Hello misaki frens. Another friday has come. How are we holding up in these grim times? Has anything nice happened to you recently? Personally, my life has been spiraling, and I feel like im digging a hole i cannot never get out of. Each time i make an attempt to dig out, I just fall back down.

>>81555611 (OP)
Hello misaki friday
I'm holding up quite well, it's actually not too difficult to feel content if you just forget all your annoying responsibilities
>anything nice happened to you recently?
yes, last thursday I went on a bike ride, looked at cool views and even found a sweet cat friend
>my life has been spiraling
that's not good, what unfortunate circumstance are you trying to dig yourself out of?

>>81555611 (OP)
really happy to see this thread is up today, this is the only reason i check this dogshit website
ive been holding up alright buts its so fucking hot i hate it. ive been sick recently so i cant even use the AC im literally sweating my ass off i hate the summer so much. i completed my online degree recently so i guess thats good but the major i did is kind of useless, communications, i just did a degree for the saking of getting a degree. this happens to me alot, i dont think things through before doing them and then i end up right back where i started. otherwise im feeling alright but i hate this heat, i might get a weekend job so im not a neet anymore. i hung out with some of my friends at a hot pot place, i had fun (i think) and i accidentally ate a raw dumpling lol but i was fine.
>Personally, my life has been spiraling, and I feel like im digging a hole i cannot never get out of. Each time i make an attempt to dig out, I just fall back down.
i think everyone has a point(s) of their lives thats like this, theres no real cohesion or grand plan to life. its a lie people tell themselves "god has a grand plan for me, its all part of gods plan", but if god really exists, he's kind of cruel. most of the world lives in poverty with no chance of upward mobility, they work in a sweatshop or something like that for 6 or 7 days a week with nothing to show for it, and then they die after a life of suffering. i went on a little bit of a tangent sorry, i guess it just kind of loops around to the stupid generic advice of "the hole you're in won't last forever, you had a life before it and you'll have a life after it, time smooths things over". i cant really promise much else, but i can say that things will smooth over and resolve eventually, thats just how time works.
>>81555820
>I'm holding up quite well, it's actually not too difficult to feel content if you just forget all your annoying responsibilities
i agree lol

>>81555611 (OP)
Only thing I can really think of is that I bought some new clothing because my old wardrobe was very lazy and unserious, maybe I'll look cool in it? Not that anyone'll see either way I suppose, otherwise its been like a whole year since the last good thing happened to me, and almost a decade since the last significant thing.

I'm not doing very well. Life hates me. Always has. Telling me to wait for things to get better doesn't work, I'm already 35 years old and I never had a life or a chance at one. Yes I have a job, I don't care. A job doesn't give me anything. Every time I walk past a teenage boy/girlfriend couple I get jealous, knowing I'll never get to experience that, and there's no reason for it beyond being raised in a rotten household by a mentally ill divorced mother. Dreamt of suicide a couple times but haven't actually attempted it IRL yet. Wish I could die in my sleep though.

>>81555611 (OP)
Happy Misaki Friday.
I am slowly baking to death because of this heat and I think that the loneliness is finally getting to me. I keep wanting to try meeting people but never can get myself to do it.
Considering going back into education next year, I'll be almost 24 by then which is late but better than never. I still want to die a lot or get really high to forget how shitty things are but maybe now I have a dream to cling to.
>Has anything nice happened to you recently?
Well it is my birthday in a few days and a card arrived. I wasn't expecting one so even that felt nice.

>>81555611 (OP)
So i'm finally a neet, got fired... yikes
And i've spend the whole week on withdrawal but shit's getting better now I guess

i want misaki to ntr me for a normalfag with a big dick

Have any of you read the novel?
I finished it in an afternoon and it reminded me of No Longer Human but more relatable

>>81555611 (OP)
>Has anything nice happened to you recently?
i approached and talked to 2 foreign girls at the bus stop today when we were taking a shelter from the pouring rain. i think one said she was from south america, while the other from ireland, though, at times, it was hard to hear what they were saying because of the loud outgoing traffic and rain hitting the rooftop of the bus stop. this week i've been heavily invested into starting a small company for my business idea. i know it will sell but the question is, whether it will outweigh losses and if i will have the energy to juggle my full time wagie job and this new hustle while trying not to burn out at the same time.

>>81558833
>Have any of you read the novel?
yeah, both the short novel and lengthy manga. they had different endings but i much preferred the anime adaptation because of the voice acting and songs.

>>81555611 (OP)
Happy Misaki Friday fren, I hope you feel better soon. Holding up well I suppose.
>Has anything nice happened to you recently?
Nothing of note, just existing. Hoping that my brother is well during his move, but I hate that hes leaving. It's a back and forth between being scared of being alone and being happy my sibling is succeeding, but with comfy frens ill get through it.

had a wank and a poo 10 minutes ago
I've been up for 21 hours now
I hate my job and getting more suicidal thoughts lately