Good morning Anon. I'm sorry I wasn't around yesterday.

Please come and tell me how have you been Anon. I hope everything is alright.

still broke still no bitches

worried about my health but doing fine

>>81563603
Anon can you please get a job and a part time job if you could. I know I ask much. but I wish you could improve financially little by little step by step. Anon do you go to social clubs or so? or do you use dating apps or social media?

>>81563620
Please tell me what worries you anon. I hope its nothing serious. anon please tell me if we can do something or research something.

>>81563653
>Please tell me what worries you anon. I hope its nothing serious.
i went to the hospital a few weeks ago for some parasites in my stomach
i need to check up in a few weeks again for them to do some blood tests and collecting my shit. they said i didn't need to stay the entire day, only if they find something serious or if the treatment didn't work, and i am worried about that.
the hospital beds were horrible the first time i went there. couldn't sleep. shit food. no internet. could barely move from fatigue of not sleeping/eating. i basically had no connection to the outside world and was miserable the entire time. i don't want that to happen again and just hope i'm fine so i can go home and not spend another few days there while they experiment on me like a rat.

>>81563674
My dear Anon please dont worry. Im sorry you went through all of that. I know certainly that you dont have anything serious and they would most likely give you Metronidazole or so. Please dont overthink or let your anxiety run. You will be safe and good soon. Hold still and follow through your medication and your hospital appointments no matter how bad it is. Life sometimes need us to push ourselves. Please be well and take much care of yourself anon. I love you much and wish you good health. Much love.

>>81563653
i am working you stupid fuck but everything is so fucking expensive

>>81563732
Please dont say bad words to me anon. I only wanted to help. Im sorry.

>>81563592 (OP)
I self-sabotaged my relationship with him and now he's ignoring me, I just want things to be like in the beginning but my extremely unlikeable personality is catching up with me

>>81563877
Anon. Time is not up yet. You still can fix stuffand you both can work this out or apologise. Everyone has flaws anon nobody is perfect. please be easy on yourself and try to improve without hurting yourself for it hurt us to see you like this anon. we care about you anon and we love you. please try to fix things or tell us more so we could help.

>>81563947
I hope we can fix it, I love him so much it honestly scares me. I did apologize but I've wronged him so many times and gotten mad at so much stupid insignificant shit in hindsight that I think I can't fix it anymore. It sucks because he's literally an angel, he's so sweet, smart, kind, funny and beautiful inside and out. I definitely don't deserve him at all and I'm happy that I got to spend at least some months together with him, it has probably been the happiest time of my life. Thank you Sol, reading this made me feel oddly better about myself even though I don't deserve it.

Venting is the most worthless shit ever. Oh god all my problems magically are better because I talked to some worthless Jack ass who does nothing the whole time.

>>81564012
Dear friend please dont say all of these things about yourself. Do you really think someone like him wouldnt want to be with you? people attract alikes mostly. he knows the good qualities of you too. please...if you love him this much and he means this much to you then please please tell him over and over. keep telling him how much he means to you. every soul wants to know and hear these words. no matter how bad it got or how much happened there is always always a room for improvement healing and understanding. dont think negative my sweet anon. please try and work on it immediately and update me if anything happens. We overthink so much much stuff believe me and you aren't as bad as you think you are. My dear anon people been through actual abuse and cheating and things i cannot name and somehow survived even if they shouldnt. so please know that your worries and fears are mostly in your head. approach him with kind gentle words and be mature and tell him how much you love him and how much you are ready to change and fix this for him. I pray for you my dear.

>>81564092
Then please go away from this thread and keep living in your problems. Dont ever share anything and keep it all for yourself.

>>81563592 (OP)
im fine, maybe i think...
Worried about not having money or a job

>>81564355
I hope you are anon. can you try job apps or Internet work? little by little we build ourselves anon. I hope you at least try and dont waste time. wishing you much luck anon.

>>81564151
No one ever said anything about not fixing problems. Real problems aren't solved by venting. Nor will they be solved by some internet fool.

>>81565010
I await your next response.

good morning vent anon!!
i just woke up. i got a raging headache :(

>>81565057
good morning sweet anon!
please drink some water and move out of your bed a bit. take a headache pill if necessary. You had a rough sleelp it seems. please dont sleep too much anon!

>>81565187
the bed is comfy! i wish i could stay in it forever. i will get up soon...
do you like sleeping too, vent anon?

>>81563592 (OP)
been recovering from flu, but still worried about your mental health
do stay safe, kind anon
make sure not to overwhelm yourself with the amount of darkness this board has to offer

>>81565239
who doesnt anon. I can tell you that sleeping while in a good mood vs bad can really affect your health and mentality and this is from my own personal experience. Please anon never go to bed upset or angry or even emotional. watch happy videos or prank videos or comedy. even if those prank videos are fake try to make yourself laugh anon and have fun. life is harder if you cant let go of things. I hope you always sleep and wake up happy anon!

>>81565263
You are kind too anon. I wish you sweet fast recovery and i promise you to take care of myself. but please do too. Did you make any chicken soup or took some vitamin C anon? i know those are minor things but i just wanted to remind you. i hope flu doesnt ruin your weekend. please take much care kind one.

>>81563592 (OP)
Oh man, this week felt like shit yknow why, cuz i'm a fucking retard that doesn't know to control himself with drugs but i'm starting to feel better, a little better but this feeling still circles around my head, "we're near the end so I might aswell just take what I feel like it since well it doesn't really matter" but like idk, I need get a grip or whatever

I love you ventanon, you and the niceposter are making this shithole a better place

>>81565355
>I can tell you that sleeping while in a good mood vs bad can really affect your health and mentality and this is from my own personal experience.
well, if i am honest with you, i rarely ever go to sleep with a smile. i love staying up late to look at the stars, in silence. whenever i go to bed, i start overthinking about all the things i do, all the things i regret not doing. i hardly ever let things go. i just wish i didn't do things i did, or that i didn't meet some people that took advantage of my feelings.
in the end, falling asleep is a big challenge for me... i'm also trying to avoid using the phone before sleeping. thank you for your good wishes!
i am worried though, if you talk from experience... does that mean you are going through something bad yourself? please let me know!!

>>81565478
I love you too anon. i cant do anything without you or the niceposter. you people are my inspiration and my core.

anon please fight all negative thoughts you have or think. maybe there is something much much better awaiting you anon and you need to work a bit or try a different approach. anon look at yourself really. from your simple post i could already tell so much about you. so much like how nice deep down you are how you know what really matters at the end and the fact that you know drugs are bad and temporary. these characteristics are of a noble soul anon. please please fight for your own sake and your loved ones. we all here for you and many people irl love you and here online too. drugs are never the solution to anything anon. step by step little by little pull yourself from those illusions and research and read your salvation please anon. you can control yourself and you can improve much and escape. i know texting and talking is easy and work is hard but i genuinely truly believe in you because of the kindness of your heart. I love you much anon. please be well.

>>81565512
Yes I used to anon. I used to go to bed and think much about everything just like you. I even think of unanswered questions like death and the beyond. Anon what good does overthinking do to us and why should we stop at the same station over and over....

I now know that our brains sometimes fight us too. We need to keep ourselves in check anon and fight thoughts and bad feelings. we cannot be the prisoners of our own negativity anon...

people lost wars families homes and worse and moved on! life is a harsh harsh battle and we need strength and endurance. anon i know how lovely and kind you are and i know that you would listen to me just like i do. I listen to you and think of you as a genuine online friend. so please anon. please take care of yourself and keep yourself happy and well. you deserve better than this anon. overthinking and too much depressing Internet is a poison....just like this sad place.

please anon
do it in the name of love.
love yourself and let us love you too.
I love you anon and nice posters love you too and wish you well. we all wish the best for everyone here.

your preachy saccharine tone makes me want to vomit

>>81563592 (OP)
i wanna know more about you your age what your work is as why you are so kind what is your favorite thing to do

These threads remind me of nunanon. I really miss her. I hope shes ok.

>>81565762
I wish you well anon. please do tell me if you want me to accompany you to the bathroom sink.

>>81565787
Im just someone who wishes you all good. I love to help others and I carry no bad intentions for anyone here. I went through so much in my life myself and I want to help. I like video games anon and a bit of sports. I like fashion and skincare too. what about you anon? also i wish you a good day and i hope you are doing fine. blessings.

>>81565821
I hope too. I hope she comeback and talk with you anon. I personally dont know her but it seems she was a nice person. may you find many nice people in your life anon. i wish you a beautiful journey.

>>81565854
i like video games too especially nes video games and im always happy whenever you post i always check and i like spirituality too i think everyone is connected and life is so beautiful even if i get bullied so much

>>81565869
and im happy too with you around anon. what is your favourite game of all time? and what can you tell me about spirituality?

please defend yourself from bullies online or irl. you must reach to people and community. you are too kind anon and i pray who ever bullies you to get bullied himself so he could feel your pain.

please anon dont let others pick on you. be strong and reach to kind people around you or authorities/communities. we care about you anon and people hate unjust.

You are kind anon so please be safe and stand for your kind heart.

>>81563592 (OP)
Everything is so expensive. Despite the fact that I earn and save quite a lot of money, it takes me forever to get anywhere. I don't even buy anything.
Also, my car is acting up again and I hope I don't have to get it checked and get something fixed. Please pray for my car.
>I wasn't around yesterday.
How come?

>>81565938
im not very good at explaining my favorite game from the megaman series it has to be megaman 3 maybe but the final boss is so difficult and i try to defend mysself but its been like this for years

>>81566083
I prayed for your car and financial situation anon and I asked God to make life easier for you. im sorry everything been hard and expensive. life is weird and needs many things. anon i hope you find a better job too or a part time one.

yesterday i got busy and coulndt attend my own thread that i made.

anon i hope you get a nice BMW car too. i wish you happy anon. i hope all these worries go away soon.

>>81566111
I never played any megaman game. They look classic and comfy.

anon did you try to reach someone or a group? please dont give up anon. try anything or anyway to prevent it. think of all the solutions in your irl situation. please be well and safe anon. dont let anyone hurt you.

>>81566123
Thank you Sol
>i hope you get a nice BMW
I will

>>81566233
<3
best of luck car anon!

>>81563592 (OP)
I wish I could redo my life. I had opportunities to do something meaningful, get a gf, but now in my mid 20's I just work, come home, sometimes drink and fap that's it. I wish I wasn't such an unconscious retard who thought things would all just work out in my teens.

>>81563592 (OP)
i have been fairly okay lately but i feel like im on very thin ice and everything could go crashing down again at the slightest misstep

>>81565685
>Yes I used to anon.
how did you get over it? i have been battling myself for a very long time... to no avail. it's not like i do it on purpose :( i have always been like this and i try my best to not do it but it's hard
>anon i know how lovely and kind you are and i know that you would listen to me just like i do. I listen to you and think of you as a genuine online friend.
of course i listen to you, and you are my friend!! i have tried leaving a couple of times, but loneliness finds its way to my heart and then i am inevitably drawn to this place again. if i left today, i would lose a bunch of people i really enjoy talking to, and that includes you.
>do it in the name of love
i will try, vent anon... i keep trying. trying is the only thing i know how to do, if i ever stopped trying then i wouldn't be here anymore. i appreciate and love you too :)

>>81563810
fuck you and your gay threads nigger

All you do is make me feel more alone.

>>81565762
You seem like you're very bitter and you should probably find something else to take your aggression out on. I think this thread is inoffensive as someone who never posts in these. You should go raging in an e-whore thread instead like the ones that Toki tranny makes.

>>81567788
nta but
>toki
lol, not sure how to feel as a metalocalypse fan

I absolutely hate being a neet and I don't wanna be a neet anymore, but I already said that before

>>81563592 (OP)
Why the name Sol?

>>81568191
I actually thought it was some sort of reference to the game Toki Toki since I have never really watched the show. Heard it's good though.

>>81563592 (OP)
I work as a stripper (yeah yeah kys) and I gave this guy three dances but didn't ask for the money upfront because I didn't wanna be a bitch. I kept informing him of the price between each song and if he wished to continue, he said "don't worry, I have more than enough cash". After three songs he said that was enough but when it came time to pay he gave me $30 and said "well it is what it is, haha, it wasn't even that good anyway" even after I gave him free coke because I was in a fun mood. I was crushed so I went to my boss and told him what happened and.. he actually stood up for me. No one had ever done that before. It was hilarious seeing them interact, my boss is freakishly huge and he effortlessly dragged the theif by his shirt collar like a dad with a bratty child. He made the guy give me the rest of the money personally and apologize before banning him. Better believe I gave him a $60 tip that night.

Feeling despondent about my future prospects. I was sired and raised by a diagnosed psychopath father, and a schizophrenic mother. From one, terror, abuse, violence, and humiliation. From the other I felt much love, but also neglect, abandonment, and no real parental presence. All that has left a mark on my soul. Despite all this I function ok, but I suffer a great deal in doing so.
I have no emotionally nourishing relationships, but I am to my shame deeply emotionally needy.

I am aware that my needs are beyond anything a romantic partner can provide. I do not expect them to replace the love I did not receive. Nontheless their quite normal flaws can inspire in me terrible upset. I dont lash out, or outright abuse, but I can be... a lot. Rambling endlessly, not being able to let things go without them spelling out their feelings in minutae, and for their behaviour to be consistent with their claims. All this has made it a challenge to develop a mutually reciprocal relationship. I either turn my feelings off, and go through the motions of what I know rationally to be right, or I let myself feel and overwhelm the person. I cannot, I think, find an equilibrium between both.

It is getting harder and harder to find reasons to stay alive.

>>81568823
>stripper
>free coke
Assuming you meant cocaine, hot.

>>81568964
Lolll yeah, but funny story. Once a guy bought me a glass of coke and expected me to give him a dance for it. A $3 glass of coke.