Thread 513018447

have you been able to move on? It's been 5 years now, I think about her every day, that I will never find anyone like her, that I lost my soul mate... I haven't been able to date another girl yet. Does the pain eventually pass?

>>513018447 (OP)
>Your first love
never had it
>have you been able to move on?
I didnt have to move anywhere
>Does the pain eventually pass?
no you will always be simpcuckold

t. a man who is in every way superior to you

>>513018447 (OP)
Idk, I'm still in love with someone who hasn't spoken to me in 3 years, and it's been 5 since we were together. I'll die with this unrequited love in my heart and soul. Sorry, it doesn't get better, nor any easier. And since there's a chance you're dicking off your time on this Mongolian basket weaving forum - R, I still love you.

>>513018447 (OP)
>Does the pain eventually pass?
Yeah
I still have dreams about her occasionally, and it's been over 10 years, but I don't feel any emotions about her anymore
She treated me like shit and everyone told me she treats me like shit, but I still loved her anyways
If a girl you like treats you like shit, then just cut her out of your life, even if you love her. That's what I learned I guess

>>513018447 (OP)
I had to break things off with her last year because she was doing all sorts of shit and it killed me to do it. I loved her and still do.

She cheated on me (cheated on her ex with me so it checks out i guess).
She was an alcoholic. Always trying to get me to buy her hard liquor and hiding mickeys of vodka all over my house. I was finding mickeys every other month in random spots.
She would get so drunk that she'd pass out on the couch and start pissing herself. Happened 3 times that i know of.
She would randomly "change personality" and go from her normal self to this cold hearted bitch, go for a smoke outside and come back in like she didn't just say some of the most hurtful shit to me. Acted like she didn't remember what she said to me 5 minutes ago.
She started opening her exes laptop to look at his photos. She would sit right beside me while she did it.

So I finally had enough and told her i didn't love her anymore. Which was a lie. I loved her so fucking much, but what she was doing to me was pushing me to my limit.
My friends and family had been telling me to get out of the relationship for awhile.

She ended up egging my house a few days later and the egging wasn't enough so she threw a rock and broke a window. Ended up pressing charges and getting a restraining order on her.

Most days i have a deep sadness that comes and goes. Im constantly reminded of her.

even after 100 years, i still feel it. it doesnt get better OP

>>513018447 (OP)
Nah my first love was a retarded bitch but there is 1 ex I cant stop thinking about even after 5+ years

>>513018447 (OP)
First second third fourth fifth I remember all of them
I hope they all fucking die in a fire

>>513018447 (OP)
Yes, I still think about her every day as well.

>>513018447 (OP)
It took 8 years. I saw a photo of her recently with a jeet. Pretty sure it was her bf. Initially insulted, I quickly moved on after realising her cunt touched jeet penis. Totally destroyed any chance of us going back together, the next day I was over her. Plus she aged like a vaxxie.

>>513019919
>She ended up egging my house a few days later and the egging wasn't enough so she threw a rock and broke a window. Ended up pressing charges and getting a restraining order on her.
>Most days i have a deep sadness that comes and goes. Im constantly reminded of her.
>>513019024
>Idk, I'm still in love with someone who hasn't spoken to me in 3 years, and it's been 5 since we were together. I'll die with this unrequited love in my heart and soul. Sorry, it doesn't get better, nor any easier. And since there's a chance you're dicking off your time on this Mongolian basket weaving forum - R, I still love you.

Is this how God feels whenever a child of his goes to hell? How awful...

Anyway, I just hope and pray that Jesus Christ will allow me to experience an innocent love in heaven, since I likely won't have it here...

>>513019919
Of course it's a leaf, what a pathetic post.

A seductive woman is a trap more bitter than death: the woman whose heart is snares and nets, and whose hands are chains. He who pleases God escapes her, but the sinner is taken by her.

This is the way of an adulteress: she eats and wipes her mouth and says, “I have done nothing wrong.” Her feet go down to death; her steps lead straight to Hell. She does not consider the path of life; she does not realize that her ways are unstable. She staggers down her own crooked trail and does not realize it.

Do not be deceived: God is not mocked, for whatever one sows, that will he also reap. Whoever sows to please their flesh, from the flesh will reap destruction; whoever sows to please the Spirit, from the Spirit will reap eternal life.

>>513018447 (OP)
Your issue is falling in love with a modern woman. You are supposed to use women and avoid the falling in love part except for really good ones. Don't date with the goal of marriage or you will become broken and jaded as I did until I stopped caring.

>>513018447 (OP)
yesterday she said she doesnt love me anymore, i have a weird painful sensation of my blood burning since then, i cant believe it

>>513020422
> I likely won't have it here...
you dont know how lucky you are

>>513021781
>you dont know how lucky you are
I think so, because it wouldn't last. Everything here dies, her innocence would be quickly destroyed, the love would soon fade, and she'd grow old and wrinkly... I seek an eternal love of innocence vastly superior to what we currently have.

I still love her, but at the same time I don't. It's been three years since the divorce. All I felt when it happened was relief because she was really ruining my life. But as the days passed, I did miss her 'cause of the good times. It breaks my heart.

>>513018447 (OP)
I've moved on in a sense it doesn't bother me. It's been 15 years since and she is still the best relationship I've had. A lot of firsts together and she was the only girl who was athletic enough to keep up with me. The pain passes the memory probably won't. Use her as a guide of how good a girl can be

>>513021371
If you look up the strongs convordance of this passage in the book of proverbs "feet" is penunda iirc and is a vagina
P sure jonathan kleck did a study on it

You pussies are too sentimental im already over the next one

>>513018447 (OP)
Give it another 5 years and yes. Especially if she marries and has children. Move on, nigger. She wasn't "the one".

>>513018447 (OP)
Hahaha
16 years for me, and no.

>>513018447 (OP)
>Does the pain eventually pass?
no

I still think about my exes sometimes but I also know that my life would be worse if we had stayed together

>>513018770
post face

fell in love for the first time this year
a women from work, she said she loved me too, i ended it because she routinely disappeared on me for a week + at a time, routinely ignored me, always cancelled our plans, sometimes without even telling me
i talked with her twice about all of this and she continued to do it, before I spoke to her it made me sad, after i spoke to her it made me angry so i thought it was best to walk away
today is exactly a year since we first met up outside of work
i think i could get back with her anytime i want but i know she'll just disappear again and i can't take the feeling of losing her over and over
really sucks, she's the only person I've felt truly comfortable and open with and made me feel good about myself

Nigga what? No I haven't thought of my first love till I saw this post. I dont miss her remotely, I dont really miss any of my exes. 1 was really cool, probably shouldn't have broken up with her, but miss her? No

>>513020293
I thought you lived in Russia

>>513020183
>First second third fourth fifth
Let me guess: Emma Watson, Taylor Swift, Miley Cyrus, Billie Eilish, and some random lady you message on Facebook.

>>513019024
wow same amount of years won't even answer an email in 3 years - Anita, I still love you.

>>513018447 (OP)
The scar remains but the pains deadens. Sometimes something re-opens the scar but it's for less long each time. Just be thankful for the happy times, accept that they were part of your life and that you enjoyed them, just like other fond memories not involving her. You don't obsessively think about those over and over, nor should you do so about a girl.

In my case, I still see her a lot so it makes it hard to even think about other females. Just try to enjoy other aspects of life and something will come along when it's ready.

>>513018447 (OP)
yeah, my pining for my first love fizzled out after 2 or so years.
The next one took around 2 as well.
Both cucked me pretty hard and left me in a sorry state.

>>513024698
You are correct.

I still think about my first love, even though she was about my 20th fuck.
she was very hot and still young with the best tits i've ever seen. I still dream about fucking her brains out. its been 20years and I still think about her once a week.
I've had 6 more long-term relationships with other even hotter nicer 10/10 girls (in one now) but nobody will ever match her for personality
the only thing to snap me out of it is to lurk on her instagram and see that she's a giant unhappy land whale, woked af to hell, blm karen divorcee with 3 teens kids. In fact i cant even see the 21yo i used to adore.
oh well she turns out she was a cunt anyways. live and learn anonbros

It stung bad for a long time. But now that I'm in my 30s I just think she was some weird slut who lied a lot and had way too many guy friends. Also she was Filipino (American) and I could easily find a better looking white girl. It only hurt so much because I built up this illusion of what I thought she was in my head. We spent countless hours talking every day for years and we got caught up in make-believe.

I wouldn't be happy with her if she came back now. I wouldn't be happy now if she stayed with me. I'm just glad it's over.

>>513027968
I find a pros vs cons list is the best remedy for this shit too
pros - nice, hot and fucks nice, looks good out whenever she's on my arm
cons - everything else

>>513018447 (OP)
I never had any first love. Only time I tried to befriend a girl in my college, my family got to know and I got a good beating at home.

>>513018447 (OP)
It was a quirck chungus and man child setup. She dated me because I was the only man who really gave her attention and I dated her because I was desperate to suck on some titties at 20yo. I blame a lot of my mindset on my parents.

>>513024813
Billie eyelash is autistic, im handsome so i don't want to hurt more women, I like being alone.
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>>513018447 (OP)
My first love turned out to be a lesbian
Still got the hots for her.

>>513018447 (OP)
You move on by moving on bro. It won't be like the first time. You are never going to 'return to neutral' , you just move on. If you are thinking of her that much literally just yell STOP, in your mind and move onto something else. It will stop.