Thread 512545740

i just turned 37. i work, i come home and sit on my phone, wasting my life knowing i could be coming home to a kid and raising them. my life is empty and substanceless.

i look about 10 years younger and so ive always dated younger girls and im into alternative music scenes where the girls are always mentally ill, so all my gfs have been BPD and bipolar goth and punk girls who are not mother material. yeah there were a couple execptions, 2 out of the 3 girls who i could have had a future with werent White and i just want a kid who has the same ancestry as me.

i just got out of a 10 month relationship with a girl who promised me things like marriage and kids but quickly turned into an unhinged BPD who cant even control her own emotions and wouldnt be suitable as a mother or even a long term girlfriend.

the girls ive gone on dates since have all been fat leftists and stoners not fit to have children. i think my age eliminates a lot of younger girls on dating apps, the oldest woman ive dated was 27 and that was a decade ago. i talk to girls on snapchat in the 19-21 range, who i thought maybe i can knock up irresponsibly as many young girls on there seem to have kids really young, but they are just as mentally unstable and dont want ever want anything serious if i can even get one to go through meeting up.

it seems hopeless now, the ugliest most vile people are reproducing yet im single and childless and blew the few opportunities i had in the past. i dont know how to proceed, i actually found myself trying to hit up a BPD girl from 6 years ago who was obsessed with me and tried to ruin my life several times, surely someone that insane would have my kid, but her mom is literally a nigger fucker and her half brother is a half nigger and my kid would grow up in a multiracial environment and be encouraged to race mix. i dont know what to do. and dating apps are rigged, i got 2 matches a day then after a week it deprioritized me even when i paid for the premium.

>>512545740 (OP)
not your blog

>>512545740 (OP)
who.
the fuck.
Cares?
This isn't bant, dumbass
>butt butt political
Not your blog

>>512545740 (OP)
>shitting out another npc will give meaning to my life

please dont reproduce, its inevitable you will kill the soul of your kids and they will end up more miserable than you

>>512545740 (OP)
Just get a surrogacy and raise a kid that way.
No need for divorce rape and you get a child to raise without somebody weaponizing it against you. It is what I will do when I reach 40.

>>512545740 (OP)
you can father a kid at fucking 60 dude
you have time
don't fall for the black pill bullshit

Abraham began his “independent adult” life at 75

if God wants humanity to go on, nothing we do or dont do, will stop Gods will

even if we have to have kids at 80

>>512545740 (OP)
Not too old to be a cuck step-dad

Stop blogging and get fucking

You just don’t want to settle for a fatty

>>512545740 (OP)
Yup, you are a failure if you wanted to have kids. and haven't acomplish that goal.

I was a loser in HS, smallest kid in the whole school, never had a gf and everyone bullied me

after HS I blossomed and became kind of a ladies man and just never grew out of it, it satisfied my 16 year old self during all those days of thinking i was ugly and less than human. all of my gfs have been mentally ill goth and punk girls who were 10+ years younger than me. I just ended a relationship with my last BPD gf in march.i didnt know she had it at first and make these promises of a future she was incapable of.

i desperately want a child. im 36 and look very young for my age. ill settle for a portly midwestern woman,anyone white and non leftist.

every woman ive gone on a date with so far has been mentally ill and leftist. normal women arent into me because im kind of a specific type of alternative looking guy and no matter how much i tone it down i still come across that way and everyone sees alternative as left wing when im actually far right.

the dates ive had since my last break up:

an immensly fat, 6 ft tall ex dominatrix with an extremely hairy asshole

a far leftist who lied about a family member in hospice to get out of talking to me

a 21 yr old who didnt tell me she had a bf but made out with me anyway

a really hot 40 yr old

dating apps are rigged. i spent money and buy the premium, get all these matches for a week then immediately afterwards get nothing.

next week i have a date with a 19 yr old. ive been on snapchat and all these younger alt girls follow me but have no idea im as old as i am because like i said, i look younger. unfortunately, its going to say im 37 on my dating apps next week, as its going to be my birthday.

ive never been married. the closest was my recent BPD ex. theres been two girls in the past who wanted to a future with me with kids and all that, but they werent white and i cant justify bringing a mutt into the world with a liberal mom

ppl hate me for dating teens in my 30s but many of them got fat an ugly after 23 btw

>>512546023
i know but i feel like im getting less desirable to younger ripe girls ready to reproduce

im in a weird niche because i look 27 so women in their 30s are less interested in me, and younger girls are interested in me but being 37 is a deterent (many young girls on dating apps adjust the age range to cut off people as old as me)

you see weird exceptions like 20 yr olds falling for 40 yr olds sometimes and thats my best bet i guess, hoping it somehow happens. that or a hookup with a young girl i meet at a bar or show or something to where she gets knocked up and somehow by the grace of God wants to keep it (only leftist whores are into me for the most part)

>>512546544
yes its my life story retard im not a bot

>>512546605
Do one about Pan Piano next.

>>512546742
i dont even know who that is but ok

>>512545740 (OP)
Start beating them cunts.