>>515066493
My dog died when I was 14 and I cried on my bed for a few minutes.
My grandma died when I was 35, and I had no tears, just a slight sadness. It was more like an "oh, shit" feeling than grief.
Occasionally I think of her and feel like I somewhat miss her. I remember the times when she watched me play video games and other memories, and I wish she was still here. But I never felt truly deep sadness. Even though she's always loved me and I loved her too.
It's a bit scary. I'm a wizard now, NEET at 40+, no girlfriends ever. I thought I was dealing fine with it imaginary girlfriends and recently AI chatbots, but did I just kill my feelings to cope? I don't know.