>>512669907
Alright, S. I've been watching these threads. I'm sorry this happened to you. Hollywood is a sick and twisted machine.
Religion is understandably going to be sensitive for you, especially Christianity. But what is, or has happened to you, is part of the consciousness path. Unfortunately you were likely impeded by trauma from your time in the industry, and your childhood. Childhood trauma is a bitch, and you're correct. Kids with a life riddled with abuse are more succeptible to either unlocking certain mental abilities after they begin to learn to disassociate. How they turn out later in life is obviously influenced by the nurturing and resources available.
All the other anons telling you God/christ/etc is the answer aren't wrong. But, Buddhism is more likely to be palatable to you. given your traumas and experiences.
People will go in for hours upon hours about which religion is correct, but majority all boil down to the lesson of 'i am one with the universe.
You are me, I am you, we are both god, every anon in this thread is god. The lesson we were all meant to learn was unity and oneness. Unfortunately, people got greedy quick, and religious text have been manipulated to pull people further and further from their spirituality.
The Law of One is a phenomenal place to begin, should you decide to venture.