Thread 513121266

I've done everything I can to keep myself from doing this, I've taken pimozide, anti parasite drugs etc. therapy doesn't work, praying doesn't work this fucking disease I have has won and I started HRT yesterday... I really wish I could do anything to make this go away but my ex wife taking my son has just broken me into this.... I still hate Jews, faggots and niggers good luck bros

kill yourself

>>513121324
I already died when that kike gave my son to that whore, I don't even feel like a person anymore

>>513121266 (OP)
Be my tardwife in the dress

>>513121266 (OP)
will you himenomaxx now?

>>513121266 (OP)
Based. I want Hrt too but I'm built like a fridge lmao

>>513121266 (OP)
my girl

>>513121266 (OP)
Will you boymode or publicly troon out? Do you have passing potential?

>>513121266 (OP)
>but my ex wife
>my son
You're too old for this. I hope this is bait. Only fags should troon out.

>>513122154
Yes, I'm actually missing an eye from when I was deployed in Afghanistan

>>513122555
fellow 1 eyed bro
Right one?

>>513122532
It's not bait, im only 26

>>513122600
Yup and it sucks because I was right eye dominant

>>513122555
you should cosplay himeno in real life then, wear her suit and get her haircut. bonus points if hrt makes your tits big.

>>513122632
Do you even like men?

>>513121266 (OP)
You got AGP and you're supposed to fantasize, not cut off your cock.

>>513122357
I like this pic very much. I want to look like that

>>513121266 (OP)
Be a fucking man and stop before you become a total failure of a man you retarded faggot.

>>513121266 (OP)

Your a man in a dress. There is no gender.

>>513122678
same lol but i did eventually get used to shooting lefty

>>513121266 (OP)
You're just having a mental breakdown. In no way is doing this insane shit going to help you or your son lmao.

>>513122600
its sis now lol
>>513122632
good, i thought you were much older, you have chance to look good since you arent that old.

>>513122357
I'm keeping it on the low, if I can't get out of child support from the divorce rape which the judge ruled I have to even pay out from my disability benefits which is horseshit I might feel the country or something I don't know what the fuck to do I lost a fucking eye for fuck sakes

>>513121266 (OP)
Retard, if you take testosterone it goes away, put in 200mg a week and any feeling will fade in 3-5 months with little to no side effects. If you take 500mg a week such thoughts will go away in 2-4 weeks, but you may have side effects. Taking hrt to further masculinize you is healthier and an easier process, it quickly resolves the mental issue, and you won’t need to do crazy surgeries etc down the road.

>>513121266 (OP)
OP at what age did you start browsing /lgbtq/ and /b/?

>>513122863
I shoot righty with my left eye and it works for me

>>513121589
You sure she didn't leave you because you're a tranny? No mentally stable woman would be with a tranny.

>>513123043
I never had low T, also steroids make dudes gay

>>513121266 (OP)
Become a hot shemale MILF and have your son fuck you in the future when he is older.

>>513123255
She cheated on me while I was deployed in 2021, I haven't seen my son in 2 years man

>>513122709
No I just want to be celibate

Wow, yaaaasss!!! This is definitely the healthy and logical choice for you! We’re all rooting for your journey!

STOP. IT. NOW. OP, YOU STILL HAVE TIME. At the very least you can LARP as a cool divorced father and drink garage beers while listening to Alice in Chains. It doesn't have to end with you trooning out man

>>513123439
How old do u think I am?

>>513123280
Doesn’t matter if your natural t isn’t low (and testing is very inaccurate, it can be easily normal when taking a fasted test in the morning but tanking many other times for a variety of reasons), taking exogenous to a high level will resolve the issue, and no steroids don’t make guys gay, some steroids make men hypersexual (but testosterone is not one), which causes them to be willing to fuck anything.

You seem like you are larping, someone actually desperate would be willing to try taking test first.

>>513121266 (OP)
Good luck OP, make sure to really do your homework on HRT. Endos are often incompetent and might give you a dose way too low. I suggest monotherapy with injections, and make sure to test your levels regularly. Sadly apart from having proper and stable levels, nothing else you might find really helps with feminization (things like prog or pio, if these words mean nothing to you now, trust me they eventually will, but it's all honscience).
Idk what is your passing potential, but even if you can't pass, manmoding on hrt is still way way better than repressing.
Also /lgbt/ board here is a cesspool but still better for this kind of discussions.
Lastly, idk if this is possible for you, but it would really help if you could find some female friends. Right now you are still a malebrained chud, and hrt alone won't change that. Socialization will.

>>513124350
are you trans yourself anon?

>>513121266 (OP)
You can't change your sex
You are just going to be consumed by a delusion that will never be satisfied
You will be like that one tranny faggot that killed himself after someone called him sir.
There will always be something to remind you that you are living a lie, and the further you get into the delusion the more likely it will make you off yourself.

Just stop being a faggot
Easy

>>513121266 (OP)
I truly can't relate. My pronouns are me, myself and I. End of story. Sexually active people probably have a better chance of relating at all.

>>513125389
I'm a man on hrt, so I guess it depends on who you ask.
I definitely have a trans body at this point, and a lot of my experiences are the same as that of trans women, but all in all I'm just trying to be honest with myself.
I will say that either as a visibly gnc man on hrt or as an unpassing trans woman, you need to develop thick skin. You need to know who you are and where you're going in life really well in order to do okay.
No matter what you do in life, there will always be someone seething about it and trying to convince you to do something else lol

>>513121266 (OP)
>this fucking disease I have has won and I started HRT yesterday.

yes it's demonic, it's not too late, here take it or leave it

ones every day / 7 days

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wmCTmRVCN1s

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e24PNBXq2Ys

>>513122600
>>513122678
How did you lose your eye? I want to lose my right eye too

Being "trans" isn't even real, I can't believe there are actual retards on this board

>>513126766
so you are a boymoder? do you get mistaken for a woman often? does your family and friends know you are on hrt?

>>513121266 (OP)
Why did you ever believe what /pol/ says about trannies in the first place, /pol/ is full of anons that envy women and are going above and beyond to cope that they weren't born one

>>513127003
Shrapnel

>>513128520
I never did and I understand a lot of the hate about women here stems from envy which I don't understand, alot of men here are repressed me being one of them but I just fear that so many are repressed that the things we support will never be taken seriously because tranny, people would rather take a retarded nigger seriously over a tranny and I think it's ridiculous

>>513121266 (OP)
you still wont ever be a woman

especially not an anime woman.

anime unironically contributes to this shit drastically. egirl thots who use tons of filters contribute to this delusion. none of it is real you idiot

>>513121589
I left my husband of 7 years because he told me 5 years in he was cross dressing and wanted to be a woman. spent two years trying to fix it but sissy hypno rots ones brain beyond repair.

I have no sympathy for you. You are selfish and have ultimately chosen your own fetishes and perverted satisfaction over anything and everything else.

Im not hanging around this thread to read whatever replies I get, but I really thought you should know you are a complete piece of shit. Men hate you too btw

>>513131094
Blah blah blah I couldn't stand by my man cause I'm weak

>>513131237
>my man
Lol
Lmao, even

>>513131498
There's no women on this board

>>513127003
I got shot in the eye with a pellet gun

>>513121266 (OP)
> I've done everything I can to keep myself from doing this
No you haven't.
> I've taken pimozide, anti parasite drugs
What you need to do is get clean off all drugs. Stop drugging yourself.
> praying doesn't work
Works just fine. You just expect instant results for a problem that took your whole life to create.
> this fucking disease I have has won
You don't have a disease, you have an unethically enabled depravity. You are leaning on opportunity instead of realizing your heart is the disease. You have no condition other than what you've chosen.
> but my ex wife taking my son has just broken me into this
O.p is fake but just in case - man the fuck up and think about your kid. Do you want him to grow up and find out dad spent his life as a faggot or do you want him to grow up knowing you fought to be there in his life and to guide him even though she left you?

>>513121266 (OP)
You're probably white op. That's natural. Lots of white bois troon out. Whites are very feminine.

>>513123432
Then you've been psyoped.

>>513131971
By the way kid, I have three children I haven't been able to see in over two years because my wife left me while I was at work and flew to another country. You don't have it especially hard at all. Neither do I. Man the fuck up and hold onto your morals and sanity before you drive all your fatherhood out of yourself through shame and self loathing. Your kids NEED you to suffer to make it and be there for them. They expect it. They're a kid and you're a "man". Fucking be one, do the bare minumum if you have to. But be one. Put down this deadly and depraved obsession and rebuild your life. Ask God for help, AGAIN and don't stop asking. Every single move you make is watched by the Devil. You cannot allow more obvious sin into your life. He's going to swallow you, that's his plan. Resist temptation any way you can and even if you fail do not stop.

>>513121266 (OP)
Should have tried anti-psychotics.

>>513121266 (OP)
Incel men who otherwise unfit for breeding will serve as a third gender that dresses like a woman, but serves the role of domestic worker, child caretaker, and entertainer. This is already a thing in many Polynesian cultures.

And whatever you do remember that it's better for you to stumble in privacy than it is for you to try to go public with degeneracy. The waves of shame and regret that will hit and consume your souk are like nothing you can even imagine. You're going to feel sick to the out of your stomach that you ever exposed your sexual depravity and on the other side of that door is suicide. Don't do anything foolish and quit while you're still ahead.

>>513121266 (OP)
Enjoy your suicide, Its all you have to look forward to now.

>>513122985
>lost a eye
Pirate tranny, arr matey!

>>513133100
Id like to see how youd do without an eye, faggot

>>513126766
> No matter what you do in life, there will always be someone seething about it and trying to convince you to do something else lol
Yeah, the difference here is that they're usually wrong. Nobody is wrong when they call your lifestyle dengerate, evil and sad.

>>513133821
You just give off the vibe of a religious sheep, you've never done anything you actually wanted in life and it shows

>>513133596
It's not that big of a deal desu although walking down stairs the first time post injury is difficult

>>513131094
> but sissy hypno rots ones brain beyond repair.
No, it doesn't. All porn is the same. It's extremely addicting in the moment. And it can come roaring back. But that's all it is, an addiction. It doesn't actually change your mind or brain. It doesn't actually hypnotise anyone. All it does it create a powerful addiction to porn. If your husband stopped watching porn or maybe got some professional help to quit it wouldn’t even be 24 hours before post nut clarity would clear up the delusion. Drugs and porn create powerfuk but tempoary fixations.

>>513121266 (OP)
Reality matters. Become a realist.

>>513133950
I'm a proud religious sheep. I've done plenty I wanted, probably more than you. Degeneracy is boring and creates an insatiable drive that leads to drugs and suicide. Sexual perversion wastes lives and empowers demonic forces. I'm proud to say I would follow the Good Shepherd anywhere because I'm human like you and know all full well what you supposedly think I can't understand. Jesus would NEVER lead me to a path of self destruction and for that I am grateful in a world fuelled by sick pornography.

>>513121266 (OP)
maybe next you can learn to get over your hate for others

>>513134487
I'm not OP, you're a jewoid dick licker

>>513134536
Yeah, doesn't make sense to hate anybody when you want to take it up the ass from other men. At that point you should be deeply aware of how fucked humanity is.

>>513134621
I didn't address you as O.P.

>>513134627
>Humanity is so fucked i take it up the ass
I lold