i fantasize about someone ending my miserable life. i wish i could be happy. why am i such a mentally ill freak

>>81548261 (OP)
That manga is kino.

>>81548261 (OP)
i would volunteer to kill any foid who wants to die, i think that would be kind of hot

>>81548277
i love the ending
>>81548285
my tag is deathbyelise

>>81548261 (OP)
Bro, as long as you're physically healthy, you got a lot going for you and can try and turn things around mentally. It's when you have pain from illness or injury that suicide stops becoming an ideation out of self pity and something you really seriously consider.

Just be thankful you're young and probably healthy bro. Do yourself a favor and turn things around from there. Once you're injured or sick, it's fucking over for real.

>>81548446
They're already set in their shit. Let em sort themselves out. No point. I've tried to convince like 3 fags here who are all 3 dead so, no point.

>>81548277
that mango is quinoa

>>81548446
I guess you're right. I don't do much to help myself. I need to turn to God again because I don't know what else to do.

>>81548458
Yeah I've gotten tired of it too. I feel empathy but at the same time, lost my patience with how shitty my life is and always been and how it gets worse and worse. But when I talk about suicide, I get sent to a fucking pysch ward and get my life ruined.

There are people who think suicidal ideation is just another means to grab attention and manipulate others into loving them or giving them positive praise...

But once, like I said, you feel straight up physical pain from injuries, traumas, diseases, etc...Suicide is way more tempting, for real and not some goofy attention seeking bullshit.

>>81548502
Action bro, ACTION. World's leading expert on depression gave this talk (it's on youtube somewhere) about how only ACTION cures depression. Not pills. Not therapy. Just DOING THINGS about your life or situation or whatever it is. Changing things.

Focus on what is bothering you the most and meditate and think of a way to get out of it. Take action steps in reality and get out of your own head, brother.

>>81548521
I've been sent to the psychward involuntary twice. It's very easy for me to give into suicidal thoughts and harm myself. Not having anything to look forward to drives me insane. I cannot imagine living a long life.

>>81548538
Thanks man, I'll try being better again. I do notice that when I am doing something I don't feel depressed.

>>81548539
It's why you don't talk about it, not to be tough but normies just throw you into pysch ward hell thinking that helps, being locked up with junkies, schizos and nigger bouncers constantly all yelling, screaming and threatening you.

Pysch ward ruined my life and makes me want to die every time I think about it. I've been to jail too and I'd rather a jail cell than a pysch ward.

>>81548555
Working out helps too because it just releases feel good chemicals in the brain, like jogging or sit ups and push ups... YOGA is really helpful too.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-Va_P61H9IY&list=PLpfKu0U8zxt7AaLE18ezYAlRWoLE_aUAE&index=25

This feels really good and healthy, helps put you in a better mood because your spine and thus your mind is getting worked on.

>>81548609
I don't interact with normies and this board is the only place I could vent my feelings. The ward felt like hell but it was nice being away from my family.

>>81548622
I usually walked outside for hours while listening to music and it helped my mood. But I haven't been able to due to the terrible weather in my state. It keeps raining.

>>81548626
>>81548635
You can get better anon, I believe in you, good night!

Just become a rasta with hemp rolling papers and eat the wildlife in the Maldives you will never look back