though. Other anons give me a good laugh. Even the Israelis that post openly here say some pretty funny shit sometimes. Maybe I should experiment and drop this place for a year and see what happens. What do you guys think? Anyone else ever try to kick this website completely for a demonstrably long period of time and record the results?

being halfway around the world when my dad passed away.

>>510519886
Likely on steroids and that's a full fucking year. However your friend probably lied to you like this guy is rn. Buddy here tried to tell us he lost 100lbs in a week then switched to 40lbs. Both are physically impossible even if you starved yourself and ran a marathon everyday for even the 12 days he deflected to

>>510519935
You're weak and have too much self-pity

>>510520063
he's transformed from twig to being a genuinely big muscular physique.

I know for a fact it was something like 60-70 pounds. Is that possible even on steroids?

>>510520034
I was in jail for half a year, got out, got a phone and IMMEDIATELY got back to doomscrolling all day lmaooo

Trust me, we are here forever

>>510519883
kek
what is it about the my flag that brings all narcissistic ?

>>510520119
He probably gained fat as well. Not hard to do. Your buddy probably just gorged on food while lifting for a year.

>>510520119
It is possible if it was his first year and he has excellent genetics for it and he ate a lot, yes. If he was aged 16-19 when he started especially

>>510520160
Kys, your posts suck

>>510516616 (OP)
>learning that nationalism and national solidarity was bullshit
the backstory as to why this rekt me is I was raised up in a civil war where nationalism and ethnic identity was everything.
it was us V them, people got killed for being one side or the other, we were the good guys they were the enemy, but the idea of us V them was all myth making, it dawned on me that its just me, my immediate family V everyone else.
so its just not other nationalities/ethnicities you have to watch out for but your own extended family, because everyone will always betray you given the opportunity.

>>510517682
>>510517747
>ostracizing yourself from real life because of retardation you read from /pol/ schizoids was worth it

oh yes you will be owning the nano kill bot trigger in 2 weeks by blowing your own brains out in depression over being a dumb loser

>>510516616 (OP)
Dated a girl with BPD, vulnerable NPD, bipolar, depression, manipulative personality traits and I didn't pick up on it right away because I didn't know what these mental diseases were AND she was extremely quiet and our relationship was smooth at first but at the first instance of something bad happening and her mood sinking she started to show her craziness.

All I want to say is if you ever find out a girl has bpd - get the fuck away from her before you get sucked in to her life. Don't even chance it - because there is no chance she's going to turn around. Get out get out get out! I'm a mentally stable person with high academic accolades and success and money in life and I had a full me tal breakdown. Lost my mind and had no idea what was happening. I escaped and the healing has begun and I didn't even think this possible before.

>>510520340
You're missing the point. The clotshot revealed everyone's intellect and character. People's behavior and reasoning during that time really shows you who they are. And I'm not just talking vaxx vs no vaxx, there were many different details that revealed themselves

>>510520428
>N-no it wasn't about my retarded beliefs it was about peoples personal character revealing the-

kys

>>510520513

Yes we all get it you're a self hating antiwhite conformist. You should commit suicide asap

>>510520684
LMFAO look at the schizoid fucking accusation because I don't believe your stupid fucking bullshit about covid? I hate you mentally deranged cunts. Never meet you in real life because you never go out and lost all your friends (if you had any to begin with).

My 75 year old grandpa owned a mechanic shop as a simple man. Some horrific people tied him up there and beat the absolute life out of him. He never recovered from that at all or spoke again till died months later. They were never caught

>>510516616 (OP)
I was betrayed by someone I thought would be there for me regardless of what happened.

>>510516616 (OP)
walked in on my mom fucking my fiancee a week before the wedding

now they're married with a family

>>510520777
in WWII Germany the government tried to build the idea of National Community, but it was tough to educate on. Refugees fleeing the firebombing of cities were placed in the countryside and many (according to SD reports) were mistreated or the families they were placed with told the authorities to screw off and resisted their fellow Germans.
/pol/ does not appreciate this and what it means for their ideas of the national masses 'rising up'.

>>510520738

You're a pussy who took clot shots because of the opinions of people who don't really care about you very much.
So you're a combination of dumb, cowardly and impressionable.
You can be ordered to do any humiliating or harmful shit and you'd fold again under slight pressure.

>>510520745
Why was he attacked?

>>510520895
LMAOOOOO

>>510516755
Might as well shoot up your local synagogue. Never go down alone. I'm jewish by the way.