Anon I hope you were doing well. I do genuinely care and I want to help in someway. Please tell me what worries you tonight. I care for you Anon and I want to listen to you.

>>81505407 (OP)
I don't have any to say but have a bump nonny

>>81505407 (OP)
I'm starting a new job halfway across the world, and I'm terrified of something going wrong. I need to do tons of paperwork and I'm worried I'm not doing it right, and what's worse, it costs a ton of money. Plus I'm worrying about moving out of my apartment and packing everything up and keeping it clean.

>>81505779
I appreciate the bump my dear Anon. I hope you are doing well and okay. May your days be beautiful and sweet.

>>81505407 (OP)
hello vent anon! how are you doing today???????? i waited for your email but you didnt email me so i was very sad

>>81505791
My dear Anon please dont worry. Everything will eventually pass. It seems like many good things are waiting for you. When you do your paper work please do it while you are calm and in the middle of the day once you are focused. Moving out of your place is really easy so please no worries. Friends or coworkers or family or anyone can help if you reach. be sure that these are all minor worries that will lead to big good outcomes. I wish you the best on your journey anon.

>>81505809
I always remember you sweet gentle anon. im so sorry for not reaching you Im genuinely scared of reaching anyone these days. I have a guy Discord saved from here and your proton email saved too. I dont forget people like you or people here Anon. I appreciate you all and wish you all good. Im sorry for making you sad anon...

>>81505880
>minor worries
I don't really have a backup plan if this doesn't work out. If the job falls through, I'll have to move back in with my parents and find a job in the tiny town where they live. So this feels like a big deal for me.

>>81505880
>Im genuinely scared of reaching anyone these days.
hehe i understand. it's okay, take your time. is there a reason why you are scared? it sounds like you've been hurt recently. that's why i thought email would be a safer choice for you, so you can take your time to reply
(and i'm not sad, i was just kidding... i understand how you feel)

>>81505407 (OP)
Been a neet for a while and having to take classes at an introductory level feels like torture. The information is simulanteously easy, but my head feels so slow that I end up forgetting something as soon as I read it. I want it to end. I don't like feeling inept, but thats what my pattern of behavior predicts. Im 27. I've put off my suicide for as long as I can. I know this sounds melodramatic and frankly I hate that I even need to speak at all, but I just feels compelled to talk and talk and talk as if anything I say has any value to anyone

I'm still a neet and my ability to socialize is slowly dying to where I have a hard time even saying hi to certain people. I rarely go out and try my best to avoid most people to where I don't even bother contacting people who genuinely like being around me.

As a kid I always wanted to be alone and as an adult I got exactly what I asked for in which I'm paying the price for it. I also live in the hood which has made my paranoia even worse.

>>81507357
you have to force yourself out of your comfort zone in order to change this. people can't live in that way forever.

Just feeling a bit deflated, Trying to tell myself that the black pill isn't real but got a pretty big reminder this weekend

>>81505407 (OP)
Your picture reflects how I feel. Standing in the rain. I do not have worries tonight and I am able to allow trust to foster.

>>81505407 (OP)
>>81505791
write down all the things that could go wrong then write contingency plans. if you are unable to think of a contingency plan or contingency plans aren't needed, then practice mindfulness/meditation/whatever the fuck it's called. just stop thinkin about it mannnnnnn. I'm excited for you anon. I hope you get paid very nicely over there, maybe you'll ascend past the need for this place to some extent.
>>81507357
have you tried playing vrchat/using omegle? they're not as good as real life interactions but they're better than just texting people in order to keep your social skills sharp.
>>81507542
Nawww man I'm tall and have an average face and I cannot fathom the possibility of getting a girlfriend, yet all of my normalfag friends have gotten gfs, even the ones that are at my looks level or even below it. On dating apps the black pill is king, but outside of them a lot of it is how much fun you are to be around, although the looks are important too.
>>81505407 (OP)
As far as venting for myself though, i'm pretty beat up that i'll never get a girlfriend. I think about it everyday, it's really sad. I'll never ask a girl out (i don't want to risk making a girl uncomfortable enough to try talking to one in public) and i'm never going to get asked out by a girl (women don't fucking do that for some reason.) and dating apps have been rekt for the past, like, 5 years, so. It's over. I'm rekt. There's nothing I can do unless I'm willing to risk asking girls out or dming girls on normie social media or some shit, none of which i'm willing to do. GAME OVER RAGHHH
I keep positive because my problems are borderline nonexistant. I can't get a gf sure but i have friends and all my basic needs are met, PLUS I don't live in like india or pakistan or some other shithole. So y'know. Could be worse.

>>81505407 (OP)
I feel like i cant get my life started. ive been neeting for a couple of years, never had a job or applied to any colleges, never had any real dreams for what i want to do in the future beyond some superficial excuse id give to people when they asked me. Looking at other people my age and seeing them have done so much with themselves already adds to this crushing weight that i feel. I feel like im just missing the part of me that should give me some kind of hope or dream for the future, but i dont know. This is my first time writing any of these thoughts out or even attempting to communicate them to another person even though they bounce around in my head so often, so it probably comes off being scatterbrained or confusing but oh well

>>81507808
Never do this. What you're doing by writing down things that go wrong is choosing to dwell in a illusion of failure and distortion of progressing and having a good future and all the good things that are happening. Why write a negative story and choose to live in that. Trying to write all the ways to fix the thing that could go wrong is only reinforcing negativity in your life That does not actually exist.

If you practice mindfulness, meditation focus on what you want and dwell there.