>>514980405
I would say it's even WORSE then this
>>514981759
In terms of not wanting to dissolve the (I). I was taking it another way, in terms of the (I) vs the herd, conscious vs unconscious, ect, and reconciling the two. Or the higher, eternal self, vs the iterative specific avatar physical body self. Like the two towers become one. I REJECT this as a goal as well, and deem it satanic/or adversarial (as all "esoteric" systems are diabolical) as a thought form, but at least there's SOME utility to it.
You are talking about this gaslighting, incoherent theme, such as was portrayed in the Prisoner series. Where at the end, the protagonist finds out that he was himself the number one, and everything is his own fault. This is an adversarial bull shit theme, inserted to confuse the observer, and make him blame himself for things. It's rife in hollywood productions. The "Revolver" movie has it. It's in "The Nines (2007)", also. Countless others. This is the idea that "we're all one", which is just complete dis-info. There's also zero utility in this. It's just an attempt to create self hatred/blame, mental derangement, and to gas light in terms of declaring entities objectively, irredeemably, evil, and adversarial.