anyone else doesn't have a life/friends at all, i'm almost 19 and the only thing i've done consistently since i turned has been rotting in the shitty apartment my parents rent out in my 3rd world paradise and get into counterintuitive arguments with people irl and online, should i commit to the schizoid neet larp to not feel like i'm missing out much, i'm starved of most so i lose at life anyways since i don't come from financial and emotional abundance, what do you enlightened people on r 9 gay think?

>>81627147 (OP)
since i turned 16*
i'm such a stupid chud

>>81627147 (OP)
Good. Antisemites deserve miserable lives.

>>81627225
i'm semitic, nothing i have used for an OP pic has ever reflected my own views and beliefs.

>>81627294
Stop dominating the world.

>>81627706
we're just a hardworking culture goy

>>81627147 (OP)
21. Haven't had friends since I was half that age. It's torture nigga try to make friends

>>81627147 (OP)
you don't want this life. do anything you can to escape it while you're still young. ANYTHING.

>>81627147 (OP)
It gets easier once you hit your 30s. At 19 you could in theory still turn your life around. It's not likely but the chance is there. You've still got youth on your side and people dont expect as much of you as a middle aged person. So you are still allowed to try things out and make mistakes.

Is wouldn't recommend commiting to the schizoid neet lifestyle. Because its sort of like being stuck in purgatory. Not as bad as he'll not as good as heaven. But very monotonous and repetitive.

>>81627147 (OP)
I'm not sure if I believe in friendship, but you should at least find something to do that isn't beating off.

>>81627147 (OP)
>schizoid neet larp
I did this from 18-29 (today). I was diagnosed as schizoid and autistic behavior. Psych (male) told me after 3 sessions to consider becoming a hermit and making the best of it.
I think some people are like this, but most of those that are were made by some fucked situation early in life or just born ugly or ostracized for whatever reason.
I was a super energetic kid, wanted a ton of friends, did anything including "jestermaxxing" to full on psycho larping with masks and memorizing normie conversations from books and online so I could pretend to be normal.
Nothing ever worked.
Even if I formed my own groups (at around your age in college and online too) by introducing and collecting a bunch of strangers, eventually the group moves on without me...
All this resulted in me learning to be unable to show my authentic self, to the point where I struggle with finding things I like or desire at all.

If you can turn it around, do it, but honestly? The psychs advice was the only thing I can truly envision myself doing unfortunately.
Being here on r9k I often get depressed by so many people doing the tfw no gf sadfrog memes. I don't even care for a gf anymore its so far off my radar.
I just wish I had friends or at least acquaintances that care about me a little bit.

You know those japs that end up as stains on a floor? I really don't wish to go like that in old age. Found only because of some late payments decomposed on the floor...

>>81628993
I care about you as much as an anonymous online stranger can care for another but thats because you took the time to effort post. Well done anon. You deserve this virtual gold star next to your name on the chalkboard.

>>81629123
If you are going to try, try now and not later. As another anon said social expectations are much lower for a 19 y.o. than a 29-30+ guy.
You still have the opportunity to make it.
A mentality of outcome independence can help a lot. If you feel like you'll end up like I did just go try before you resign yourself.

A lot of young people get caught up in blackpill/mgtow nonsense. Just because a lot of people failed doesn't mean it's not worth trying.
At least when you are 30 you can say "hey I tried and I got brutally fucked".
Does that sound bad? Sure.
Imagine being 30 and saying "well I never shot my shot, but I'm sure it wouldn't have mattered".

I say this genuinely. I do not regret anything I did, no matter how cringe, embarrassing, humiliating or painful it was. All my regrets are things I didn't do.
Going to college with a gelled back hair and dressed all nicely, arriving at college day 1 at 04:00 so I'm literally the first guy at the gates and then FIRM HANDSHAKING every dude that walked in?
Was it cringe? Yeah. Regret it? No.
I was tolerated for a long time because I brought the initial groups together. Had I arrived late I wouldn't have had the balls to even approach the groups that already form naturally in situations like that.

I do regret saying NO to a lot of things out of fear or shame. Thinking I didn't have the social skills or that it would be awkward that people must have invited me out of pity.
I didn't pursue a lot of hobbies either, same reason, shame and fear.

The issue is that after a lot of rejection it really shaped me as I mentioned before. I became more quite and reserved, don't dare to be authentic. I mask and hide my true thoughts. I disengage a lot.
Normies say the wildest things sometimes and it works for them. Didn't work for me long term. It might for you.
But if it doesn't at least you will be justified. You can always be a loser at 30.

>>81628993
I have the same experience as you. Casually disliked by others

I obviously don't want to be friends with you