>>521107676
>I am charming as fuck and can converse like a car saleman, during the initial text stage fucks me up though
I'm almost certain you're not white. I'm going to throw a few thoughts out there. You will know most of them land.
-You're not particularly attractive, there is something with your appearance that women find off putting. Whatever that is. You're Indian or a chink, and women automatically get the ick. Maybe I'm way off and you are white (but I don't think so). Maybe you are white and shut in. Maybe you've got sunken panda eyes, fucked up teeth, eyes a little close together, one eye considerably bigger than the other, hips wider than your shoulders, torso longer than your legs, going bald, patchy neckbeard. Maybe you're 5'5. Whatever it is, there will be something. The type of guy that will "reveal himself" when he's "ready" when the "time is right". The guy that isnt comfortable taking unannounced video calls, or meeting at the drop of a hat.
-You've got deficiencies, inadequacies, insecurities that you're anxious about.
-You struggle to hold a conversation and you struggle to make a conversation, particularly with women, particularly with people (men and women) you don't know. You need that person to help you out, you need that person to make you feel comfortable so you can "be yourself" whatever the fuck you think that is. But that rarely happens does it, you rarely get to that stage because your looks are a problem, and your personality traits are a problem. If someone does maintain contact with you (they often don't) there is often zero chemistry between you and it fizzles out. This causes you further stress, and you redouble your efforts to replace that source of contact in your phone (not real life)
>Also does it take you a month to meet birds IRL lmao?
That is quite simply a projected cope on your part. Honestly, just go back to where you came from, find someone of your own ethnicity, perhaps an arranged marriage, its your only hope