>>81519811 (OP)taking it easy after work again
today i had a pretty nice dream but i forgot it, i think it had to do with sports or something
not sure if i was watching something or participated... hmm.
today at work i got reminded of my own loneliness again
we had an evacuation training happen today and while we were outside waiting, everyone was there chatting with someone or in a group, but there i was on my own, not even among the newbies
but then i realized, it's not that the world rejects me, quite the opposite
it's just me who am often utterly... bored, or uncomfortable with those people that i can't really relate to very much
i certainly appreciate them but again, it's that massive gap between me and them that discourages me so much
on one hand i'm incredibly grateful to have one real friend in my life, along with you guys to chat with
but on the other hand i'm disappointed that i most likely won't find anyone who i click with (naturally) over there
^i say naturally because i can click with everyone (blessing of charisma), but it takes some effort from me to do so
the magic happens when we click without putting any effort into it, which i don't think is happening anytime soon