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Per GPT5:
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I got in big trouble for that, but not too big! I basically promised I didn’t mean anything. I got suspended for a week, I think.
Those thoughts never went away, but you’d be surprised. I remember, every school I went to, I had some fantasy at some point—or thought—of shooting up my school, even every job.
When I got caught in seventh grade, I don’t remember ever talking to a therapist.
They basically made sure I wasn’t a threat, then locked me in a meeting room, and I was at school for that week, LMAO I guess.
That made me stew in my thoughts and then solidify some feelings of hatred and malice in my head, I assume.
But committing a mass shooting is not the right thing to do. I cannot let myself do anything like that.
But god fucking damn it feels so good to indulge in the thoughts. I have so many reasons why I cannot do it.
I can’t do it to my family. I love them and they love me. I simply can’t do that to them.
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[Why?!]
Another reason, obviously, is my digital footprint. I’ve lost all my [anonymity/privacy]. I wouldn’t want people finding my clips, lmao—my clips are so [cringe]; I would get fucking roasted! XD
I don’t really think my name sounds like some Nazi name, lol—“Robin Westman”? Nah.
My [face/fans] isn’t crazy enough, lol. I’m enough of a freak, haha.
Anyway, for the record: if anyone reads this—hopefully not—I’m writing this like this so a snoop won’t immediately freak out.
I just want a place to put my thoughts—talk to a therapist or family—’cause I can’t imagine being reported and put on a ban list.
Bad news: I feel like I might already be on kind of a list due to my constant consumption of mass-murder and violent content.
I watch the films: Elephant, Klass, [Zero Day?/something set in America]. I basically skip the whole thing and just watch the massacre scenes.
I don’t hide my internet activity from [—].