Thread 513549790

>34

I am not trying to be a dick, but how do you make it to that age with nothing? Unless you lost it all because of a divorce or cancer? I mean you graduate high school at 17, that's damn near 20 years to get your shit squared off and in order, how do you fuck up that bad? I guess it would be:

1. porn
2. playing video games
3. parents don't care
4. weed
5. 20 years goes by

>>513549790 (OP)
its better than the alternative, where you own debt and owe money to banks, roastie child support, mortages etc. all while wagecucking some job that doesnt pay shit.
the guy at 34 with "nothing" is in many ways superior to the 34yo thats stuck with all the bagage

>>513549790 (OP)
I've had coworkers in their 50s and 60s complain to me about still living paycheck to paycheck despite working full time. Some don't even have kids to blame it on.

>>513549790 (OP)
I just couldn't be made to care. Still don't.

>>513550094
Do you look down on them?

What are you? Some young faggot who thinks their lives are gonna be different and grand? Or an old faggot who was handed a life on a platter? You probably won’t even make it to my age, faggot.

What is your idea of making it? You want to have children so they can suffer like you did? Your hobbies are pretty fucking trash though

>>513550548
I'm 33.

>>513549790 (OP)
Again I was in the one percent for my age for a brief period so lower your tone since it seems like you want to try to one up anons in this game of exploiting productive labor.

>>513550244
Not really, everything's expensive as shit and wages have been stagnant for years. It is sad to see though. They're never gonna stop clocking in until they're dead or they're gonna have to accept dying homeless.

>>513549790 (OP)
im about to be 33 in october, i dropped out of high school at 17, ive never had a drivers license, i've been NEET the entire time, and i havent had sex with a woman since 2011


1. porn
2. playing video games
3. parents don't care
4. weed
5. 20 years goes by

all of these, life is just kind of pointless to me

dad thinks i am just gonna pull myself up by the boot straps any day now though

>>513549790 (OP)
>Be me
>34
>Normal functioning person with job
>Woman im not married to is 31(currently)
>Sunks my dunk almost daily. Free use of her body
>Has my children
Idk OP. Its been like this since i was 31.
But before that i just had a job and bought cool stuff instead of investing or anything. Before woman i had a 7 year dry spell of nothing but good ole rosey palms. Things just sorta happen, and now i have a baby boy and another on the way.
Im not particularly fit or very attractive. But im also not a lardass and brush my teeth. So it can be done but its rare. Especially if its not a roastie.
Just kinda live life, prob le around but not overly so. If it happens it happens.

>>513549790 (OP)
I see all the normal people playing the rat race only to eventually lose it all when life eventually fucks them up. Living like a monk I have nothing to lose, no mountain to fall from besides death which was inevitable anyway.

>>513551156
>dad thinks i am just gonna pull myself up by the boot straps any day now though
the alternative is he admits to himself he raised a failure and that's partly his responsibility

>>513551322
he himself never moved out of his parents house, where we are living now, he's 60 lol

mostly i was "raised" by my insane BPD psychopath mother and her psychopath boyfriends and stepdads though

>>513549790 (OP)
I just like working in the garden/house on my own schedule. I got a degree in physixs anyway but always felt like a fraud so quickly a decade went by...

I look down on retard niggers that reply to meme flags.

>>513549790 (OP)
>but how do you make it to that age with nothing
ACTUAL autism

Imagine a normal person
Now cut them off from all of human society.

Make it so they do not find the same things funny
Make it so they can not tell what other people are feeling
Make it so when they look into peoples eyes, they see nothing, and other people feel like they are being watched by a lizard because they DO NOT RECIPROCATE A SINGLE EMOTION
Make it so they are a horrid, creepy alien to everyone around them, and everyone around them is a horrid creepy alien to them
And yet, leave them with just enough of the animal instinct of empathy to be unable to brutalize, oppress, scam, and cheat other people for success

That is what autistic people are like.

They do not even develop proper sexuality. They, against their will (because they ARE aware of social standards), find themselves aroused by incest, animals, even objects, because human sexuality depends on an automatic imprinting process that is closely tied to our social instincts. Because autists are totally disconnected from other people they can not imprint on their own species.

The life of an autist is living hell.

>>513551446
it was over before it ever even began

>>513551156
2 more weeks
this is me, or was.
39 in dec, didn’t care about life. lived with my mother, she passed away 3 years ago , now I’m just working full time and living out of my car.
I have more than 100k in savings though. I just don’t do shit besides work, drink, smoke and shitpost

>>513551156
im not that bad, but im also turning 33 in september. always had shitty jobs to make i through. lived on my own for maybe a third of the time from 19 until now.
was a raging alcoholic until about 28.
Managed to quit weed last august, but relapsed about 4 months ago and blew through all my savings

>>513551713
And all of this means they literally can not do anything in society. They are abhorred, feared, and hated everywhere they go. Kind people approach them cautiously like an animal because a normal person is totally unable to predict or understand their behavior. They are unwanted for customer service and sales jobs (the majority of entry points in the workforce). They are also typically physically stunted due to being unwanted in sports (autism comes with coordination issues) and doing hard labor tends to result in them hurting themselves inadvertently because one muscle contracted when it should have relaxed (coordination issues, at the neurological level).

But wait, it gets worse
Autists are also much more likely to have sleep disorders and gut disorders
So they have trouble holding down any sort of job. They will either oversleep, fall asleep midday, or get stuck in the bathroom shitting out putrid teaspoon of mucus while suffering IBS cramps.

They are FULLY INCOMPATIBLE WITH MODERN LIFE

They used to be able to survive somewhat as shamans and hermits in older societies but they CAN NOT WORK WITH OTHERS WHILE KEEPING A SCHEDULE

AUTISTS LITERALLY HAVE NO PLACE IN SOCIETY WHATSOEVER

And their numbers are growing (due to a shitty and pointless hep B vaccine, and maldevelopment from putting toddlers in front of ipads)

It happens because your allowed to just rest on your laurels as time passes by. The welfare state allows you to just sit home, not have to go to work and interact with people. The internet makes you being isolated looking at a screen much more tolerable rather than seeking people to talk to.

Before you know it, you spent all your time consuming, have next to no skills, no one trusts you, people wont hire you, your testosterone and youthful drive is pretty much dead and so you shrug and assume you might as well just wait for death now, it’s all too late.

>>513549790 (OP)
Just don't do anything.
It's not that I'm against material growth or anything, it's just that I don't do it.
That's all.
Hahahahahaha

>>513552146
>it was because he didnt pull himself up by his bootstraps
No. These people have a neurological disorder.

Normal people do not have to consciously make an effort to live life. They literally stumble into marriage. The entire world is begging everyone who is born into it to make friends and get a job and be friends with coworkers. Everyone automatically pursues that course simply to be well liked because they fit into the social order.

These people are basically always autistic. They fail at step one because society itself can not motivate them. They are abhorrent freaks and creeps to it.

>>513549950
The old Huckleberry Finn story.
He had nothing but his body, the clothes he wore, and a cane to walk great distances with.
He was by far the happiest character in the story, precisely because he wasn't burdened by the voluntary duties that kept the hard working man down.

>>513551713
And I’m right now guessing that most autists are a result of old (35ish+) mothers giving birth.

>>513549790 (OP)
I figure most Millennials all have a few thousand to tens of thousands just in student loans that's not going anywhere. It's probably the same for Gen Z too.
I read Klarna sold $26 billion in loans to another company. Imagine who uses Klarna.
These people have given up anyways. Look at any of the recent Trump protests and it's all boomers, you might find one or two under thirty. If they can't bother to spend an hour to go outside, why would they vote?

>>513551713
>>513552040
fuck I just realized I’m autistic.

you can rape some girls and then just chill in prison for the rest of life

>>513549790 (OP)
>how do you fuck up that bad?

Millennials faced the 2008 crash and COVID. That's two major hits. It's not like Boomers are doing any better, more than half don't have enough saved for retirement.

>>513552357
It's not old mothers, it's environmental toxins and enforced developmental delays in the first three years of life (a genetically and physically healthy person can be severely stunted simply by not teaching them to speak early enough)

>>513549790 (OP)
>34 gonna be 35 next month
I have $215,000 in cash or assets.
No kids
No wife
No ex wife
A girlfriend
A plan
Life is good

>>513549790 (OP)
it's simply hard to get a job if you don't have experience, no one wants to hire a recent graduate
it's even worse these days because people specifically want RECENT experience, so if you have a little stumble jobhunting after getting laid off, it becomes basically impossible to get another job

>>513552569
What I used to think too. But the autist I know are all from mothers that had them at ~35+.

It’s a spectrum and basically the higher up you go the more retarded the kid. Peak babies are probably around 18 years of age, if I had to guess. And considering “autists” (using the term loosely, because these guys aren’t geniuses but just functioning retards) tend to just be stupid people, you can probably get the reverse of that having babies early. Another guess.

>>513549790 (OP)
>Oy vey goyim, don't you feel embarrassed that you're not in debt? What a shameful man you are, it's time to buy that brand new expensive car and be some coal burning roastie's beta provider asap otherwise you're not a real goyi- I mean man

Nah kill yourself kike memeflag

>>513549790 (OP)
since my parents have money, I never cared about earning it myself.
they did care, but they foolishly assumed that going to college would auto-land me a good job.
well, I never went to college for the potential future good job, I only went for plain interest in the subjects plus the (social) experience itself.
I never really thought about the need to have a job until about two years ago (I'm 32, doing my Ph.D. now).
I don't know, it's been a year and a half since I've been job hunting without any success at all. I feel the time has passed away and nobody would have any interest in hiring me now, even for a menial job like cashier at McDonald's or even for a fucking dish cleaning position. I simply do not fit. Well, I wouldn't hire me, sincerely.
At least I won't be hungry and I have a bed with a roof to sleep on...

>>513552827
>experience
It’s always been like that since 2015, here at least. They want 2-3 years of relevant experience and masters’. I’m surprised nothing has collapsed yet. I really wish it would.

>>513549790 (OP)
Thats like saying you are shocked that a rocket that burst into flames and exploded on the lauch pad hasn't made it to the moon yet.

We used to emphasize milestones in our society. Why? Because they are incredibly important to a persons development, especially for men. We have scrapped every rite of passage. We just tell boys "oh thats ok dont be sad you can always just do it later you can always just fix it later dont stress out if it doesn't happen for you". Well guess what? Its bullshit. The overwhelming majority of people never go back and complete missed milestones. Amd even if they do, there is no pride in doing it. No confide I booster to propel you forward to achieve the next milestone.

Now we have a whole generation of men we told it was ok to not accomplish milestones on time and this is the end result of that.

>>513552146
>It happens because your allowed to just rest on your laurels as time passes by. The welfare state allows you to just sit home, not have to go to work and interact with people. The internet makes you being isolated looking at a screen much more tolerable rather than seeking people to talk to.
>Before you know it, you spent all your time consuming, have next to no skills, no one trusts you, people wont hire you, your testosterone and youthful drive is pretty much dead and so you shrug and assume you might as well just wait for death now, it’s all too late.

Do you believe that there's a way out, or is it indeed too late?

I think it's because there was never someone that i would try for. Sure, some guys study for themselves, but i didn't have that kind of drive in me. A gf when i was young would have changed everything, or at least i think so.

>>513552306
And the common cause is maternal abuse.

>>513553152
There's always been the claim companies put out those high requirements so they can claim they can't find any workers, which allows them to push for cheap immigrants.
There's that jobs.now site that's been posted to expose supposedly hidden jobs. But it doesn't make sense as there's still less than a 1,000 jobs on the site while there are over 60,000 H-1B visas every year.

>>513551713
this, except that faggy last part about fucking animals. though i like hentai and anime.

i almost envy the normie.

>>513554073
Yes they don’t hire, they always put the same job listing every time and I’m talking about on their own company websites. They list them just so they can say they cant find anybody. Most jobs aren’t difficult for an above 100iq person unless it’s a specific trade that requires skill or engineering.

>>513549790 (OP)
NEET + don't care

>>513549790 (OP)
>1. porn
>2. playing video games
>3. parents don't care
>4. weed
>5. 20 years goes by
Literally all of these things got me a wife, kids, mortgage, and a sweet stay-at-home dad spot. Yall need to start min/maxing life.

>>513551713
>>513552040
>>513552306
>>513552569
Society is bullshit. You know it's bullshit. "Normal people" know it's bullshit. Autism is just knowing what everyone else does and not putting up with the psychosis.\

>And yet, leave them with just enough of the animal instinct of empathy to be unable to brutalize, oppress, scam, and cheat other people for success
>They are FULLY INCOMPATIBLE WITH MODERN LIFE
>CAN NOT WORK WITH OTHERS WHILE KEEPING A SCHEDULE
>The entire world is begging everyone who is born into it to make friends and get a job and be friends with coworkers. Everyone automatically pursues that course simply to be well liked because they fit into the social order.

Listen to him. Saying shit like this like it's a bad thing. Then he wonders why more get "autism" each year as normie by normie breaks under the weight of it all. Do you have anything else from the materialist's codex you would like to cite violations on?

>b-but muh disease
Normies are so fucking pathetic they classified "alcoholism" as a disease just as a coping mechanism to stay in the workforce. That's what true sickness is.

>>513549790 (OP)
I can't stand negative people like this,they need to get over themselves, pussies.

>>513549790 (OP)
fuck you nigger faggot

>>513552040
I have schizoaffective disorder which is basically bipolar disorder and schizophrenia combined. My "spirits" make me involuntarily vomit all the time. I am constantly feeling dread and that I am alone even though I talk to voices all day. The voices really fucked up my life. I thought it was the government or satanists for a long time and wanted to kill them. Turns out, nope, they're just spirits. I am fairly certain of this. They don't sleep at all and they are aware of every single thought that I have. They used to surprise me by reading my mind when I tried to hide stuff from them. Now I know they basically know everything. During my psychotic break I got into an argument with "God" about how I was not "cheating" and was indeed not breaking any rules. I completely lost it. I would jump into ice baths to bring back coordination to my body as my spirit left and I was disassociating. I lost EVERYTHING. I lost my job, savings, 401k, reputation, friends, significant other, and my mind. I drove down to Mexico thinking if it was the government they wouldn't cross the border. Only thing that came in handy was that I didn't speak Spanish so the voices couldn't distort the conversations of people in the room next door. I tried to kill myself and cut myself up pretty good. For over a year I couldn't watch TV and was stuck in a vegetable state stuck in conversation with the voices. I feel like I have envisioned every possible explanation of reality. Best to believe it is real even if it isn't.

>>513555216
>I have schizoaffective disorder which is basically bipolar disorder and schizophrenia combined. My "spirits" make me involuntarily vomit all the time.
Top kek, your spirits suck. Mine give me clairvoyance and charisma.

>>513549950
I don't understand why paying rent to a homeowner is better than paying it to a bank (for 20 years and then you don't pay anymore)
Can someone explain

>>513552040
This is retarded. Sorry about the jew therapist your parents wasted all their money on to make you worse.
I’m with autism and all I have to do is be open about it and apologize to people for being socially inept and goofy while finding ways to be useful. They can immediately sense you’re off. Just own it and then be useful. May take a few tries but you find a spot eventually. Look for places where things actually need to get done rather than places that are conniving bureaucratic assholes.

>>513555333
Have you ever had a DMT trip or have done a heroic dose of mushrooms? Psychosis feels like doing a heroic dose of mushrooms except it doesn't go away the trip is 24/7 for days, months, or even years. I don't expect you to understand something like that.

>>513555556
No, crack is whack. I just have good spirits.

>>513549790 (OP)
are you retarded or trolling? Not everybody is born with a silver spoon, dickhead.

Some of us bought into the system of "working hard and diligently will open up opportunities". In reality, you need to be cut throat but I didnt learn that till later. Beyond that, companies do their damndest to screw you over and if you were like me and both worked hard while trying to achieve an alternative means of income but neither worked out by the time the covid reset happened, you just got fucked.

It's always a sobering reminder to me to look back, realize I played by the rules and did what I was told, and still got massively fucked by a system meant to keep you poor. Now its just way worse due to all the Indian hires that are destroying wages and the economy.

>>513549790 (OP)
MY DICK IS IN LOVE WITH PAIN AYYY LMAO HOW ABOUT THAT

>>513555635
My spirits are coming around. I had three spirits. I named them Vincent, Caroline, and Fred. They each have their own personalities. Vincent was black and we hated each other. For whatever reason he left. Now I just have two spirits. LOL I am not shitting you. If this kind of stuff wasn't real the "elites" wouldn't be sacrificing children.

>>513555966
I'm not joking either, tho. Having some spirits hanging around is way more common than you think, most people do.

in my early 20s i developed a ton of food allergies and lost 1/3rd of my bodyweight while working full time. i nearly died. then i just got laid off and was too weak to do anything anymore. the food allergies seemed to mostly go away except celiac disease because thats incurable, eating wheat can give me lupus, cancer etc if i kept doing it even if i can ignore the symptoms
it took a decade to get back to where i was before but whenever i work again i just end up starving and in pain all the time

i cant even get food stamps here because i dont meet the minimum income of $400 per month even though my states website plainly told me they would give me money solely for being "undocumented", so ive kind of just been starving all this time eating the bare minimum

>>513554935
Autistic people used to be knowledgeable outcasts at best.

Today it's clear how fucking useless you are. Especially now that paganism isn't around and fully accepting of your sexual deviance and tendency to be too attached to animals.

>>513555556
>Psychosis
What is this exactly?

>>513556193
I believe it is more common than I think. The way they interact a lot of their thoughts you may think are your own. They send me terrible intrusive thoughts to test me. I picked them up when I was living in Section 8 apartment in the USA, there were other people in the apartment with mental health issues as well and I think I could have picked up the spirits from somebody else in those apartments.

I have taught my spirits about the power of self love. Caroline, on of my spirits, actually broke down crying when I told her to say "I Love Myself". They are all doing a lot better these days and seem to be less hateful even though they love throwing fits just to throw them like a toddler

>>513555966
>>513556193
Most spirits and demons are vermin, they are quick to judge and not understanding at all. Not all are like that, but alot of them are so stupid that they don't know bio mechanisms, hormones, genetics, etc..out of their reach and they find themselves fit to judge?

The worst of our kind burn people alive, the standard of their kind burn people alive, they are the only real murderers as they 2nd death people. If people knew them, most of them, they wouldn't like them.

>>513555556
i took 100 hits of acid over the course of a year throughout the middle of covid
mostly at my job of delivering pizza

>>513553305
>is there a way out

Yes. I don’t know how to put it into simple terms though. And I don’t want to write too much.

Chart your path to start, then energize yourself mentally (motivating video, whatever it is, to stimulate yourself). You know how sometimes you watch something and you’re all of a sudden feeling full of energy and do some pushups and start trying to make life changes? (But you say ‘the next day I’m tired again’. This can usually be remedied by not missing a meal, eat. It’s very important so you don’t feel like shit the next day.) Also, you may even use porn to energize yourself, though I wouldn’t necessarily recommend it.

Then do the necessary work. Whatever it is that’s required for you to get out of your predicament. Sometimes it’s habit building, sometimes it’s as easy as just coming out and asking your few family or friends for help getting work, and probably, you should accept whatever you can get, because time is not on your side. You need money now, you need a girl now, you need kids now etc.

>>513549790 (OP)
Cancer at least has the decency to kill you, plenty of wasting diseases that don't even do that.

You just keep fighting with the occasional shallow victory.

>>513556715
Psychosis is hard to explain unless you have been through it. It is similar to a mushroom trip except it lasts for a much longer duration. Signs of psychosis include derealization, paranoia, hearing voices, visual hallucinations, etc. For example when I was first going through this I imagined a lady slitting her throat in the bathtub of the apartments I was in and I believed this to be a true occurrence. It is like your whole conception of reality is shattered. It's basically like tripping balls as you disassociate and succumb to feelings of deep dread.

>>513557200
Did you get vivid dreams with it?

>>513554835
Immigrant muslims tend to live like this. A friend from high school too, not sure he ever had a job. But he’s been with the same girl since highschool. Just living off welfare, got kids now. See him and his missus all the time walking around, they got a lot of free time.

Problem is when you’re over 30 and haven’t made a connection yet. But yea, if I could get away with it. It’d be good times.

When did you get your girl?

>>513556932
Just as we are souls with bodies I think souls can exist without bodies. They certainly act like vermin but they are units of consciousness. They can create thought. I told them that emotions are simply the bilateral judgement of whether a particular thought is good or bad.

>>513551713
>>513556603
Autists are over represented in deviance but you generalize a lot and seem to have a fixation on their purported preference for animals. Never heard that before. Wanna elaborate on your sexual theories?

be victim of multiple crimes against you

>>513549790 (OP)
Tell me why I should work for a society that wants to replace me with muslims and niggers and that antagonizes and humiliates me every step of my fucking life.

Tell me. I'm all ears.

>>513557271
EXTREMELY VIVID DREAMS

More than I can recount. I used to want to keep track of my dreams in a journal but becoming preoccupied with them brought me too far away from reality. So even though I don't have a concerted effort to document my dreams I still do have them.

at least 90% of people in history just "existed".

fat

>>513557737
Ever see any of hell? Demons or devils (red skins)

>>513549790 (OP)
I refuse to be wagecuck so I checked out back in 2010. Never gonna work for money that bank prints out of thin air and expects from me to pay back with interest.

I don't know what you're all on about. I jobhopped every 2-6 years, invested in a condo that doubled, married a big tiddied redhead that hates niggers and mocks the jews with me, knocked her up twice and got a 4 bedroom house on an acre in the woods together. Job pays 140k personal business makes 20k. Life is great. Only downside is I have daughters instead of sons. Friend sent me a hits pipe meme. Can't dodge every curveball.

>>513549790 (OP)
lemme guess, you're validating your own puritan straight edge holier than thou faggot kind of life, basically a right leaning plebbitor. i watch porn, play vidya, do weed, like most people, being a loser comes from a loser state of mind, bad habits won't ruin your life unless you're a retard, likewise, engaging in good habits won't fix your life if you're a faggot wanker like you, making opinionated threads out of strawman assumptions

>>513556603
>Autistic people used to be knowledgeable outcasts at best.
Autism didn't exist until book learned morons came up with the classification.

>Today it's clear how fucking useless you are
because we're not scum normie charisma man car salespeople I know I know. Or book learned morons. It's just that I'm not going to scam people that's all.

>Especially now that paganism isn't around and fully accepting of your sexual deviance and tendency to be too attached to animals.
You're not gonna cope your way out of this using belief systems. Just stop being scum human beings, it's really that simple. Oh what you don't want to do that do you? You want to keep up with the Joneses because they have a better car/job than you and deep down you hate him and your continued "uphill battle" is rooted in jealousy. Even if it means lying or being a nepobaby right?
Why is it that the types of people who have a "beef" with the autistic are either ecelebs con artists or stupid bints living off of their autistic daddy's money? You can't be that jealous of our underdog status right? Also what's with mentioning the animals constantly? Don't tell me you're a closet furfag too.

>>513555483
you make a good point.

>>513549790 (OP)
Psycho parents that make you miserable and want to run away. Chronic diseases that make you want to kill yourself. Ask me how I know.

>>513549790 (OP)
>
I am 40 and I have no woman, I have no children, I have no house, I have no friends, I have no money and live paycheck to paycheck. When will my real life begin bros? I'm tired of the grind, I'm tired of this life, just very very tired that's all.

>>513555483
Read a fable called "the fox and the grapes". It explains the MGTOW "movement" as well

>>513557849
Yes. I have had multiple months and years of social isolation and spiritual tripping. When I went to hell I was sitting by the fence talking to a man and he taught me an answer to a question. What makes magic? "Plausible Deniability" he said. Anyway shortly after that I was riding in the back of a 1930s Ford and witnessing chaos. After that I asked what a mad man who could have imagined such a thing? They responded with "You Did". It proceeded to move onto hell which was basically a slaughter house for humans and there was a twisted entity there who enjoyed the process of tormenting humans and slaughtering them. I witnessed the whole thing like a vision. I had many many visions.

>>513549790 (OP)
The bottom has fallen out of the economy. That is going to be how most (50%>) people in their 30s live now. There is no opportunities to go around.

>>513550094
That the majority of Americans live paycheck to paycheck is absolutely insane to me.

>>513549790 (OP)
why would i want shit that i can't take to the grave with me anyway?

>>513558442
Did you ever physically get moved around? I notice mine enter through clicks in the window.

Who gives a fucknabout owning a property tax payment. Go fuck yourself boomtardo. Pay your property taxes jackass.

>>513556869
You got to get your spirits under control. Spirits only go as far as you let them, it's the whole invitation archetypal meme thing. Whip your spirits into shape and make it clear to them what you expect of them, I don't accept any sass from my spirits whatsoever. If one of them made me vomit he'd be in big trouble.

>>513556932
Yeah, a lot of them are pretty shitty. But it's important to always remember that humans have more spiritual power than spirits. You don't have to take shit from shitty spirits.

>>513557762
Exactly.

The jews are projecting onto normies that you need to retire as a millionaire so the economy constantly goes up. They think you either must continue making money and continue spending money until the day you die.

>>513549790 (OP)
I've gave up in 2019 is how.
I fucking hate it here and I'm only still here until my parents pass

>>513558442
When you had this argument with God, was it a whisper?

>>513549790 (OP)
Everyone has different circumstances. That’s it
I will say though, that a lot of 30+ year olds on /pol/ act very different to their age. It’s kind of disturbing

>>513558775
Same.

>>513549790 (OP)
1. Be born
2. Dad nearly drowns me in bath-tub trying to prove that "all babies can swim"
3. Be toddler, Break into medicine cabinet and eat berry flavour iron pills, stomach pumped through butthole, experience is traumatic
4. Get molested by older girl cousin, who also does stuff to me bum
5. Be seven, dad starts hitting me when I struggle with stuff
6. Nobody at school likes me
9. Dad is gone now, no beatings, but also no discipline
10. Get put in "therapy" - prescribed antidepressants, have to miss school to attend "therapy".
11. Completely zonked out on antidepressants, I am unable to defend of justify myself to my peers
12. I begin to understand that I am an "outcast" and that I will never have a positive relation to humanity at large, that I am unwanted, and despite my best intentions, always unwelcome.
13. Go to college, but it's full of faggots and marxists
14. Withdraw from society
15. Withdraw from society some more
16. More
17. Get kicked out of mother's house for defending myself against my brother, verbally and physically, kick my mother up the backside as a parting shot
18. Live in a hostel
19. Live in a flat
20. hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate
21. reconnect with father
22. Find out he is a pederast, maybe always was, and that he probably molested the cousin that molested me
23. I am now here, as it stands, aged around 33, I could probably kill a man and feel nothing.
I hate humanity.
I only feel pain and shame.
I want you all to burn like this.
I will burn you all.

>>513549790 (OP)
Pretty easy for millenials because the economy continually shits itself and it bottoms out or regulations change faster than one can retrain from zero and get a new spot.

In my case I graduated into 2008, figured I'd get a gov job, trained for that. But by the time i graduated it was peak "whyte bois out reeeee", maybe academia? Lolno, so decided to switch it up, pandemic, learned to code, AI pocalypse deletes juniors, i was in austin at a young pros meetup to network and everyone in the room had just lost a job.

I managed to get a house with my shit grad school pay before i dropped (couldn't take peak woke circa 2016 and knew i was never getting farther in academia)

As a man with shitlib adjacent hopes and dreams, it has just been a shitfest.

Getting married. Might give up and move to japan. I tried to work. I learned a lot. I'm not wanted.

>>513558852
How are we supposed to act? I'm not waging for the jews and being a simp for females.

>>513558720
I used to hear knocks on the wall all the time. I also had a neighbor that would randomly turn on his bathtub at like 2am. I would hear the squeaking of him turning the handles and the water running. Used to trip me out. I also used to think all of the neighbors were talking through the walls commenting on what I was doing, I was indeed being fucked with but not by my neighbors.

They physically mess with my digestive system and make me involuntarily vomit. I have had instances of them moving around me and then hearing/feeling a static pop of energy that I could sense.

>>513558768
>Yeah, a lot of them are pretty shitty. But it's important to always remember that humans have more spiritual power than spirits. You don't have to take shit from shitty spirits.

I named one of mine cocksock, they are completely nondeterministic, even the higher ups, to know all, is to forgive all is utterly alien to them, this means they won't ever surpass humans.

Spiritual power is normally weakened though vice though, although i question if that's due to brainwashing, if an adult has never read the bible or whatever, and just boozes swears and lies, does it still have an effect? If so, they are indoctrinating with their nonsense, and it's a war against some of them.

There are good ones though, legitimately good ones. But this cocksock is a liar, tried to say i'm a reincarnated nazi, or imply it.

>>513558850
Oh man I was writing down what I believed to be the metaphysics of emotions on a piece of paper. Then I ended up at a golf course sitting by a hole and getting yelled at by a golfer. It wasn't just a whisper. It was an ongoing set of circumstances and conversation

>>513559430
Eeeesh, hope you're better now though, bollocks to these things. (some of them anyway)

>>513549790 (OP)
Uh-oh… sounds like we’ve got zoomer mischief… sounds like some little guys need the talk

Boomers lost their virginity at 13. They had sweet muscle cars gifted to them at age 15. Great concerts with the best bands cheap. Top quality drugs everywhere. Losers were getting their kill count up to 100 by age 24. Free college into a $10,000 house and a high-paying job they found in the yellow pages.

Millennials like myself got to enjoy 20-something’s and raves and parties by age 14. Saw Moby, Bowie, busta rhymes, bob Dylan, Willie Nelson, chemical bros. Got to enjoy a million crazy fucking nights without anyone complaining. Dad gifted me a forest green Beamer at age 15. The pussy was free. Abundant for all.

Zoomers in their youth have… asmongold videos. And jeet memes. And maybe they can hook up with a 200 lb. uggo if they play their cards right.

>>513559018
CRY FAGGOT

Just Kidding. Your happiness is determined by your thoughts. Change your thoughts nigga

>>513559394
Yeah, by human standards they're sort of retarded. But yeah, there's good ones. You can't trust any of them, but as long as you keep them in line they can be very useful.

>Spiritual power is normally weakened though vice though, although i question if that's due to brainwashing, if an adult has never read the bible or whatever, and just boozes swears and lies, does it still have an effect?
The only single way to have spirits take charge is if you believe they can. You can be the biggest gambling, whoremongering liar out there but as long as you don't think spirits can take control of you, they can't.

Otherwise all black wizards would be gibbering wrecks, kek.

>>513557635
You are going to find out women(low IQ) will constantly berate and socially shame you for not contributing to society and pampering them. It's different when you are older. Girls really have no agency to judge you but women are the devil.

>>513559209
Your age
However, I may not be referring to you specifically since I haven’t seen you line over girls like a horny teenager, or talk about the past like a retard

>>513549950
>At least I dont have any bills tho

>>513559551
I am much better now. I feel like I was able to uncover my past self and my inner child. I have also developed a relationship with my spirits and I am working towards some financial goals. Not to say it isn't hard. It is very hard. But I am doing okay all things considered.

>>513559768
My age? Age is just a number. Just because im older people expect me to do things and treat me differently. It's called white man's burden and women just expect you to take care of things. They also expect you to fuck them casually.

>>513549790 (OP)
jobs pay too little

>>513549790 (OP)
at 34 i had nothing. at 35 i was a millionaire. at 40 i'd lost it all due to covid.

>>513560045
Keep Going

>>513549790 (OP)
bad luck? laziness? some people don't have the privilege of good parents that raised them well or perhaps died early in their lives, maybe leaving nothing to their kids. something like 40-45% of people get family assistance when buying their first house. the rest of the people either go into debt or are increasingly skipping buying a house altogether. many others straight up get land, money, or housing left to them when their parents are gone, while many others do not.

it's impossible to catch up because wages are stagnant and everything is just getting more expensive. seeing jobs out there that are paying $20/hr - who tf can live on this? would be better to just doordash or play your hand in the stock/crypto markets.

>>513549790 (OP)
>tfw boomercunts and other goyniggers stand there with their pockets overflowing with their "hard-earned" 30 pieces of silver and do that thing where they pretend that they don't know what happened to society despite having spent their lives gleefully working for Mr. Silverstein to build and refine all the systems of control, degeneracy, and subversion while also working with Mr. Goldberg to tear down all the traditions, virtues, and ladders to climb
Just telling it like it is.

>>513560227
you cannot build society on luck
jobs need to pay enough

>>513559932
You see, that is a problematic way of thinking. But you do you, you are not the most immature 30+ year old I have come across here

I looked like a teenager up until my late 30s and suddenly when i developed some wrinkles people just started treating me like i know everything and have everything figured out and in line. Because i spent my whole life looksmaxxing so i look good but i don't have any wealth or experience built up.

It's the constant social shaming that gets to me. Every interaction people expect me to be a well normie with a house, wife, kids in school and a lot money.

Skill issue
I am a 31 year old autistic furfag and I have just about everything I want,
>Successful marriage, children, a job that pays enough to larp the trad life on my one income while having weekends off automatically
While home ownership is probably forever out of my reach and I have to stay in a shitty cuck state to make it happen

>>513555483
In 20 years you own the home and can sell it. In 20 years of renting you own nothing. A mortgage is a fixed expense that gets lower in real value due to inflation, rent is generally jacked up to keep up with inflation.

>>513553692
THIS
>Grew up with barely there father, BPD mom, and 7 sisters

>>513560591
It's not anyway i'm thinking it's how it is. I wasn't spending my entire young adult life building up wealth and a career. I was gaming, exercising and simply just enjoying life. And people expect me to just have everything and give them everything. It's white men's burden....

When a problem arises women just come up to me and expect me to take care of it. I'm serious. I had to learn a lot fast and i had to learn to deal with being mean or offputting to people which was never my personality to begin with.

>>513554835
>"I got mine" poster
Happens in every one of the threads
No one cares
Fuck off boomer

>meme flaggot
>criticizing everyone else's life choices
perhaps you should consider end-of-life options, OP

>>513560616
I'm in the same situation as you, I look awesome for a 40 year old, so all the zoomettes are super horny, but I'm also a NEET fuckup. I just tell them I lost all my millions in a hostile takeover and I'm rebuilding myself. Not going to pass on all the daddy issue pussy just because of honesty.

>>513555483
>I don't understand why paying rent to a homeowner is better than paying it to a bank (for 20 years and then you don't pay anymore)
My normie uncle does this, and mainly because he doesn't have to care about anything
>Something breaks? Call the landlord.
>Need something updated? Call the landlord.
>Oh no, is the neighborhood going to shit? Well, end my lease, go to a new area.
He's loaded so he doesn't care so much about the value of the house, he acts like they're just fancier hotel rooms.

>>513561238
Yeah the feeling is not mutual as i forget what it's like to be a horny teenager. But you realize these girls are air headed horny bitches. It would be cruel to take advantage of them especially when i don't feel the same way they do.

>>513561938
That's fine, more for me.

>this thread
White people truly are fucking losers

>>513549790 (OP)
>>513549790 (OP)
> how do you make it to that age with nothing
There was nothing I wanted.

>>513561379
Boomers can afford to do this because they're retired, but owning a home so I won't have to worry about rent when I'll be old seems like a good idea to me

>>513549790 (OP)
Procrastination is a motherfucker, and when allowed to roam freely it evolves into a pathological monster, fed with distractions, bad habits and negative thoughts.
Hid my warning youngfags... If you think it's bad now you have no idea the sheer INFERNO that awaits you if you don't get your shit together. And that don't necessarily mean slave away at some tech plantation or turn into corporate drone, I'm talking building something real, whether physical or not, that is yours and your proud of and give it your absolute best. Memorize this sentence: Build yourself today so you don't ruin your future self.
Youth is the best time to be obsessive about your dream. If you don't have one go for the next best thing, and ffs invest (not gamble) as much as you can afford, time is on your side and compound interest is your friend.
Don't waste your precious time on people who don't appreciate you or take you for granted, life's too short for this bullshit.
TIME is the most valuable asset you have, treat it as such, this fucking website and social media in general is a time sink and you should treat it as literal drugs.
Peace out, homos.

>>513549790 (OP)
for me it was divorce
I wish it was porn and weed

>>513559831
Roasting child support is not just some fucking bill

>>513559831
I can understand why men go postal after having to pay child support to some roastie that destroyed the family

>>513551713
.. so you're saying they are systemically making 95% of men in America autistic? I go outside that's what I see

>>513550548
Fat women a fucking disgusting you're not a badass for swallowing your shame and going through with it

>>513550094
The problem keeps getting worse as rent rises. It's pretty complex too because of varying cost of living across the US.

>>513549790 (OP)

It’s actually easy, I can give you tips if you want. Basically you just play video games and watch porn.

>>513549950
this is pure cope

>>513562234
Exactly.

But it's not so cut and dry. Boomers sabotaged us intentionally and kept us from self actualization. Their own children. This happened even going so far back in elementary school which is why many of us opted out altogether.

I should've just done it anyway. Been ruthless to my own parents. They never had my best interests at heart anyway. But back then i was raised to be a good Christian and not treat my parents like economic units but family. It doesn't matter though but they were treating me like an economic unit the entire time while i was stressing out about life.

i graduated at 31 with a philosophy degree from a good university XD

>>513549790 (OP)
Did all that and still have a 6 figure job.

>>513555483
in 20 years you can sell the house for the entire sum of its value(minus taxes, lawyer fees, realtor fees, etc)

On the other hand, you will be on the hook for any work that needs done, insurance, property taxes, hoa/condo fees are entirely on you too.

>>513551322
Dad's the same and I told him it's his fault. He recently gave me his credit card recently and told me he'll trust me to use it only for food and I spend like 100 a week on weed

>>513549790 (OP)
Your industry collapses after being in it for 15 years.

>>513551835
>I just don’t do shit besides work, drink, smoke and shitpost
Based. If you plan to an hero you should try and get all of the money out in cash and live stream you buring it before an heroing just to spite the world

>>513549790 (OP)
>I am not trying to be a dick
Yous a damn lie.

>>513551713
>>513552040
That's a lot of words to say superior white men refuse to sleep with whores.

>>513558200
No he doesn’t retard. Mortgage payments give you equity in the house. It doesn’t just disappear like rents

>>513549790 (OP)
You forgot being ugly and having no reason to care on your list. In fact it's the only category you need because it's the reason the rest if the list exist.

>>513562704
Its really not but i assume you're a paid poster going for the put pussy on a pedestal feminist angle

>>513556603
Whore thinks "loving animals" means of a sexual nature and not appreciating the innocence and beauty of God's creatures. It's not autism to respect God's creations and the beauty and joy they bring to people's lives.

>>513555483
Because having loans neccessitate that you work to pay them off whereas the govt can pay your rent

>>513551620
Are you gay

>>513551713
All of this only applies to white people

>>513549790 (OP)
>I am not trying to be a dick, but how do you make it to that age with nothing? Unless you lost it all because of a divorce or cancer? I mean you graduate high school at 17, that's damn near 20 years to get your shit squared off and in order, how do you fuck up that bad?
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Battle_of_Blair_Mountain

You know nothing. When they tell you to dance, you dance. You didn't want to fuck up, you chose to live fucked up instead and act like you are somehow better for doing so. lol, lmao even. When they tell you to get mystery injections and wear a dress what will you do then?

>>513557979
Bro they hate non npcs because we don't by snake oil and only trust things we've seen processed with our eyes.

>>513552569
Oversovialization is worse than autism

>>513551713
>>513552040
Fuck, I might actually be autistic.
>27 years old, never worked and have never wanted to
>never had any extended contact with a female
>never did any sports or extra curriculars at school
>can't figure out people at all, seems like everyone else is in a club that I wasn't invited to, friend groups just form all around me and I have no idea how
>went to uni but hated it and never made any friends or connections
>strangers show me superficial respect (6'2, legitimate Chadlite after looksmaxxing, in great shape, people treat me way better than when I was young and underdeveloped) but no one ever wants to associate with me and no one ever jokes with me or teases me like they do with others
>girls are interested in me at first glance due to my appearance, but are turned off within 30 seconds of talking to me because I'm weird and have no social media or conventional interests
>have no sleep schedule
>sexuality is fucked up, no desire to be in a relationship and I'm only turned on by certain female body parts
>had social anxiety for first ~25 years of my life
Autism would explain a lot. I just can't understand what makes people "tick". I've achieved great grades but when it comes to navigating social things like networking and interviews, I fucking bomb hard. This is why we need to bring eugenicism back, no one should live like this

>>513564102
>no one ever wants to associate with me and no one ever jokes with me or teases me like they do with others
same

>>513552040
Ur a gay normie boomer faggot. Copying others is what leads us to be ruled over by satanic pedophiles, who were only revealed to the world by the autists who pointed them out.

FUCK THE GAY WORLD ORDER YOU FUCKING GOON

>>513549790 (OP)
It's called having strong moral character. In a world that rewards evil, it takes a strong person to not pursue evil for worldly gain. Also, crippling alcoholism and social anxiety. Also, I fell for the learn2code meme, the crypto meme, and the "you can be anything you want if you work hard enough" meme

>>513549790 (OP)
I pay my bills, buy some groceries, then drink the rest of my paycheck every two weeks without fail. I won’t have to worry about savings for retirement because I’ll be dead before then. Wouldn’t have it any other way.

>>513556937
OPEN THE CUM GATES

>>513562749
The societal destruction caused by boomers is absolutely unreal. It's not even them being deliberately destructive, a huge chunk of the damage is the downstream consequences of their retardation. Trades as a whole are completely ruined, plumbing, roofing, you name it, by pajeets working for free because they do a dogshit job or are scamming, and the only reason those pajeets aren't driven out of business is because boomers are too stupid to clue in that there might be a reason Shitwinder roofing is willing to do his roof for half of what everybody else will until it rains and his roof leaks like colinder

>>513564102
You’re just a jeet, kys.

>>513552306
Do enjoy being the groups pressure relief valve? You stick around a make sure slobber everyone's balls and they'll think you're cool

>>513553692
NO the common cause is having some dignity and not being pressured into losing your sense of self entirely

>>513564588
dont buy any home made after 2019, even 2010+ is sketchy

>>513562138
Muslims don't even have personalities. You're literally whatever your older brother and dad told you to be. You're their bitch and your kids will be his kids bitches as well

>>513550714
What do you have?

>>513549790 (OP)
Most people are fucking retards and that's how their governments like it. They spend all of their money on bullshit and overextend themselves because they want to look wealthier than they actually are, they live a life of constant struggle and debt.
I learned relatively early in life to hate debt and banks, my credit rating is shit because I don't use my bank account but I own my house outright and have pensions and around £110k in stocks and crypto.

>>513560591
If you were an outcast but didn't like nerdy stuff you were screwed. You must be much older than 30 or much younger. People around 30 were turbo screwed by the culture war

>>513564386
>the crypto meme
You would have been rich if you applied regular investment advice to crypto. Buy bitcoin and hold would have worked for you.

>>513564102
If you understand what makes people tick you'd not feel so bad about yourself

>>513566416
I made a little bit off of investing. By crypto meme, I mean I tried a few times to make my own memecoins and I didn't make any money from doing that. People that make money off of making memecoins are all scammers with tons of money at their disposal to keep making their new projects look like legit investments, and then they make even more money by scamming even more
It was a stupid idea for me to try to even get into all that, because I don't even want to be a scammer, I just thought it would be a good way to make money, but it's all astroturfed and gatekept

>>513549790 (OP)
Move to Thailand like every other white incel neet.
You can stay and be subhuman or use JBW and be a king

>>513566822
You already need to be an e-celeb to make that work. And even in that case you need to time the rug pull.

>>513549790 (OP)
Multiply your age by 1000, that should be in your bank account

>>513567145
Yeah, I think you're right
Maybe back in like 2017, I could've made some money during the bullrun by making memecoins like everyone else, but nowadays it's not really viable

>>513551156
Your dad just let you NEET and crash rent-free for 16 years at his place? Sounds like he should have done a LOT better than that

>>513549790 (OP)
What is this some kind of retarded bait to entice sad broken anons to share their story so you can swoop in with some smug little remark like
>Ackshully it's all yOuR fault this happened to you anon, you see, you were born now that's the problem here heh

Fuck off OP, nobody cares

>>513562749
>>513564588
Sure, boomers are the worst but if i'm really being honest with myself i would have turned out the same had i been born in their generation. Your lot in life is a roulette and there's not much use in resenting it. Shit... could've been way worse, be thankful your not indian (if you are my sincere condolences). History is a chaotic oscillation, and you happen to exist on a not so great but somehow manageable trough of it. Just go and actively do something to improve your life (whether it's undoing the damage boomers has inflicted on us or simply presuing personal goals) and be ready to live with the possibility that you won't get to have a biblical vengeance on every last boomer and that cosmic justice will be won't be delivered by your hands (maybe by Jamal and a piss soaked pillow). But don't let them live rent free inside your head, and don't live your life out of spite. I hate to sound like a drunk motivational fag, but there's been way too much "boo hoo muh boomers" going on on this board

>>513567833
It’s another “gang stalking is totally not real” Thread and let us gaslight targeted individuals and general victims of circumstance of society thread

>>513555216
This is beautiful.

>>513549790 (OP)
1. play video games and watch porn all day. broke at 34
2. work hard, get married, raise kids, get raped in divorce court and laid off. broke at 34

choose your path, Western man

Lmfao JIDF glownigger faggots are desperate

Im remove whats left of your tiny mutilated kike cock and use it to fuck your mother right before i carve you both up with a pair of the smallest grooming scissors i can find

>>513549790 (OP)
I agree, most 17 year olds have everything figured out already. I was running my own fortune 500 company by the time I was six.

>>513568321
Met a guy who went to prison for like 20 years and came out in his early 40s got a job and became a namager of some t mobile store. Whatever, the thing that stuck with me about his story is his claims of getting all types hot women now because he still has energy and an unbroken body from not working for 20 years so now he runs circles around men his age.

>>513558501
A lot of it's because Americans spend as much as we make. I know people who spent every dime they had when they were making 1,600 a month years ago. And now they are are spending 22k a month because that's damn near all the money they make in a month. Imagine if they just lived their 1,600 a month lifestyle and saved that money for a few years and began investing it.

>>513554935
I think the problem is Ted k adjacent; work should be fulfilling, but isn't. Modern work isn't labor in the sense of sustaining yourself from natural, God-given surroundings but is now gold stars from psychopathic ultra-rich who are bored and larp as satanists. It's all so incredibly gay.

>>513569171
$1,600 a month doesn't get you a studio apartment in my area. Wages are around $12-18/hr unless you're a medical doctor or something of equal status. We spend as much as we make by force, not choice. Yeah some people are shit with money, but most are going broke just trying to keep a roof over their heads.

>>513569171
nah, you get into debt ONCE and then all your money goes to interest payments you can never get out of

>>513549790 (OP)
Ive seen it happen to enough people that I feel qualified to speak about this. A mix of despair, addiction, and lack of opportunities. It really doesn't take anything special to royally fuck a man's shit up for a lifetime. If you're in a town with few opportunities, the best you could do was to snag a part time 10 dollar an hour job and hope you didn't get sick. The alternative was to leave your home and go live in a motel while your wife fucks niggers and blows your money at home. Hard to say who's the biggest loser in that situation.

>>513559703
Nigga, I don't even know any women.

>>513569964
I'm feeling pretty gnostic lately too. The best way to navigate this world is to hold stoic frame no matter what? Are we cyborgs now? must we all be high-impact CEOs who destroy everything around them because they can? Can't we just have a garden and kids and chill?

>>513549790 (OP)
how we behave reveals what we believe
i don't believe i'm just an evolved animal fighting for resources so i don't behave like one

>>513555216
I am facing the exact same situation.

>>513549790 (OP)
I took the redpill and seen behind the curtain. There is no going back, I can not pretend that everything is alright. I'm trying to explain this to boomer parents that their success 30 years ago is not something that just happens today, it is a different world, and not everyone makes it. I'm relatively healthy, have a job, have a car but without own home and family. Is it THAT much of an issue to fuck me with it every day? Is an alcoholic deadbeat with 4 kids in a shitty house with a fat wife better than me just because he coomed into a fat sow?

Fucking crazy, just like a bitch can get knocked up and suddenly she is Maria the mother of Jesus, the almighty flawless saint. All her sins are forgiven and she is never wrong. A man creates a kid (who might not be a doctor afterall), and he feels complete at life, like he can talk down on you for not falling in line.
I'll not even start on doctors and judges who might have technical smarts but can be a heap of shit as a person, high and mighty.

This is the tragedy of modern men and society, being told to follow your dreams and never give up, only for you to realize when you get there that it is all bullshit. Fall in line, goy, and serve your purpose, given by the state and society. No you can not just exist you must reproduce and have debts.
Have free will, but there is no freedom in this world.

>>513569171
>I know people who spent every dime they had when they were making 1,600 a month years ago. And now they are are spending 22k a month because that's damn near all the money they make in a month.
Golden cage, some people never figure it out, and lifestyle always increases in cost as income increases. Some will claim you can’t continually increase your income if you don’t keep up in the socioeconomic game as well, and use that for cope; “I had to buy a summer house and lake house and 2 country club memberships in order to meet the clients that would allow me to double my income which got me rubbing shoulders with the European villa and yacht type people so I had to go into more debt to hit that bar, and on and on and on.”

>>513549790 (OP)
Ad kids, a bachelors, and a house to that list and
R U me?

>>513570885
Parents don't cherish their offspring until said kids fulfill their parents could/would not. Unfortunately biological impulses blunt eugenics.

>>513553054
Old women are horrible impatient child raisers.
That's where its from.

>>513549790 (OP)

I'm older, worth about $1m (which is basically nothing I know) could retire, have no wife and kids, I consider suicide at least once per week. Not in any kind of serious way and I always snap out of it but if I didn't have family or friends I probably would at the first sign of a serious ailment.

>>513572262
This seems normal

>>513552544

Boomers were fucked from 2008. The only thing that saved them was COVID housing boom. There's a good video about this, how their retirement savings were all wrapped up in managed investments taking 2%-3% per year (without them knowing, cause they never actually looked into it) and when the market crashed in 2000 and 2008, they found everything they invested was basically break even because of the managed fees. They all had mutual funds instead of ETFs. So that house they bought for 100k and sold for 1m - that was their retirement. And millenials and blackrock paid for it.

>>513572262
Which method would you do anon? I live in a tall as fuck commieblock, so suiciding would be piss easy. But I continue living out of spite...

lost my entire youth from 18-26 to hard drugs like heroin brought into the country by illegal mexicans. got out 13 years ago and have been on a nice trajectory ever since.

>>513572336

Thanks anon, at least I know I'm not alone. For the younger anons out there - your body might not change much when you hit 40 but a switch definitely flips. Basically best case scenario, I get to live what I lived over again and it's over - but this round time is accelerated and there's nothing to look forward to. Both my parents are still alive (true boomers) and they travel the world and live their best life still, I honestly don't know how they do it. I'm actually worth more than them - I told them to spend every last dime on themselves cause despite my disposition, they're great people and mentors and I do love them and I don't need the money.

>>513572412

I have a huge gun collection and when I think about it I usually just cycle through which one would be best to use. Probably the 9mm because I don't want to make a big mess.

>>513549790 (OP)
one bad relationship or career choice can easily do all that and more. Porn and vidya are a fucking joke compared to marriage/having a kid/debt. Not even getting into the dudes who took the criminal/drugs route

>>513572666
Agreed but I have a different life advice for anyone. Everyone dies with regret no matter what you do so act appropriately

>>513555966
Have you tried going in to a church? Exorcism?

>>513572437
Did an illegal Mexican hold you down and make you start?

>>513572437
Nice

>>513572437
You need to ask yourself the hard questions. Where do the Mexicans get the dope?

>>513572262
>>513572409
Spare some cutter me brother
PayPal Me /JessSimpson825

>>513550094
If you get laid off because you’re replaced by a foreigner, there’s no entry level way to start over anymore.

>>513549790 (OP)
honestly you just have to spend as much as you earn, which is pretty easy. I honestly empathize more with that kind of person than i do with the kind of person who obsesses over finances, chases the dollar, idolizes dave ramsay and invests for maximum return, which we all know is the root cause of the degenerate and destructive portion of capitalism, like the healthcare industry that wants you sick, the military industry that propagandizes to keep you scared to sell more armaments, the housing industry that uses migrant labor to build you a carboard shitbox that will poison you with mold, the mergers and aquisitions bullshit that has gutted mainstreet and brought us a neverending brown horde to keep wages down and the shareholders flush. God fuck you all

>>513549790 (OP)
No. Basically, inagine constantly having to pay money to jews. Imagine that you have to pay for insurance, and then on top of that, your insurance refuses to cover anything you have to pay for. Like injuries, illness, etc. Now imagine that jews make it defacto illegal for you not to pay other jews these insurances.

Now imagine that jews cook up some bullshit to make your life completely unstable, and you oscillate between saving up money and then spending it on paying jews.

That’s how.

It could be worse bros, you could be me.
>29
>KHHV
>NEET all my life and broke with no money
>health issues from sitting on my ass all day for almost a decade
>No support or any prospects for the future
>5'8 manlet who gets heightmogged every single time i go out by 90% of men
Honestly i think in a year or two i'll just end up roping, there's really no point if you don't have a career and a family to live for. What am i going to do? i grew out of video games and consooming slop (it's not like they make any good movies/series these days)

>>513569171

Anon I make about 30k/mo from a business I built and I still ain't making it. I'm comfy no doubt but making it? You need to be doing about 100k/mo, and half of that will be taken by taxes. Everyone talks about house this and cars that but the real expenditure is all the other shit. The $30,000 roof replacement. The $10,000 sewer line repair. Oh you bought a C8 corvette? Sorry, the double clutch transmission broke and it's out of warranty, that'll be $20,000. Don't forget fire insurance, that'll be about $5k/yr - same with collision insurance for both cars. Add that to your medical insurance, life insurance, property tax - you can break even REAL fast. $100 for a tank of gas. $150 per person to go out to eat. And that's if you make ZERO mistakes - get on the wrong side of the law and you're fucking fucked. My business is suing another company - I'm about $150k out of pocket and there's still 6 months to go.

>>513562704
Most normalfags are miserable, and they say so themselves. Why trade your happy comfy life squatting illegally in a vacation home so that you can pay money to kikes? That’s not a good trade.

>>513572992

I do shift between "enjoy this party while you're here" and "what's the fucking point". The ONLY thing that keeps me on track is the people who care about me from the relationships I've built, cherished and nurtured over the years.

>>513568927
Most dudes ruin there body by not maintaining it well. Stretching, good food etc. Alcohol makes you weak as shit btw. Just mentioning it for info. Sounds like that dudes got it going.

>>513573223

I wish I were laughing, anon :(

>>513551713
am autistic
but the way I see it is society is a game that the majority of people are too afraid not to play
normies fear the autist's path in life absolutely. the idea of stopping the game to have interests of their own for reasons of their own and to craft meaning of their own scares them
the game provides
- purpose
- status
- comfort
the concept that life is actually purposeless, status is meaningless, and comfort is found anywhere
normies can't grasp that. they know their minds are unsuited to the real task of life outside the game
only the game makes them feel secure

but autists reject the game.
who came up with all these dumb rules anyway?
who decided I can't devote my life to studying my interests?

normies will be all
>muh social contract
>muh job, stable housing, partner and two kids
>muh support societal cohesion by producing kike-approved value

meanwhile only autists see the larger structure. autists see that the game was written by kikes to extract wealth from everyone else.

>>513549790 (OP)
>grand parents fought in World War II to give their grandkids the right to NEET
kinda BASED
:)
>116 hours played time over the past two weeks
>go to bed whenever, wake up whenever
>overweight from eating good
The Barbie house can be stripped away with one fuck up, seems really stressful. I’m comfy beyond belief. If nothing in life matters, then why should I feel guilt for being happy? If you want to be miserable, go be a nigger in Haiti.

>>513573701
Honestly I felt kinda shitty and weird asking you and regret making the post. Like I saw millionaire and immediately took advantage of the fact with no regard to your feelings whatsoever. Forgive me

>>513573638
I'm not a Christian but I believe the principle of treating others as yourself. Problem is some people hate how you treat yourself lol

>>513573676

Genetics helps but you are giving sage advise. As I get older it is VERY clear that maintenance is required. At least an hour per day. Stretching, working out, cardio - and yes alcohol will destroy you. I've been sober curious for quite some time. I all but stopped smoking pot because every time I do I have an existential crisis and all the bad thoughts come flooding in.

>>513549790 (OP)
Oh look another Christian Boomer thread trying to convince us that our hobbies are wrong

>>513573780

Bro it's all good, I'm outclassed by everyone I meet.

>>513549950
> WHY DOES MY COUNTRY KEEP IMPORTING IMMIGRANTS!

>OP asks a retarded question
>answers his own retarded question exhaustively
>there's still 250 comments in this god forsaken thread
what is this board

Knew a guy who was tired of being a wageslave Paramedic and now he is about to start his 4th year of medschool at 37yo.
As for you... your situation is hopeless you have already given up and might as well neet until inevitably troon out. How can you be so old and not have your balls drop yet?

>>513573608

There is something to be said about living a life where nothing can be taken from you. But I also enjoy fucking random women in my own home and grilling ribeye steaks so...pick your poison.

>>513574077
is it worth doing medschool in your 30s? i'm 29 and once upon a time wanted to become a doctor but i lost trust in them and the medical industry after the whole covid fiasco.

>>513549790 (OP)
that's the year my wife died and I lost everything I owned

I smoked weed and played vidya for 15 years then when I was almost 30 got myself an 18yo gf and inherited millions in real estate. I might or might not have planned for this. Its your fault for being retarded, short, ugly, out of shape and from a shit family. I had the time of my life when I was younger, wouldnt trade it for anything.

>>513555483
Ideally you would always want to go for the loan because yeah, you basically pay a sum every mont (as rent) but you get to actually own the house after all (+some additional costs if shit breaks but that’s insignificant). But the problem is that you have to commit to that loan and make sure you can pay it and stuff. If you plan to live as a student in a different city for example, you are going to choose rent just because you don’t want to commit to that place and be in danger of not having money anymore to pay the loan. Either way its very shit nowadays, imagine the boomers who could buy like 2 houses and have a stay at home wife, while they worked as shoe cleaners or some shit like that lol

>>513574181

Not anon you're replying to but I would say if you're going to pick a new career path, do so in one where you don't have many outside variables. I fucking hate waking up and seeing a notification that something completely outside my control is threatening my career.

>>513574298

>some additional costs if shit breaks but that’s insignificant

That's not insignificant.

>>513573539
>5'8 manlet who gets heightmogged every single time i go out by 90% of men
God damn, that is by far the worst on your list. I'm 6'0 and even I'm furious when I see some fucking 15 year old as tall as me. (Yes, people are getting taller and taller). I can't imagine being in your shoes. Remain strong. And get a better taste in video games. Visit /vr/. Older games are great. Godspeed.

>>513574311
You get paid bonuses for vaccines.

>>513574354
I mean it depends from case to case, if you buy a house that needs expensive reparations the price will probably be cheaper, and for what comes along the way compared to the price of the house, the reparations across 15-30 years are probably not that crazy

>>513574443

>so and so is suing your for medical malpractice
oops

>>513549790 (OP)
I don't get it either. If I didn't have kids I'd have enough money to retire by now, yet there are guys my age literally running out of money in the last week before payday every single month while living in a one bedroom flat and not even owning a car.

Starting a job in a warehouse Saturday. Fell from grace and lost everything to mental health issues. Friends, brothers, job, savings, youth.

Plan is just to slave away at this warehouse and stack as much money as possible. Just wish I had a girlfriend. The loneliness is the fucking worst

>>513574029
>we push mass immigration because you're not working goy
kill yourself

>>513574520

I used to dream of a huge expansive property in a nice area with a lot of land. Then I found out the maintenance, taxes and fees on something like that across that 15-30 year timeline will cost more than the house itself. I guess the point is live within your means and understand the true cost of everything.

>>513573539
>>513574435
im 5'6 and most of the canadian (white) young women are minimum 5'10 now

>>513574593

>The loneliness is the fucking worst
This will kill you. But keep at it anon, a little bit at a time, and eventually you will have built it all back up.

>>513574712
How is that even possible? Was your mom drinking during pregnancy or something? Are you brown?

>>513549790 (OP)
I'm 48 years old and I haven't had a single friend in over 10 years. The only girls I sleep with require money. I only have a ps4 and I hardly ever even turn it on. I think I got my first smart phone in 2012. I was never the same after that.

>>513552146
Well, you either pay me or risk me being Ted Bundy 2.0

>>513574539
You should reform your informed consent policies against your bias propaganda.
You're salesmen.

>>513549790 (OP)

I am 34 , and let me tell you. It takes a bit of bad luck and nothing else.

I got a long story, but I did what i was supposed to.

Then COVID, i Lost my job, then my Brother had a cancer and died, my father Lost It and drink himself tò death, the bank came for the house


Back tò Square One.

>>513574792
Thanks brother. Been NEETing it for the past year but my aging parents are a sobering reality check. Need to get my shit in order ASAP., driving license etc. Hope all works out for you too.

>>513574996

Bro it happens on the daily. Don't be a surgeon.

>>513574869
no im white my dad was 5'5 and mom 5'0

>>513575020

Thanks anon. My mom was just in the hospital from a heart issue scare. Was nothing but I got the same sobering reality check this week - as if I didn't already fucking know...so I feel ya.

>>513551156
>havent had sex with a woman since 2011
that alone is enough you can die right bow and not miss much
>>513551265
>he doesn't know child support ruling doesn't require marriage
no free lunch

>>513573543
Absolutely. The insidious nature of this current new environment is needless expenditure and ignorance of real-finance, instead believing politics isn't just the fart of meme to entertain niggerball fans and "true Aryans". Rule one applies to the real world more than here

>>513549790 (OP)
Easy. You fall for the college meme, get a useless degree because propaganda fed to you all in primary school, then have permanent debt and no job thanks to DEI hiring practices. He is a white man. NO ONE wants white men, especially educated ones.

That leaves you poor, in debt, and yes - no woman or gf in your life, because she won't fuck a broke wigger.

Or you go NEET mode because parents helicoptered around your ass nonstop and blocked ALL development milestones from happening. This is WAY more common than people think and it generates neets because they have 1 kid and that kid is hyper precious due to them being THE ONLY ONE. Add in community destruction and these poor lads get NO social exposure.

Protip: parents that don't care make party kids who are well socialized because they can do ANYTHING. Want to fuck off to a friend's place? Well they can! Smoke weed? They can! But this is not true for a NEET. They aren't allowed to socialize. They MUST be home where they can be supervised 24/7 by the state or nanny parents.

Boy Scouts are nuked now. Now just Scouts - and it's taken over by foids. Saw a whole scout troop in the airport. All girls. Not a SINGLE boy in the group. Can't have the gross little monster boys with the good girls now can you?

That leaves these lads just one option: the internet. Which means porn, vidya, and anime. Maybe we should give lads alternatives to the ONE thing we only allow them to have now? I know it's a hard ask, foids got the rest and aren't gonna give it up.

>>513551156
get your drivers licence i feel like killing myself a lot less since I got one drivings fun

>>513575386
And if you do an hero you have more options with a car.

>>513575121
You are a bad surgeon.

>>513575840

That's what the plaintiff would pay their lawyer to say. The point is pick something where you don't have many externalities that can threaten your career.

>>513549790 (OP)

>Be me
>Go to college
>Job hop through college, get one wagie job that isnt as shitty. Work there mainly
>Completed degree in Computer Science
>Put in hundreds to thousands of applications
>No replies
>Try again on an almost seasonal basis before I get demotivated again and repeat the cycle every few months
>Wonder what Ive done wrong. Are recruiters looking for key words or am I being blacklisted somehow?
>Feel like I tried everything already. Even stopped looking at jobs in CS Networking and just looked for any wagie job
>Almost 40, have a wife and kids and still dont know how to keep on going

Help

>>513549790 (OP)
The last 20 years have been ass. Pure ass.

>>513549790 (OP)
35 here. Failed out of my PharmD program when I was 24 after having a concussion and not really being to retain any information. The concussion happened while I was doing drugs mind you, so it was definitely my fault.

Then I find out later I also had 5 nodules on my thyroid gland and was hypothyroid probably since I was 22 but had no idea. I spent the past 10 years pretty much running in place. I just got my teaching license, but no one wants to hire me due to my bogus work history. Haven't had sex in 4.5 years...I have negative networth. Every other week I want to end it all. Been applying to a lot of different jobs with no calls back. Warehouses don't want me, it seems. I have Canadian citizenship, but no funds to relocate with. My car is on its last legs. Kind of sick of it all bros...

>>513555483
Renting is super handy if you want a temporary living situation and don't want to deal with upkeep. This means you don't need to give a shit for ANY of the stressful homeowner problems - roof replacement, siding, maintaining AC systems, etc. or even about paying property tax. You just fork over a fixed amount monthly and don't give a fuck.

Blacks move in? Not a problem, you can literally leave the lease and flee to a new area - given enough money. But as a homeowner? You need a HOA, and those are god awful satan's spawn organizations that can literally get you killed now. Poor dude got shot over grass height bullshit. Anyway, as a rendoid you can pull up anchor when ANYTHING bad happens in the neighborhood that you don't like. Including shitty landlords.

The downside is you piss all that money away for the convenience. Which is only technically true for homeowners when their property appreciates in value - niggers will reverse that, making your "investment" worthless. Or just the town dying, doesn't even need to be niggers, corpo fags can kill your investment too. And you better not forget to pay the bank or you lose it all to Jews!

>>513576152

Get a job in AI modeling and training cause that's what's taking ur job rn.

>>513555483
Or you can inherit the home from your parents and not pay anyone, not a homeowner, not a bank.

>>513576421

I agree with all this but with the caveat that if you're not going to invest in real estate (ie your home), make sure it's going to something that will yield the same or better gains to hedge against inflation.

>>513559831
>At least I didn't pay the government to do what it's doing
How much have you contributed to the state that hates you?
>>513574029
They were doing that regardless, genius.

>>513574443
I was aware of this after looking into the covid vaccine, doctors got paid per vaccine given and they cashed in a shitton of money from it. Also don't get why people say don't go into medicine for money when every doctor is a millionaire and your job security is pretty good.

>>513549790 (OP)
I had unmanaged AuDHD which made me seem sort of normal but I could not maintain normal friendships or work relationships, and basic tasks in life were often difficult

I'm 35 now and have made peace with the fact I will never succeed but I never had a chance

>>513574311
Doctors are pretty safe for the foreseeable future though. Radiologists maybe not.

>>513549790 (OP)
you never read the book of job?
it can happen to anyone, when god decides to strike you he can take everything from you
granted some people dont have life figured out so they ended up with nothing, but there are people who lost it all due to act of god and a string of extremely bad luck

>>513549790 (OP)
>Apply to full time job
>Nah we're gonna hire pajeet or some fat retarded 40 year old woman, or my stacey daughter
>Do this for every nearby job

>>513550208
This. When you're 2+ standard deviations you recognize how faggy and anti-merit modern society is. I'll take society seriously when women are no longer allowed to vote.

>>513574435
Germany is suifuel, all the zoomer guys are 6'0 on average or close i'd say. I grew out of video games, no more copes remain unfortunately. I get heightmogged by women on a daily basis, you don't want to know how bad that feels.
>>513574712
Yep same thing here, i'm from the UK and most white women are somewhere in the 5'7 - 5'10 range now. Heightinflation is crazy man i'm telling you. Zoomers eating food with hormones in it, making them grow like crazy.

>>513574869
Ironically all the brown zoomer guys i see are 5'10 on average now, not kidding they are not that short anymore. I am 5'8.5 and heightmogged by even browns

>>513549790 (OP)
>memeflaggot
>you must consume product and habe thing
>this is the measure of success
I own a home, a vehicle, a bussiness, and substantial badgoy investments. None of these material things make me the man that I am. They are simply tools in the toolbox.

How do you cope with your unexamined life based around attempting to live vicariously through inanimate and supposed status symbols? Or is ignorance truly bliss?

>>513574593
age? if youre in your 30s it's fucking brutal and over desu doing a warehouse job at that age. Mental health isn't treated well at all in the UK, you're on your own basically or they'll just push SSRIs at you.

>>513577220
Mental health isn't treated well anywhere, don't bullshit me that the EU is better because I know it's not

>>513574561
That's what happens when you finance a £350 car, mortgage a house you can't afford, etc. They're living above their means.

also 30+ and i have TWO (2) degrees but have been unemployed for a few months after being abroad in Canada for some 5 years or so
i got the 2nd degree there but only managed to get low wage jobs bc they wouldnt hire me even when i already had an engineering background + native level english...hope they like the subhuman jeets they do like to keep tho
its fine, i dont have a wife or kids or job or big savings to flaunt but im spending time with my aging parents after over a decade (i used to work corporate in a big city earning $2500+ a month in my currency) and cant remember when i was this happy before
i had a car a nice apartment rental a hot but neurotic gf and all the normie BS you could imagine, i was fucking miserable bro

>>513575756
Never seen that one, nice.

>>513553692
It's not a coincidence that most NEETs were raised by single mothers. The single mother epidemic has caused incalculable damage, some of them have a deadbeat father around occasionally.

>>513577220
25, plan to eventually migrate back in to the carehomes once I have some work experience behind me in a few years time. Was originally a carer but lost it to depression.

At one point I got snatched from my home and force fed antipsychotics to be able to leave hospital. Tried to sue but nobody took it on

>>513576912

Agreed, I was referring to surgeons specifically.

>>513556249
Jesus fucking Christ that's a shit deal, anon. What about food banks? Maybe you can get a side gig doing doordash

>>513549790 (OP)
>34
>Was married
>now divorced
>Had a career, corner office and a secretary
>now an unemployed neet who draws porn for a living
>A vapid and empty social life going to brunches and happy hours with people I didn't really care for.
>Now a close but small circle of online friends who I feel free to hang out and speak without censoring myself.
Obviously there are things I miss. But in this doomed timeline, where women are hoeflated undatable liberals, the workplace has become jewish daycare and the average casual acquaintance is likely to report you for thought crime than provide decent company, I feel like this shit is better.
I think about leaving the neet life sometimes, but then I realize, there's really nothing to go back to anymore.

>>513577964
fellow /ic/ anon? sending big hugs we're gonna make it

>>513577964
Tell me more about drawing porn for a living kek. That's quite the jump from a corner office with sexretary

>>513577304
well i think they just push pills at you no matter where you are, there's no real help for mental health issues, they just try to keep you sedated so you don't go ER

https://files.catbox.moe/devpbh.png
https://files.catbox.moe/b8tid9.png

>>513554835
>stay-at-home dad
The wife is the breadwinner? Fucking insane

>>513577578
Still got time if you're only 25. You can still go back to uni and get a proper career if that's what you want. Being at dead end min wage shit jobs rest of your life ain't it. If you are diagnosed with psychosis/schizophrenia then it makes sense no lawyer will take your case because you won't win. Even if not it makes sense because cases against the healthcare system are difficult.

>>513577964
>>513577964

>>513578290
Fed antipsychotics with no prior diagnosis, just snatched from home and handed pills. Don't have the grades unfortunately to go to uni. Thought about becoming a nurse through college though.

>>513576152
>>Almost 40, have a wife and kids and still dont know how to keep on going

So you are normal... average life...
Heck, you even have a wife and kids
You WON, but you are too stupid to realize it.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=axHoy0hnQy8

>>513578447
That seems absolute bullshit that they just snatched you from your home and force fed you poison pills. Seems like nothing is off the table in this god forsaken country anymore. One of my cousins actually has schizophrenia and every few months he decides he doesn't want to take the pills anymore and he goes full schizo seeing people and hearing voices. Even then they never snatched him from his home though even though he lives alone. You should get a pay out but this country is fucked. You can do A levels again, college where mature 18+ students go, it's faster and you meet people your age and ofcourse if you do well you can then go to uni and get a proper career going. Nurse is okay but fair warning, you will be required to do a lot of shit that you aren't comfortable with. Patients are terrible, hours are long, stress is high, the list goes on.

>>513578154
It's pretty slim living compared to what I used to make.
I used to work in marketing for a WSOB software reseller (you can probably imagine what it's like having all female bosses) I'd build campaigns and PowerPoint decks all about databases and shit. The money was good but the work was completely passionless and shit.
Now I draw insane fetish art and make enough to buy groceries or small expenses. The bennies go completely on rent and bills but the art keeps me in a humble but comfortable existence.
I pirate all the books, comics, audiobooks, tv, films, games I want. And I have plenty of time to read them. I get up late and sketch anime tits, play my gacha, walk the dog, start a meal prep, sit down with some podcast or YouTube in the background and draw into the night. I go to the gym on nights I don't cook, and come home and yap with my fellow artfags on vc into the early hours.
And that's most days.
And I feel way happier doing this than being in some shit 9-5
Like I said, it's humble but very comfy.

>>513571883
I sometimes wish they didn't have me, we both would be better off. I have my wants and needs, and they have their own imaginations about what I should be doing with my life. Obviously I'm not a kid so I'll do what I want at the end of it, yet it is such a thorn in the side. Why can't a parent just be happy for a healthy upstanding offspring, and let him do whatever he wants but instead impose existential problems that are incompatible with my own views. I'm not gay or degenerate, I just want to come home after a productive day at work and play some bideo james and rest in peace. Apparently that is too much to ask.

This is the r9kpol meta thread so here is my rant, it is still a fresh experience.

>>513552357
My mom was 40 and while I’m not autistic in the traditional sense I do think I’m fucked socially speaking. I don’t know what my future holds. I’m smart but I wonder whether people like me will even be able to get jobs

>>513572998
I have tried going to church. I have tried all kinds of exorcism and chakra healing sessions. I once spent 12-14 hours reciting the Lord's prayer consecutively and it honestly didn't help that much overall but it was something to hold onto in the moment. Ultimately everything is thought and it is our judgement of thought that produces emotion. Thought entails all imaginable context of the 5 senses. After some of the chakra healing sessions I have had I was on cloud nine. It definitely gave me good energy after being plagued by rot for years. I have also spent a lot of money on spiritual trinkets. Crystals used to work on me but now they no longer work. It used to be that if I grabbed a stone of rose quartz I could reclaim my energy back into my body and feel love radiate in my heart chakra. Now, this no longer works. Mainly because most of my energy is contained within my own body again and my aura has healed although not completely. So coming from my current perspective, even after having experienced it, I still think it sounds foreign and crazy. And I've experienced it I know it's real but from where I'm standing now it's nothing but a fairytale. I have also tried psychedelics as well. I have learned a whole lot. I believe they are spirits. You can call them ghosts as well or demons. They are units of consciousness that exist without a body and operate on the same dimensional plane as thought. Somewhere along the line the "elite" tie into all of this as they are sacrificing to entities. As for me, I was possessed by an angry woman, a metro man, and a black guy. They destroyed my life. There have been times when I could hear 20+ voices, and I felt like they were all watching me.

This song reminds me of my condition: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LRSq95NTPcE

>>513577090
is our only hope to wife up a short asian/brown? phew

>neet for 10 years until I did shrooms at 28 and realized i am worth so much more
>after 1 year of upgrading i got accepted in and went to a technical institute for a 2 year program
>during christmas break 2019 i had major surgery and had some complications
>took a medical leave because I physically couldn't do it
>would resume program following sept
>covid hit 2 months later
>the school switched to online class only
>attended online for a few weeks in sept 2020 but dropped out due to realizing I wasn't interested in a tech/dev career at all
>then in 2021 the school, as all other unis required all students to get vaxt to attend meaning I would have been kicked out anyways

It's been 5 years and now that covid has fully blown over I'm trying to figure shit out. My main hope right now is to somehow make a couple grand and then start an amazon online arbitrage business and make 50-100k USD per yea which I'll use to buy a house or something.

>>513559018
You sound like a pathetic fsggot and if I was in charge I would just kill you. Kys

>>513578846
>humble but comfortable
Can a man really ask for much more than that?

You and I are just about in the same boat, sans the anime titties kek. I sell art on the side as well and it's exponentially more fulfilling than any of the corpo or tradie shit I did in my younger years. The shekels are comfortable as well.

I'm glad to see more and more goys living an examined and meaningful life within their means rather than slaving away at corpo_job_position_675 just to look back in the end and wonder what the point was.

I'm watching my father do that now. He's in his mid 60s and crippled from a life of trade work. For the first time in his life, he's considering what it means to exist outside of his title when he retires, now that he's old, tired, and his best years were wasted by this company or that one.

Enjoy the simple life brother, and if you're ever feeling down or self conscious about your lot, just remember that you're living the dream by 90% of your fellow countrymen's standard.

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Damn I relate to this a lot. Especially everyone else around me making jokes and banter with each other

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The thing is being raised single mom red pills you on female nature at an early age, which in turn kills all motivation to pursue a woman and cuck out to society. A dad helps camouflage a womans weaknesses. He steps in when she is being retarded or evil or cheap or in any other way harmful to the child. Without such a figure, you experience the ugly face of women - materialistic, soulless, neurotic etc. unfiltered. In a way a 14 year old boy of a single mom is as red pilled on women as a 44 year old dude. You realize these creatures are just not worth it.