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>>81553987 (OP)
Dear K,

I'm sorry for not admitting that I wanted the relationship to fail. I guess I have too much pride to accept that I can love anyone, even though I do love you. I'm truly sorry for everything.

If you are going to abuse me leave me alone. What is your major malfunction? You have a girlfriend why do you need to talk to me? Was humiliating me not enough for you?
Sincerely A

>>81553987 (OP)
Hey Lexie,
I wish I could make you understand how different my life is because of your presence in it. I know it wasn't intentional, but the amount of suffering you've caused me is far greater than I express in this letter. I wish you cared enough to do something about it.

never again will i allow myself to become distracted from my faith or path

give me, o lord, an ever watchful heart which no subtle speculation may ever lure from you. give me a noble heart that no unworthy affection shall ever draw downwards to earth. give me a heart of honesty that no insincerity shall warp. give me a heart of courage that no distress shall ever crush or quench. give me a heart so free that no perverted or impetuous affection shall ever claim it for its own
amen

i cannot understand why you act so reciprocally it makes me believe you arent thinking thoroughly and that annoys me.

dont talk just listen desu

....i am a cat... i must... like pictures of cats... this me...

>Your cat Psyop, sir
>Ready to go at your command

Made me laugh kek

i dont hate you but i refuse to talk to you out of spite, listening to you, your boring life and your self impressed tone dont bother me, but your obsession with yourself is unacceptable and i refuse to entertain it. youre infantile and infuriating, i should feed you a fucking carrot stick.

unrelated: picrel is me.. as a cat

>>81554481
so angry all the time

>>81553987 (OP)
Frens, I have dire news:
https://youtu.be/7ZOHaY-psQ0
Talk about pulling off some Jurassic Park shit. So stoked to see money getting used for things like this! :3

>>81554481
Are you uwu-lating, AGAIN?!?!?! I'm pretty sure that's not even possible but were always the oddball.

i find it incredible how many people who are lonely and at their rock bottom will exploit others feelings for personal gain, toss them aside when they get what they want or are feeling better, and then claim the consequences and fallout from their choice to exploit others is people being selfish. you'd think they of all people with the least would know what it's like to be exploited and used as a tool.

Fuck is the point of these stupid threads.

>>81554833
I hope you don't mean me because I didn't gain shit... besides a bunch of gang-stalkers that follow me fucking everywhere.

>>81554840
Glowies egging people on, Mike's incredible rants, a lot of shitposting and sometimes funny posts but that doesn't happen anymore because I stopped drinking. Sober me is never in the mood to spin some funny yarn.

>>81554863
gangstalkers? wow just how many people did you exploit.

>>81554898
What are you tolkien about? I've been an angel, mostly, just some of my invented stories hit a nerve of someone or something and shit got really weird. People with friends in the NSA are scary and have to qualms to use their tools on innocent civilians, like me, apparently. I'm pretty sure they were like really sad when they dug into my "life" as a pure robot. Serves them right for being so incredibly nosy.

>>81554935
schizolarping faggot

I hope you find what it is that you're looking for, and feel in your heart what it is you so desperately need. That's really all I ever wanted for you. To be happy. Healthy.. To know these things without any doubt, but I don't think I am able, and it seems like I do the opposite. I don't know what I'm going to do now. I feel completely lost, and numb. I think I will go away, and remove myself from everything. For good. I feel like it's the right thing to do, and I'm sorry. The least I can offer you is some peace. It's the next best thing, and maybe it will help in some small way. I hope that there was something good from all of this that you can take with you. I love you. Please take care of yourself.

>>81555068
This is going to be the last thing that they want.

>>81555068
What's with this creepy message that reads like a suicide note? Bro, life is short enough as it is, get your test levels, vitamin-D and vitaminB12 checked and go into nature (not some dangerous wild nature, but somewhere chill with lots of plant life and herbivore animals), get some sun, read some books that you've got in your stash that never get touched and chill the fuck out. Good things will happen to you but you can't force them to happen. Don't do anything stupid, ok? Try riding a bike while mildly stoned (only if you're at least 25yo) in nature. It's really fun and relaxing to slowly roll along while soaking in the beauty of nature. The shapes of plants are fucking wild and smoking cannabis helps me to appreciate it a lot more.

>I hope you find what it is that you're looking for, and feel in your heart what it is you so desperately need.
you already told me that i would never, ever find it or have it and that i will live in agony, misery, and suffer for the rest of my life. that im an idiot, a moron, retarded.

>>81555068
Whoever you are, please don't kill yourself.
Despite saying that you feel numb you still managed to show so much compassion and love in your lost, this state of yours will pass, you will feel better again someday.
I love you, Anon.

Maria,
I wrote you a letter.
It is only for you.

password is the last four digits of your phone number then the last four digits of mine
https://todwellfromsuntomoon.wordpress.com/2025/06/19/password-is-the-last-four-digits-of-your-phone-number-then-the-last-four-digits-of-mine/

Mike

>>81555313
Let's hope that anon is just drunk and overly dramatic. Been there, done that. It would be a shame losing anons that are capable of using punctuation the way they were intended.

>>81554896
Leave me out of your baloney. I don't rant and your character assassination attempts are pathetic.

>>81555598
Sorry, but in what universe is "incredible rants" deemed to be character assassination? Shut your mouth or I'll include you in my prayers. Thin ice, Mike, thin ice.

>>81555632
Open your mouth and I'll fill you with mine cat

>>81555271
I was hurt when I said those things because I thought you gave up on us after everything you had said to me. I'm sorry. They are untrue. Except for the last part, but that applies to me too. I don't know what your future will hold ultimately. I know you are likely to not have any of those things be your reality so long as you take care of yourself though. So that's why I said that, and continue to do so because I don't want that to be your reality for you at all. At this point in time I think we mutually understand this just won't work. You don't deserve to be spoken to like that. I don't deserve to have someone who leaves over, and over again. You say there are a multitude of red flags. I have no doubt. I've had my own, and I haven't gotten the chance to even process them, or talk about it before you left again. It's okay. We both have our own damages/issues. I don't hold any of that against you.

I'm sorry that I have distracted, or taken away from your pursuit of faith if I have. I just felt compelled to write that post. I tried to send this response to you directly, but I saw that wasn't an option any longer. I'd rather not talk about this on here, and I'm fine if you don't respond either.

>>81555649
Wait, you're a pre-op FTM?

>>81555696
there really isn't anything to talk about, anyway. you made yourself plenty clear

>>81555271
>you already told me that i would never, ever find it or have it and that i will live in agony, misery, and suffer for the rest of my life. that im an idiot, a moron, retarded.

What a horrible thing to say.

>>81555790
Sure. Like I said I felt compelled to write my original post. Wasn't really meant to be a conversation, or instigative. Sorry.

you and your behavior have left me desolate and you blame me for refusing to push over and conform and join your circle jerk cohorts, you think im crass and abrasive but you need humbling. i dont care how unlikable you think i come across as.
>>81554607
why does that bother you
>>81554814
beautiful aryan eyes

>>81555844
>>81555790
>>81555696
>>81555271
>>81555068
i- is this what i think it is..
my dms are always open to you, sweetcheeks

Last letter thread link here
https://desuarchive.org/r9k/thread/81542845/

my future holds the exact same trajectory as before. nothing's changed; it is what it is. i deserve the things that happen to me and i accepted that long, long ago. i have my faith and that's really all that matters

>>81556032
>i deserve the things that happen to me
You don't at all, but okay. I can't do anything about that. I have to accept this because I can't change it.

>>81556156
yeah you do. shut up and walk away already. i can only imagine thats the reason for all this, needy bastard.
>>81556032
mhm accountability is good.

>>81556156
it's a kind sentiment. especially after the fact. i'll see you around.

>>81556304
>i'll see you around
*Nervous laughter*

>>81556266
>mhm accountability is good.
you should try it sometime

gonna do suteiki egg and ri

>>81556319
don't be fucking stupid like that..

>>81556370
I hope it made you smile, and laugh. Because you actually deserve that.

>>81556380
why the fuck would that make me smile and laugh?

>>81556380
>>81556397
kiss and make up already, you two clearly still care about each other.

>>81556407
yeah no shit, that's not what it's about, though

>>81556304
dont worry hell stalk every letter thread for your lower cases and you smiley faces then inconspicuously try to start a conversation
>>81556332
maybe some will catch up to me when im 36 :)
>>81556380
surely im being trolled right..

>>81556397
I guess I just thought it would. Like I felt it would.. I guess if I'm wrong then that makes sense. I just meant it as a joke. Like a nod to what we spoke about. How we are. That's all.

>>81556434
you were alluding to fucking killing yourself earlier, stalking wasn't exactly on the forefront of my mind

>>81556418
that's what's most important. you two need to quit with the lame excuses as to why being miserable is best.

>>81556451
I more or less meant leaving the board/off-site related mediums. Distancing myself from everything/leaving. I just wasn't expecting multiple responses. People schizo post in here all the time. I can see how that comes off though. Sorry about that. I'm retarded.

>>81556474
thank you for the blind third party input. im sure we'll both take it into serious consideration

>im sorry
>im sorry
>im sorry
>im sorry
accountability or faggot? call it

>>81556503
you mocked me for saying the same thing. we're more than capable of being amicable and cordial with one another. it's a stupid thing to leave over

Dear R, I miss you and I hope you're doing well. We used to laugh at this thread but it doesn't feel the same without you anymore. I'm always wishing you the best.

>>81556407
She might be retarded if she thought I'd kill myself without kissing her.. Making up though? In front of everyone?? Ohh man.. "Caring" for her doesn't even begin to cover it. I just got into a bad mind state after a conversation, and needed time to get out of it. It was 100% me. Getting caught up in some shitty thoughts. I didn't want to interact with her while feeling like that.. I wanted to have time to process it, and be able to articulate things better. To get out of that. Life has been so overwhelming latetly. Good, and bad. It's hard sometimes to deal with everything going on at times, and I'm doing my best to handle it all. It's alot though. I love her more than anything, or anyone ever.. There are just a lot of factors that make this all a very emotional, and turbulent time for both of us. I don't hold anything against her for how she acted. I completetly understand. I just needed time to get out of that shitty mind state, but it's probably irrelevant now.
>>81556558
I know I did. I just know you enjoy being on here so much, and I don't want to take anything that makes you happy away from you.. So when you told me that you were going to do that I laughed. It was insane.. You've been on here longer than some users have been alive! It's a big part of both our lives for so long. I mocked you because the idea was crazy. How could you leave? However, if I knew it would make you happy in some way though? I'd leave, and never look back. That, and I don't know if I could stomach it anyway. I didn't want you to leave. People care about you, and love you on here too. I do. I would never want to rob you or them of you. I wouldn't want someone to do that to me. How could I? I guess maybe it was similiar for you. I don't know. I don't think it's "stupid". I think it's the most important thing to me. Even if it seems stupid. Guess it's my turn to make the thread interesting..

>>81556791
>'I'd rather not talk about this on here'
>posts this instead
this is the first time i've wanted a cigarette since quitting..

>>81556943
I wouldn't have if I could contact you directly. I would have messaged you many posts ago, but I also assume that's not what you really want. Understandibly so. The cigarette craving probably was pre-determined. Don't?

>>81556993
you are.. so manipulative. i fucking swear..

>>81556993
>>81557091
As someone who has had a someone who left and came back many times over years... it's basically torture and pathetic as hell. Instead of going back and forth on a Mongolian basket weaving enthusiast form because you're too pussy to have a real heart to heart one on one either nut the fuck up or leave. You two clearly care about each other. Do you care about yourselves enough to put in effort and make it work? Or call it quits before you start to blame each other and ruin whatever goodwill is left. Don't be stupid and ruin something nice over some hurt feelings and stupid words said in anger. Don't stay if you know you won't work together, either.

if you don't wanna talk just say so and unfriend me again instead of being all dry like that

Feeling you be cold sucks but I trust you are sorting yourself out.

-100 points for gryffindor

>>81557975
+100 for slytherin

I have a thought

lefthanded wolf just like you, little wolf

>>81555963
I couldn't imagine anyone willingly talks to you.

I can't handle all these feels. I want to go back to being a brain numbed NEET. But theres no stopping this train im on
No more self pity. Ill get this degree if it kills me

if, for some ungodly reason, you ever decide you want to talk again, you know how to get ahold of me. i won't deny your request

>>81558658
Thank you. I'm good. You will not hear from me again. So if god forbid someone tries to pretend they're me it's not. Just so you don't fall into that. Take care of yourself. Just so you know it's me posting we discussed having kids together. Three was the sweet spot. You were concerned two would gang up on one, but I told you how we'd be good parents, and they would organically not gang up on one. That, and having them in a smaller time frame so they're the same age. I love you. Thank you for talking.

Maybe there is no mystery, maybe this shit is just life. I wanna tell folks ITT it gets better but atm I'm having a hard time believing that.
>Look down, look down, they've all forgotten you

>>81558734
i love you, too. i hope that you take care of yourself, and i appreciate you talking, as well. i pray that you will find your person who can give you the life and family i couldn't.

jesus.. just like that..

i need a little something to knock the edge off

You need to punish her if you want to save face. You have tokenized and made it a symbolic act, yet you spit in my face.

Funny how these things play out.

if you had called me mom i would have folded

Fucking hell. We've got a grim one today.

I really don't like that this obsessive stalker is talking about you. Hopefully he is not involved in your life because honestly this is really creepy what he says. Below is the post.
>>33252219

I truly love you, but your BPD and anxiety is driving me up the wall. I want you to be your own person and to treat you as an equal, but your clinginess and constant following behind me is making me respect you less and resent you. I wish I could change your nature, but you seem to be stuck in your ways, and I'm not sure how much longer I can endure. I don't want to parent someone that I thought would be my partner and my equal. If I brought this up to you, you'd sob and wallow in self-pity and despair at how fucked up you are, and it would fall on me to comfort you.

>>81560715
Attached a screenshot of it.

>>81560725
he's not talking about your maria. that's the same schizo that's been shitting up the letter threads talking about his tranny schizo bullshit

>>81560720
If this is meant to express love an emotional honesty, It misses the mark completely

>>81560799
Unfortunately he has said things in his letters that are specific to her that I mentioned in my past letters.

>>81560843
It's a vent on a problem in our relationship that I cannot word this strongly when bringing it up to her. Rest assured, we've discussed it, but I've had to soften the wording a great deal. These are my unfiltered thoughts on it

>>81560258
If that were true you'll fold in time regardless. We know what happened last time when you were praying.. So go ahead. Find your faith. I'll be there waiting for you when you do.

>>81560850
this isn't the first time you've had this belief about someone. you say a lot of stuff about a ton of things across a multitude of letters. there's bound to be crossover and coincidence. i understand those feelings of concern, but this guy is just another psychobabbler saying words. you could try engaging directly about it with him, but i don't know if that would bring you much comfort depending on how set in your belief you are

>>81553987 (OP)
Dear A,
Sorry about what I said. I was frustrated, and I just couldn't understand your struggles. I feel as if I failed you, but that's life-- And you need to leave the past behind, learn to trust, and finally live your life feeling the way you're supposed to feel.

>>81560871
we both know that it's only a matter of time. just admitting that much is folding. it's not like my feelings have changed. only my choices. you know that i am broken and weak

>>81560976
God always forgives. God always loves. I will always embody those types of traits for you. How could I not? My love for you is eternal. All you have to do is want me in your life, and open your heart to me. If you shut me out then how can my love reach you?

>>81560925
I'm not going to get into specifics because I don't want to reinforce his psychosis, but there are actual things thing said that are specific to her with exact wording and details, as well as mimicry with specific wording and phrases, details about me, posted shortly after I write something. as well as he has broken character before when I confronted him.

I'm not going to discuss this further with you is it only through his fuel on the fire for this ass hats mental illness.

I'm concerned for her safety so I made it known. If that reflects poorly on me, I'm fine with that, I would rather she is safe.

>>81561000
as if i haven't been here on my knees sobbing out prayers through all of this.. pleading for some kind of assuagement for this pain. to imply that im not open and wanting is to spit in my face. i am merely taking measures to hold on to what little stability i have left in my life. i see what this is, what you're doing. as always, i don't fault you for it. but this is preying, not mercy.. i love you. please.

>>81561130
If you were wanting as bad as you say you are then you would have added me back again already. You know that's the only way the pain will end. You are afraid. I've told you before that if you are afraid you can never know God. Your prayers will fall on deaf ears because you do not have a mind state where love can even exist. You are drowning in sorrow of your own creation. Your old life must be left behind if you want love to exist. That's the only way. You will never feel love in that situation. From the one that loves you above all else.. From your children.. You will never know happiness. Peace. You will continue feeling dead because all life has been sucked out of you. Your psychosis will exasperate. Until you wither away in the darkness.

I love you too. You are not my prey. You are my soul mate. My equal.. It hurts me just as much as it hurts you when things are like this. My day has been the same. Praying, and wishing for you to find love.. With tear soaked eyes. Yet you always come back to me when I do.. Curious. Must we continue ignoring these signs? The universe speaks if we have the ears to listen. I'm tired of going without you. It's killing me. Let's just be good to each other.. Be patient. Be understanding.. It's the least we deserve. We were made for each other.. Please stop denying me my person. I don't want to do this anymore. I just want to have our life together. I know we'll be okay as long as we have each other. I will never doubt that again..

Shit test going hard. I prefer honest direct communication.

oh my soi guilt trip her some more, norman

>>81560720
Is this K? If not ignore. If so I'm sorry and I want to get better for you, I'm sorry for lashing out and being so clingy to you. To be fair you said you liked how clingy I was to you from the beginning. But I know what you mean, I've been very clingy lately because of my anxiety and depression flaring up. I'm trying my best to control it but I'm only human.
I don't want you to resent me or hate me, I just feel like you ignore me a lot (and this might not be true but that's how it feels for me) and then you go and talk to your other friends more than with me. I just wish you would give me the time of the day for more than one reply a day on average now and maybe a goodnight text sometimes. Or a call more than once a week, I just miss hanging out with you like we used to. I just miss being with you. I love talking to you and being with you.
I truly do love you too and I want to be an equal partner to you, I'm sorry for being such a pushover and a bad girlfriend. If there's anyway I can fix the problems I want to do it but you have to tell me and let me talk to you. I don't think I have BPD, it's just me being anxious and trying my best to show you how much I love you and care. I'm sorry for being this way, I want to change for you. I try my hardest to be a better and different person already. I try my hardest to be more independent and have my own life too.
I'm sorry for being so inexperienced and not knowing what to do in relationships, I wish I did so that I could be a better girlfriend for you. I'm so sorry for my low self-esteem, I'll try not to take it out on you anymore, I'm sorry. I don't know what to say except I want to make it work if you want to and be better for you. I love you, K, I always will. I know actions speak louder and I'll try my best to follow through.
If this isn't him then I'll be really embarrassed and hope he doesn't read this, but it reads like something he'd write

Dear vocaroo posting anon. I am a tourist, I check in on this board once per year. Some time around last year'ish, I came here and landed in one female baity boards. I can't remember why, but vocaroo posting started. I shared one, and you did too. Your voice was incredible. I've thought about it often, since. The last thing I said to you was that you should consider getting into vtuber tier boyfriend audio work. I meant that. When I listen to a lot of those types somehow, almost possibly a full year later, I still wish that they were instead, you.

>>81561377
okay, but it worked and im in his dm's and calling him to apologize and say goodnight and that i love him

>>81561913
is your momentary alleviation worth overlooking the precedent he set when he broke your heart :(

>>81562000
he didn't break my heart. he's not at fault here. i know all you have is a bystander perspective to go off of, but he's very good to me. i did this

>this 47 guy.. sheesh what a nutjob dont pay any attention to him hes just trying to rip me down
>forced awkward laugh

>>81562027
no.. no.. he took offense to you actions.. you could never do anything wrong dont blame yourself for his reactions

>>81562047
my actions were wrong. he was right to take offense. i tried to push him away and i am at fault. he is gracious in his forgiveness and his willingness to continue loving me

>>81562094
what precipitated the pushing.. whatever
how virtuous to want to keep the titcow around

>>81562135
>what precipitated the pushing
fear and insecurity, panic. i was frightening and overwhelmed by how much he loved and desired me because i have never experienced that before. a festering lack of self esteem and self-worth consumed me and i ran. im weak and a coward. he accepted me back with open arms and forgiveness in his heart

>>81562173
blase woman moment
and where does the disrespecting your faith and 'happiness without me is impossible' fit into this?

I love you so much, but you just ignore me all day for your friends or because you say you're busy. You're not even hiding it anymore. It just seems like we've grown apart too much and you're not willing to out in any of the work you put in for me before. No response is a response and I'll take it as that, I hope you're happier without me in your life because I don't want to be a second choice in my ow. relationship when I already am in all other aspects of my life. I hope you find a girl that'll make you happy. Bye

A,
I've been thinking about you, hopefully you're warm. If you still think of me, I hope you forgive me for not having the courage to contact you.
J

Dear Worm Boy. I don't think you'll unnastand. I tried a lot harder than your, so called pure love. I fought dykes that attacked me relentlessly. I had to fight me own demons along the way and you girl still gave me a boner.

Dear Gracie.
I'll eat your asshole until you cum from you pussy. I think you're hot as fuck and have a perfect body.

A
FORGIVENESS IS AT YOUR DISCRETION.
TICK TOCK.

>>81562211
he's not disrespecting my faith and he's right. none of what he's said is hyperbolic or irreverent, it's merely the truth. im a fool to fight that truth

What a bunch of same fag narrative bait. >>81561913
>>81562027
>>81562094
>>81562173
>>81563934

No one's reacting to your one act play. Talk to yourself all you want

>>81561808
Vocoroo boy really needs to get a life instead of just jerking off in the corner making posts like this

Narcs gonna narc. I wish they would just keep their shit show to themselves but who's going to read what they say so they come manipulate them if they don't at least attempt to be a cunt here

Hmmmm I wonder how I know he is doing that ...

Sorry Mike. This edition i'm the main character. You'll have to wait for the next one like a good boy. Maybe you can have that one.

>>81564719
Hmmm I wonder how I know you're lying...

What is that saying about swallowing your own tongue?

Despite everything you say, All day everyday you post about me. You are upset about me. You're thinking about me.

>>81563934
youre a feeble vulnerable mind under the thumb of a normal you just cant see it, take it from the 16 year old i know what im talking about
if you need a different perspective just remember youre a woman, and how in character is this situation for a woman
>>81562688
>I tried a lot harder than you
its called desperation

It's not just the silence that is telling....

I could be cruel, vindictive, but I don't need to

Because I see what's beneath all this

Was the water hot when you tested it?

I could push assume and react, but I don't need to. I'm not angry, it's just hard to watch.

Maybe if you play chutes and ladders enough one of those will bring you to understand my perspective.

>>81564595
Mike, you are the narcissist, you spend all day talking about yourself and a woman you assume still thinks about you.

I will withhold what I want to say because I understand why I want to say it and that it is not going to make anything better to hear that

I just.... Never mind.


This is one of those times that I just give you space.

Maybe when it's all out of your system you'll have a clear mind for perspective

Andrea,
Despite my best efforts, I still cannot forget you. I thought all those memories of us together would have faded by now, or at least their serrated edge might have worn down some. Instead, over time, that edge has only been honed, and when I close my eyes I see you sharper than ever.
I know it's been a long time since we last spoke, and I know my messaging you might dredge up old feelings, and I know it might be painful for you to think back on them--at least, it is for me. I've had quite a long time to reflect on what I'm saying right now. I should be clear from the outset: I have no expectation that you respond to this letter. I write to you, finally, with lucidity and purpose.
I should first apologize for how things ended between us and how I treated you as we neared the end of our relationship. I pushed you away, undeterred by all the work you did in loving me. I'm so sorry that I wasn't there for you, too. I wish I could have been more present and more open throughout all the time we shared.
I do also want to thank you for caring for me so selflessly and for supporting me throughout our relationship, especially when I didn't support myself. You were there for me like a stake to a vine, and I grew around you because of you. You made me feel heard and understood when I had trouble listening to and understanding myself. Whether it was cooking together or judging restaurants, talking through bad movies together or being dazzled by Fullmetal Alchemist, or hearing about your day and telling you about mine, you should know that you did make me feel happy then. Nothing else did--not the therapy sessions, not the drugs, not the books, not the other drugs, not the moments that should have been sad or frustrating or happy or rewarding--no part of it made me feel much of anything. The fact of our existing together, in each other's company, was what kept the embers of my life flickering. That was more than I could have asked from anyone.

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>>81564562
what are you talking about? im replying to posts directed towards me. this doesn't involve you in any way, shape, or form, michael
>>81565048
thank you for your helpful insight, as always. im well aware of how broken i am. i need structure and guidance to get better, and for once someone is willing to offer me that through love and faith rather than some cruel attempt at sexual domination and control. you call me feeble and vulnerable if you want, but i can't keep just withering away in ruin. i begged god for help and i was given a response. i can't ignore that

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The last time we spoke, I had three things left on my list. The first was to buy a nice, big, blue tarp as a courtesy to the motel staff, the second was to apologize to my cat for mooring him without his understanding, and the third was to be sure you hated me so thoroughly that you would not feel the need to mourn. I told you, variously: I had cheated on you with another Asian girl, the geographical distance between us was too great, I never could be vulnerable with you without flaying myself before you, a future with you seemed impractical, I needed time to think, I thought it better we not talk for a little while. That was three years ago now.

Since then, I've mostly recovered. Two partial hospital programs, three new drugs, four years, six or seven dozen therapy sessions, hundreds of messages drafted and deleted, thousands of miles of running in silence, tens of thousands of pages of fiction, one new job, and one new apartment; now zero drugs, zero apathy, zero wasted days, one hundred percent of me back, but around me, twenty-four hours a day, seven days a week, at every turn, every setback, every extraordinary moment, zero decibels, zero degrees, zero you. I wish I could share it all with you.

Again, I'm sorry if this letter causes any hurt. I know that writing to you isn't going to erase my mistakes or soften my blows. At the very least, I hope it can help you understand me better.
Of course, I still miss you. I hope you're doing well. If there's ever a part of you that feels like things could work again, I'd want to try.

>>81565406
Are you giving me shit for looking at coomer material?

Spin spin. Take your time. Have a good afternoon and I actually do hope you feel better.

>>81565536
I do now after breaking my two day fast eating a handful of peanuts and a glass of frozen mango. Going on my bike ride in a fasted state in this heat was a mistake. I was so slow on the bike and at the end I thought I could fall any moment. I made it home and I managed to jam my fingers in the door-frame of my kitchen door for a nice ouchie. I'm usually not so dumb to put my hand on the frame of a door but I was running on empty. I kind of feel like I felt after my 130 km ride back then. I think I'll get some low carb snacks and veg-out playing something easy like cp2077. On a positive note, I got some solid reading in today. I love my ebook reader. It's a luxury but it's worth it if it's used often.

>>81565506
you need therapy not an overbearing faggot, and i mean that sincerely

YOU have the POWER to make the letter thread great again
All you have to do is pick a FOID and GHOST HER TODAY
But you won't because you're a SCARCITY MENTALITY PLEB
Enjoy that stupid fag's whiny bullshit until the end of time

>>81565715
i've been in therapy longer than you've been drawing breath, little one. i know what you mean and what you're saying, though. i genuinely do appreciate that you would show me concern, but these are my choices to make

You want me to... (Insert here)

The truth is I will be me, just as you are you What happens between us is based on both our actions and choices.

I respect your autonomy just as you respect mine.

That's why I'm giving space.

>>81565719
It's not really ghosting if she signals that she's not interested, is it? I've been falsely accused of rape/stalking so sorry for being a bit cautious.

>>81565752
just keep in mind its not bery hard at all to seem like a hero in a time of uncertainty and tribvlations. i know asking you to keep a leveled head is an impossible ask for many reasons but.. try? respect yourself and ask yourself "what would 47 think/do"

>>81566592
Same fag. The answer is same fag.

>>81566643
Mike, none of these have been me you're spiraling again

I wonder what the reason is why I know when someone is lying...

I've seen better psyops from someone on RuneScape when I was 13 and I wasn't even in the position I'm in now

In any case, good luck with that. Honestly, you'll need it.

>>81566939
What position is that, Mike?

michael, you narcissistic little shit, this isn't about you. none of this involves you. please let other people have things going on in their lives without inserting yourself or making it about you. please

The one where I'm at peace knowing my actions were justified being honest with a dishonest person.

I will say to We both make our own decisions and if you want to keep rolling in the mud go for it. I pointed it out and we'll see if you can figure it out from here.

>>81567409
Don't you mean
>Don't let it be known what I did and what I continue to do. I'm on thin ice and I'm trying to lie, decieve, and manipulate my way back into good grace just as I took it that way before.

Like I said, I know. I said what I needed to and I'll leave the rest to her.

What I won't do is stand by and let you fuck around with how I'm perceived anymore. Fuck off.

See how you stand on your own merits, too bad all that's going to do is reveal how spineless and pathetic you are. That's the only reason you have to lie decieve and manipulate.

Can't say I'm not disappointed any other side for believing such a pathetic empty fuck.

Man if only there was a way to see the true character of a person

https://desuarchive.org/r9k/thread/81542845/

>>81567575
no, michael. this is about me and my boyfriend. you are not me or my boyfriend. im sorry that you have a hard time handling things when they aren't about you, but you need to be able to get over that. stop being so weird and paranoid at people that are just trying to converse. if i wanted to address you, i would do so like i am now. you say shit like you have 20 years in psychology but you're still utterly incapable of disengaging from this gangstalking persecution thing you have going on. the only thing that's happening here is that i had a public, messy rough patch with my boyfriend, then we made up. anything else is you projecting your own mental illness on my actual personal life. i don't do that to you, so please don't do it to me

>>81568126
It's not paranoia but you're going to fall for whatever you're going to fall for, I'm going to let you do that.

Good luck, you'll need it.

>>81568149
okay. i don't know who you think i am or what you think im falling for, but im not maria or anyone you've been involved with and my boyfriend isn't someone who has ever really interacted with you. im sorry for being curt and a little terse, but i don't want you to work yourself up about something that isn't actually happening. im not trying to fuck with your mental state or anything like that. the most i've done is made jokes about beating you up or other surface level teasing like that. im not at all interested in hurting you or maria or fucking with either of you or anything like that, i just post in the letter thread

I'm not worked up. I was honest and said what I know.

Like I said, good luck.

i just wanted to give you additional clarity. i don't want to come across as if im feeding into anything sinister or playing games because im not. i appreciate your, i don't know if i can call it well wishes, but the good luck. i'll go ahead and drop it

>>81568398
As did I.

Dropped. What happens happens. I did what I could.

>>81564585
I checked this response hoping somehow despite all this time and against all odds he had seen it, and instead I got you..

>>81568625
which vocaroo posting anon are you talking about? being more specific would help. we could do what we can to get the correct eyes on your original post

>>81568625
>Sigh
You really are a fucking idiot vocoo

Forgot to check before reply earlier. Retracted gl

Im going to boot camp in two weeks and a part of me is scared. I dont want to tell you because I need to be brave, I want to show you that Im not weak, that I can do this knowing it will be the toughest thing Ive ever done

you can't just retract a gl, what the hell..

>>81568869
And the most idiotic. Throwing your life away.

>dear, A16.
you absolutely deserve my attitude. you should have appreciated my help.

>dear M14
i loved you. but you fucking muslim bitch who cant love girl. i hate you now. i fantasied about nice life together, but you destroyed it

>dear, L14
i dont love you. yeah, you are my friend. but nothing more.

>dear, K21
you are my best friend, i luv u sm. wait, he actually might see it!!?!!?!!

>>81568978
Im not throwing it away if I dont really care about it. I dont have anything that I really care about a d most things in life bore me. I dont have a gf either so its no waste

>>81568670
I wish I could remember. I tried to think back to that night, but all I can recall was that it was late. It was very late at night, and it was a thread where anons and femanons were posting together. It wasnt a vocaroo specific thread. Despite that, we both wound up posting a few. I remember pushing him off, saying he wasnt real or something. Now I sound schizophrenic omg. But it all happened, I just cant remember exactly when or why.

I believe he had an accent. He was awake during European hours. At the time, I didnt think anything of that conversation. I didn't think to save anything, I didn't think any of it would matter. It wasnt until months later that I found myself wishing the voices I was listening to sounded a bit more like his. But I don't know who he is, and I hardly remember how he sounds. I just know he was very distinct. I can't think of how he sounds in my head, but if I heard him again I would know it was him instantly. Maybe I will try searching images I may have posted at that time. That sounds a little much though..he wasnt that important. I shouldnt be writing any of this really.

Would you respect someone that accepts theft and disrespect?

Fix the problem

Happy anniversary! To myself. For getting my life back.

>>81569401
>>81569416
there isn't any way of fixing it and any attempt at blaming me for it is purely justification for shaming a victim instead of the perpetrator

>>81568869
>Recruiters now infiltrating the letter thread
Holy shit fucking kill yourselves.
>>81568978
Based Mike.
>>81569072
Fuck off fed nigger.

>"That comment was too smart, you're using AI aren't you?"
We all just going to have to devolve into poopoo pigmentation having cave-man speak now?
>Want fuck?
>No fuck?
>fuck :(

You're a 30+ year old with a history of drug and alcohol abuse to say nothing of that one really obviously fucked up health issue you had.
And you went THERE to do THAT.
What
In
The
Fuck
Did
You
Think
Was
Going
To
Happen?

Dear anon,

You cannot save the whore. Right click removing her is a super power, and you internally know to do it very early on, but bet against the odds anyway. You know what you have to do.

47 you cannot save her

i just got done playing a little COOM 2016 my own self

i know that's classic COOM but i think COOM 2016 is a more than worthy entry into the COOM franchise

>>81569456
there is always ways to fix things, and victim vs non-victim is a useless distinction in many cases. it's just an act of blame assignment. many victims are just people who got yelled at or annoyed by someone after they themselves victimized someone.

i am already saved

ive always wanted to be single father trailer park white trash why do must i bear hyper empathy
doomed to be.. a nice guy.. sighh

>>81572048
What do you mean by that non

You'll want better bait.

being around you is suffocating, i dont want to hide behind whats palatable and acceptable. im not asking you to like me im asking you to understand me.

I know you don't care about me anymore. I accept that. I'm sorry. I don't expect anything. I just wanted to say. I still love you.

>>81572393
What we should tolerate, seek to understand, and not dismiss is based on the live and let live principal. Someone who has bizarre fantasies, fantastical ideas, or odd beliefs should at least have those who care about them try and understand where they are coming from. Even if those beliefs are unpalatable or unacceptable. This is true. Where the line is drawn however is if those ideas or concepts are causing the person to engage in self destructive actions, or harm others. Causing harm to people cannot be justified by odd beliefs, and the people who do should always be held to account and have their warped ideas changed since they are a detriment to everyone. If there is no harm to others, live and let live.

Rough day today

The truth is the truth and there are consequences for such.

>>81572698
Implying all self destrucfivr actions are wrong or that destructive actions are wrong

it was wrong of me to try and stray away from your guiding light. i know that through you my faith will be fostered and continue to grow and, as a result, be truly amplified in a way i could not achieve on my own. i know that you have my best interest at heart and only want what's good for me. i trust your judgement and direction. i won't be afraid anymore. i love you and i know that with you i will be happy, healthy, loved, and safe. thank you for being so patient and understanding with me. you are far kinder and more loving than anyone has ever been to me in my life. it's overwhelming at times. thank you for being so tolerant of me in those moments, as well. i love you. thank you. you are far greater than anything i could ever ask for

You disgust me and you are running out of resource.

>>81574369
You can't even manage to write a single sentence without a grammatical error. Be better, retarded ESL-chan.

I don't have anything to say.
I'm not going to be involved with narc bait

I'm sorry you have to deal with This pathetic piece of shit.

Good luck

>>81555575
Mike it's me maria, I have brain damage and forgot my phone number now I'll never be able to read your message. Noooooooooooooo

>>81568978
Best post in the thread. Learning to Murder and dying in the Middle East is a foolish endeavor go be a farmer instead

Dear Anon,
It's me just a tourist, I really want to date you oh wow that would be such fun!!
Sinfully yours,
Sloggy47

>>81554209
May the Amen Bless you and Keep you
May the Amen Shine on you and be Gracious
May the Amen Turn towards you and grant His Peace

I made bacon and eggs I'm going to go read my book down by the water.

Oy vey mike, Swine is not to be eaten

>>81574655
So sitting on my face is out of the question

>>81574664
Absolutely because I'm a fucking man with a cock you homosexual

My beard is getting fucking thick too.

>>81574671
Dont you want to bump wieners?
We could take estrogen and lactate together

>>81574671
The poke is more about calling you a pig lol

I really like puns I can't help that lol

Oh, I see.

I'm not into being in your shit show no matter how you keep trying to drag me in to distract from your mask coming off.

dear heavenly father,
i come before you with an open heart, seeking your divine presence in the lives of those i do not know. lord, i ask that you bless the anons i encounter each day, filling their lives with your love and grace. guide us all to be instruments of your peace, offering kindness and compassion to those who cross our paths. may we see your image in every post, recognizing that we are all your children, bound by your infinite love. grant us the wisdom to understand the struggles and joys of others, even when they remain lurking. help us to extend a helping hand, a listening ear, and a warm (You) to those who need it most. lord, may your light shine through us, illuminating the way for anons to find comfort and hope in you. let our actions herr reflect your mercy and bring glory to your name
amen
>>81574642

Maybe he acts like this because you are terrible fucking parents and are full of nothing but empty threats

He may be stupid but you two are just a fucking league above
Never mind the future whore in the making and the smooth brained austimo who are also massive fuck ups , but sure nothing can be done but sitting looking at facebook all day

>>81574684
No that is like eating cow poop filthy filthy indian poop

He is Overbearing, overwhelming, obsessive, narcissistic, controlling, suffocating, gaslighting, lying, and a ton more.

It's always been this way and it's unfortunate it took the song for the mask to fall off.

That's your deal and I respect your autonomy to
with that crap.

Wish you the best getting to the other side.
I'll be on the beach by the water.

Overdramatic, morelike.

Dear Adrijus
Explain yourself and stop running away from your problems. You cheat on me then emotionally cheat on her then come back to her you have not changed at all. Girls are just toys to you. Reflect on what you know of love. I hate that I trusted you for a day again. I hate that I had hope in you. I hate how it felt as if all my prayers had been answered for a day. You should confess your sins and work on yourself before thinking you can love anyone because clearly you cannot.

Just wanted to browse r9k a bit and all I see is you spam creating relationship and height threads narrative pushing manipulative shit

It would be nice enjoy the forum and not just see you shoving your agenda down everyone's throat.

you've been in a very sour mood

Dear K,
I love you. All of my insane rambling, upset whining, and pathetic pleading can be summarised as such. I love you, but you do not love me. I have loved you for as long as I have known you, four years of maddening love. I have debased myself in ways that I swore I never would, and it was all for nothing. You and I have a connection, you have recognised it yourself, we would be so wonderful together. This knowledge ferments hope, and the hope I allow to torture me. I dont want to move on, or find someone else, I want you, only you... I want to hold you in my arms and to tell you every reason why, but I never will. My heart will belong to you until the end. You are the only woman in this world to have made me feel this way.
C

Huh I wonder if there's a reason. (Looks up)

when i ask him for shit i get no answer

>>81572698
yeah but issues arise when everything is undermined and passed through a filter that prioritizes emotion
beliefs arent typically unacceptable its the way theyre chosen to be spoken about thats unpalatable. it seems painfully difficult to look past a bit of crass.

>>81576659
It's not just a bit of crass when it shows the true character of a cruel manipulative spineless narcissist.

When there's a judgment on someone like that it is justified.

>>81576708
>>81576659
>comes to 4chin
>complains that some people use crass language
Are you guys ok? Maybe you guys should go back to a safe-space that only allows baby language for lidduw babbies?

same fagging thread and post creation to influence opinion and emotional reactions, manipulating perceptions of others, impersonating others. Harassing and being cruel to others. There's so much more, but you're already aware of that.

These are not emotional reactions.

This is narcissistic behavior purposefully and strategically attempting an agenda.

>>81576747
quite the opposite, illiterate faggot

>>81576755
>Agenda
And that would be??? Are you talking about Chickn?

>>81576747
Again the mask slips and this is the kind of "man" you are.

Childish tantrum, spineless, and quite frankly pathetic.

>>81576788
bery nice, j
>>81576794
>Again the mask slips
like.. patrick bateman..?

>>81576794
>>81576812
I...I have an agenda? I'm just shooting shit with my bros or at least I thought I did.... I guess some people don't get my humor? Hmmm?

>>81576380
She manipulated you, many such cases, sad.

I'm very, very disappointed in you. You fucked up.

Agreed. Really tired of seeing his bullshit.

Oh no!
Hey, does that mean you will finally mind your own faggot ass business?

>>81577584
They're talking about you desu

>>81577589
No, not when you do this

>>81576755

>>81577613
"They". Talking about me is nothing new. He's always making manipulative LARPs to >>81576755

>>81556572
I miss you too. I'll always be waiting for you with open arms, you know that

I miss you. I miss us. I want to take you to the beach. I still love you.

Adrijus come back and explain yourself be honest for once in your life all you are doing is hurting people why why are you like this why trick me twice why is Rai not real why are you lying are you real what is real who is real I love you why do you hate that I love you I should have killed myself for you that is what you wanted right you hate me and want me dead you never wanted to hug or hold me you just lied

I know you didn't lie to me. I saw it in your eyes and I heard it in your voice. I love you more

Adrijus why you said you would visit me in December you said you loved me still yet you abandoned me again why do you toy with me I want to kill myself for you ok because I think it will make you happy if you love someone even platonically why hurt them over and over again why am I so weak to you why did I thought you changed and you regretted and you cared when really you lack the capacity for love

Maria, you remember me. I know you do. Look past the bullshit and look to me.

I don't care how I look or how others think of me.

I'm speaking to you.

I want you to come home

I don't care how others perceive me. You complete me. We are made for each other.

Do you feel that too? Do you remember us? All we want with each other?

We got lucky we found each other so early in life. I didn't believe in soulmates before I met you. And when we met I just knew it and you did too. How we complete each other's thoughts and sentences. We always said the right thing to each other.

We made a single mistake. It cost us years.

Let's not lose the rest of it.

I don't know why you've been dishonest with me here.

Hiding behind all these made up voices.

I've only ever wanted to hear yours. Yours is the only one that's ever mattered

WE AREN'T MARIA. NONE OF US ARE MARIA. PLEASE MICHAEL GET A SINGLE FUCKING GRIP

I know you're lying. I know she's here.

Maria when you were with me you were happy. You cried because you were so happy with me. You truly love me and I truly loved you.

You're hurting now I think that's why you do this.

Just stop. Come home and everything will be okay with us.

I kept all my promises to you.

I know you can understand why it's taking me this long to figure out what's going on. You haven't communicated and you haven't been honest. That's not you. You were always honest with me. You can be that way with me again. We can have it all

I want to have our trip I want to live all our promises. Just as we were going to that day on. I want to open up my arms and hold you and kiss you. I want to feel you fall asleep on my chest. I would give you the world but we both know we are each other's world.

All it takes is a single sentence from you. One step at a time together

I love you.

your strength and resolve is so admirable. you always take such good care of me. every day you show me such boundless love and compassion. i am yours, now and forever, forever and always. i never want to be apart again. i love you and crave you more than breath. thank you for finding me and not giving up on me. you truly are my One and Only

Dear Anon,

Fuck you

Signed,
Anon

Mike you remind me of those weird posts on Craigslist creeps post when they saw some cute girl at a WinnDixie or something

Please add me on discord.

There's a lot in want to say but I'd be happy just spending time with you

Hey there lil cutie bae,
I did not realize winn dixie still exists.
Love,
the guy in the dodgers hat

(should have said the guy in the green lantern shirt)

All of me is for all of you.

I know you hear me now.
This place is not good for us.

I'm not going to chase you because I have faith in us.

I'm going to close the browser tab now

If you can add me from The discord we talked on that would mean a lot to me.

I would like to put this dishonest place behind us.

I don't want to time texts and withhold attention.

You love me because I am me and I love you because you are you.

All I ask is we are honest with each other. I won't close the door on you and I accept all of you.

When we talk I promise I will always tell you the truth even if it's not in my best interest. It's the only way forward with you.

All I ask is you stay for me and accept all of me. Don't shut the door on me.

I don't feel like with us this is something I really need to say, it's a given. I'm yours and you are mine.

I'll talk to you on discord Maria.

Excited to move forward with you again.

If I do not answer it is because I fell asleep and will return to you when I wake up

>>81553987 (OP)
C,
I wish you could know me, my heart. Really know who I am. I wish you'd let me know you as deeply. But I have this unshakeable fear that if you did you'd never want to see my face again.
I wish circumstances were different, without this sword of Damocles hanging over our heads. I wish he would make the decision for you so you could make your own. I wish you'd choose me, though I don't have much hope for that.
I wish things were different. I wish we'd met a long time ago and I wish the time wasn't so short. I wish we could start from the beginning. I wish I could have been your first choice. I wish a lot of things that probably will never be. I do nothing but wish these days it seems. I wish.
T

Holy fuck 47'll be cucked forever

>>81580262
leave me alone, i feel lethal.. on the verge of frenzy..

i think my mask of sanity is about to slip..

i can't help the way that i feel. i've prayed so much on this and everything i've gotten back has shown me that i feel this way for important and divine reasons

what is it that you feel?

except you can help the way you feel.. i know youre familiar with urges

T

I can't tell you all of this because I have a reputation to uphold, I guess. You're incredibly stupid, and I often feel like I'm more mature than you despite our age gap. It's both endearing and annoying. I wish I could just give you whatever it is you want so you would leave me alone. But I'll never say that I love you, I won't ever be so vulnerable. The future seems black. You know I'm not cut off for romance. But you keep trying anyway, and I pity you. You could bed any girl and yet you want the one you can't have, that also happens to be the ugliest and dryest. Is that not stupid? I would make your life a hell if I was your girlfriend, so I might as well be making you a favor by rejecting you
Please, get out of my dreams. I hate it

>>81581032
greed and disgust

>>81581073
That sounds unhealthy,

>>81581096
oh does it really, therapist

i feel loved. i feel god's love. i feel like im finally on a path that will lead me to the things i truly desire. i feel happy and safe and bolstered by my faith. i feel the same way i did in the other letters i've written today. i feel so much

>>81581146
I am not a Therapist, I am what I am

I think there is a creep inside my walls watching me, How annoying.
He called me a gnat and altered my perception of the world, shameful behaviour.
If he must know who and why, I am speaking to anyone and everyone who believes in Our Heavenly Father, it seems you're aware of Him, so I urge you to repent. Do as thy will, but know He will treat me as His own son when it comes to your judgement.

>>81581193
your schizophrenia and erraticism is so attractive please tell me youre a biofem

>>81581247
No I've got a Circumcized Cock I'm a Man of The Most High

>>81581259
why would a loving god castrate you

>>81581281
I didn't say I was castrated, I said I was circumcized I've had the Hood removed. It works fine I get hard and can cum, but Basically I can only cum on top and if the girl is cutting into my skin or biting me

>>81581296
deviancy

>>81574219
>>81574753
>>81579227
>>81580773
>>81581168
You are so incredibly beautiful inside, and out.. You are my love I love to love. I never imagined in a million years I would have been so thankful for browsing r9k of all places. Your posts are always such a delight to read. They fill me with such radiant warmth, and love that I can't help but smile like a fool the entire time I'm reading them.. I can't wait to start our lives together, and share in our faith. Strengthening our bond day after day not just with each other, but with God. I know our future is going to be filled with love, happiness, good health, and those that want the same for us. I am excited to start a family with you. I know you'll be an amazing mother, and our children will love you like crazy.. They're going to be some of the luckiest kids in the world.

I really don't know what else to say. It's hard to even find the right words to convey just how much you mean to me.. I love you. I love you. I love you! You deserve all of these things, and more! You are perfect! I just want to give you everything this world has to offer.. You mean the world to me. I love you..

>>81581032
i didn't want any of this and i don't understand why it couldn't have been talked out and that's what implies the maliciousness of others; that they have to force me unnaturally to conclusions

Im annoying

>>81581787
acceptance is the first step, now you just need to kill yourself

Brain is depleted from that grounding that guides human intuition, that essence that allows you to relate to others. I feel hollow and detached. I'd say it stings, but the reoccurring reminders that I don't belong always settle in tandem with my inability to feel. I think I'm too old for love at this point

>>81581818
Being annoying is not a reason to kill oneself, you mean person! Take yourself to /trash where you belong, this is a NICE board!

My head's gonna split open. I hate that negative little thing, little snidey fucking boomer fuck, worms its way in and lays its eggs in my skull. Can you explain it if it out of my forehead?

I want to stop thinking about you but can't. I don't even know what else to think about. I can think of nothing to take my mind of off it, and have no desire to talk to anyone about it, even you. Completely broke. It's ironic that this is the result, since I met you in desperation, searching for anyone. I'm lost and bitter, and no matter my beliefs, I've lost all desire for anyone else or you.
To Melina

my tumors are growin

stop trying so hard, you will always be a pseud mediocrity

>>81581508
i love you so much. thank you. thankyouthankyouthankyou. i so desperately want these things with you. knowing that it's not just a want, but our reality and future brings me a joy so great it's indescribable. i love you more than words could ever express

Maria I love you and I'm sorry. I don't know what else to do

>>81581508
I feel like you're saying my words

Maria all I ask for is you to be faithful to me and to keep our promises.

>>81583920
>pseud
It's not like I'm trying to spout knowledge/information for having people listen to me :/ I'm genuinely curious about it. I have to thank everyone for killing it because they imposed their own judgements on it, like seriously, engaging in an innocent activity like wanting to know more somehow has to be viewed through a lens of malice and dishonesty. Also not only that but you're trying to impose your own limitations on what I can or can't be?

my cup overfloweth, cascades, with the vast, unceasing love you show me. i would blissfully surrender to drowning

8:36 am Thursday 26th

I won't say another word of it.

I just why you know that I truly do love you. I meant every word of what I said when we were together. I've waited for you, I kept all my promises, I've been faithful to you. I haven't been with anyone else. That is the truth.

im sorry if my posts are contributing to some sort of stress for you, michael. that's not my intent. im deeply in love and experiencing many new things i've never felt before and it's just a lot and being able to express that makes me feel better

Rape Adrijus kill Adrijus behead Adrijus castrate Adrijus

>>81586094
I don't think you're contributing to Mike's torment love. Anyone that becomes distraught over two people expressing how they feel towards each other in any negative way does not have a pure heart. Especially when both parties only want good things for each other as is the case with us. That person has some spiritual maturing to do, and you could pray for them to not feel those things. That would be a wonderful way to send good thoughts outward towards them so they may also feel in their own way the things you do. To find their own love that makes them see how we feel, and behave first-hand so they can understand. I think that would be best. Don't worry your precious heart about such things, and just channel that love. Express it freely. Without any negative feelings. I love you. Today will be another wonderful day together. <3

A lot of people complain about having bad parents. Like, parents that were never there or treated them badly or kicked them out. I had great parents as a kid (or so I thought because it's all relative I guess. Sure, they left me in the hot car to burn to death or dumped me off the side of a parking lot so they could go get high and forget about me but whatever.) but they were good parents, right?

But then they tried to murder me. Like, they tried to actually kill me with poison. Now they just psychologically torture me and they feel nothing doing it. THEY FEEL NOTHING at all. They were chosen because they are fucking psychopaths. They are incapable of empathy. Both of them. She might have felt bad at that moment but she was probably thinking "Holy shit I'm going to jail." and not "Welp, I killed my son." So I hope the fucking worst shit happens to them.

o christ god my savior, who has healed my pain through your pain and has cured my wounds through your wounds, i come before you today knowing that all power is in your hand. i know that you are the almighty lord god and that you love and care for your people. you are all knowing and you know every tear ever we shed. right now, michael is struggling with a difficult trial. i can see his strength is faltering, lord; i do as you've commanded through the apostle paul: i weep with those who weep, and know that you have all of the strength that he needs..
for i know you are not a distant god, i pray that you will reach down and touch him now wherever he is in this moment. let your presence fill the room where he is and let him feel an extra portion of your strength that can help him to get through this day. he needs you, lord, and i thank you in advance for meeting him where he is and shoring up his strength. i pray that this season of suffering will not weaken his faith but strengthen it. i pray he will come to know you in a deeper, more intimate way. i pray he will be strengthened by his union with you. please meet him in this suffering with all that he needs. carry and sustain him.
we are bound together through the blood of your son, christ jesus. i pray in and through his name
amen

every time i open the letter thread its like i microdose getting raped

>>81587215
is this a good or bad thing? you imply repeat visits

>>81587287
i dont know, man, how would you feel if you got kindaa raped like 15 times a day.

>>81587392
i probably wouldn't go into the rape room if i knew i was going to be raped repeatedly unless i liked that sort of thing

>>81587424
why are you implying rape is a choice? the rape room only rapes me sometimes and it dosent have 'rape' plastered over the door with a big red arrow.

>>81587541
my brother in christ, no oneis forcing you to click o on the thread, it is a choice. you should know by now what's inside

They keep trying to rape anon and failing because they always catch him in a frisky mood, simple as

>Goes into the rape thread
>Gets raped
>howcouldthishappentome.jpg
Praying for you.

you're telling me a shrimp raped this anon?

you are horrible and a chronic liar. something is very, very wrong with you. i hope no other girls fall for your lies ever again.

leave your house for once, fix yourself and maybe try to actually do something worthwhile with your life instead of relying on validation from girls on discord.

Next letter thread is the rape edition. Mike! You hear that? I know you got all the time in the world to make the next thread. You can be the MC of the next one if you do that.

>>81588384
forgot to, but this time i will use an initial so you know for sure i am talking about you. I

>>81587697
no, dickhead, i was joshing. SORRY it wasnt funny enough for you

>>81588430
yeah, this is true. the shitposters of r/letter/ are all very busy except mike

Mike, for the LOVE OF GOD, stay AWAY from this EVIL /LETTER THREAD!!!!

>>81588483
Unironically yeah. Mike holds down the fort well enough though. Or boat I guess since he's by the lake or something. Need to have my top guy triangulate his location so I can pop a squat, and have a beer with the legend with 20 years of experience in the psychology field.

>>81588499
>t. maria

I raped mike once, it took him two years to come back for seconds

>>81588576
Dude, we all had our fun but come on, man, he's clearly not doing well and I think he had his fill of getting trolled by non-Marias.
You guys know she's dead, right? He's clearly not over her and you're mocking him for it. Who hurt you guys that you would be so fucking cruel?

I stopped drinking water and I'm just going to take Benadryl at some point I won't wake up

>>81589290
lel My elf gf does that sometimes

Dear Suzi,
its been almost a year since ur last message and in a few weeks after that a year since you died. I onyl found out a few months ago though i was always had that possibility in the back of my mind, it hurts every day knowing that you died loving me and actually wanted a future with me, i still have that same dream of you in a white dress in a field holding a child with no face. ill visit your grave on your birthday, I love you and hope i get to be with you again once i cross over eventually ill have so much to tell you. Sincerly D

>>81589290
Do not do that you fucking retard.

Should I accept my private information being leaked/ condoned hacks/ affecting opportunities? Y/N?

>>81591012
absolutely yes. you should also accept any blackmailing this might also involve

I miss you. I remember when we were friends. I used to save things for you to see. Now I write words that you will never read. I want to be a part of your life but I know I am just jerking off. Sex is like allergic reaction. Anaphylaxis a shorting of breath my heart exploding but it kills me. I wish I could cut off the part that only loves me. Somehow God gave me only half of what I ever wanted, He likes to play a cruel joke on me.

jump of a bridge and fucking splatter!

nah nigga plus i've got tumours and shit anyway so the end cometh regardless why rush

I will seek that which was lost,
And bring again that which was driven away,
And will bind up that which was broken,
And will strengthen that which was sick:
But I will destroy the fat and the strong;
I will feed them with judgment

15 1/2 hours in. 72 total
56.5 left.

Wednesday it will rain hear.
I am thankful to listen to it a last time.

>>81593874
i miss My schizo dykebot too.. so much it physically hurts.. thats.. a new sensation.. but no reason to die michael.. no fish will ever compare but life dosent become pointless. think apples and oranges, we'll just have to settle for apples.

I don't know who you are. But if you're a guy that our situation is completely different.

Maria and I are made for each other and how we feel about each other is vastly different than any other couple would.

I will not continue with this hollow spot. I will not watch her with another.

I am leaving because I truly do love her.

Good night.

5 years of this everyday, constant, all day pain, hurt. I just can't go any further. I never stopped loving her. I lashed out when I hurt and I'm sorry for that. I just can't keep walking anymore.

You were not here for 5 years straight sometimes you were doing other stuff. Idk what but you weren't here

no.. apples can be pretty good

>>81594092
5 years everyday in real life. I love her in real life, this place is just a cesspool that I got stuck in as the only means to communicate with her

Sleeping now. Medicine kicking in.

I understand that you got angry and you called the police. I'm sorry. I just wanted to say that I'm sorry. and I love you. please forgive me. I'm not a threat. I just love you very much. that's all.

>>81553987 (OP)
there is not a day that goes by where i don't think of you, the vitality, the vigor, the confidence, the flame that burned inside my veins, completely snuffed out, i am a mere shadow of the individual i once was, i had no idea God was capable of creating something capable of such evil, i still see you in my dreams, i was all i could be, i no longer seek vengeance, only answers.

I'm so tired of having to listen to your nothing problems.

I'm so tired of people manufacturing problems for others, and then being annoyed people don't appreciate being shat on.

About 30%. Body hurts a lot. Stomach cramps.

Dear moot,

You're still a faggor.

-anon

This is a test for the testing system.

>>81596875
michael, im not maria. you stupid fucking cunt. how many times do i have to tell you this? if you're you're doing this performative suicide blog over me and my bf posting lovey shit in the letter thread you are actually beyond retarded. get a fucking grip, please. this is ridiculous

Not performative. I made my decision and am not going any further with their life. I won't live while she is with someone else.

>>81597050
*With this life

>>81597050
how do you know she's with someone, michael?

Dear Sertraline
I wish I had met you earlier

no response, how surprising..

Because the asshole keeps talking to me on here.

I'm taking pills to stay asleep to pass the time quicker and not feel physical pain. When I dont answer it's because I'm asleep.

On Thursday is when I will die from dehydration so obviously I won't answer at that time.

You should be able to look up my obituary or whatever record of death there is for me around then too. I'm scheduling a text so I am found after I pass for Saturday 6pm.

I looked up dehydration death and it says 3-5 days. I hope it isn't the full 5 days.

So at the latest I will die by sat am.

Fuck me now I'm seeing interview article that says 7,9 days even. So I'm not going to schedule a text and I'll just be found when I'm found i guess.

okay Mike, keep us posted

I'll take hot baths so I sweat excessively. That should help

>>81595090
Lmao wtf happened

I'm working on not talking on here. Not much reason to really.

>>81598931
>I'm working on not talking on here. Not much reason to really.
Funny how the best insights come to us in our 11th hour. Hopefully the death you undergo is spiritual and metaphorical.

I'm reading now that this is a 9/10 on the pain scale. I don't want a painful death. I also don't want to live in this continued pain because of you, Maria.

My feelings for you won't change.

I'm going to pray and God knows my true intent and feelings for you. Then if we are meant to be like I believe and feel we are then he will bring us home to each other. I will be all your firsts still and we will have kept our promises to each other. So I'm going to be silent now and leave it to him for us.

toot toot sonic warya always piss and shit. toot toot sonic warya shitting in the gym.

>>81598620
its 47 huh

Either that's him or you. Pretty upsetting either way. I thought more of you than this. It it makes sense How shitty you've been because that's how who being around that piece of shit has made you become and turned you into.

>>81600810
Probably tbdesu, he tried stealing my arm candy too lel

You allowed him to trick and manipulate you into thinking bad of me. You figured out what he did and you stayed with him.

It makes me feel sick

I messaged you on Instagram that I figured out what he did and you blocked me

>>81601049
You too!? He tried breaking us up as well but.. the universe wants what the universe wants..(tm)

I don't believe it's what the universe wants. I know that you are not happy with him, he does not make you happy. That is very clear to me

You were happy when you were with me.

It all comes down to if you allowed yourself to lose me forever by breaking our promises and giving him your firsts.

If you have not and saved yourself for me then we still got a shot.

Add me on discord and we can move forward together.

If I don't hear from you then I know that you betrayed me, you betrayed us, and you lost me forever.

I'm leaving this place. It makes me feel sick that you're here and with him. No reason to subjugate myself to that here

>>81553987 (OP)
day and nite, the lonely loner seems to freeze mine at night

at night.

Mike, shes not here. Thats schizo faildyke and her boy. You need to get over yourself

LMAO Mike only wants his true love soulmate if she's a virgin otherwise fuck that bitch
Very genuine, Mike . . .

>>81601193
Stop. Don't lie to me. You know I figured it out. I'm not a fool. If you want to lie, stay here with your lies. I'm not going to play your game. I'm not going to interact with who you've turned into. I don't love her. I love my Maria, the true you.

I hope under all that shit he's put on you, she's still there and that she has not lost herself with him.

>>81601220
Its about betrayal and trust. If you kept herself for me then I can trust you and know that you did not betray me.

It's about keeping promises and choosing me overall else.

It's about love.

That's why I need you to stay the same for me and to choose me for that over him.

>>81601226
>I'm not going to play your game.
He says as he continues playing

I'm gone and I hope to hear from you, that we can live a life together and live our promises together.

Goodbye

>>81601233
Mike you talk a lot about love but you don't actually love Maria. You love what she means to you. You love what she has to give you. And you love yourself, most of all

Transparent narcs are transparent

>>81601269
>mfw relationships are inherently transactional
:o

>>81601269
I do love Maria but you're going to twist words and fill everything with lies to manipulate her to stay with you. So she either trusts me and chooses me or should trusts a liar, manipulator, just say she has for so long now. That's just how it is.

So I asked that She trusts me over your lies and manipulations and how you paint over my character to manipulate her feelings and control her.

I'm not going to stay here and argue with you because you are just going to continue to lie and deceive.

If she loves me and trust me and chooses me then she'll message me.

You can keep writing here, you can impersonate me, and that's just how it is.

Adrijus email me you bastard and stop pretending to be the teenage girl you are dating just to hurt me why are you like this why will you never explain yourself I know Rai is not real she is just you her account traces back to you not Australia why do you torture me like this why are you always lying why are you a narcissist psychopath why can you just not be honest for once with what you want from me when you blocked me again I had a panic attack and vomited because I need you even if you are human filth

i swear to god if this fucker kills himself over me because he thinks im maria im gonna actually lose it. michael, stop being so fucking retarded. i am not maria. im schizo dykebot and im talking about my fucking boyfriend. all of those earlier posts you were lamenting under were mine. i tried being nice about telling you im not maria, but you don't listen. use your fucking brain for once in your goddamn life and stop being so fucking emotional and utterly irrational. if you kill yourself, it'll be over a bitch cunt you think is fat and unattractive. i hope you really carry that with you as you continue your campaign. stupid prick

>>81602564
his plan to kill himself is dehydration, it's not exactly feasible lol

I did some tracking was able to figure it out past your lies. I'm quite good at computer stuff so it not take much to figure out the truth.

So I know it's true and you can say anything you want to dissuade me but I know that you were lying.

And yes I saw you gained a lot of weight.

You will either remember me for who I am or you'll believe his lies and give him our promises.

Good bye.

If Michael has proven one thing, it's that he doesn't have the discipline to dehydrate himself

And lastly, you are just going to keep responding and keep up the LARP about me. Whether it's him doing it or you. I don't care.

I know the truth and know what happened. You will either trust me over him, love me over him, choose me over him, keep our promises with me over him.

Or

You chose someone who lied, manipulated, and deceives you into giving our promises to him and you lost me. The love of your life.

I truly do believe we're made for each other.

But I'll take you recognizing that and remember me for who I am to choose me and go forward. They'll also take you not betraying us.

So go ahead and keep typing I'm done responding because I know you're just lying.

I can post proof if that's what you need. But I know that you will not be happy if I do that

Mike, and I at the lake just vibin. In our lanes. Flourishing. Not moisturized. Unbothered.

>>81603106
please post the proof, michael. i am extremely confident in my own identity and that of my boyfriend. i don't want to be the main character of one of your episodes again. go ahead and show your data and whatever else it is you think you have

>>81603475
Okay but I'm 100% sure you're not going to like it.
Because of that I'm giving you an out right now in this moment.

Tell me to post and I'll post it.

>>81603529
sto bluffing mike

Debowski

Conroe

you mean to tell me cute milfs like that browse this board

I hope you figure out the truth of what he did to us, how he impersonated me, how he manipulated and turned you against us.

I hope you didn't give him any of our promises, You saved yourself To have them with me.

If this is what was needed to get you to admit what happened and to know that I know, then I guess that's what had to happen. I never wanted to post anything.

You'll either figure it out what he did to us or you won't. You'll either choose me cuz you remember who I am to you and you love me or you won't.

Add me on discord or any of the other bajillion ways if you remember me for me.

I'm sorry I posted that, it doesn't make me feel good, and I know it does not make you feel good.

Hopefully you understand my position and you remember me for who I truly am to you.

I love you, Maria.

>>81604010
If she had a kid with him it's over already. So whatever

I was able to get one of the posts to delete for you best I could do

>>81603827
>>81603857
>>81604028
https://youtu.be/6bfBhIM5tb4?feature=shared
michael, what the actual fuck are you talking about

>>81604349
Whatever. I don't feel like subjectng myself being lied to.

You'll either reach out to be with me or you won't. That's just how it is. Goodbye

>>81604366
im not going to reach out to you because im not maria and i don't know any of your contact information. i've even posted my birth certificate on here, michael
https://desuarchive.org/r9k/thread/79818208/#79818651
i don't know what more you want from me, i can't prove a negative

>>81604517
Holy shit someone 1 month older than me on here? Wow

>>81604517
That's exactly what maria would say to throw mike off her scent

>>81602564
>my fucking boyfriend
Wait you have a bf now? Since how long?

>>81605140
hello fellow old
>>81605232
im going to actually [REDACTED] you, you fuck
>>81605659
yes, since may

>>81605702
>since may
What happened to the last one? I didn't know you were even on the market.

>>81605232
Or it's exactly what a rational, reasonable person not named Maria but nevertheless mistaken for her would say in order to talk sense into the person doing the mistaking . . .

>>81605841
Maybe you're right
>>81605659
>yes, since may
>Boyfriend
>dyke
More proofs of my theory that lesbianism doesn't exist.

Really does not matter now does it.

Doesn't make sense to me why you're so bent up about me having girls in my DMs and that's My reason for having multiple email addresses

i don't understand why things happened the way they did, i don't understand why my life has been a crash course, and i don't even know who im writing this to.

forgive me for whatever sins i may have committed to deserve this, and know i still try every goddamn day to fight righteousness

to whom it may concern: im fucking sorry

i don't understand why things happened the way they did, i don't understand why my life has been a crash course, and i don't even know who im writing this to.

forgive me for whatever sins i may have committed to deserve this, and know i still try every goddamn day to find righteousness

to whom it may concern: im fucking sorry

>>81606108
I feel the same, but I know the sins I committed.

There is things I don't feel is fair, but I don't deny my faults.

All I can do is try to do better and ask for better to happen. To arrive where everything is not lost to me.

>>81606083
I forgive you for your fight, I'm sure you will find it if you knock

My reason for multiple is I have 3 steam accounts for co-op and a business email address

>>81605702
Which of you faggots stole her from me?

When will mods ban this discord shit? This is embarrassing

>mods on r9k
>anything more than JIDF trannies promoting fagshit
You're asking for a lot

>>81606253
Someone more handsome, and based than you.

Anyone else notice how as soon as the war stopped, the BBC porn and demoralization threads started back up again???
I mean, the patterns are definitely patterning is all I'm saying

>>81606340
There will likely be a false flag attack to get the US to join in boots on the ground for an Iranian war.

>>81606322
>gloating about snapping up an eggless 36 year old /r9k/ basketcase who advertises her mental illness in her online handle with a history of homosexuality and several dozen prior sweaty syphilitic atrophied nerd dicks under her belt

we all feel really cucked and like we're missing out over this revelation

>>81603857
Mike be careful what you say. That dude looks like he can hear everything. EVERYTHING!!!

>>81606538
You sound really fucking mad. Proceed to cope, and seethe accordingly. We'll be watching and laughing. (:

>>81604052
Life is not over because some girl you used to know had sex with someone else.
There are literally 5 Billion women to sleep with on this planet just pick up a new young one

>>81606340
the 4chan leaks showed more than half of the posts made here are from israeli IPs, if people aren't aware of the state of affairs at this point that's on them

>>81606588
yes i'm seething. if only i had a passed around, fossilized e-gf to e-date and have e-sex with on discord. how dare you steal that prime piece of schizophrenic e-ass from me, grr.

schizo dyke bot is israeli?? Her new boyfriend is an Arab Palestinian???
Her Goal is actually to kill him???/.

>>81606627
>schizo dyke bot is israeli??

kek

she does look kinda kikey

I don't expect you to understand.

>>81604028
You claim to have 20 years of work experience but type like the supreme gentleman. What's up with that?
Also, all this hubab over THAT chick? I was imagining someone truly stunning but she looks very ordinary. That shows me you value inner beauty and that's very wholesome but sorry to say but she doesn't look like a virgin to me. She has already popped all her cherries, Mike, so you going on and on about promises is a sign of severe mental illness. You have money, get that shit worked out by a professional. Jesus Christ.

>>81605721
i don't really want to discuss the details here
>>81605841
please.. help..
>>81605889
he's the man my mind and body was saving me for by being a lesbian
>>81606253
wouldn't you like to know, weather boy
>>81606322
i love you more than words could ever express
>>81606538
sure is a mad response ;3c

>>81606604
God has willed that you get cucked now. This cuckening was literally destined to happen to you. By me. The cucker. The mother cucker if you will. I know you're hurting. All I can say is I'm just better than you. There's nothing you can do about it.

>>81606693
>That shows me you value inner beauty

no, he's just desperate like every other /r9nigger/ in existence and his first sniff of pussy has made him rabidly obsessed. /r9niggers/ are thirstier and more cringeworthy than even the normalgroids they deride so much. there's also no correlation with unattractiveness and virtue, you weren't necessarily implying that but i thought i'd draw attention to the non sequitur all the same.

>>81606696
i already knew you were a bimbo but your response to that series of brutal and ruthless truth nukes being "U mad?" really shows the lack of depth in your intellect and your lack of imagination

>>81606627
Just don't call me albanian.. Or canadian. Arab palestinian isn't great either if I'm being honest. Also. WHAT??!?

>>81606693
Again you would not understand because I care about her for who she actually is.

I honestly have no idea at this point about the status of anything, but I know what I need so I made it known.

That's all I have to say

>>81606696
Then where could you discuss them? I'm so curious about who it is. I really hope it isn't the guy I hate.

>>81604517
Hey there, can you do us a favor and pretend that you're Maria needing money for a life saving operation and donate the funds to an open source project of your choice using Monero? He has done the most difficult part of an identity theft scam himself, lol.
This is just a JOKE.

I think anyone will understand because I have not experienced actual love. What matters as I've been honest and faithful. That means there's a chance things will still work out.

>>81606765
If you think Mike has any money you're crazier than he is.
>>81606747
It's not the guy you hate because no one hates me. So don't you worry.

I don't think anyone will understand because they have not experienced actual love. What matters is I've been honest and faithful. That means there's a chance things will still work out

>>81606696
>"i love you more than words could ever express"
>"e-dating" since may by their own admission and already going in hard with the lovebomb

Yikes nigga, it's gonna be entertaining seeing this poor retard's wall to wall catalog consuming vengeful dykebot spam and the revenge porn leaks when the inevitable fallout occurs

Had a long day. If you could just drop it that would be great thanks

>>81606786
>It's not the guy you hate because no one hates me. So don't you worry
That sounds like something he would say. You're not doom are you?

>>81606696
I feel the same. You are the love of my life. You make me so incredibly happy, and I enjoy every moment we spend together. <3

no, think.. uniquely persistent annoying faggot under every thread..

>>81606855
What? Who? Im in no mood for riddles.
>annoying faggot
47?

>>81606829
No sir. No I am not. However, since you have uttered his name. He is duty bound to appear now. Given the time of day. Very likely drunk. Letter thread reaching it's end too. We may be in for quite a show..

>>81606855
https://youtu.be/VM3uXu1Dq4c?si=-HkqsRd14CYtugn7

>>81606866
Did you meet in a thread? How did you win her heart?

>>81606867
my reaction exactly

>>81606890
I'm sorry. A magician never reveals his secrets.

>>81606713
Wasn't it clear that it was a sarcastic comment? I was calling his "girl" ugly by sarcastically praising her inner virtues.
I'm acutely aware that outer and inner uglyness can coexist in people inspite the profound teachings of the scholar named Disney. Yes, that was also a sarcastic comment. Hurdling sarcastic comments around makes me appear smarter than I actually am.

>>81606904
availability?

>>81606736
>You care about who she is
>You care about her "first"
Which is it, Mike? WHICH IS IT?!?!?!

>>81606786
Maybe he has a good credit score?
[Joke]

>>81606904
Ah, well good luck. I hope you two are happy.

oh come on did she tell you im off limits as well or.. perhaps.. you really are just a nice guy..
im off for nap time anywho

Like I said, I've had a rough day I'm not really in the mood right now. I'm going to game for a bit and then go to bed.

I'm also pretty pissed off at my phone. Pixel fold was 2300 after tax has the shittiest microphone I've ever experienced on a device. Voice to text is hot garbage. Unless it's not hardware and more software noise cancellation shit that's happening. I know Gboard touch detection has gone downhill considerably, at least that's the case for my digits. My hobby has had me spend a lot of time in the garage so my fingers might just be calloused

>>81606987
I recommend Doom 2016. It still pretty good and runs smooth as fuck.
What game are you playing, Mike?

>>81606953
He probably does. Shit's fucky like that sometimes.
>>81606928
Hell no I'm married.

>>81606976
Thank you for the kind words. We both love each other very much, and just want to be happy, and healthy together.
>>81606979
I'm getting tired too. Might be time to hit the hay..

Dear sdb.

https://youtube.com/watch/teuh0tXelcI?si=ZaPqgRpE47y6vXTs

I will miss you. Good luck with your marriage. Goodbye.

>>81606725
the fact that you thought those were 'truth nukes' shows that you're likely underage or developmental disabled
>>81606747
this highly depends on who this is and if we have a pre-existing relationship..
>>81606765
i don't know what that means, im a girl
>>81606816
oh, if you only knew.. lel
>>81606823
michael, you're the only one doing this to yourself
>>81606846
i can't wait to start a family with you <3 life will be so beautiful

>>81607008
The folding phone is just crap design. Any material is NOT meant to be bend repeatedly. Why are people buying products with a material fatigue line IN THE MIDDLE of the fucking display?!?!? It's so fucking stupid. Wise purchase there, Mike. I knew you had more money than sense, but damn.

>>81607010
I've played through Doom 2016 three times. I liked it more than eternal. Though i still have not beat eternal.

I just "beat" blue Prince, but I didn't do the inner sanctum doors. I'm playing cod vanguard and just started dredge.

Last games I beat were silent hill 2 remake, fatal frame mask of the lunar eclipse, fatal frame maiden of the black water.

I really need to be death stranding so I'm ready for the second game. I keep getting to the end of mgsv 5 and not finishing for whatever reason and starting over.

How about you?

Oh woe is me. For I am sad and life is so hard. Oh boohoo won't anyone save me. The world so bad right now everything is terrible and I'm running low on my medications. All around I see bad things, why is the world so bleak and distorted. I live in a whirlpool of chaos. I'm like a crab in a whirlpool of despair. No one really loves me because I'm lazy and stupid. Why did things turn out this way. It's everyone else fault. I hate myself. I hate myself for being this way. What can I say it's just another day. It's my life. Life. Life. If Aristotle or Plato or Immanuel kant was here they would know how I feel. Nietsche is the way I feel. Nothing is good and no one understand men. Oh why was I born to this life. Life. life. Life? More like LIE. Lie dead in my grave cause nothing matters. Yo. *mic drop*

>>81607070
I really like the multiple screen form factor. I like really unique devices. Here is my phones I have rocked (but I own a ton more because I collect a ton of tablets and phones to root and fuck around with)

>>81607070
Why did so many people buy the switch one when it has a plastic display? But alas, Nintendo got everyone by the balls. I picked up the oled and have only played Metroid prime remastered on it

>>81607072
Last game I've finished was Claire Obscur and it was surprisingly good with gorgeous character designs, highly recommend it.
I think I might start another Factorio run with the new DLC that I bought on a sale that's just sitting there but not sure.

I would definitely pick up the new Samsung tri-fold if it came to the States

>>81607143
That's nice but why do you think anyone wants to read your boring blogposts. Narcissist

>>81607156
oh please, it's all blogposting

>>81607055
>the fact that you thought those were 'truth nukes' shows that you're likely underage or developmental disabled

they were truth nukes, and you will never have children. speaking of being "developmental (sic) disabled," you are a 36 year old woman with no husband, no children and rapidly diminishing prospects bullshitting around with discord e-dating like a retarded child whilst flinging accusations at other people of being immature. i don't usually condone 4chan larpers who desperately try to appear normalnigger adjacent by using slogans like "touch grass" on people, but in this instance, it absolutely, 100%, unequivocally applies. go the fuck outside, you brain raped, millennial grandma retard.

>>81607115
I have a steam deck but playing on mobile devices is so unergonomic that I can't make myself use it for gaming. It's a neat Linux machine that looks like an innocent Bing-Bing-Wahoo-machine so I guess people use it for pen testing or whatever. Not me tho as I'm an upstanding citizen.

>>81607174
sorry you're so bitter about it :)

>>81606907
>Wasn't it clear that it was a sarcastic comment?

not particularly, poe's law and all that plus the fact it's entirely within the scope of reality that someone would say shit like that in this thread without a hint of irony, but regardless i don't think anything i said conflicted with what you said implied sarcasm or otherwise.

>I'm acutely aware that outer and inner uglyness can coexist in people inspite the profound teachings of the scholar named Disney.

and i'm aware that you're aware, which is why i put the caveat in there that i understood you weren't hinting at that but wanted to make it abundantly clear anyway, for posterity and for anyone who might be reading who mistakenly believes such horse shit.

>>81607212
sorry you ruined your life with e-relationships and still haven't learned your lesson :)

>>81607174
No, she should stay inside. My mother was 36 yo when she got pregnant with me and it's bad news to get kids that late. Turns out you can't make Sushi with dried clams.

>>81607139
I Will check out Claire obscure, Factorio is more my brothers game, but I have not played it.

Here is my favorites

>>81607188
Have a steam deck as well. Great handheld! I pre-ordered the 512 GB matte version and I'm pretty bummed I don't have the oled because of the increased battery life.

>>81607217
I'm always surprised whenever I run into another person with a functional brain and on 4chin even. It's also the reason I can't stop coming here. It's so addicting.

>>81607270
My advice is get out while you still can

>>81607055

You once told me
>God you are so fucking good... it's a mix of awe and jealousy. You're literally better than anyone else I've ever seen...

But it's ok I'm glad you're happy.

>>81607249
Do you use it for gaming? I feel adults get judged hard for gaming in public, at least by normies. But my main problem is that the ergonomics of attaching the display to the controller is just really bad for prolonged gaming sessions and I prefer my eink device when I'm outside.

>>81607229
Did they fix Colonial Marines? I saw in a review that the enemy AI was really janky so I skipped that game despite me loving the early Alien movies.

You called me fat like that was something I didnt already know. Ive lost almost 50 pounds this past year. Thats not some small thing. And you just ignored that and said I should be 120. Then 100. Like thats some reasonable goal for someone whos 5'5". Maybe it is but ive struggled with weight for so long that I was aiming for 140. Then you said if I did get there, my boobs would be saggy and it still wouldnt look good. But its fine because I have a good personality and a cute face. Like that somehow makes up for tearing me down. Ive been stuck at 165 for a while, but Im finally losing again. But honestly, its not just about the weight.
Youve traumatized me. You got into my accounts. You went through my messages, my files, everything personal. You made me go on camera completely exposed. You saved things I didnt want you to have. You knew things about me that I never told you, because you made sure you had access to every part of my life. That wasnt normal. That wasnt okay. I was 16 when we met. You were 18. And even now, two years later, I still talk to you. I still answer. I still let you be part of my life. And I dont even fully know why. I think you got into my head so deep that I dont know where you stop and I start. You say horrible things, then follow it up with something small and nice, just enough to make me doubt myself. Just enough to keep me coming back. I feel like I cant breathe when we dont talk for too long. I know you probably dont care. Or maybe you do in your own way, but its not a way that helps me. Youve messed me up. The way youve treated me, the things youve said, the control youve had over me is not just something I can get over by just deleting all social media.
I needed to say this whether you care or not. Because pretending like Im fine hasnt worked its literally made me feel like im going schizo or maybe its just the occasional weed.

>>81607281
Is this meant to be as menacing as it comes off? Why should I leave and where should I go? Do you know any interesting forums on the darknet?

>>81607305
I do use it for gaming, but I've only used it when I go on vacation. Typically out and about I'll game on my phone or PSP Go.

I'm sure adults get judged, but I really don't care. I also look like I'm in my early twenties still so there is that.

>>81607329
So funny thing about the enemy AI. It is only broken because you have to go into the config file and change a single line of code. The alien AI is actually not enabled because they misspelled that line of code in the config ini.

Once you do that the AI is great lol

>>81607342
BPDeamons like to play the push-n-pull game. Run. As if your life is depending on it. They can't change and will never change. EVER.

>>81607356
I don't see why it would. Look around and you'll be able to figure out pretty fast while you should get out. No idea where you want to go, I don't know you. I don't touch the darknet

>>81607382
Oh really? I guess I'll pick it up on the next sale then. Thanks for the tip. I guess they disabled it to hide some bugs, maybe?

>>81607409
Alright, Stacker, see ya!

>>81607395
funny enough hes not bpd hes diagnosed aspd. im more likely to be the bpd one.

>>81607418
No it's a complete misspelling! My brother figured it out when we were fucking with options.

I don't know why no one else caught it.

>>81607418
Also the dlc for colonial Marines is crazy good! Highly recommend even just playing that

>>81607458
whatcha doin with obs?

>>81607472
I stream casually! 67 followers.

>I don't even like sex. I just want a man that doesn't sexualize me
And I want a woman who's boobs 300fps jiggle like they're spilling out of her shirt when she walks

>>81607496
So far less fps than human vision already is? Faaaaaaaaag

>>81607174
Kinda sucks your head is so far up your own ass you'll think I married her, and knocked her up just to spite you. I hate to say it, but you do make it awfully fun to rub your face in it because of the temper tantrums you throw. Ah well. Always weird when you mind break someone without even trying.

>>81607543
Which poster is this? Someone tell me!

>>81607576
Infamous latina e-girl Chickn obviously.

>>81607013
i think youre a bit obtuse sometimes

>>81607584
I didn't know chicken is 36. Oof

>>81607651
You're wrong. I'm not obtuse. I'm a"cute".

>>81607663
There are a lot of things we don't know about Chickn, Mike.. I hope for our sakes it stays that way.

Dear mom,

Fuck you, i'm sorry
*the rest of the letter is intelligible due to blood splatter*

dear mommy

you asked god for an amazing man to cross your path. i was there all along so whyd you choose wrong?
why does my mommy hold no value?
why do you hate me?
my puppyeyes are soaked

>>81607680
Good math joke.

>>81607687
I talked with him (chickn333) on the phone years ago. It was a guys voice.

So unless there is a different chickn....

>>81607716
on the off chance that you're not joking, it is because you are a literal child and i am a severely mentally ill 36 year old woman. its nothin personnel, don't beat yourself up over it :)

This is what the childhood friend who loses his crush to the chad feels like?

>>81607796
i would have worded it a little nicer, but that is kinda the gist of it, yeah

>>81607820
when i share these feeling finally theyll fucking care

>>81607820
if your childhood crush is chad's mom, yes

>>81607833
>kinda the gist
What else

it's good that we're trying to talk again, i missed you so muhch as afriend. you offered me warm back then. hopefully you'll do it now too, and we can have a good relatopmsjop orsomething

>>81607871
you're a child with a mercurial temperament who is impossible to read and does a terrible job at communicating. there's a fundamental incompatibility in our characters. our lives are worlds apart, but your parasocial attachment to me keeps giving you unfounded hope that's not the case

>>81607929
WHAT THE FUCK SCHIZO DYKE BKT THAT WANSNT ME SOMEONE WAS LARPING AS ME WHAT THE FUCK WHY WOULD YOU SAY THAT ABOUT ME

AAAARRRRGGGGHHHH AAAACCKKKKK

you kinda bring this upon yourself

>>81607516
what I mean to say, is extra frames are dedicated to her boobs. kinda like in high school dxd for example, where basic dialogue scenes have minimal amount of animationing, except for women's boobs

>>81608070
Are You talking about high school of the Dead?

no but uh that peeved quite a lot.. i know i shouldnt say that because i know you get a kick out of affecting emotions, callous witch (slash j (for clarity)). i reluctantly added you off site and never strived for more throughout our 40(?) total messages. theres no hope or real desire here. bothering you is extremely fun though. dont misconstrue my actions.

>>81608111
>Are You talking about high school of the Dead?
iya desu

>>81607929
Do me next please.

>>81608193
Iya? Means what

>>81608193
Oh "in your arms"
Odd thing to say