>>81560223the only time I was ever close in my life to having a relationship where I simped for a NEET chick with several mental issues (including BPD, depression, anxiety disorder, OCD, possibly Cptsd, so maybe thats on me) for nearly a fucking year.
When she couldn't sleep she'd text me at 3am and I'd answer.
When she had panic attacks, I was the one she called.
When she needed advice or someone listening, I was there.
When she didn't care for her body, I reminded her to eat and brush her teeth.
Basically multiple hours every single day for nearly an entire year I took care of this mess of a human.
We laughed and joked around, complained about degeneracy and modern hedonism, we drew fucking comics of each ffs.
we were both virgins and fine with that, though she initially told me she was probably asexual anyways
And of course I developed feelings for her, and I at least thought to percieve signs that she reciprocated.
Yet when I confessed she rejected me.
When pressed she at least had the balls to admit to my face that she didn't think me physically attractive and hence never even thought about me that way from the start. Oh and ofcourse she still wanted to remain friends or something. I, still sad but also hopeful agreed like a simp.
Then like literally the next week she, who had been an neet anxious girlfailure till now and was a virgin at 21, suddenly changed her personality 180 degree, developed a giant crush on a random mall security guard that was old enough to be her goddamn father, stalked him for two days, then approached him and asked for his number.
I've no Idea how the story continued, if she fucked him or what, because after that I cut contact for good.
I might be a simp, but I'm not a cuck.
DESU, I unironically think she had some BPD split or something and the shy tiny neet girl I've cared for for a year died that day, lost the battle against her BPDemon and had her soul consumed.
RIP Josi, 19.04.2025
The first and possibly last girl I loved.