Is anyone agrophobic? Like not just feeling scared or anxious but just have some sort of genuine repulsion to it from time to time in some capacity. I don't know if agoraphobia is the right word but sometimes when I am out in public I feel a really different sense of repulsion. It's not anxious, it's not being scared, it's not anger. It's not even the kind of disgust you feel towards garbage food or smell but one that feels like sexual repulsion(atleast there is some element to it). Not as being ugly or something like that but just seeing a horde of humans(not everytime) gets me some kind feeling that I can't really describe. And sometimes this feeling gets amplified when I am wearing pants or jeans. Sometimes just thinking about these situations gets me a bit repulsed. I can't even seem to wear pants in my own home when I am thinking about that(not everytime). This feeling started to develop I think in 1st year of college and reached it's peak around early 3rd year. It got so bad that sonetimes I would actively bring my pajamas(the bottom) and a comfy T shirt in my bag, wear the college uniform throughout the day and immediately change my uniform with them when all of my classes were over. Even wearing the socks were a bit repulsive. Even now I can't seem to drive comfortably without wearing shorts or trousers. Has anyone ever felt a tad bit similar to this?

>>81629891 (OP)
Really atypical that pants have anything to do with this. Unresolved trauma is my first assumption, but I don't want to be an armchair therapist lmao
Disliking public, crowded spaces is a thought a sizable amount of people will share with you - the human brain is probably not wired for the amount of people we see in public everyday
Maybe something to do with a comfort zone? Bringing pajama clothes, which can give you the sense of being at home in a foreign space must have something to do with it. Again, not an expert, no idea
Have you talked about this with anyone else?

>>81629939
I haven't. I don't have any childhood traumas I can think of. Mine was a fairly normal one albeit pretty lonely and reserved from time to time. This shit started to develop in college. Also, I have talked about this with my parents(not in full detail though just some tidbits here and there).

>>81629891 (OP)
Sounds like some form of OCD related to constricted clothing. Dunno what else, you should talk to a professional.

>>81629891 (OP)
Maybe the break in routine and having to dress a different way. You seem very articulate. Have you been diagnosed with autism?

>>81629939
I can feel comfortable in saying the sense of being at some is not it. I have gone to some hilly areas through school tourism around middle school for 9 days and that gave me a feeling of wanting to be home which was a lot different than the college one where I mainly just used the pajamas for comfort for some mental stability to feel less shit.

>>81630001
I see. If anything, previous anon said it might be OCD relating to restrictive clothing. Seems to have gotten filtered out or something

>>81629995
Not autism, no and I don't feel like I have autism. There was a guy in my tution around high school that I could guess had autism based on the way he behaved. I was mainly a quite and a bit self absorbed kid (at school mostly). I didn't seem to have much problem around people and chatting up with them when not in school(though still a bit reserved and not always initiating the conversation).

>>81630023
Maybe? I don't know if it's OCD. The way people describ OCD to me seems really different. I am not the best when it comes to keeping my room clean and may once in a blue moon hyperfexiate just for a little about organizing something.

>>81630039
Well maybe you just prefer to wear the bottom (pajamas). You could tell them this, they would make an exception for you. It isn't that serious

>>81630069
It's not a problem for me anymore. I have finished college but the problem still persist from time to time. Just want to know if there is any kind of specific illness or a disorder that aligns with this kind of behavior.

>>81630104
Oh, okay. It's probably OCD or something related to it. You should talk to someone and figure it out.

>>81630113
I still don't know if it's OCD or not. I don't know if the way I feel in those situations has anything to do with OCD. I tried to find this shit online and I can't seem to find anything that directly relates to this kind of experience.

humans are meant to be in small high trust tight knit communities

being bombarded by the vibes and energy of these anonymous mobs is abnormal

>>81630144
Everyone's experience is different, there's nothing we can do for you here as faceless strangers. Find a good psych and tell them this.

>>81630171
Is it really worth it though? Would feel like a waste of money if didn't get anything out of a psych and I don't if there are any "good" psych that I know of.