>>18762915 (OP)
My gosh this book, it had me go through all the emotions I swear. Let me tell you by immediately I was gripped by Phils character, he was incredibly relatable. His struggles with his mental health, his burnout, how that had greatly affected all aspects of his life, his work, relationship, mood, interests, appetite, god that was well written. Kayla managed to truly capture how it can feel whilst your stuck in the depths of your own struggles and how hard it can be continuously keep trying to get better. It really highlighted that healing isnt linear and this book does a fantastic job of not rushing his journey, he has ups and downs throughout, his progress was realistic and his growth was so worth celebrating. God he did so well, I was cheering for Phil every step of the way.
Ian, god bless Ian. A big huge tank of a man with a heart of gold, a true gentleman but who also tells it like it is and doesnt beat around the bush. He was a light in Phils world and he definitely lit up this book. His calm demeanour and attitude truly meant that he provided Phil with a sense of safety and allowed him to truly just explore and be himself, without fear of letting someone down constantly. Their banter together was hilarious and I was laughing constantly, I especially loved his Scottish quips. Seriously how were these two guys together so funny.
But you guys, the angst, the pining, the chemistry, the friendship, the care, the comfortability and acceptance of eachother together. There was not a single ounce of toxic masculinity in sight. I ATE IT UP. I wanted to bundle them up in a little cookie bag and eat them.
Phil had so much love for both his fiance Abigail, and for Ian and gosh as complex as everything was I think it was handled as well as it could have been considering the circumstances.
