suicide club meeting.
going for a late night type of thread for people who don't feel like living and are stalling to execute a solution to their problems. i know there's quite a lot of you people here, wanted to chat.
i'm just gonna hang out here in case shit gets serious for you folks
just pour it all out, anon
>>81606432 (OP)Suicide I never a solution never kys Ily all even if I don't, humans deserve happiness
dad says he's gonna buy me a car and teach me to drive to keep me from kms. should have done that 15 years ago asshole. I'm out of here.
>>81606503>Suicide I never a solution never kyssave this shit for reddit.
>>81606530damn, my parents never got me a car or nothing. how old r u?
i tried to hold my nose and cover my mouth to see what it feels like to drown. i can't do it, it hurts so much. and i really want to keep breathing. it makes me realize how nice breathing is. But i still logically know that i should kill myself.
i feel myself falling back into old patterns and the only way i know how to cope is by self destructing, im usually a lurker on 4chan but tonight i just don't want to be all alone,
someone has to know i exist, right?
guess i'll start.
i'll probs just bathtub it up next morning, which is always a problem for me, since it's really hard to kys in the morning. but otherwise it won't work.
all my teen years i had digestive and hormonal out of nowhere, which fucked up my face with acne, destroyed my heart rate, circulation, brain function etc. it's so unfair since my HS friends who smoked cigarettes, weed, vapes, drank alchohol, partied, ate junk food and drank soda DAILY are perfectly healthy right now, meanwhile i never did anyone of things (i dont even eat junk food and i drink soda maybe once every 2 weeks max) and im so fucked health wise. it's so unfair just looking life pass by, seeing all my friends haivng fun meanwhile i passed up all the opprotunities to smoke weed and drink and became sick nonetheless. it's unfair. it fucking hurts so much. the sense of betrayal of fate. i thought i was special. that's what i was told when i was a kid. im functionally retarded these days because of that, because my parents never fucking took me to a doctor, and even when they finally did, he couldn't even figure out what was wrrong. never ending acne, acne scars,and all matter of health problems that rise due to improper blood circulation. isolation, didnt learn to drive a car. i know that i will never be able to achieve my dreams. i will never ahcieven anything i ever wanted. even small things
>>81606608I'm acknowledging your existence currently. What sort of old habits?
>>8160655130s. much too old to start a life now. I don't think he's going to come through anyway. he's a drug addicted piece of shit that can't save money.
>>81606432 (OP)I don't want to die but I don't want to live like this. Chronic mental illness means the prospect of me living a normal, happy and fulfilled life or non existent. Death terrifies me, but logically suicide is the best option. I'm not really living at the moment, just existing.
>>81606582this is why you stop blood from reaching the brain while keeping your airways open
>>81606629drinking, cutting, cutting literally everyone out of my life
it doesn't hurt them though, because they do not think of me or reach out to me unless i do first
i'm on house arrest as well so it's not like i can just fuck around in public to get human interaction
same old same old
>>81606626Sorry to hear that anon. My illness is mental, not physical, but I have the same feeling of why did it have to be me? Anyone cold have been born with this condition, but it just happened to be me.
>>81606676why are you on house arrest?
>>81606676I'm sure they think of you even if they don't reach out. I know how it feels when it seems like people you care about don't seem to return the favor though. You shouldn't be expected to start every conversation. If you can't go anywhere then maybe you should try meeting people online, though finding good people is extremely hard.
>>81606695it's a comically long story, but not being able to even cross the street is not helping me mentally
>>81606721I don't think anyone would mind if you posted it here, seems like this is a sort of vent thread. Only if you feel like telling people would help you feel better though.
>>81606717legally i am not allowed to be on the internet because of my current.. law problems?
and even when i do reach out, i get half-assed replied. when you know, you just know, y'know?
>>81606721Now I'm even more curious. I wouldn't mind reading a long story.
>>81606756Ahhh, would telling your story maybe be a risk to you? Understandable if so. Whatever the issue is, it has to go away at some point. Also, yes, I get you on the effortless replies thing. Happened to me plenty. Feels like it's people growing off of me and getting bored with me sometimes.
>>81606762like noted by
>>81606770it would be a risk for me to tell my story online, as much as i would love to. i highly value my anonymity on this site during these times
I don't necessarily want to kill myself, but it'd be nice to sink into the floor one night and disappear.
>>81606770im so tired of feeling like a tool to everyone around me
i was abused and raped a lot in my life, I wish I had a bathtub to bleed out in, it sounds so peaceful to slowly turn the water red..
>>81606916you don't have a bathtub? Do you only have a shower? That sucks. But i will bleed out in the bathtub tomorrow morning, might even post pics of it if the thread is still alive by then. I know that I would love to see a bathtub with some fresh blood, not stale like other photos on the net. Would I ove to see a fresh blood bathtub. I will
Life is fine in every way except work. I can't work full time so I can never fully sustain myself unless mom helps me get a house. If I can't get a house by the time she kicks me out sadly I will have to kill myself. I've worked full time before and despite the threat of being kicked out loomed over me if I didn't work, one day at work I just stopped thinking and decided "No. This will not be my existence for the next few decades, I would rather be dead." and dropped everything to go find my boss and calmly told him I quit.
I have found peace in that resolve at least, so I won't be too devastated. I genuinely just will not work full time, I'm sorry.
any way to make my sui more based as a tranny/
