>>81616666 (OP)the base concept that i missed out on teen love isn't what upsets me
i dont really care about it that much because i don't spend a lot of time thinking about high school in general
what does upset me is the constant, never-ending feeling that i just don't know something everyone else does
it feels like in high school there was just a secret class everyone took to learn how to date and how to flirt and be sexy, not just physically but socially sexy and flirtatious. and it feels like that course was held the one day I was out of class. and at the end of that class everyone who attends swears an oath of some kind that they can't share what they learned with anyone not present that dya.
Literally no matter what I do there's no escaping this feeling, like I'm behind everyone else. i'm 28 in a month and I only just this past year have started going on dates with women. I have no fucking idea what I'm doing. I can never tell if they're flirting with me. I can never tell when the right time is to make what move. I don't know how to behave on a date. I literally don't know the words to flirting.
teen love sounded like it sucked, but I would have the tools I need to find adult love, but I never can. I'm locked out of it forever because I just wasn't hot enough to date in high school, and my love life will never recover.