>>81480814 (OP)She was sort of ugly, I was young and naive. After puberty hit us; I became uglier and more desperate and she got better looking. However, at that time we were living in different cities.
In junior year we again lived in the same city and went to the same highschool. She however was dating someone, and was never single. She is now happily married with children. I meanwhile am postig here and planning to kill myself
I can use some copes. She woud have left me anyways, or cheated on me. She did have stronger crushes on other boys in school. I was just the more accesible one.
A lot of the guys she dated were abuse chads. She sort of had a thing for alpha dark triads. A low-t beta like me wouldn't be enough for her. She would hve cheated on me.