>>513431350 (OP)Ex-Wizard and persistent incel here: Do not attempt! I repeat: Do not attempt!
When I redpilled mine: she aborted our child, left me for a gorilla nigger, and is on number 4 with him. I am absolutely ruined now, zero hope of psychological recovery. Flatlined. Done. My worst nightmare from early teenage years literally happened and I could not stop it.
I owe this universe nothing, I was thereby absolved of all metacosmic obligations upon those events occuring. Death to whatever mind is responsible for this thing we call spacetime or the quantum field, for my existence!
I haven't decided between the helium bag or just braining myself deep in the Mojave yet.