Thread 514933194

If i quit the green jew I will become a multi millionaire.
Ive been addicted for 15 years and am in my early 30s now. I managed to attain a nice engineering career so im doing better than most of u but at the end of the day im a peon compared to what I should have been. At 15 I taught myself algebra 2 -> partial differential equations. I was doing vipassana mediation and reached gnosis 3 times. I was reading advanced philosophy like wittgenstein and schopenhauer. I worked out and was stronger than half the foot ball players... I had no freinds though and started smoking weed ti cope. Then I made freinds with a bunch of loser stoners which made things worse. My parents being the angriest and most hareful people in the planet didnt help either. I let life get to me. All my progress stopped, only reason I qas able to get through college was cuz I taught myself everything in high school. I had SO much momentum....


I cut down to 10 mg a day before sleep cuz the insomia is u bearable. Last time I was up for 8 days, if I didnt pass out I would have went to the hosptial, my heart was barely beating and I was losing my mind. I did cold turkey so now I know thats not the way to do it and am wening off, havenr even hotten high today.. Even if I quit today and become a billionaire by the end of the month, nothing can do to make up for my lost teens and 20s. Im struggling hard to actually remember my dogs which were my world. I constantly ask my mom if I walked them enough, apparently thats all I did cuz I was going out to get high.. im in my early 30s, I haven't peaked yet in terms of success or even muscle mass(test doesn't start dropping till late 30s..) and looks..I have more energy than ever. But that doesnt matter. I dont have th youthful spirit. Im too jaded.

Can I borrow $10,000?

I'm pretty sure you're self-medicating some actual brain problem if not smoking weed makes you stay for up 8 days

test drops around 1 percent per year starting around 40.
that is nothing
the rest of your post is absurd
gnosis three times? lel

My only hope of getting my brain power back at least partially after I quit is shrooms, lions mane and thr occasianoal adderal bindge(that i will use to study advanced topics in a field I want to get a patent in..)

>>514933299
After 15 years quitting will fuck u up, many people online had the same shit. Im already getting better sleep from weaning off. I had 5 days sober in 2913 but then something really bad happened but before then I was SO fucking happy on that last day..

>>514933357
Yes but my oyuthufl spirit is gone. I dont know what else to call it. If u do mediation rifht u enter a higher state of consciousness, there is nothing like it.. its nor as ridiculous as thinking god was a magick jew on a stick

Nice blog fagget

>>514933194 (OP)
nice blog faggot

>>514933194 (OP)
You reached gnosis (whatever the fuck that is) at 15? Dude you are a super mega genius.

stopping is easy, but there is definitely withdrawal. you will have crazy stress dreams and massive insomnia. i recommend travel and serious outdoor time exercising. helps to have a girl to screw around with. watch out for substitution behaviors. big picture, for your life to get better it has to be better. glhf.

>>514933458
I dnt have advice


This is probably fake anyway but quit drugs and try to make friends, you probably can’t unless your rich tho because America is fake now after fauci made a joke of the justice system

>>514933496
>>514933501
Thank you

>>514933506
That has nothing to do with smarts. Have u ever meditated? God i hope i quit this shithole when I get sober.. u people are rabid with hate and I cant take it anymore, ive been here the entire 15 years..

>>514933458
alright whatever just seems wierd referring to some "specific state"
you "reached three times"

>>514933531
I love the deep dreams, I visited my family in equope a few years ago and was off for a week until my cousin found some and the inception dreams are awesome. I woke up so rested I felt like a new man. I love nightmare as ling as it not my dogs dying.. way better than waking g up with ur eyes burning cu, u only slept 5-6 hours

>>514933661
Anyone that meditates will know how significant that was at 15... doesnt matter though, its threw everything away. I dont know ow if have the attention span lef too mediatate after all this weed + phone time

>>514933194 (OP)
I started smoking weed at 12 years old. I was selling it by 15. I still played football and was a captain on the team. I opened a business after high-school, and still smoked. Married my high-school virgin cheerleader girlfriend, still smoked. Went out on the road playing music, smoked like crazy. Had kids with the cheerleader, decided it was time to stop smoking, just because it was illegal and I had people depending on me. I quit smoking for about 10 years. Then I retired and it became legal where I live. I now smoke everyday.

I didn't really see much of a change during those 10 years of not smoking. You're either driven to do things or you are not. Weed probably doesn't change it much.

>>514933797
Good for u, it affect everyone differently. If u sold it then u should know how many loser stoners there are. I know for a fact its weed that fucked men up

>>514933797
And wait... why the fuck are u here then? On a Friday night? Its midnight at best... not really adding up to me..

>>514933299
This. OP is probably hyperactive and weed helped him to learn all those things.
Op dont hate weed, it was your way to calm your brain and calm you down. Domt blame yourseld, you managed to do great stuff in your condition. Look for proper treatment and for a woman who hates smoking, the sex and love endorphines will help you get over the weed. You can still smoke when she is not around anyway

>>514933417
2913 was an awful year.
Fucking reptilians.....

>>514933985
I learned all those things before weed. What ever I was i should have embraced it cuz it was working out for me. I guess the consequences of being smart is u think too much and want to just numb the thoughts out and just chill

>>514933854
>If u sold it then u should know how many loser stoners there are
Yeah, that's true. It does affect people differently. Some people smoke then they do nothing all day. For some smokers it acts like a stimulant. They get up and go do things, other people it's a depressant, and they do nothing all day.

Today, for me as an old man, it works as a stimulant. It's like coffee. I wake up stiff or achy, not wanting to do anything. Then, I smoke a bowl and I feel better and want to go do things.

>>514934005
They were smoking swag and trying to pass it off as Humboldt country weed

>>514933194 (OP)
>reached gnosis 3 times
> Last time I was up for 8 days

this alone makes me discount your post as fake. What do you even mean by "reached gnosis". That doesn't even mean anything.

On the off chance you're being legit, you're in for a rough time. I quit weed 6 months ago because I had to for work. I can be randomly drug tested. Truth is, I don't feel much better. My short term memory is a lot better, but beyond that, the positive effects are minimal. I don't really have any negative effects though. Nothing wrong with quitting weed, I'm glad I don't smoke all the time now, but I do wish I could get baked on occasion to relax

>>514934115
U want me to expline the entire theory of occultusm to you? Tldr version its when u reach a higher state of consciousness. There are no words to describe it but its kind of like a carosel made up of fractal rotating around ur soul and u are consciousness of it.. u think meditation is just for anxiety or some shit?

>>514934107
Addiction is Addiction. It's not about the drugs or withdrawal. Its about not wanting to have negative thoughts, whcih I now understand u should embrace instead of run away from. I personally never met a productive stoner. I met plenty who said the same shit as u but I guess they dont have businesses

>>514933900
It's 2am on Friday. I'm old and an insomniac. I sleep maybe 4-5 hours a day. I'm just naturally upbeat and high strung. I'm two bottles of wine and several bowls of weed and hash into the night now. I'll fall asleep sometime around 4am then be back up at 8-9am. Smoke some weed, have a big breakfast rum drink and a bunch of eggs. Then go outside and drink and smoke, while doing things, until around midnight, then be back here shitposting with you for a few hours.

>>514933194 (OP)
>If i quit the green jew I will become a multi millionaire.
I'm smoking weed every day and I'm a multimillionaire

>>514934420
>does weed from the moment he wakes up
>sleeps 5 hours a day


Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
Sleep deprivation is a miserable way to live

>>514934501
How did u become one and why are u here instead of doing cool millionaire shit?

lol. pharmaceuticals are Jewish in reality whereas cheeba has largely been grown by white men for white men (FUBU). until very recently it wasn’t even something that could be remotely monopolized due to how many average growers like me existed.

Booze on the other hand is owned by Jews. Pills same thing. Energy drinks same thing.

>>514934185
the fact that you can't spell and you type like a retard makes me think you're full of shit. I've engaged in meditation and taken large doses of psychedelics. I've had some wonderfully transcendent experiences of oneness with the universe, I just wouldn't be presumptuous enough to use a phrase like "reached gnosis". Makes you sound like some kind of nigger tbqh senpai

>>514935381
U took a bunch fo psycedelics yet are chimping out over semantics and spelling?

>>514935381
I uses to grow shrooms, its not even nearly the same as when u reach that state sober...

>>514933194 (OP)
A clueless drunkard typed that shit.

>>514935580
U live in a krushovka and are a chainsmoking alcoholic u mongolian trash

>>514935067
I slept less when I didn't smoke. I would work two days straight when I didn't smoke.

>>514935601
> chainsmoking
clueless faggot indeed
I live in a more modern appartment, and now am at a real nice house at my parents.
I smoke only few tokes per day, not every day. It makes my mind think differently so I can do my science. Maybe I would focus on making money instead if I didn't get high and focus on something more important. Not that I do not need money for my research, but I cannot be bothered to earn them myself, so I have to focus on research which I can do at my desk. But then again all inventions of Leonardo were left on paper, alas, you suck.

>>514935552
>>514935579
>U took a bunch fo psycedelics yet are chimping out over semantics and spelling?

yes. gnosis means knowledge. Yet you sound like a retard, which makes me think that your claim of reaching gnosis is not real. Sounds like you just experienced some tingles while meditating and you're convinced that you're some kind of god man because of it. You're just a dude. You're not special.

Honestly you sound kind of mentally ill besides the weed. I hope your life gets better, but there's no point to regret the past. If you want a better future, work now. Don't lament what you could have done but didn't do.

Pink Floyd - Time

Ticking away
The moments that make up a dull day
You fritter and waste the hours
In an offhand way
Kicking around on a piece of ground
In your hometown
Waiting for someone
Or something to show you the way

Tired of lying in the sunshine
Staying home to watch the rain
You are young and life is long
And there is time to kill today
And then one day you find
Ten years have got behind you
NO ONE TOLD YOU WHEN TO RUN
YOU MISSED THE STARTING GUN

TLDR: your feelings are something common to drug users and written about in popular songs 50+ years ago

>>514935852
What science ir ur mongolian ass doing? Ur samagonka setup is not science.

>>514935920
Dont u feel bad that a mentally ill drug addict is an engineer while u work manual labor? I would... Thats why u obsess with spelling so much. I can type slower and spell correctly, now what? What does that change? Faggot

>>514934185
> U want me to expline the entire theory of occultusm to you?

Sure, this sounds interesting.

>>514933194 (OP)

good on ya for quitting. you sound like a total annoying faggot tho

>>514935956
All sorts of science from math to biotech (biotech takes money, so it's moving real slow, and it's rather low-tech at this point)
The hardcore mode is not seeking for state funds, because fuck them and fuck you too.

>>514933194 (OP)
I hate you pot smoking scum.

>>514936035
Well ur SOL cuz all I did was no fap, vipassana mediation and psycedleics. But I did read enough into it that I know it's bascially just invoking angels and demons to do shit for um there has to be some sort of sacrifice and ritual. Not usually a virgin, more like your time and energy while doing rhe ritual. No fap is way stronger than anything. I had many incidents were entities coiodnt do shit to me cuz I was protected by no fap..

>>514936004
>I can type slower and spell correctly, now what? What does that change?

it makes you sound normal instead of retarded.

>>514936004
>Dont u feel bad that a mentally ill drug addict is an engineer while u work manual labor?

our world isn't fair, and it rewards incompetence. I too feel that I ruined my potential by smoking lots of weed in high school and college. I just didn't go into engineering but picked another career path. I am not doing manual labor, but like you, I also think I might've ended up doing a lot better had I not smoked so much weed at a young age

I don't mean to sound so mean, but yeah, your experience is common among a lot of weed smokers

>>514936671
U should, u are totally in thw right. Stoners are the worst people on earthm selfish and emotional and delusional hypocrites.. Thats why im trying not to be one.

>>514936100
Why wouldn't I be after 15 years of smoking. Every stoner is annoying.. My true form might not be a faggot.. I dont even know who I am anymore and will have to redo my entire world view and sence of self when I fully ween off..

>>514936715
Just get drunk with wine once a week.

>>514936698
I dont mean to sound mena either but weed turned me into an annoying fsggot just like it doesnr everyone else. My stoner friends from my youth disgust me. They turned into horrible people off just weed alone. U cant burn out ur doapmenan receptors day in and day out and be a plesant person

>>514936838
I want to start going to bars and meeting people. Im more of a tequila guy though..

>>514936882
Are you stupid?
Why do you want to drink with the boomers?
gen z doesn't go out drinking.

>>514936980
What do they do then? I dont mind boomer or zoomers. People irl are all the same, its only online that we seem different

>>514937163
They go clubbing. Tiktok gave all the hot ones the ability to dance.

>>514936864
Basically everyone I know smoked weed and most of them are doing fine. They're computer programmers, lawyers, bankers, or work in other professional fields. Some of them still smoke weed every day, some of them don't. I think for some people weed can be debilitating, but for others it's really not that bad. Also, some people just get lucky with good jobs, good counselors and advisors in university, good connections. And other people get unlucky with shit jobs, shitty advisors, and a lack of good connections. Life is weird how it works out

>>514933194 (OP)
>I am doing better than most of u
Why are you upset then
I don’t get people who humble brag and then cry for sympathy. That’s a shit approach lol

>>514935090
>How did u become one
crypto
>and why are u here
where else would I be?

>>514933194 (OP)
>Woulda coulda shoulda

>>514933194 (OP)
Society doesnt reward retardation and/or overexerting yourself because i smoke weed, so im not quitting.

>>514933194 (OP)
U cant be physically addicted to weed, so that means your just a weak minded fag who needs its weed cope to survive. So youre either a nigger or a fag wigger. Fuck off.