Thread 81587978

do you guys ever feel like carving your eyes out and stabbing yourselves in the neck 5 times or am i just going insane?

>>81587978 (OP)
it's the latter, taonon.

>>81587978 (OP)
Yes, that's insane. I kept having thoughts of running in front of trucks at one point. That is also insane.

>>81587978 (OP)
Want to play Genshin with me or are you not up to it today?

>>81587978 (OP)
No I am like this too. Sadly I'm too much of a coward to do it.

>>81587988
>>81588013
how do i not go insane??? i really just want to be normal and not think about hurting myself all the time
>>81588056
i dont know you anon but i havent touched that game in like a month or so. also i dont think id be very good company
>>81588159
or maybe you're too strong to give in the insanity?! i think that sounds better

>>81587978 (OP)
I need to carve my eyes out for being too brown

>>81588182
You'd just be blind and brown anon and have to use one of those white canes

>>81587978 (OP)
Anon I still remember you from my thread. I still care and will always do. Anon please remember what I told you and please be safe and good. You are not forgotten anon and we genuinely care about you and your wellbeing so please be well.

>>81587978 (OP)
Yes, when I'm not on my meds. But I AM insane and you probably are aswell.

>>81587978 (OP)
There's a weird logic problem here, where i want to say you are, but i think these thoughts myself and i am not insane so you cant be insane, yet that also breaks the previous judgement creating a circle of incorrectness. But you like genshin so probably yes.

>>81588182
becoming blind will not change th colour of your skin anon sorry
>>81588287
thanks but i do not believe a word you say!
>>81588423
do you think you'd be able to live without meds? should i just start taking them too?
>>81588505
what makes you think you're not insane huh^
>But you like genshin so probably yes.
ok true i kneel.

>>81588205
>>81588548
But my skin is pale..

>>81588180
Dude play genshin with the guy. He wants a friend and you need a friend.

>>81588548
These are objectively better. That fragility and the coldness that they present to women children and retards is some kind of darkness out of a horror novel. Where have the dumped their souls.

>>81588548
You dont need to believe me anon. just be safe and take care of yourself and dont hurt yourself. I dont want you to believe anything and im not selling anything to you. I just want you to be well.

>>81587978 (OP)
yeah but it's mostly other people I feel like doing this to not myself

>>81587978 (OP)
I think about my slamming my head into things violently or putting a lit cigarette or blunt out in my eye.

>>81588548
Well, i cant be mad as i have never been sent to prison under insanity clause, so no matter what i say i can not be insane as i see myself as not. Simply drown out anything else that says contrary to the law.

>>81588571
anon you are copemaxxing
>>81588591
anon i dont need a friend, i dont want any more people to disappoint i need to be 6ft under.
>>81588641
cremation seems nice. i want to be ashes and be eaten by fish somewher in the ocean
>>81588773
you cant tell me what to do!!!!
>>81588860
i think about smashing my head from falling down a building usually! no cigarettes though cause i dont smoke (i dont know why i even care)
>>81588881
have you ever tried to go to a psychiatrist to see if something is wrong with you?

>>81589036
the council have tried to force me, but i just ran out the building when they tried so i never had to deal with them. Theyre useless because all they do is lie and say somethings wrong with you, and even if there was "actually" something wrong with me why would i want to know its better to live in peace,those drugs they tried to get me supposedly have tons of side effects too,really dumb.

>he really thought he could feel okay for more than 2 days

>>81589133
thats true. they all lie because they want you to tkae meds and give them money. its actually fucking crazy how everything is setup to make people go insane and get sick so that they make money.
>better to live in peace
but if you're insane you cant live in peace

>>81589236
You can't live in true peace, but does anyone? Sure i may see my skin melting when i look in the mirror, but that is better than becoming brainless like a robot in society.

>>81587978 (OP)
Low T, I want to do that to somebody else.

>>81587978 (OP)
i feel like drinking and wallowing in my own self pity today

>>81589416
>that is better than becoming brainless like a robot
is it really? wouldnt the nonexistence of self awareness be better than having to suffer everyday?
>>81589418
sorry anon but having murderous thoughts doesnt make you a sigma chad high T male, it just makes you someone that needs to be locked up and sedated
>>81589527
same! i really wish i had alcohol! i hate drinking actually. but god i need something to stop me from thinking.

nothing like that. would like to drive out to the middle of nowhere and scream my head off where no one will hear and call the police

>>81589542
>same! i really wish i had alcohol! i hate drinking actually. but god i need something to stop me from thinking.
i love drinking
but only when the stuff is sweet. I hate the normie garbage
YUCK!

>>81589542
You justcome to live with stuff, you can often to some extent tell what is real or fake even if it feels and is completely real. You just use logic for impossiblities. Sometimes you fall for stuff fully and look stupid but it is avoidable with maximum paranoia. In contrast on meds you have no choices any more you become a puppet to follow orders and commands, yet you feel the consequences of everything and the numbness of life with minimal joy.

>>81589543
i tihnk id like doing that too honestly. maybe not call the police though
>>81589569
i never really drank anything other than wine or beer cause i dont have money and also i dont want to find something i like otherwise i might become an alcoholic
>>81589631
i guess that makes sense. i dunno. perhaps feeling nothing would be preferable to me