>Be me
>28
>After two and a half decades of using "autist' as a general insult for "annoying weirdo" I decide to look up what the actual common qualifiers are
>Realize pretty much everything there matches myself to a T - can't drive, astigmatism, stickler for rules/justice, dislike of routine disruption, avoiding eye contact, dislike of physical contact etc. etc. and dozens of other things
>Casually mention to Mom and Dad during a weekend visit that I'm thinking about getting an actual adult autism test
>Awkward silence while they give each other a glance
>"Anon, you ARE autistic, but why is it relevant now?"
>Still thinking of it as an insult, feel kinda offended
>Why do you say that? I was just curious just want a doctor to confirm for sure.
>They literally go rummage through some old stuff and pull out some yellowed doctor's checkup notes from when I was like 5 that say I literally am a fucking autist
>Apparently everyone has known all this time except me and just never brought it up to me?

I've kinda just been blanking out at work this week just staring at the screen and rethinking life
All my life i've just thought I was not a people person and had bad social luck and that most people are rude/dismissive by default.
Turns out I'm one of the puzzle people.
I can't stop thinking that maybe I could have sought help or tried developing some kind of coping mechanisms and life could have been different.

There has to be other autistic people here right? Like actually autistic in a diagnosed, non-meme way?
How did you find out? Do do anything about it? Did you change anything about your life when you did?

>>81601191 (OP)
I was diagnosed with high IQ when I was a kid :(

yeah unfortunately our parents were either ashamed or thought they knew better.

>>81601191 (OP)
Why would I get diagnosed?
They'd just think I'm a mental midget, I'll keep em thinking I'm big brained.

>>81601209
Is it true or just some cope the doctors make up to make the parents not feel as bad? They told mine the same but nothing about autisim after which mine put insane pressure on what was definitely not a neurotypical child.
Feel like any sort if IQ talk should be postponed until the kid has achieved some level of maturity.

>>81601209
IQ is almost pseudoscience anyways
Not to say that a low IQ and high IQ person is the same, but the number has no correlation with actual success in life

>>81601191 (OP)
I did mushrooms a few times and every time i did it i always kept thinking that im secretly retarded and everyone knows but me and they dont say anything

>>81602006
>mushrooms
Lmao. I don't need drugs to feel like that.
Though it does get a lot worse if I'm high in public.

>>81601191 (OP)
>There has to be other autistic people here right? Like actually autistic in a diagnosed, non-meme way?
Yes. I was diagnosed when I was a kid and my learning disorders were so disruptive that I never had a chance. Sounds like you might be mid-functioning 'tist like I am since you talk about having "bad social luck."
Here's the thing, there are 4 kinds of people:
1. Diagnosed early in life and believe that the stigma associated with autism sabotaged their way of thinking.
2. Diagnosed late in life and think that knowing sooner would've helped them develop coping strategies.
3. Successful high-functioning who can fit in just fine and think that an official diagnosis would've kept them from believing in themselves.
All of these people are wrong. I found out when I was a little kid that something was wrong with me and my learning disorders made school hell. Did I let the knowledge that I was a sped slow me down? No... and it didn't make a difference because I still was one. There's nothing you could have done differently, whether you choose to identify with the 'tism or not. Your fate was sealed the moment you were born. You can try to push your boundaries and become more outgoing but it's going to hing on your mood and self-esteem, so if you're a shitter prone to depression like I am it's going to be a never-ending struggle and you're not going to make significant progress.

>>81601191 (OP)
I was diagnosed as an autist when I was 4 and I still use autist and sperg in the same way that you do. Simply words.

>>81601209
>>81601320
Autists average abysmal iq scores throughout their lives

>>81602687
This includes people who are clinically retarded (as in sub 70 IQ) and not just people who are not handicapped intelligence wise.

>>81602687
Autists may be smart children but are dumb adults. Puberty kills the autist. Yay, chronic skin conditions and anxiety disorders for the rest of my fucking life!

>>81601191 (OP)
I just did a test I scored 17 borderline indication of autism

I have been hospitalized a few times my paper says I have paranoid shizophrenia with GAD

>>81602840
Female desu ka?

>>81601191 (OP)
>>81602487
If you willfully try to get an autism diagnosis as an adult, then congrats you're in the abso-fucking-lutely retarded section of the spectrum since there are literally no benefits with all downsides. Only a total dum-dum would ever do something that self-defeating. I mean ffs you can't even get neetbuxx for the dx since you've already proven you're functional enough to work, yet you attach a massive stigma attached by official letterhead that you can never get rid of.

>>81603062
>I mean ffs you can't even get neetbuxx for the dx since you've already proven you're functional enough to work
Unless you've never worked before.
>yet you attach a massive stigma attached by official letterhead that you can never get rid of
More of this bullshit? There's no stigma, other people either know there's something wrong with you right away or can't detect it. Getting a diagnosis makes no difference.

>>81603126
>Getting a diagnosis makes no difference.
Yes it does since now it turns up on a background check, so you're gatekept from literally any profession that has a review board that screens for mental illnesses of any sort. You'll never be a doctor, pharmacist, lawyer, or pilot, or ever hold a security clearance. If you're already one, they'll strip you of your certs for "consumer protection".

>muh hippaa
What about it? They are the law, motherfucker.

>>81603126
If there's no stigma, then why were there constant "destigmatize mental health" ads being run for the past decade or so?

>>81603022
I'm a guy why does it matter

>>81601191 (OP)
Anon if someone gives you a certificate saying Santa exists it doesn't make Santa exist.

Same with autism, it's not a thing, there's is no non-meme way of nothing.

>>81602328
When i get high or do dmt i dont get those thoughts, only on shrooms

>>81603167
>Yes it does since now it turns up on a background check, so you're gatekept from literally any profession that has a review board that screens for mental illnesses of any sort. You'll never be a doctor, pharmacist, lawyer, or pilot, or ever hold a security clearance. If you're already one, they'll strip you of your certs for "consumer protection".
This is all complete bullshit. People aren't permitted to know unless you tell them.