I miss her, I miss when we used to chat all night until one of us fell asleep.
when are the memories of her going to disappear? someone please erase these painful memories

>>81497389 (OP)
>when are the memories of her going to disappear?
never without considerable brain damage, the memories just get somewhat easier to shrug off instead of instantly throwing you into the pit of despair for the entire day, glhf

>>81497389 (OP)
>>81497389 (OP)
I am going to tell you advice you have heard before
GET OVER IT
The best way to get over it is to find someone new. Stop trying to replay the past, learn from the mistakes of the past to develop as a character, as a Human Being, and then incorporate those lessons into your new attempts
We can't get the toothpaste back in the tube

>>81497389 (OP)
Anon just listen to me all you need to do is rape her

>>81497428
>without considerable brain damage
I need to try drugs
>>81497429
I'm trying to get over it but everything makes me think about her and I just can't replace her like that with another woman, she wasn't some easily replaceable gold fish.
>>81497452
no!!! I don't want to hurt her

>>81497458
>I'm trying to get over it but everything makes me think about her
So what is there for you to focus on?
Are you a NEET? Student? Employee?

>>81497510
currently a neet, I lost my previous job is not like I've been a neet for my entire life. I am trying to get another job and I do other things to keep my mind occupied but every morning and every night I think about her, I can't help it

You want me to hurt you so you feel justified. What's actually happening is you're just sitting here ruminating about us

>>81497522
Yeah that's a big part of the problem
If you were at work I would tell you to focus on your job. If you were in school I would suggest focusing on your classes. But as a NEET it's gonna nag at you.

>>81497529
yeah I'm really trying hard to get a job, ESPECIALLY since she left, at least videogames help for a few hours

>>81497556
What was your last job?
I work at a shitty call centre

>>81497565
oh it was a crappy factory job, very repetitive stuff but it was at least at walking distance from my house.

>>81497429
I can get toothpaste back into a tube just fine

>>81497640
d-don't give me hope anon...

>>81497389 (OP)
I'm not trying to. I'm about to kill myself over the same problem once I have my guns back. You'll either get over it or you won't. Time will tell and suicide is always an option

>>81497389 (OP)
based kings field poster

>>81497666
yeah I've been pretty suicidal lately, you're telling me it doesn't get better?
>>81497680
I like king's field, I've only beaten the original japanese game I need to try the sequels

>>81497389 (OP)
I haven't been able to sleep most nights ever since she isolated herself from everyone, including me, wrongly assumed I would have been the exception.
It's been over 2 months and I feel like a walking corpse, like my soul is being drained.

>>81497708
someone as based as a kings field enjoyer should not commit suicide. Live.

>>81497389 (OP)
women, and people, come and go

>>81497708
Relationships and people all fall on a spectrum. It'll either get better or it won't. You sound young and trying to find work is something you'd do if it's not that bad

>>81497719
holy shit, that's exactly what's happening to me too, to be fair she didn't broke up with me she was going through some trouble at home and she does this sometimes she isolates herself when she gets depressed, it's not the first time she does this though it is the first time she does it for so long and to be honest I don't know if it's over or not
>>81497759
thanks bro, I've been feeling a bit suicidal but I don't actually want to die, if that makes any sense.
>>81497767
not for someone like me, people rarely come into my life.
>>81497769
I hope it gets better

>>81497666
You ever think about resetting your life instead of ending it?
trying to get a SEA wife or teaching English in some foreign country.

>>81497862
I'm almost 40. I've been resetting my life for 20 years and this is how the world paid me

>>81497389 (OP)
why didn't it work out? origami

>>81498069
I'm not really sure, I was too clingy I guess, but then again she was always encouraging me being clingy so I'm not really sure.
she just left me without even saying good bye

>>81498121
How did you guys meet? What were the rough phases of the relationship? Did you notice any particular point from which she went from warm to cool?

>>81498128
we met online actually, and no I didn't notice any particular point where she changed, well ok I did, she got depressed and when she gets depressed she distances herself from everybody including me, but then I just never heard from her again, she didn't even broke up with me she is just gone

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ch-TDGW-zXs
I listen to this on repeat while thinking about her

>>81498160
Did you ever meet in real life or is this exclusively an online relationship?

>>81498693
it was online, we did want to meet irl but we lived pretty far away form each other

>>81497389 (OP)
I hope he feels like this whenever he thinks of me. He's the one who ruined everything and the bitch he left me for didn't even want him

>>81498698
That's sad, where are the two of you from?

>>81498717
I'm from somewhere in the west coast and she is from somewhere in the east coast, lets leave it at that.
>>81498714
would you take him back if he came back to you?

>>81498728
No I genuinely want him to suffer as much as possible so he can think about what he did wrong.

>>81498746
I honestly don't know if I did something wrong, whatever the case, I will never forgive myself for losing her

Role-playing the conclusion does not actually create a conclusion, but a dwelling and delusion and distortion of how you actually feel and what actually happened.

Didn't expect this thread to be up in the morning

>>81501618
yeah me neither
I'm OP btw, I just woke up

what a lonely morning

>>81502027
Sounds like you got some decent rest
Any Sunday plans?

>>81502443
yeah I slept fine, um I think I'm gonna play some videogames, this might be my last day as a neet, I'm gonna go job hunting tomorrow, hopefully I can get one this time, how about you anon?

I don't want to feel like this anymore

>>81502523
I was thinkiing of playing some video games today as well
Did you ever play Hotel Dusk? DS had some interesting narrative games

>>81503505
It looks cool! I should give it a try?
lately I've been playing that musou berserk game, it's mindless fun, I've also been replaying the dark souls games, haven't played them in like 10 years and maybe I'll play megaman x6 later today, I love x6 despite how bs it is

>>81503593
I remember seeing huge 2 page spreads advertising a berserk game when reading old game magazines.
Hotel Dusk has a really good vibe
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cryVv-kx9I0
Dark souls was a series of games I never really got into but they really appeal to a certain kind of gamer

>>81503654
oh yeah that's the dreamcast game, I want to play that game one day, it looks fun, simple but fun
also hotel dusk looks like my type of game! finally an excuse to use my ds :D

I like dark souls, but I agree when people say they are overrated, they really are and the fan base is very annoying (if not cancerous) but to me they are just fun relaxing games, I never found them difficult, really the difficulty of those games is pretty average but at the time it came out games were starting to become incredibly easy.

>>81497389 (OP)
HAHAHAH shes surely blowjobing another dude right now

https://youtu.be/iBeyEXd46U8?si=u-rGgLDCMeyI1sbQ

how does it feel that shes fucking other guys right now

>>81497389 (OP)
You sound like a massive cuck.

shes taking anal from bbc as we speak
she said op is a fagtoa

shes getting eiffel towered by 2 black chad gangbangers right now

she is currently giving a blumkin to a drug dealer in an abandoned toilet after purchasing fentanyl from him

>>81503720
>>81503762
>>81503769
>>81503809
>>81503824
>>81503849
samefag
I don't know why you got triggered

man, for someone that hates black people you sure think about them quite a lot

Surprised this thread is still up
>>81497429
When I said this, I had in mind you could try going to a game event with other people
Like Magic the Gathering, Yugioh, Digimon, Pokemon. Something like that
A new activity you would never do with her, so you have no memories of her attached to that activity

>>81504260
I appreciate it anon, I really should try going out more, maybe meet new people, being alone in my room is not helpful nor is it healthy at least not in my current state

>>81497389 (OP)
What Kings field game should I emulate?

>>81505050
um I don't know, all of them? I've only played the original japanese game but I plan on playing all of them eventually, I guess start with king's field 2 (that would be king's field 1 in america)

>>81503853
sorry you shit fucking loser
but your ex gf is being gang raped by a pack of wind niggers at this moment

>>81505276
>wind niggers
woah there's a new type of black people now?

>>81497389 (OP)
i hope he never had to feel this way about me.. hopefully if we drift apart naturally. he doesnt miss me and mourn me, that would actually break my heart omg.. i dont wnat him to forget me but id just really want him to move on and be happy without me.. if it does come to that

>>81505362
Hehhehehehehehehheheheeh
you should tell him about your new partner and how he makes you happy, he must be just like op now, without knowing anything ? right op?

>>81505377
it's not funny, this really hurts :(
>>81505362
why did you leave your bf?

>>81505317
https://youtu.be/u0-r0GROFrw?si=Heqoq3ib2PCO7LEJ

>>81505377
well, at least if she did that, it would give me closure

>>81505415
I don't want to listen to that, I don't like that type of music

>>81497389 (OP)
>I miss her
Yeah, anon. It sucks. I miss someone, too. I miss her every waking moment, and she haunts my dreams and nightmares. She was my everything. Without her, I feel empty. It hurts, I cry if I think too much about it. I question my self-worth even more than I used to. It was her. She is the one. It's always been her. My beloved.
I miss her so fucking much.
>someone please erase these painful memories
Even though I'm stuck, drowning in anguish and frustration. I don't regret the time we spent together. Not for a second.
I love her, and I'm glad I met her. I don't regret loving her.
I just wish things could be different.

>>81505423
your ex gf is getting dicked down so hard right now
while you stay on this pathetic thread
i know men that fucked her so good while you keep making these shitty cuck threads all day and you are ugly

>>81497389 (OP)
when you get over it and find a new gf

how does it feel knowing while you just sit and play with fire like a loser cuck
when your ex gf is getting dick so hard from asian men from japan right now. i dont even know what you are doing.

>>81505453
I hate dreaming about her, that's the worst part, you know, for the longest time I had the same problem with a different girl that I knew in middle school, she would appear in my dreams from time to time, I can't believe this shit is happening to me again.
>>81505473
yawn...
you got anything new?
>>81505484
I wish it was that easy. you know? just finding another girl.

>>81505494
oh asian men? at least you are being original

>>81505496
how can you keep obsessing over one worthless hole ?
your thread is not even authentic is it ?

>>81505510
it is authentic and her leaving is still recent and I feel so alone so this negative attention is helping with that

>>81505496
This is the first time that my dreams are haunted by someone.
I had trouble ever finding someone I fell in love with. Most women I was attracted to, it was more like a physical thing. I just thought they were pretty.
I truly loved this woman. I loved her honestly and deeply. I still do. I thought I would never find someone, but there she was. I had found a home. She was my home.
Now I'm lost again.
My eyes genuinely get watery when I think about it, even now.
I don't know what will happen in the future, and desu, I hardly care anymore.

>>81505526
you are a sorry sap

>>81505534
I 100% understand how you feel friend, I've been dealing with this since middle school and I had finally moved on only for this new girl to come into my life and make me go through the same ordeal again.
>>81505539
yes....yes I am

>>81505402
hes not my bf. ive just been talking to him for 6months online and i know one day its gonna end and were both really attactched to eachother and just wouldnt wish that feeling on him and im sorry your going through that

>>81505572
play with your fucking fire in your fucking bedroom you sorry sap. while you gf drinks loads of cum from big black cocks in hell.

>>81505582
but, what makes you think it's going to end? it can work out!
> im sorry your going through that
I appreciate it

>>81505582
>i know one day its gonna end
Why?
I know distance is a hard thing to deal with. But it's not impossible.
I was going to do it.

>>81505592
why are you so obsessed with black cock specifically?

>>81505572
I don't have any advice, but venting and whining about it does help a little.
At least you're not alone in your limerence. Maybe that can be comforting.

>>81505615
yeah, that's fine, I wasn't expecting any advice besides the usual "move on" and "get a new gf"

>>81505596
well honestly its not super realistic.. he lives in australia and his 32 ish and im 20 but we just really love eachothers company but i dont see it going so much further than that, also never have seen his face soo theres also that..

>>81505724
nta but I still believe it can work out, but if you are gonna stop talking to him, at least say something before you do, don't leave him guessing like my gf did to me

>>81505724
The age gap is weird imo.
But you do whatever you want.
I think it can work. I would have made it work. I actually was actively setting up ways for it to work.
I think that people usually hide their lack of commitment behind the excuse of ditstance and circumstance. I know it's hard. I know it's unlikely to work. I know I have to work my ass off for it to work. I would still do it.

>>81505740
i value communication with the people i care about, i will, and good luck with ur situation

>>81505749
what's fucking me up the most was her just not talking to me at all, she didn't told me if it was over of if the situation at her home got worse, nothing!

seriously communication is important! this is hell I wouldn't want even my worst enemy to go through this.

>>81497389 (OP)
Hi. 40 year oldfag here to tell you it never fully goes away. Over 20 years later I have intense dreams about my high school girlfriend. Used to be unbearable, but now it's simply annoying. Trust me, the deeper you allow your obsessive thinking to widdle down your resolve, the worse it's going to be for you when you are tortured by echoes of it later down the line. Cut the chord kid.

>>81505924
shit... I said it earlier but I already had problems by having dreams about a girl I knew in middle school and I just got over it and then this other girl comes into my life and I'm going through it again, it took me like 10 years to get over the previous girl, goddamn it, sometimes I think I'm being punished for something I did in a previous life, I mean.. assuming past lives are a thing

>>81497389 (OP)
Op I miss him too but we can't really do anything about it, life isn't going to go back as it was in our happiest

>>81506529
I have some hope because technically the relationship didn't end.
but more than likely it's over and I'm just coping she just didn't want to deal with my bs and didn't even bother to break up with me

>>81505924
Did you meet any girls in your 20s?
I want to meet someone new if I can

>>81506823
Meet and married her. 16 years this november. She's great and I love her to bits. Still doesn't stop the invasive nightmares of the hell my old gf put me through while I'm dreaming. Believe me, if I could take a brain plunger and unplug the gunk from my subconscious mind I would.

oh my thread is still up!

>>81505534
You are larping as me. I don't take kindly to you parroting me and what I've said.

>>81507639
has it ever occurred to you that you are not the only one going through the same thing?
who the fuck even are you? why would anybody want to larp as you? get over yourself

>>81507709
It is very clear that you are LARPing.

I'm sure others see through how you attempt to twist narrative to shift perception.

You are going to continue larping but know You are wasting your time because others see right through you and know what you are doing.

Instead of causing this perceivement of others, everyone is judging you because of your cruel actions and manipulative LARPs to hurt others

>>81507743
ahhh classic mike, as usual I have no clue what you are talking about

>>81507789
Others do and that's what matters

>>81507799
ok so by that logic I'm not doing whatever it is that you are accusing me of doing

>>81497389 (OP)
It takes about 6 months for things like this to stop bothering me acutely, 1 year to become rarely bothersome, 2 years to fall into the pit of "only when I get random suifuel flashbacks". I'd say about 5-10 years before you don't think of it at all, depending on how those years go for you.

>>81507821
fuck... it's only been 2 months

>>81507829
Ok well you're on track then, I was ready for you to come back with "it's been 7 years and I'm still suffering" in which case I would have no copes for you except to blame you for not moving on in that time. 2 months is no problem, you'll get past it. For now try drinking heavily, that's a classic that gives you a night off at least

>>81507842
hm I don't drink, maybe I should. I only smoke which really does nothing

looking at her pictures last night was a bad idea, I cried myself to sleep

>>81497389 (OP)
god you're pathetic, please kill yourself
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>>81497428
Ganbare!

Its desudesu I wish I had my memories, all my good ones got traumatized out of me and r locked behind horrible memorizes. My wishes can't come true, and they shouldn't, you can't hope for the past to change and if you think about the past too much, than the present becomes the past, so wanting now to change is just as futile as time change. The only times Im happy is when I forget Im depressed, it seems like its counter intuitive, and perhaps only works for me. When a therapist tries to remind me of my si it triggers my si, so I ignore depression and just focus on being my best self.