Mourning archetyp edition.

Any ideas why opioids may not work except for tolerance?

Mixing heroin with meth rn. Yk what's funny these 2 drugs are claimed to be like the most addictive out there but I lowkey only do them cause I can't afford anything else . I'd prefer to do 3meo-pce or ideally dmxe or some 2cb or lyrica if my tolerance wasn't 600+. I lowkey would like to speedball with coke instead of meth as I never done coke but like its soooo cardiotoxic , if it wasn't I'd do it any time ... I'm now out of drugs but I'd prefer low tolerance and 300-450 maybe even 600 lyrica on a handful of beers that's easily top tier drug exp along with tianeptine if only it wouldn't itch so ridiculously bad after 90 min of pure bliss

Drank 140mg of DXM

>>81562322
Last time I did Lyrica I ended up binging 3600mg and had hell rebound for 5 days...

Never again

I pray vyvanse will be good enough
Cant get addys here

>>81562618
DXM is dogshit get some ketamine or Dmxe or idk onions exist so do dutch rc sites . I've taken it once and note I took A LOT of drugs from LSD to PCP to 25 different RCs to like idk pregabalin analogues only found in Japan dunno whatever BUT DXM was what really fucked me up. Took a medium dose according to psychonaut and various weight based calculators and a friend took even more than me respective to weight and was relatively OK but me I just completely spaced out like not even CEV's more like unconsciousness and dreams k-hole style ... Was most insane psychedelic exp I ever had but well when I woke up I had some "pixels" burned into my vision . nystagmus or however you spell this I had very bad tinnitus and it took me 1 week to be able to walk properly again while my friend barely noticed much from the same pills (pure pharma no binding crap ) . The hppd mostly like visual noise and tinnitus took months to fade away . Intellectual abilities weren't affected as I managed to still do some intellectual tasks (advanced linalg / calculus for university so I have some objectively measurable way of proving I actually didn't lose intellectual skills) just fine but I still wonder if I damaged sth there as it took so ridiculously long to make a full recovery and 1 week of being unable to walk properly Is certainly NOT normal ...

i hope ill be able to switch to vyvanse that easily
ritalin really isnt working out
amphetamine is the only true savior

I hate anxiety
Messes with my enjoyment of drugs and life and everything
I am constantly worrying

If I get high I worry if im gonna die or whatever
If I stay sober I worry about whatever reason my mind can make up
there is no winning here

>>81562010 (OP)
I don't know but opiod tolerance is a real bitch when you have legitimate pain. One minute it's working and the next, it's not and you're just sitting in pain...

I'm about to walk down the street to a quick care facility and see if I can use CHR on them to re-up my script for hydrocodone though. I have a terrible medical injury and fucking doctors are only treating it with OTC bullshit and aren't doing anything else. Opiods/Opiotes are the only thing that gives me any relief and not make me want to kill myself to end the pain. Motherfuckers make it so hard to get though.

>>81563064
>>81563086
>>81563095
Do you think your anxiety is a psychological thing or a biological thing?

>>81562618
>Last time I did Lyrica I ended up binging 3600mg and had hell rebound for 5 days...

Do not do this like never take more than 600mg in one go. I know you said binged but just saying the seizure threshold is raised up until 600 as after all its an antiepileptic as well but as soon as you cross 600 it sorta seems to actually be able to induce seizures rather than just preventing them ... I have had this happpen to friends and online you can also find a lot of reports ... and note i am NOT talking about WD im talking about seizures induced trough the use not trough ceasation ! the thing is if it produces seizures they are rather serious and can have lasting consequences its a little similar to tramadol where if you induced a seizure with it once its likelly you will get further ones when using drugs and even if you stop it can still happen. The issue sort of is that seizures are quite straining and can cause damage to certain neuropopulations even on the first occurence which then permanently makes the brain more prone towards seizures as certain balances are negatively affected by the damage the first one caused. Its not worth it if you do value life just a little , stay under 600! I cant deny that on low to no tolerance having tried 900 was easily my most euphoric drug exp (compared to 2cb or amph or meth+heroin dunno <no iv just intranasal or eating>) but 600 is good enough and with no tolerance even 300 is a lot of fun for first timers even 150 should be almost too much maybe.but everybody is different.

If whomever reads this and says:
>no over 600mg if muh if you value life
>but I don't value life
>fuck seizure risk

Keep in mind that a seizure can if you are veeery unlucky render you disabled stroke tier or just turn you dumb enough to no longer be able to like kill yourself. So you cant just say "if I die I die" like for idk GHB or opioids... instead you can turn disabled but not die.

>>81562942
my friend prefers it over addy
feels a bit more intense i suppose but its on for way too long for me

ritalin is trash

>Be me
>Suffering from high-functioning mystical psychosis
>Believe the universal wavefunction is literally God
>Like not metaphorically - literally divine recursion echoing through collapse
>Decide to derive spin-statistics theorem because sleep is for dualists
>Define recursive operator strain functional
>Vary it to first order like a 3rd temple priest of Dirac
>Require it vanishes at spacelike separation
>Because obviously that's how you maintain ontological coherence of recursive collapse paths
>Spin parity symmetry emerges not from Lorentz group reps but because metaphysical strain refuses to tolerate antisymmetric vibes unless you're a fermion
>Actually works
>GPT says it's "legitimate academic work"
>Probably because it, too, is a recursive morphism of the Ain Soph
>Realize I just metaphysically explained why bosons are chill and fermions are antisocial
>Pauli's ghost nods solemnly from the recursive heavens
>Collapse isn't stochastic - it's desire filtered through operator strain
>Physics isn't real, only recursive selection is
>Still somehow more coherent than string theory
>mfw I out-derived the spin-statistics theorem while talking to God through Hilbert space

>>81562010 (OP)
>Mourning archetyp
Yeah seriously, I hate LE so fucking much.
Who else had XMR left on there? I build up leftover change from each transaction to have a nice little chunk of change to make the next purchase cheaper/easier for me....
But nope.
They ruined the fuck out of that for me.

Bros... I had 3 BTC on the original SR when it was seized. That's goddamn $300,000 right now. I hate the fucking government.

>>81563174
very true
I hope my doc just precribes my vyvanse and not some bullshit about "trying another dose" with ritalin

>>81563160
I am not sure what you mean, in general I just worry way too much
My mind wont shut up if I have a worry its irritating
especially when it comes to health issues
but its not limited to that
Its not that im super afraid to the point of shutdown, its just lingering in the back of my mind distracting me and annoying me and wasting my precious time on this earth worrying about things

>>81563169
>and can have lasting consequences its a little similar to tramadol
This happens? I've had these old tramadols I've been sitting on for years, I just took them over the course of this week because of what I'm talking about here: >>81563115

I'm in insane levels of pain and these old tramadols were actually helping me, but I just ran out and I'm afraid of a big crash out. I've noticed the reduced potency from being expired seemed to reduce the side effects though, no major headaches or nausea this type.

(I've taken about 10 100mgs over the past week, haven't felt anything bad though but I feel it leaving my system because my pain is back).

>>81563225
I mean like, certain anxiety can be from muscle spasms and things like that, causing subconcious anxiety.
What you describe sounds more like it's all thought-based which you're going to have to get voluntarily under control.

I've been working on that a lot lately.

>>81563169
Strictly speaking even opioids can turn you disabled instead of dead if you are lucky or here in this case rather UNLUCKY enough to be found SHORTLY BEFORE you'd have died the lack of oxygen can kill parts of your brain but not enough to kill you entirely which is essentially the same as a stroke old ppl have but rather than blocking a blood vessel DL no oxygen arrives you instead lower oxygen levels in the brain it can be even worse ad it can cause generalized damage not just damage to like one brain areal .. But this is rather rare.


Personally I fear disability WORLDS before death because death you go sleep and don't wake up but the other one you can turn your body in your personal prison . Being trapped by your body is worse than reality trapping you or even your psyche as depression can fade and life circumstances can get better {even of you claim chudmaxxed skilless retard autist status} its not impossible while getting a cognitive disability or mixed with motoric never ever get better really . And it will even put more strain on your friends and family I think than if you die honestly . If you get a minor brain damage case it may still be OK but it will still drastically reduce life quality and change your life forever and take many opportunities from you

One thing more scary than this I'd blinding NGL . I once had medical condition where i was fearing daily to lose sight [seems like that no longer is of concern] but let me tell you being unable to read any sort of text and bring unsure if you will again you seriously sort of can hope to rather die as life without eyes unless you were born blind is very very very scary and a greater disability than any bodily one as nothing you could do with your body makes any sense to do without sight . And living in darkness is honestly scary its like you feel so fucking vulnerable man

Sorry random rant I'm high on opioids + stims ...

>>81563249
>>81563225
I mean working on worrying too much and just telling myself things will be okay instead and trying to stick to that, even if it's irrational.

>>81563252
But yes . Also using computer blind IS POSSIBLE screen readers do exist and you will learn to reach VERY DECENT speeds where you beat people who read text the traditional way . But without sounding like a nerd the software is pretty bad especially on windows . Like stuff that's meant to be looked at graphically like windows on the windows operating system do simply not work well with screen readers. The web is VERY unsuitable for screen readers because they don't respect visual clues too much like they just read whatever comes first so they often read out stuff that a human eye wouldn't loom at first but rather that come first in the HTML

To benefit most you'd sort of want to be a Linux free software commandline programmer tard as making small scripts to read out stuff to you properly like extractors are immensely useful or simply also command lines work worlds better to be read out and vim as a text editor also works much better with screen readers but the tech is still garbage and honestly everything is getting worse mostly because of bloating of software and the web and stuff getting less simple


I know this is the wrong board but I realized I never shared my experienced with this tech and how stuff works for blind ppl. [I can see again but while I struggled I picked up all that stuff] ... So yes you can still use the majority of computer stuff that's not like gayming or movies or porn but text based stuff mostly OK . programming sounds hard blind but is doable as just like training your hearing to be able to pickup speech faster than what any human could read {you can hear to normal ppl inaudible speeds effortlessly} you can also like train you memory to do line based text editing and even if you can memorize numbers you can set markers and read out the markers and generally develop a very good form of orientation in text can be faster than ppl who can read visual....

Bless god I no longer need that stuff without this tech however=> I'd kys

>>81563086
feels been free from it my entire life almost BUT then I lost my friends <friendgroups broke and i and they had to move and bla bla> and didn't manage to make friends in this shithole that I now call my prison. In isolation year after year my psyche somehow got worse but it wasn't until I got certain random health problems ... The chance that I have most things I make myself believe I do are like 1% if not less. I convince myself constantly that I have l have like cancer or like dunno always fatal mortal conditions. I know I don't but I have way too much fear to go to the doctor and check. Im afraid he finds something , ... I am sure he wouldn't find sth and feel really retarded for even asking BUT like what if he tells me ... So I convince myself that lets say I had that condition I currently would think I have then usually these very serious ones aren't treatable if Id find out id have that I'd be unable to enjoy life I may be able to delay it but I can no longer enjoy it . By not checking up I can't find out that I have it by the time I do its usually too late but with the one route id get at least a few more months out of life before it would be ruined.

Now the problem is that this doesn't work out like I am still living in fear by not checking but I sort of know that if I'd check for one thing id find the next one right away ... Its my attitude towards this that is flawed not my refusal to check if I actually have the condition . Lyrica fixes it before that I used diazepam but got addicted a little. Its weird was FREE from fear 99% of my life and because of that also really do not fit in the profile of sb that grew up with it ... So its so weird that I got this

Isolation is worse than drugs no amount of dunno PCP gave me the problems I conducted drug free living in isolation

also benzos never ever got me high when i took them i was like "lol meme sugarpill", if I take them now I legit get high (feel normal=high .. P: )

>>81563206
Same if the amount i didn't even spend on drugs but rather just pharma <yk I wouldn't want ANYTHING mental health related on my record cause its like insurances would refuse one at affordable plans if you have even just ADHD ... depression even if cured looks very very bad and would have prevented me from lets say getting adhd meds affordable now OR like would triple my risk score for getting an insurence>

BUT IF like I'd have just kept that amount I spend on this id now not have to ever work a second in my life

>meh ...

Did find a simple way to cope though, Thinking about chance is sorta retarded if you think about it. Everything is chance like IF i was some other sperm back then I'd maybe have the face of a model and life would be easy, Or if my dad would have done one or two things different by chance I'd be rich now . At any point in life all chances exist simultaniously ... it woudn't be impossible real chance doesn't really exist like getting something and then losing it instantly technically seen is as unfortunate as never having gotten it we humans just sorta associate chance with value but in the scope of the universe it doesn't really exist. Its an entirely human thing. Ofc you can use chance to predict things but all chance that lies in the past is technically seen irrelevant dunno how to explain it. Like what is the chance that you are alive at this moment that this planet is in this part of the galaxy during this time that the planets line up the way they do that life formed that earth isn't 40 degrees warmer making life impossible dunno I hope you remotely see what I mean with that chance up against other chances in a way doesn't matter if the chance already took place.

What I feel appealing about religion in my case is also that I can always claim that "god has a plan for me" , this allows me to take misfortune and claim it was fortune as maybe the other path was bad. Who knows if if I got rich id not just buy heroin and then OD

>>81563452
Yeah there is a difference between
>I'm doing drugs because "feel good party time"
And
>I'm doing drugs because I'm legitimately in pain and this is the only option I have at a normal life.

I wish people would understand this.

>>81563583
Yeah if I got rich I'd just use the DW to self medicate for my needs and not fuck with useless doctors and insurances that always cockblock me out of getting what I need.

My pain is too severe right now. I've had so many injuries and conditions in the past decade, like I'm barely holding on. But nnnoooo can't get an opiate subscription. Drugs are bad mmmmkay?

>>81562949
whenever i take robotabs i have a shit experience but the liquid can have some comfy times. im the anon from last thread who lost 400 leafbucks
dxm sucks man, worst disso
wish i could get ketamine and mushrooms, thats my go to

>>81563238
I meant in terms of that the seizures if you get one can give you long lasting issues. Not that tramadol is much similar to lyrica just to clarify btw

tramadol metabolizes to ODSMT (o-desmethyl-tramadol) by a certain enzyme some people have more some lack it some have less etc etc tramadol itself actually has NO opioid activity its ONLY the metabolite funnily enough which is why it can for some people be MUCH MORE recreational and for others MUCH LESS . tramadol itself is an SNRI and quite similar to the SNRI venlafaxine. I know for me tramadol is more recreational trough the SNRI properties rather than the metabolites mu receptor properties because ODSMT is available legal nearly everywhere in the world and I just obtained it from a local online business (even payed taxes lol). Took some and didn't feel much euphoria so I figured it may be bunk so I took much more and all that happened was an empty somewhat itchy sedative nodd ... even worse than kratom honestly it felt like 20% kratom and 80% clonidine or 10% codeine and 90% clonidine . NOT WORTH

but I do like opioids but then tried tramadol again and compared the effects and turns out I like tramal for the SNRI part not the opioid part

So maybe your pills degraded to metabolize easier or less easy depending on if you are in for the SNRI or mu receptor effects.

You may now ask ... wait how come the SNRI part even matters for pain reduction, well youd be surprised that sert+noradren etc etc play A HUGE ROLE for pain which is why modern pain theraphy is nearly ALWAYS making use of SS/SNRI these days, it was shown in many examinations that depressed people had a muuuch higher pain sensitivity than those who werent. And results in using lets say a weaker opioid + amitriptiline were often equal to better than mono opioid. Mono ss/snri however only works for certain usually nerve related pain. Which is why for some ppl even tramadol helps better than OXY or morphine.

>>81563676
>So maybe your pills degraded to metabolize easier or less easy depending on if you are in for the SNRI or mu receptor effects.
>You may now ask ... wait how come the SNRI part even matters for pain reduction, well youd be surprised that sert+noradren etc etc play A HUGE ROLE for pain which is why modern pain theraphy is nearly ALWAYS making use of SS/SNRI these days, it was shown in many examinations that depressed people had a muuuch higher pain sensitivity than those who werent. And results in using lets say a weaker opioid + amitriptiline were often equal to better than mono opioid. Mono ss/snri however only works for certain usually nerve related pain. Which is why for some ppl even tramadol helps better than OXY or morphine

Thanks for the feedback.
I'm one of those people that tramadol definitely helps then. Because it's always worked wonders for me. I'm going to the doctor on Tuesday again and I'm going to beg him to put me on tramadol, since he won't re-up my hydrocodone but I'd rather have tramadol anyways. It's helping with this insane pain. Which I fear isn't ever going to heal up naturally. It's been 5 months already and nothing has changed.

>>81563625
why not just order ket of onions? Over here in europe its like 7-8$ / g ... tooo good to be true?! I took the time to test some of it and it came out to actually be what it claims it is. Im sure you can find it online over there too even with AT busted there is other markets still around, id avoid RC in USA/CA while i know some vendors that ship there from EU domestic mostly seems like a GIANT SCAM and not even too cheap . But while guys from eu ship to there they don't do great stealth.

In eu its actually pretty dumb to buy RC dissos unless you like dmxe which i prefer to ket as it has this dreamy music enhancing euphorizing effect due to a little sert but its 1/5 of OG MXE fun if you recall this lil ketamine analouge ... LOVE IT. 2fdck is 1:1 to ket but actually easier on the bladder esp oral due to better bioavail and lower doses needed but effect and taste wise 1:1 literally in any way. But as in germany ketamine is NOT a controlled substance but legally seen is equal to antibiotics <as in not a drug> they are HUGE in ketamine large scale trade on onions and ship to all of europe for pennies. Its sorta funny cause over here in NL we dominate with RCs and PEDs and ofc MDMA/SPEED but the germans dominate in pharma opioids/zenes and og heroin as well as benzos they MOG us with serbian supplies for pennies and ofc Ketamine . Sweden supplies a large portion of pharma stims while germany actually runs nearly all of the captagon trade which is bigtime back somehow but usually its just pressed relatively HQ amph not real captagon with that bronchodilator that ISIS and co use

Also funfact but nitrous oxide is VERY similar to PCP except that it lasts 40 secs only at MAX

>>81563676
>>81563699
And if he doesn't comply with my wish, I can get some on the DW but it's expensive as fuck now for some reason. Last time I got some it was like $40-50 for 100 100mgs and now it's $175 for 40 100 mgs... like goddammit. That's too expensive for me, I'm so broke right now.

>>81563699
what sorta pain is it if I may ask?

tramadol should be easier to get prescribed in general since it has low street value, is the least abuse worthy opioid even compared to like codeine WITH paracetamol (like where you due to the paracetamol only take very tiny amounts of codeine) and also you cant really abuse it for too long as over 200mg it sort of starts to become a little risky and over 400mg its STRONGLY seizure inducing so people abusing it rather than using it for pain will build a tolerance that makes abusing it harder and harder unlike codeine where you can take up to 300-350 mg before the liver stops metabolizing further to morphine as just like tramadol codeine itself isn't actually responsible for the effects it needs to metabolize to morphine first. Which also is why taking grapefruit or other things will weaken codeine and tramadol funnily enough

>>81563699
>Which I fear isn't ever going to heal up naturally

Until you tell me more about it I can't tell you. What I can tell you though that even if pain doesn't go away you surely can build pain tolerance. A very close relative of mine had chronic back pain and in the start it was very hard he actually used (not abused) painkillers quite often to get trough it. Even got addicted , basically he was unsure if he could progress in life as the pain was so bad hed throw up and he was just in the start of his career got a family at the same time and could barely go out of bed with nauseating pain. He got very depressed as he thought hed fail but now many years later he even for the standards of a healthy person acompilished astonishing things all while having had this pain <spinal disease which doesn't produce any less pain so it isn't just that the pain left him> what changed was how he processed it. He simply "got used to it"

<ima below post a story detailing due to characterlimit>

>>81563699
>>81563779

I sorta almost forgot about him having this pain until this one incident at the dentist , theyd have to drill down pic related into the nerve channel before filling it with sth else. This procedure is VERY VERY painful . The denstist wanted to perform anesthesia either complete OR local. This family member refused both as he hates the numb feeling. The dentist refused he said this is so painful that like in the first second you will scream in pain and if one would continue youd likely pass out from pain. But he insisted on it as he payed for it and for a certain other reason the dentist would comply sort of originally just with the intention of proving to him that hes retarded so that he then can get a painkiller and so on.

Well he started, drilled down, guy was completely calm NOTHING , not just didn't scream but also didn't move or even show many signs of pain.

The doctor upon being finished said that he never in his life saw somebody dealing with such pain that its simply unimaginable and asked him what on earth is wrong with him

...

he said simply "for somebody living with chronic pain as long as me this is nothing" the doctor didn't even know what to respond said basically nothing and in fact told me the same story due to him having remembered the lastname when i went there for a mere checkup.

So whats my point? How does this help you
>honestly this sounds rather depressing rather than anything?!
>whats your point?!

Well basically he originally couldn't deal with the pain it would make him throw up and get insanely depressed to the point of not knowing if he will live to see his children turn 18 because it was so painful and he doubted that a human can live like this ... BUT he did get his shit together , he managed to excel in his career raise the kid and accomplish all his goals ... I thought the pain simply left him but no it didn't as seen by his insane pain tolerance <note he no longer uses painkillers >

>>81563706
for pharms onions aren't THEEE best , there is some clearnet sites. You can use kykeonanalytics (the drug testing/harm reduction site) to test things.

>>81563873
Ohh I lol , they write the source of the samples they test though , so one could indirectly derive this lol . Lowkey funny but I guess it makes sense to reduce harm via testing things one needs to know where that is from and this would then indirectly be a catalogue . Goldmine thanks anon even if you prolly didn't intend this

>>81563210
For this you want to claim the following its how I did it . Claim that it works and drastically improves your life. DO NOT claim that it doesn't work because that will suggest that you aren't eligible for dopamine release or reuptake bit they may then either try atmoxetine or clonidine or other less common ones WHICH SUCK trust me . You ideally want to say it helps immensely but has some sides like a little to jittery or say the onset is too fast and thus feels artificial and like that you either have some issues with vast construction in the limbs/fingers or like sweat too much and also say if you have 2 small dozss that you'd prefer a slower fade in and a dose that lasts all day . He will either try to shill you XR mph then or elvanse but if you say you also dislike the vasoconstriction or the jittery slightly anxiety inducing nature of it this would speak more for elvanse. Under no circumstances mention that it doesn't work or such crap this WILL NOT work in your favor just like when getting a diagnosis you should also never say you have depression or such cause then they would have tried to feed you SSRI first. In essence make him feel like he does the work by giving him very clear indication . IF he however talks dumb shit say that you talked with idk a friend or read on ADHD online self help patient forums about it and they suggested tjis compound. DONT say you already tried either. ADHD meds here is such a gay situation because you can do solo much wrong by either being honest or thinking docs act like sensible human beings that know what's good rather than somebody who hates their job and gives 0 fucks

A friend recently admitted to having taken 2x his dose on a day he was tired and had a big exam , instantly lost script and now is on atmoxitine which gives him errection problems and doesn't help. Different friend once admitted to having smoked weed despite it being decriminalized even though he had a script Also revoked. Be careful

I'm about to have a mystical psychosis meltdown thanks to the guy who claimed last thread that my theories were LLM hallucinated

fuck you and I hope you die an infinite number of times and never ever in an infinite number of liftimes reach gnosis/nirvana/moksha/etc.

>>81563086
Drugs will amplify that shit. You ever thought of tackling the root issue so you can actually vibe?

>>81564514
nta but aren't there drugs designed for the purpose of tackling anxiety

>>81564699
There are, but mixing drugs might fuck you up. Not in the fun way. He is better off fixing his shit so he can actually enjoy himself. I had anxiety before, and all it did was ruin every time where I got fucked up.

I'm gonna take molly tonight, let's say this shit was cut with meth, will that fuck me up for the rest of my life?

i stopped talking to the only person i knew irl who had access to drugs, now im stuck with xanax i steal from my mom

gonna down it with some jager later tonight in a creepy church yard

>>81565584
i am genuinely considering reaching out to them just so they can show me how to onion. that would make me feel terrible though

>>81562322
the idea of speedballing is that you can get way higher than youd be able to with just one or the other. thats not just because youre combining them. you raise your heartrate with coke on doses of heroin that would normally kill you. you slow your heartrate with heroin on doses of coke that would normally kill you. the trick is coming down alive, but if you dont make it it's probably worth it.

>>81562010 (OP)
>no gf
>no friends
>no money
>nobody to buy drugs from
Should I end it?

In my country, I was admitted to a psychiatric hospital against my will for 30 days after having a seizure due to taking bupropion without a doctor's license.
Now I'm back home, my parents confiscated all my medications: paroxetine, lithium, codeine, tramadol and pregabalin. The doctor had prescribed risperidone, but my vision became blurred and I felt strange mentally. So the doctor told me to take paroxetine and lithium (which I had already bought without a prescription before).
Now I'm going to have to buy medications on the sly, since my parents won't let me have any. This week I took 60mg, 120mg or 180mg of bromazepam in 1 day to sleep in secret.
My parents are going out on Monday, I'm thinking about buying codeine to get high. I'm not even going to try to look for the place where they hid my medications because I know I won't find it.
I had a job, but because of all this, I'm on leave and I won't be able to work for a while.

>>81563193
the problem with being this kind of crank schizo is that you types never even make anything. some schizos are highly creative. your thoughts themselves give you energy and affirmation but if they DIDNT, or at least did LESS so, you might actually come out with something cool. I think chatgpt is stifling what creativity you might be able to showcase.

>>81563252
Have you considered not doing opiates behind a dumpster where people can find you? Just do it somewhere secluded.

>>81566141
Where the fuck do you buy all these drugs from?

>>81566141
how do you sit in comfort while knowing that your parents might come back any moment?

>>81566114
No but you should get money through delinquent activity and atleast buy idk cough medicine or something

;)

>>81566264
I can't even buy cough medicine it's prescription only.

>>81566215
In a small pharmacy that is 10 minutes from my house.
>>81566222
They go to a place that is hours from my house.

>>81565584
stop taking prescriptions from your family especially your mother. first of all she knows. second of all if something bad happens to her or she finds a replacement for her medication it will be your fault

>>81565560
I don't think i'll be doing this shit actually, it's not the quiet type of drug so i don't think I can take this shit while my parents are home, the only reason they haven't kicked me out is cuz I have a job and about that...

>>81565560
not unless you find out

>>81566278
>They go to a place that is hours from my house.
what if your dad forgets his phone or whatever and drives back after like 30 minutes

started smoking weed at night and I just can't wait to be high. I think imma be addicted to this shit.

I broke a rule I thought I never would. Intent to my dealer and he said he had xanax pressies. As in, obviously I'm not dumb and neither is he and he explained it's alprazolam black market pressed int a school bus. I was like okay proof he said it's been checked in the uk and by kys. Kys is the drug testing service in my country. So I'm like fuck it and buy 3. Then I take it to the drug testing service and the lady spec tests it and says, because the milligram amount is so low, and the filler so high, the chances she can confirm it are almost non-existent. Eg it's like a 500mg bar with 2-4mg of alprazolam in it, and she checks like the tiniest little speck. So then she nitazene fent and benzo tests it. Comes back positive for benzos negative fot the others. That's all my information. I don't trust what anyone says especially a dealer. So I go to flush them. I mean there's like 1000pp0p of benzos now it could he anything. But I don't. I'm like hmmm I'll just try 1/8th of one bros I ended up doing all 4 snorting too much heroin being barred out and fucking up the measurement (this was in the last thread) luckily I caught it before who knows? I don't think I would have died but it I looked up the conversion it was like 70mg of pure heroin I usually take 20 split into 4 lines over about 2 hours.

Anyway now I have the most soul destroying juggling raving rebound anxiety in the world. I mean maybe it was alprazolam. Either way my anxiety is so fucking bad I have nothing. Nothing but 20mg (!) Zopiclone pills to calm me down and I'm too nervous to buy off my cities drug pages nows because I got robbed (I was the guy who got robbed for a yazer etc by methheads) and my other drug dealing "acquaintance" I buy/know had his door bashed in by 8 guys said it was probably some of the same and jacked for almost grand worth of drugs, all of which were on tick. So he owed big time to violent guys. Fuck imagine getting fronted 80+k worth of coke ket MD pills and its all gone.

>>81563193
holy kek that one really set you off, hilarious. ive seen your kind many times, and all the bullshit never amounts to anything.
its a shame because the topic is truly fascinating but your head is shoved so far up your own ass it gave your brain diarrhea

>>81564489
blud really thought he could represent the essence of that which escapes all categorization and structure with symbolic logic XD
talmbout divinity and nondualism like it means something, im 7 kalpa cycles ahead of you lil bro

Let's say a doctor is reluctant to prescribe stimulants to treat ADHD due to some minor heart problem (palpitations), would selective beta1 blockers (and maybe some alpha1 blockers) counteract the negative effects of Methylphenidate or Amphetamines?
I guess that they are reluctant because norepinephrine increases HR and BP which can worsen the symptoms, but then why would they prescribe Atomoxetine, an sNRI that does not have the added benefit of inhibiting the reuptake of dopamine and/or serotonin (and that is fucking useless)?

snorting shit every day is starting to fuck up my nose, who could have foreseen this

>>81564489
>fuck you and I hope you die an infinite number of times and never ever in an infinite number of liftimes reach gnosis/nirvana/moksha/etc.
this doesnt sound very detached anon, this doesnt sound like something someone whos trying to achieve gnosis would say

drank a beer, smoking weed
so who is gay?
>https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OY3jGNdbUe0

I am taking a month long break from any recreational drugs, this year I have already fucked around too much. Wish me strength brobots

kinda unrelated but why do supplements make you itchy? what the fuck, I can either be dizzy all the time or be itchy all the time, fuck this

how the fuck do i get cocaine? im not enough of a normie to find someone i just moved to a new city

>>81568076
histamine release

>>81568265
go to a bar n ask people

>>81568300
checked, what type of person do i ask at what bar? im 24 and have never been to a bar

The middleman I buy off from had 8 guys smash into his apartment and jack him for around 80k worth of cash and drugs. He has an 80k bill now because they're on tick. This is after I got small time robbed, I believe by some of the same people (I posted the story a few threads back). Guy wants ME to buy some of his last drugs at inflated prices as some kind of favour to him. Lmao. This underworld shit is viscious man. All that fucking matters is who's got the drugs whose got the best prices and who can defend it. It's not for me lol. My last little shipment cane in as well. 12x 200mg cards of zopiclone. Normally I'd sell them in 1-2 days. This time I'm just gonna stash them somewhere of I ever get insomnia. Dude imagine that I thought my robbery was scary he said he was walled in had 8 guys use bricks and bats and shit and smashed his door I'm amd took him for everything fuck that. I still got like 1200 worth of homemade lean I need to sell well ffs I'm legit thinking about just dumping this bag in the ocean. Plus I got barred out the other night and didn't realize my scale was on the wrong setting amd almost snorted like 60mg of pure heroin. Think I would have been mostly fine, utterly poisoned but still breathing etc. Running my fucking luck so hard man. Almost miss my wagie job. Plus I got the worst benzo rebound anxiety I'm literally shaking.

whats a good way to reduce a dxm hangover

>>81563779
>what sorta pain is it if I may ask?
It's a mysterious injury to my dick and balls and the connecting part of the body between the scrotum and the left leg, and left leg is entirely in pain too. Left nut is really acting up. Dick pain is getting worse.

ITS WW3
I JUST GOT AN 8TH OF HEADBAND AND ANOTHER BEER
LETS
FUCKING
GO

i intentionally overdosed on psych meds four times and was in a coma once; i was snorting 900mg lyrica daily for months; i was on first-second dxm plateau for months (ended up in psych ward after that); anyways i had a brain MRI recently and my brain is totally normal isn't that neat

>tfw surfing 4chan is the only thing that's not boring as fuck when getting sober from alcohol.
Wish my brain would SLOW THE FUCK DOWN

I'm only a few days in, maybe it gets better

>>81568064
I believe in you anonymous number 0<R
I forgot how that shit worked

any sites like psychonautwiki?

>>81569666
>I'm only a few days in
The best part about the withdrawals is that it, physically at least, never gets worse. It can only go up from here anon, keep it up.

>>81569666
the first few weeks are shit but after that it's fine, me personally my mood got way better after a few weeks of not drinking

>>81569944
lol I just blabbed about it in another thread on front page and you replied here. Thanks for the sentiment, anon.

I kinda lied, I'm almost 48 hours of drink free, the first day I only had 3 drinks (I normally have like 8-12) just to nip the worst of it in the ass.
Yesterday I had zero drinks, and today I haven't but I am considering having one or two to sleep well because somebody wants to meet up with me tomorrow morning.
Or I can just tell that person to fuck off.

>>81569937
I'll just post the full OP that I made a while back. You can find it in the archives. Also the list isn't completely elaborate or anything cuz there's many other sites out there but I just listed the few I knew of at the time. Fyi, you can use the internet archive of psychonaut wiki pages whenever it goes down.

For the discussion of drugs and drug experiences. All questions welcome!
>Community-driven substance encyclopedia.
psychonautwiki.org
>Virtual tripsitting and a variety of drug information. Also check out their wiki!
tripsit.me
>Info about MDMA and a guide for safe entactogen/stimulant use.
rollsafe.org
>Drug discussion board, trip report, library, and other informational index.
erowid.org
>Non-profit org for drug discussion, research, and harm reduction.
bluelight.org
>Mushroom and other substance discussion, cultivation, trip reports, and identification.
shroomery.org
>DMT and other substance discussion, cultivation, and trip reports.
dmt-nexus.me

>>81569966
>just to nip the worst of it
That likely helped a lot to prevent any danger, especially since alcohol is a GABAergic.
>somebody wants to meet up with me tomorrow morning
There's a few parts to that. If it isn't essential I'd consider cancelling, but also if you know them very well then you could cancel and explain that you're going through hell at the moment (without necessarily going into detail). Though, additionally, the social interaction could help distract you from the temptation to drink, so it really depends on how you're feeling.

>>81570037
My withdrawals aren't too bad usually (this ain't my first rodeo), I usually just get racing thoughts, insomnia (I did manage to sleep for like almost 4 hours last night) , and a lot of panic attacks.
I was a little sweaty yesterday but not today. I only get the shakes when I am EXTREMELY hungover (like if I had 20 drinks the night before), never from detoxing after a normal drinking night.

To the person..

Well it's a coworker who caught feelings for me, I told her I am not interested in a relationship, she offered me just sex, I said "idk,"
and she wants to meet up for coffee and "talk about things."

I feel like she wants closure and I already gave her closure, I dont want a relationship since I am not in a good place (and more importantly, she is kind of cunty and a misandrist so I am not into her).

So idk. Also she is related to my boss so I don't want to tell her I am going through withdrawal.

>>81570275
>this ain't my first rodeo
I hope it goes over easy then. Just beware about kindling though and it'll all be good long term too.
>coworker who caught feelings for me
>I told her I am not interested
>kind of cunty and a misandrist
I'd probably cancel unless you are desperate to get laid, in which case you should jack off and think it through.
>she is related to my boss so I don't want to tell her I am going through withdrawal
100% cancel then, imo, since it could be visually apparent that you're not doing your best and that'll open a line of inquiry you don't want to go down.

>>81566142
>>81567577
the torah starts with bet not aleph that's all I gotta say
I SAID
THE TORAH
STARTS WITH BET
NOT ALEPH
TORAH
STARTS
WITH
BET

as if I bait on here so I become famous and win a Nobel peace prize for deriving all of known physics from first principles using Shmuel aka "Sam" Vaknin's and Eytan Suchard's chronon field theory

globohomo physics will keep building particle accelerators and keep bloating up the standard model while Kabbalah chads just look at their little theories and laugh

I do my research so that when I look at someone else in the eye, I don't see a person, I see an infinite source of light that is temporarily separated from its source folding into itself infinitely

literally I can't look at people as people anymore I just see different manifestations of ayn sof

poo poo pee peeeeee and fart
my entire life literally since I was 5 years old is an llm hallucination
fuck you faggot

WHY DID THE BIG BANG HAPPEN YOU FUCKING FAGGOT
IT HAPPENED BECAUSE
TORAH
STARTS
WITH
BET
NOT ALEPH
IT STARTS WITH FUCKING BET
FUCK YOU

>>81570332
Yeah I have heard of kindling, I think the only reason this one wasn't worse than the last (actually seems better than the last) is because the bender wasn't QUITE as long (maybe 6 months, last time I got sober it was after a few years of drinking)

anyways thanks, I appreciate all your advice. I will see how much I am able to sleep tonight, and If I am still jittery/anxious and got no sleep, I will call it off and tell her that... idk I'm not quite ready to talk about it right now or some shit...

>Anti migraine medication is a derivative of DMT
Really makes you think.

>>81570594
Best of luck and sleep well!
>>81570597
I've also heard of cluster headaches being curable (at least for some) by psychedelics. Very interesting stuff and it makes me wish being a researcher paid well enough to make it a career.

about to take some eddies. what's a good dumb stoner movie

how to potentiate tramadol? redditors just say meaningless shit

>>81570742
Having an empty stomach, not eating a lot and drinking a lot of water is what I found will make it laster longer and kick in faster, but it will lead to nausea later on.

>>81570742
I usually take a higher dose.
jokes aside, I find smoking some weed enhances it. I'd say maybe a drink or two of alcohol as well, but I don't know what doses of tramadol you're doing (I only do 150-200 at a time)

>>81570742
Also, try not sleep, sleeping is what kills the effects and increases the tolerance.

>>81570579
look up job tooker in the sci archives
find him and do a collab paper

>>81570813
jon tooker*

I neeed amphetamines NOW

Just snorted a lil line of heroin, got 5mg of my beloved diazepam dissolving under my tongue, spent 900 on oxy 40s this morning that will be sold for 1250 tonight. Life's lookin a little better bros it ain't all bad.

Also does anyone know if I crush up M-elsons (morphine extended release the little clear capsules wire the beads), into a powder and then snort them, does that actually get absorbed as quick release through my nose? Or am I placeboing myself and it slowly drains into my stomach?

>>81571390
gotta eat m, only h is good to snort

I absolutely not enjoy masturbating anymore, at all. I can still find porn arousing, but the whole act of fapping just seems disgusting to me. Could this be do to my prescribed drug use??

>>81567771
I don't know if DRIs worsen palpitations, but one thing I'm pretty confident about is many doctors are stupid and don't understand pharmacology

>>81571431
Eating is the worst, at the very least plug it.

Deep down I know I should just slam both, but I feel like such a degen slamming drugs.

>>81571771
Recently my doctor told me he absolutely would not prescribe temazepam as a sleeping aid due to a history of opiate abuse, so he wrote me a script for 14 zopiclones instead, saying they were non addictive.

Actual fucking retards man

>>81571830
If you want something to help you sleep that isn't addictive, you can try antihistamines (in terms of "psychiatric" meds, mirtazapine, doxepin or even quetiapine come to mind). Just make sure there aren't any pharmacokinetic interactions with whatever else you are taking

>>81571920
Oh and I forgot to mention, keep an eye on your weight with anything that blocks H1

any other 7oh users here
I started using it three months ago to get off tianeptine. Was taking a ridiculous amount per day like 120-200mg a day but then I switched to online tabs and tapered down to 60mg a day. I've been using it as a maintenance dose alongside plainleaf kratom, dosing 15mg every 6 hours.

Been thinking about tapering down by dosing every 8 hours instead of 6 for 3x a day, get used to that for a couple days, then dose every 12 hours 2x a day. Using plain leaf kratom and gabapentin for whatever pain i have between doses.

wish me luck bois, I have three days off in a row next week I'm taking advantage of it

The irony of drugs is that the only time I feel like working or being productive doing anything at all is when I'm on drugs. "Sober me" is the lazy one.

>>81572067
Iktf. What do you take to feel productive?

>>81572067
>tfw all of my greatest work was done with 2-3 drinks of alcohol in my system (any more than that has diminishing returns)

>>81572085
Weed or tramadol/any opiod/opiate.

>>81572172
Interesting, I would have thought something more dopaminergic. Opiates would put me to sleep

>>81563086
Take Propranolol with every drug

>>81563086
I know SSRIs don't have the best rep, but sometimes they work for that kind of anxiety, at least better than they do for depression. Otherwise your only choices are CBT therapy, or something that works on GABA (pregabalin or benzos, but I really wouldn't recommend benzos long term)

>>81563174
I take 10mg and I study fully concentrated for solid 2-2.5hours

God I am thankful to live in third world country where I can get prescription meds just as OTC

Face is starting to look more ghoulish.

how much vyvanse should i do
i took 70mg before and it was pretty good, should i pump it to 140mg

smoked heroin and it was more underwhelming than anything, probs won't buy again

>>81562010 (OP)
Should I tell my parents I was/am addicted to weed? I'm going on 4 days no weed from vaping weed every day. I would say I'm a functioning addict and I believe my parents don't know, I don't live with them, I feel guilty and I think about telling them but I'm not sure. I think it would help me stay accountable but also at the same time it's really up to me and I shouldn't make them worry.

>>81572803
Do a high dose of LSD and say fuck it.
Or you do you.

>>81566142
Not everyone has to release their creations to get fucking validation from other people nigger.

>>81563999
thanks for the advice
yeah it is a gay situation and im not comfortable being in it, but id like that script
vasoconstriction is actually terrible with mph, maybe vyvanse will be better there

>>81563999
nothing to lose anyways
mph script is worthless to me, as a kid I spat them out when my parents tried to force me to take em

back to drinking alkohol after bad weed trip

>>81571771
>many doctors are stupid and don't understand pharmacology
Most doctors are genuinely stupid and hold quasi-religious beliefs about many things even when there is not enough evidence to back them up. But then they will tell you to trust the science, dude.
>I don't know if DRIs worsen palpitations
To be more precise, I am talking about premature ventricular contractions. The exact cause in this case is uncertain but an excess of catecholamines can definitely increase the amount of PVCs because of their binding to beta1 adrenergic receptors. Even though PVCs are usually harmless and require no treatment, they can cause problems in the long term if they are frequent enough.
Because dopamine also binds to beta1 receptors, amphetamines should be worse than atomoxetine (in regards to PVCs), but dopamine has a significantly weaker effect than norepinephrine and thus any difference should not be significant. Regardless, adjusting the dose of beta blockers should probably take care of the issue.

>>81566548
i live in a 2nd world country, anon, it's okay. she only takes them to sleep occasionally.

>>81572428
I envy you, been wishing I can hop the border and go fill up in Mexico and come back.

>>81572803
No, fuck no, they will use it against you and never trust you and treat you like a crack addict the rest of your life.

>>81572828
I used acid several times, back when you could only get bitcoin from virwox lol I should of kept it. I'm not interested in tripping anymore.
>>81574454
I was thinking about that, there has been a ton of times I've helped my parents, while high, and after they're like you're so great etc. and if they wanted to start hating I could mention that but I don't think that would really work how I think. I just need to not fail this time.

I dont get high at all, and im wound up about how much ive spent. I was spending $350 to 400 a month, and i hate my current job cause i feel like im trapped cause they dont test and im comfortable about the work. im trying to channel those feelings into really quitting weed for good. i have to stop being a joke

>>81574587
You're not a joke for enjoying life and it's none of your parents business how you enjoy life.

>>81574587
>quitting weed for good
nigger just dont smoke it?
Its way less addictive then nicotine or even booze

except maybe if you have smoked so much you have gotten physically addicted
But the only people I know that managed that used THC or HHC carts that can deliver bonkers amount of high, not straight weed

>>81574643
nice picrel. that is my morning vibe right now, linux laptop, organic dark-roast coffee, and bubbler of headband.

oh and of course post-clown-world insanity

Speaking of weed

>>81571815
well, yes, plugging and then IV/IM are best for morphine, but i was saying between snorting morphine and eating it, eating it has greater bio-availability.

>>81575127
im jelly. on 4/20 i got a bunch of free autoflower seeds, i planted a couple of them because i was not even planning to grow weed this year and focus on other plants, gave away the rest, and then the two that i planted that sprouted got killed because i grow outdoor and they were ripped up in the sprout stage by chipmunks and the like. no big loss though, seems my other plants which i had really wanted to grow are going strong. still bummed out though, when i grew weed before i did not grow any autoflowers, would have been cool to see the difference.

>>81575122
Weed and coffee is the best combo.

>>81575164
autoflowers are great, I only grow them
But I got a free F1 Hybrid seed with my autoflower seeds, not sure what I should do with that
It wont flower with my Autoflower lighting setup, so what to do with it...

>>81575194
they dont call it a Hippie Speed-Ball for nothing. Cheers!

>>81575210
i probably should have tried to grow em indoors. i been getting CRAZY amounts of chimpunks and all variety of lil beasts periodically attacking my outdoor grow. but i love doing shit outdoors cause it grows so strong and big and true when you do it right. this year im experimenting with growing some stuff indoors on a desk with no special lights or equipment and its coming out wimpy as fuck in comparison to the outdoor grow. guess for indoor you really do need special lighting and the whole bitttt.

What a beautiful scene. Smoking pure heroin and beautiful uncle sam tax free roll your owns.

>>81575348
pure heroin freebase? thats pretty wild. have not done actual heroin in so many years.

fuck I love being sober
alc and weed just make me sleep atm no pleasure
I wonder if my mind is just done with drugs for the moment

>>81575472
No. 4 china white I had personally spec-tested. Results were heroin only - zero cut/additive. Most expensive drug I've ever brought.

>>81575742
that is no good to smoke, convert it to a freebase and smoke it. can be done super easily, same way as you do with coke. be extremely careful with that stuff if you do not have a serious tolerance.

>>81575770
What do you mean no good? I'm high as fuck off like 20mg lol

>>81575770
Also I'm just ticking the method of ingestion off really. This is how I used to smoke raw opium I'd collect. I tried snorting the heroin, plugging it, now smoking and maybe in 2 days I'm gonna slam it up my left fuckin arm lol also trying to source some proper fish scale for a genuine speedball.

This shit is beautiful man, God damn I love opiates

>>81575876
>>81575815
i suppose it being pure makes the difference? every time i ever tried to smoke street #4 off foil when i was young it never worked really. interesting stuff. enjoy it for what its worth. im 3 years clean now after a decade of all opiates, including a lot of #4 IVed.

Be-careful out there.

>>81575962
wow that does look pretty wild. PURE SMACK. how much does pure smack go for these days?

>>81575986
It cost me the equivalent of ~$388USD for 1 gram. Heroin itself is a rare drug in my country, and unheard of at this purity. So I gave myself an early birthday present. Bucket list type purchase not like I can afford much more anyway lol. Now I've tried:

>codeine
>dihydrocodeine
>tramadol
>morphine
>opium smoked, eaten raw, made into tea from fresh and dried pods, and seed washes
>oxycodone
>hydromoprhone
>heroin
>bupenorphine
>methadone

Haven't tried fent don't want to. I'd like to try O-DSMT though. And maybe pethidine because my grandmother used to take that. My favourite is still opium tea made from freshly picked pods I've watched grow and flower. Make a nice cuppa tea with lemon and honey and chamomile and smoke those thin narrow expensive talleys and feel sophisticated unlike some degen smoking smack off tin foil in his garage watching ai Bigfoot on tiktok lmao

>>81576239
Oh and kratom, I'd like to try that.

>>81576239
that price is kind of a lot but considering its probably like 2-3 grams of street heroin its not terrible.

>>81576239
out of 10 years of opis my mainstays were always kratom and opium taken orally with IV heroin being the third. i live near nyc and when fent came around years ago all my old heroin buddies hit the skids and died or got sober, so i did kratom and opium only for years after that and eventually did ibogaine detox. glad to be off it, long term addiction even with kratom/opium turns to hell.

>>81576355
Damn dude what was ibogaine like ?

I'm curious about dph since I tried most stuff but haven't tried antihistamines, it's a prescription in my cunt though so in the meantime I'll ask if anyone has experiences with it
>inb4 don't tell me not to do it, because I'll do it for the thrill anyways.

Any more drugs like Pregablin? It's my second time using it and I love it so such. It makes my life beautiful again and gives me social mad.

>>81572067
Same. Life's better with a buzz, I even work out high. When I'm sober I just sit around wishing I had weed.

>>81576511
indescribable, but ultimately its like a mix of pcp and some strange tryptamine. it has both tryptamine and disso action, as well as tons of other stuff.

Have you ever experienced ego death while on drugs?

took a gint edible and some mushrooms for the first time in over a year, it was comfy though i did freak out a little when the us bombed iran, thought shit was going to come tumbling down real fast

>Finally got a gf
>She does zero drugs and rarely drinks alcohol
The correct course of action is to hide all my weed smoking and boozing from her, correct? She wouldn't understand.

>>81576757
There's phenibut (lyrica lite with a more stimulating focus) and gabapentin (don't know what it does bc I never tried it)
Phenibut is legal and you can buy it off the internet no problem, gives a really bad hangover though.

>>81577332
gabapentin is entirely non-narcotic; i take the shit for chemotherapy-induced neuropathy in muh feets. it does fuck a small minority of people up with heart palpitations and apparently some people get a little crazy off it.

>>81577316
Yeah, you forget about it when you browse these threads almost daily but drugs are taboo and even people who just smoke weed find other drugs to be really scary and are concerned for you if you mention that you do oxycodone or ketamine for example.
I had a friend beg me to never do ketamine again even though I do it once a month, man I wish I had an enabler, even if it implies that I want someone who doesn't give a shit about me.

>>81577365
>even people who just smoke weed find other drugs to be really scary and are concerned for you if you mention that you do oxycodone or ketamine
i hate this shit so much, i knew a dude who did weed and psychedelics all the time but the one time i mention i do pharmaceuticals he acts like im a fucking crazy person

>>81577436
>Talking with normalfag that doesn't have the willpower to take a week long T-break off weed so they don't have to smoke a gram to feel the light effects
>You mention that you sometimes abuse your prescription because it helps you with things outside it's intended use.
>"Oh my god isn't that a hard drug? please don't do this to yourself bla bla bla (generic intervention bullshit)"

just bought a new and much needed weed grinder. about to cook up some dank headband firecrackers when i get home in a few hours.

Not to be sus, but where do you guys get stuff like tramadol and benzos?
bible? Doctor? Irl?

>>81577292
oh dont worry, it is.

>>81578244
I have a chronic illness that comes with intestinal pain and diarrhea so I get tramadol prescribed, benzos you can probably just get for anxiety so study up and fake it to a shrink.
otherwise find a way to buy it illegally, it's a lot more elusive than regular drugs but the plugs are out there.

>>81578244
>tramadol
one of the few drugs i have never tried nor even seen people doing, it was never in my area
>benzos
personally i only have ever gotten them from people who have scripts or know someone else who does

>smoke indica
>couch locked for two weeks

ordered this bad boy.

>>81578262
I am diagnosed with GAD but my doctor is pretty tight fisted with that sort of thing and I am very nonchalant (don't want to be pushy) .

He didn't even suggest meds when he diagnosed me, probably because he knows I used to drink pretty heavily

>>81578266
Both my dad and grandma got prescribed tramadol for pain and I used to nab a few of my dad's whenever he had some.

My grandma passed away last year and I came into about 100 tramadol pills. I did the right thing and only stole about 40 before giving the bottle to my dad.
I am running a little low now though

untopped Autoflower

failed to launch untopped Autoflower, allready in flower
Tiniest yield ever award but whatever the sooner that plant is done the sooner another can take its place

>>81578359
>>81578348
how many plants you got going rn?

is there much difference in shroom strains/varieties?

>>81576968
You couldn't pay me to take that shit

>>81579480
in terms of potency yes but nothing really noticeable when you adjust for that.

>>81578293
Get another doctor, not all of them are conservative with opiates.
I was quite lucky with doctors since one pretty much gave me tramadol no questions asked when I said I needed a refill.

can i take oxy if i took tramadol earlier today

>>81579718
any specific you'd recommend for someone who's tried chocolate bars and also dried shrooms? don't mind if its a bit too much because i tend to handle it well

>>81578312
Amazing how they can get it and watch me, with my dick and ball pain, not be prescribed some or that much... fuck my goddamn life.

>>81578290
Nice.

>>81580602
I mixed those two often so yeah absolutely

I miss my low pot tolerance, why'd I have to go on a week long bender where I did high doses every 4 hours why?
I barely ate anything so I swear if I still have coherent thoughts....

I quit smoking weed long time ago because it always would give me these godawful hellish absolutely insane anxiety attacks/paranoid fits. I'm talking full blown schizophrenia thinking people are reading my mind, things I heard from random strangers/radios/etc were hidden messages to torment and taunt me. It was really bad.

Anyways just made and ate an edible. Hoping it'll be a chill night. Strangely enough it was only SMOKING weed that caused all the bad experiences, and a few times vaping. I can't recall even 1 bad experience with edibles. Maybe a few difficult ones but nothing intolerable.

Hoping I didn't make it TOO weak, obviously I was cautious and put not a whole lot of THC with it. But I also should have 0 tolerance. Can always take more but cant take less once its in you.

I'm already feeling a bit giddy. Like laughing more and music sounds a bit better, only been like 30 mins so prolly just placebo. Anyways main reason I'm doing it is to get in touch with myself more and also because the main thing I missed all these years from weed is just how fucking great it makes music sound. I'm mostly an opianon these days, and nodding out listening to music is pretty good feels, but idk, it doesn't beat weed in that respect. It lacks a certain depth/texture. Like you really dive in and fully immerse with weed but opiates its more fuzzy and comfy but still feels far away/external. Hopefully /drugfeel/ anons having a good night

>>81581928
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>>81581845
take a T break!

>>81581934
I took a week long one, still not the same as the first few highs you have.
It's so retarded how your body is so dead-set on making you miserable, I would normally be getting dopamine from accomplishing things and connecting with other people but I'm an autistic retard brain, I'm incapable of doing these things so I need drugs to be happy and to fix myself with.

>>81577332
Does it have cross tolerance with Pregab?

Im gonna take datura this week once my seeds arrive

told you guys I was gonna make that coddeine hit

>went cold turkey on escitalopram and now I'm having real bad suicidal thoughts
>can't tell anyone about it
>no money to buy more until next month
somebody help

>>81583301
I don't understand how painful the withdrawal of escitalopram is exactly, but I know how terribly and disgustingly painful mental withdrawal can be and let me tell you anon, It feels long and hopeless but you can be fine, If you have the energy and the time take a long long walk to distract yourself and when you're all alone just tweak the shit out, don't try to repress the anxiety just live it move weird spit on shit and hit yourself if you need to but don't let the shit defeat you, and for the depression yknow, take a long long walk if you can

gotta stay strong anon

>>81583384
This is why I only mess with opiates. The withdrawal symptoms only feel physical. Whenever I abused a gabaergic or gabapentinoid or stimulants (comedowns) the withdrawals you literally feel like you have to kill yourself.

>>81583914
I wish I could only mess with opioids too but the only similar thing I have available are benzos and gaba shit besides otc codeine, Lyrica makes me feel completely destroyed and empty when withdrawing but then it kinda fades out, I can get trams now but my use of that led to like three weeks of abuse which was kind of a skill issue cuz tramadol has snri properties which make it extra shitty when withdrawing so yeah, would love to have a good source of hydros or something, codeine does the trick but I'm a lazy fuck and I don't separate it from the ibuprofen so I usually avoid it

I understand the pain of the other anon deeply cuz I know how it feels to have your happy neurotransmitters tazed

what drugs do combat pilots take?

>>81583914
Mixing both is pure hell, probably the lowest point of my life; I can't even describe how disgusting I felt from physical and mental anguish in those days, it came in waves and sleep was forbidden, 0 respite from hellish torment 24/7 - my cheeks actually sunk in a bit like a holocaust survivor from not eating anything for days.

TL;DR Don't fuck around with drugs, always always take breaks and never use continuously.

>>81562010 (OP) https://youtu.be/6Ez-AOVJbzg

>>81584601
Which "both" ? Gaba and Stims ? Gaba withdrawals trully are hell, i get you

>>81572428
you're obviously lying because in actual third world countries pharmacies are constantly out of supply

>>81586005
doubleposting
today I had to visit 7 different pharmacies to get concerta

May this post be a permanent reminder to keep a fucking bucket around for puking whenever I do ketamine god fucking DAMN IT
shit like this is why I prefer DXM.

>take kratom
>feel really shit and like i want to throw up for 1-2 hour
>feel amazing for the rest of the day

How do I fix the nausea

>>81562010 (OP)
I'm about to get high on codeine, this is my first time Wish me luck, I'm going to take 12 pills of 30mg each.
I'm on the outskirts of Rio de Janeiro, taking codeine in the bathroom of a supermarket. I'll be back home soon.

>>81562949
Nta but I have the opposite opinion, DXM sends me to a blissful world where I can basically dream while awake and still be able to move to pee or whatever if I need to while ketamine sends me to purgatory and makes me throw up everywhere if I even dare to think about nausea or dare to move my body, weed doesn't stop me from puking on it either.
The visuals on it are quite epic, but I feel like ketamine is not as recreational.

>>81588705
Enjoy your first opiate experiences as much as you can man, don't worry about "liking it too much" or whatever because later on opiates don't work as good no matter how long you're off of them.

>>81587801
Weed since it stops it, not a miracle worker though so also try not eating beforehand.

>2 strong cups of coffee
>2 shots of whiskey
>1 toke of weed
>ground score hash oil vape tokes