Thread 511390107

I remember my life used to be guided by rational, low-risk decision making despite massive anxieties and depression yet nowadays I my decision making is mostly emotional and I am crumpled in a corner more often than not.

Is this long-term mental damage from a hostile, adversarial political and social climate? I have only ever spent life at the bottom of the social ladder and never really integrated myself into an institution where I've been appreciated as an employee.

> I've become so emotional.
> ...my life used to be guided by ... low-risk decision making...

You were always emotional, fag.

>>511390107 (OP)
You will get used to it. Not a big deal.

>>511390252
>Litteral Turkish fag calling other fag.

>>511390336
Takes one to know one. Come join the fun.

I used to be emotional.

Now I am just numb and crave when I used to feel deep meaningful things. I see no point in living without it.

I honestly don’t think I’ve been presented with a high risk decision in my entire life. The world is so safe and sterile now, I don’t even think there is a way to take real risks anymore. Adventure and magnanimity are dead.

>>511390553
shit I remember as a kid feeling emotions about the local baseball team even, now the most shocking news is just "well ok"

>>511390597
>world is so safe and sterile now, I don’t even think there is a way to take real risks anymore.
Dabble in the occult

>>511390708
It’s just things happening

>>511390107 (OP)
You identified the problem correctly so you still have some rationality intact. But yes, the people you looked at as crazy and emotional when you were younger are people that have been broken over time. Most didn’t start out that way.

>>511390107 (OP)
Sounds like your autism is in remission.

>>511390553
fiction is good for that
you can experience emotions without having to actually do anything

If you're a man, its typical for us to bury our emotions deep down, but to act as if we don't feel them at all, is not good either.

Men are supposed to bury their feelings DEEP, DEEP down to take care of business, but its okay to let it out once in a while, we are still human, but don't let your emotions rule your life, it will ruin you and make you a weak pussy, either drug addicted or on the street, unemployed, or worse.

Spend time too into your feelings, life will pass you by, pick yourself up after you allow yourself to feel what you're feeling.

>>511390982
No, his autism had him under the illusion that he was the main character and by being rational and logical he would be able to get somewhere. I can tell based on his own evaluation of his decline. OP will now either continue his emotional decline or become blackpilled.

>>511391048
It doesn’t when you realize it’s all escapisms of meaningless made up events

>>511391350
>>511391050
Thank you for your advice. It'll help. I know I sound like a roastie but I really am "ready to settle down now" and lead a stable life for the next 1 to 3 years.