>>520393239
I'm sorry bro. Troons are predatory, they rely on inebriated men to make bad judgments to extort sex from. Something similar happened to me. Except it was a faggot who sucked my dick in the high school bathroom. I wasn't drunk or drugged. Just a virgin. He found out and offered to suck my dick. I regretted it as soon as a I came. The post nut clarity hit hard. I've been living with the shame ever since. My mind cant reconcile what I did. I thank God we didn't go further than that. Even though he begged me to. I was too disgusted to continue. Worst part is he told the whole school about it and ruined my reputation.
I tried talking to therapists, but they call me homophobic and closeted. Especially the female ones. Nothing exorcises the shame away. Except for sex with a woman. But it's only temporary. Getting a blowjob from a woman does not bring about the same type of shame Only anal sex does. Pussy sex makes the shame go away. If I rawdog her and cum inside, then the shame of the sinful act goes away for a long time.
I've trawled pro-gay sites and told them about me being ashamed of having gay sex and they almost always unilaterally agree. Some of them even realize that it's biological. But continue having sex with men, because it's the only thing they know, and they would lose all the gay friends they've built up over the years. But usually when the mods get a whiff me bringing the shame of gay sex up, they ban my accounts and purge the discussions.