>>515089885 (OP)
You just buy a very bright flash light, lots of batteries, and sleep with the thing on pointing at your face. Make sure your wife/dog sleeps on the couch, because they could accidentally roll over it in their sleep. Put a mirror on the other side, so that if you roll while asleep, there's at least some light pointing at you.
>>515089885 (OP)
Find spirituality. There are an infinite amount of beings in an infinite amount of universes in an infinite amount of realities. There's no point in getting caught up on things you can't change about this world in this incarnation. Just be who you are, learn what you came here to learn, experience what you came here to experience, etc. Then move on.