>>81517852 (OP)You don't want the answer, that's why you're anxious.
You know oyu're making choices which are going to lead to your life being worse in the future, this is why you're anxious.
To stop being anxious, you have to stop ruining your own future and stop acting on your moment to moment impulses. You have to stop doing what feels good right now and start doing what doesn't feel good right now.
This is why you're anxious.