>>512178455 (OP)
Just quit.
There's a huge psychological need to do vidya or night hikes or something because your brain and soul don't know what to do at night expecting to be drunk.
There are some cravings, but they're mild.
The dopamine and habituation is what fucks with you.
I finally quit though because each time I drink it fucks my sleep and I can't get shit done.
If I drank just once, it would have to be like a Friday night and not expecting to really get shit done until Monday morning.
Part of the problem is I have a white man's RH- liver so it adapts very well to booze and I have to drink a shit ton to get buzzed because I sober up almost immediately. This means I'm drinking way too much booze and fucking my GABA receptors.
I've read that it only takes 2-3 months for the liver to fully activate, but 6 months of total abstinence for it to shrink back.
My plan is to abstain for the 6 months so that hopefully I have a teenage liver again and can get buzzed off of three beers.
If you do that and binge completely sparingly, you'll maintain a small liver and when you drink you just won't drink as much for a good effect.
Fuck I remember I'd do two tall boys, walk 20 minutes to the mall. Buy a beer there for the walk back, drink three beers over the course of a 40 minute meal eating a shit ton, then drink the one beer on the way home for a total of about 6-7 beers over 3 hours, walking and food. And I'd arrive home buzzed as shit singing songs. I never felt the need to drink more once I got home.
Now, I have to not eat, and get like 5 beers within 30 minutes, then another 5 in the next hour or I don't feel shit.