Thread 516061775

I’m not a normie( mostly thanks to you guy) My family and the people around me are, but I never fit. Whenever I’m with them in public I feel awkward, always on edge that a situation will happen where I have to act “normal” and I just can’t.

Society feels completely fake to me. Everything is about ego and playing the part. I can’t fake it like they do. I know I’m flawed and a sinner, but my only goal is simple: find a good wife, pay for a house in cash, and live quietly.

Anyone else feel this way? How do you deal with being awkward around people who expect you to play the normie role? Looking for advice or even just frens.
In retrospect I’m scared how I will react to conflict in front of them (parents)

>>516061775 (OP)
>Anyone else feel this way? How do you deal with being awkward around people who expect you to play the normie role? Looking for advice or even just frens.
Yes, I'm a recluse.

>>516061941
Mask posts in 2025. Grim.

>>516062131
shut up leaf. masks were the normie litmus test and you failed it.

You are the Supremacy that the Jews had to kill 60 million people to put a stop to, so that ugly as shit dysgenic kikes would be the only smartest people on planet.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X1jRAfi1Op4

I have good news, you're not defective, they simply failed to extinguish you. I feel exactly the same way. All you can do is try to adapt to the crushing pressure.

Giving up your pledge of allegiance to America, and no longer caring for humans or human life, will slowly show you the path on how to end the suffering.

You will find that buying power doesn't bind to paper with effort or labor, it comes out to buy loyalty where it's not earned, and by withholding it, by not seeing positive value in humans unless they are serving you, you get to be God, and other people want to worship God, and you'll be crestfallen when the most powerful people on planet want to get up into your shit and make you happy.

>>516062131
>>516062408
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=blOkSg6R0AQ

>>516061775 (OP)
Honesty is a key I guess? Virtue attracts women like shit attracts flies.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=78hnRCbzoVw

Problem is that we have use to think and talk in terms of judgments, that creates conflict and suffer.

Life is very simple process of hunting opportunities to satisfy human needs.

When did you last time heard 'I don't know' or 'I need' and request? people who are busy to create something and work hard, they have no time for nonsense, usually tell straight foreword what they need or search for and that increase their ability to find.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=78hnRCbzoVw

>>516061775 (OP)
just remember that we live in some kind of deimurge clownworld shit and it is only going to get more wild as the IQ gap widens and AI starts to be used to outsmart people. you have to be insane to be well adjusted to the state of things so just remind yourself not to be gaslit.

>>516061775 (OP)
I glance at the sportsball standings before I do ananything normal, weather too but I just can't help myself and usually bring up how we're all going to die in the apocalypse.

>>516061775 (OP)
This is just autism. General /r9k/ stuff.

>>516062131
never forget, never forgive.

>>516061775 (OP)
Normal people are genuinely terrified of me for no reason. Fuck em

>>516061775 (OP)
Don’t ask people here for starters

>>516063080
If I met you we would get along because I am also not normal, what do you look like

>>516062906
The problems are going to advance from: "You highly suspect you're in a Truman Show to diabolical kleptocratic kike overlords which you can surmount if you really try and get lucky" and that's going to advance to "Your descendants will be like the bees you see rubbing their asses pollinating the flowers in the summer".

Not only will they never come to an understanding that their entire environment is basically an extention of their body and that they don't have brains at all, they're think clients, like rubber on a car wheel, but they won't even care to know. Effectively, your descendants will be ants and bees, and their illusion of individuality stripped from them.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DmcaH_Gkj9c

If it makes you feel better, it has to be this way, long ago individuals were cells, now look at you, trillions of them and only some of them get to be "self" 99% of you is just structure, pipes, plumbing, stiffness, molecular fluid transport."

That's going to happen to the entire planet. Truman show where the protagonist doesn't figure it out.

>>516061775 (OP)
>How to survive a normie world
Pssst
Hey you.
Yeah you. Cmere!

>>516061775 (OP)
huh? everyone feels like this, most people just don't focus on it. they learned to fake it better than you through immersion, you are an introvert some people are extroverts. just do the things you like to do, and always be kind, patient and honest with people. most humans are living in extreme misery because of the inevitability of death and a lack of justified true belief. the humans who do not feel like this are fanatics and very easy to spot, crazy homeless people, religious zealots, political terrorists and so forth.

your current world view is something like this: i can't swim, how do people swim? you can learn right?

>>516061775 (OP)
beats me i'm jobless with very few friends.
i'm visiting my rich aunt and uncle and cousins with my wife and kids, and all my life my aunt and uncle have been predisposed to making jokes at my expense and saying shit like i'm a dumb hick anytime i don't do something exactly like they do.
this cobtributed to my insanely low self esteem, which in turn has seen me taken advantage of and shit on my entire adult life (i'm 33).
This trip they've managed to turn a story about a group of birds crapping on all of us at the zoo into a story where i exclusively had birds shit on me while in a group of 15 people in an also packed place. big laughs. then someone gave one of my kids some gross coconut based ice cream, didn't supervise them, and my uncle stonefacedly makes me clean his downstairs garbage that has half an ice cream treat melted in it.
i am a houseguest he hasn't seen in at least 3 years. at supper today a fancy butterknife with a bug design on it is at the table for splitting a dessert, nobody uses it, i pick it up to look at the bug design and my aunt launches into "what are you staring at the knife for? it's a knife" and i'm ticked, begin sternly asserting that there is something to see on the knife that i'm looking at, she doubles down, someone else asks "what's on it?" and i snap "boy, i'd like to know but it'd be insane to look at a knife", and it all kind of fades to different conversation. and then i'm asked to 'help clean the kitchen', my cousin tidying up just says he doesn't need help, i explain that's not really an option and i gotta help, i just end up rinsing and scrubbing some dishes, not like getting involved DOING dishes because it's 100% guaranteed i'll somehow have done it wrong. my aunt comes up and says "which are clean?" and i attempt to explain they aren't CLEAN, i've just done the majority of the work and they can check over them or soak them in soap or disinfect or whatever. (1/2 I guess)

>>516063461
2/2

She looks at me like i'm nuts and asks 'okay are they CLEAN?". I state i rinsed and scrubbed them, i don't know what she considers clean. so she asks "did you use soap?" despite me already saying i didn't, i say 'no', and she says 'ok well i'll just do the dishes then' all dismissive like and that just sent me into a rage, and i just leave the room and seclude myself to avoid saying something regrettable. she comes around a half hour later all "what was that about" and i explain my fucking life's story just to get the typical "sorry", "it wasn't my intention to make you feel bad" and "you need therapy" responses that i have received any time i bring up a pattern of disrespect with someone close to me. it's always unintentional. just comes naturally to everyone, i guess.
we'll leave in the morning and take our 7 hour drive back to our shithole hick city and my aunt will be certain she did a good thing by telling me to seek help after i told her that i've tried that and people won't even listen to me when they're being paid to.
i regret having kids because i can never teach them success. i'm broken. i'm going to produce more broken people. i want to die but i'm too terrified of what nonexistence will be like

>>516061775 (OP)
Find the good in people. They might be npc's but many people are caring empathetic people.
Don't broach topics that trigger your autism. If they bring something up that is disagreeable, just change the subject. You don't need to register your opinion.
Don't reveal your power level. Ever.
If you think that society is fake and gay, well I can't disagree. But you should at the very least learn how to navigate social situations. No man is an island and at some point you may need to rely on these skills.

>>516062848
>reddit spaced
>statements that barely relate to the thread
>memeflag
>same youtube link twice
can the embodiment of the dead internet theory please fuck off to another thread, thanks

>>516063668
>take charge of the conversation and redirect it
LMAO

>>516063519
You just need to become a dirt bike family retard, or maybe quads are more you style but your shit is pathetic fren.

>>516064022
what the fuck are you even talking about

I'm not a normalfaggot
>that's why I use the term normie instead of normalfaggot
>but my only goal is simple: find a good wife, pay for a house in cash, and live quietly.
holy mother of normalfaggot

kys, nigger

>>516063742
kys, newfag

>>516063461
>>516063519
jobless but wife n kids? what she make good money? cant be that bad.
but u sound like an insufferable faggot.

>>516061775 (OP)
Im guessing you have never been in a real fist fight.

>>516064537
Why are you saying this. Op here with new id. Youre right but im physically strong. 6’3 210 pounds so people are naturally nice