Thread 81572702

If you think it's actually hopeless. You don't really enjoy things anymore, do you?

>>81572702 (OP)
i need to goon

Because I want to live.

>>81572702 (OP)
because i like consuming media

mostly fear of getting hurt.
though i still have very slight feeling of hope sometimes even though im ugly as shit and a loner all my life rotting my best years away never going outside.
i have this dumb imagination that someone will eventually love me for how clingy i am, someone who is as lonely as myself.
and then we will live the rest of our ugly shitty lives through eachother. i think thats all i lack for happiness.

>>81572702 (OP)
The pleasures of life, though few and far between, are worth living for. If I die then I won't be able to be top of the scoreboard on battlefield 1.

I don't live in the US so I don't have easy access to a gun

>>81572762
I'm in a similar situation, anon. I really hope you find someone who loves you just as much as you love them.

>>81572702 (OP)
Too scared of the pain and the chance of fucking it up

>>81572702 (OP)
i want to sometimes but i sure enjoy feet

my ego's too massive to accept dying when people far worse than I am get to roam the earth scot-free

>>81572702 (OP)
They've announced the new game "the expanse" and it looks pretty fun. I guess I can hold off from KMS to see if it's any good I guess?
Plus I want to know what it's like to nibble on someone's ear that I like like.

>>81572702 (OP)
it takes courage

>>81572702 (OP)
I can't think of a painless death

I'm planning to on new years. I'm holding out hope for a christmas miracle that makes me want to live.

>>81573226
I think the easiest way is to enlist as a ground trooper so you get access to hand grenades and then putting it at the back of your neck to blast away your brainstem. There will be not enough brain left to feel any pain. It's my retirement plan if I don't make it.

I ask myself that question a lot. I think it just comes down to rational thinking. Very few people are truly "unhappy ALL THE TIME". We still end up enjoying things. We are motivated by interacting with others, we might chuckle at a joke, we might shed a tear. It's easy to say nothing is worth it, everything sucks. But its almost always a lie because our sick brains are lying to ourselves so we can sit around and feel helpless rather than taking action.

The reality of the situation, I still live because sometimes enjoying things is worth feeling shit a lot of the other times.

>>81573252
way easier to just buy a shotgun brother. Pulling the pin on a grenade and releasing the handle is no more easier than pulling a trigger.

>>81573271
But putting a phallic object deep into your mouth is kind of a gay way to die, don't you think? Grenade pillow is more comfy, elegant and heterosexual.
What type of ammo is best with a shotgun, I wonder? I'm kind of partial to slugs but what do you think is best?

>>81573313
why were you thinking about putting it deep into your mouth? are you gay? birdshot, buckshot and slugs will all kill you point blank coming out of a shotgun.

>>81573114
hmm, tell more about urself like we can fulfill eachothers situations maybe? idkidk

>>81572702 (OP)
You're just going to let your enemies outlive you?
>But I don't have any enemies!
MAKE SOME

>>81573330
Not the guy you're responding to, but I personally would put it in my mouth and aim up at the back of the brain, and make sure the brain stem is hit and exploded. It would also be easier to pull the trigger like that.

>>81573330
How am I supposed to aim at my brain stem then? From the back? Seems uncomfy and convoluted.

>>81573313
caring about sexuality when literally no one will be around to see you doing something gay is a big "I dont actually want to die" alert. stop larping. Buck shot would be ideal for a brain blast with less penetration risking big damage to your home like a slug might.

>>81573346
NTA but boy, do I have enemies. I even have my own hate club that documents everything I do to host on my personal "hate page". I give them ample material by letting them peer into my apartment and I'm currently gathering Intel about the host so I can sue the shit out of them to stock up my retirement funds. The anticipation is killing me.

>>81572702 (OP)
>If you think it's actually hopeless
I'm hoping that for once, I'm wrong

>>81572702 (OP)
Because if I die, they win.

>>81573359
>>81573366
Budd Dwyer pulled it off with a single round from a pistol, just don't be one of those stupid fuckers that blows their entire lower jaw off and still lives because of psychopathic jewish doctors

>>81573403
I'm sure to not give myself the chutchulu treatment. Exploding brainstem or no deal.

>>81573403
Bud dwyer might not have died instantly. his brain was shredded, but its impossible to know his lived experience as blood poured out of his skull. Destroying the brainstem guarantees the inability to have a conscious experience.

But also, He used a .357 magnum. Thats a pretty powerful bullet.

>>81572702 (OP)
I'm curious to see how things will turn out. Even if it's worse itself more interesting than nothing

>>81572702 (OP)
the same reason mom beat you

>>81572702 (OP)
Why would anyone kill themselves just like that when they could take some politician, NGO worker, CEO or whatever with them?

>>81573674
I'm planning to do just that and I'm going to share my detailed plans with you. Contact me with the email: gofuckyourself@glowie.cum

>>81572702 (OP)
The world would be a better place if I wasn't here, that's why I'll keep living as long as possible.

>>81572702 (OP)
death is terrifying. deliberately and violently killing yourself is literally the hardest thing a human can do.

Slowly killing yourself with drugs is a lot more tolerable. Watching how the world plays out is also interesting to observe.

>>81572702 (OP)
>Another pro-suicide thread
>Jannies are fine with it while they ban loli and female furries threads (shota threads and male furries are fine to them cuz they're pedo homos)

>>81574510
>janitors leave things that don't break the rules
>janitors remove things that break the rules
I understand your pain but have some self awareness

>>81572702 (OP)
Idk, the only thing I can say to people who feel like this is that you can choose what you care about. It's sounds kinda dumb but, realistically: politics, women, Internet shit, everything around you becoming slop for a 70 IQ mulatto society. If you really take the time to think about it, this stuff can only affect you if you choose to let it do so. If you like vidya, there's hundreds or maybe thousands of pre-2010 games you can enjoy. If you like books, it goes back even further. We have a bunch of State Parks around here that I can go to to enjoy being outside without having to talk to anyone. I guess all I'm trying to say is that you really just need to focus on what you wanna do and how you'd like to spend your time, and just IGNORE other meaningless shit, especially what other people expect out of you and ESPECIALLY what people on the Internet are talking about (except me of course :) )