Thread 81632259

>be me, femanon
>grew up in a shithole country
>family is pretty nice but also a bit misogynistic and conservative
>taught to be "modest" and never talk to guys
>was ugly and obese during middle school
>has no male interaction outside a childhood friend
>was home schooled during high school because politics
>loses weight and now barely overweight
>family sends me off to another country for college
>can't make friends
>guys only like girls that goes to club and play valorant with them

Fuck, I don't want to do drugs and suck dick just to get a guy. what tf do I do? I just want my cute nerd dream bf that reads dostoevsky and skip classes with me and I have no idea where I went wrong.

I'm not even ugly and I don't smell bad but no one ever fucking talks to me.

deep men dont exist theyre a myth, at least not nowadays
all men are shallow and horny porn addicted monkeys who fantasize about fucking your sisters and mom while dating you

I hope you die in a horrible way for posting this shit on here.

>>81632259 (OP)
>family is pretty nice but also a bit misogynistic and conservative
>taught to be "modest" and never talk to guys
based
>was ugly and obese during middle school
this is where they failed you

>>81632259 (OP)
What cunt? Western Europe?

>>81632259 (OP)
>i dont want to suck dick
>wants a bf

>>81632259 (OP)
>dont want to suck dick
Maybe u dont want to do anal either?

>>81632259 (OP)
whats your height and weight? you could have a beautiful face and still be entirely ignorable if your fat, which it sounds like you are.

>>81632324
5'3" and 130 lbs
I had never been "slim" in my whole life

>>81632259 (OP)
Do you want a sea monkey bf?

>>81632395
I'm from sea too but in a place where they like pale and thin girls so I miss all the standards. And I don't wanna spend half my monthly allowance for makeup and cosmetics

>>81632270
Being unhappy enough to search for meaning in life is a trauma response. I think I'm less functional than a porn addicted monkey, I'm probably less cute too. And I'm not joking about that
>"The Dream of a Ridiculous Man" is a short story by Fyodor Dostoevsky that explores the experiences of a man who becomes a nihilist and decides to commit suicide. The narrative follows the protagonist's journey as he encounters a young girl, which leads him to re-evaluate his views on humanity and love.

>>81632259 (OP)
stupid foid, do you even use dating apps?
What you gotta know is almost no guys approach girls irl so if you want a bf your best bet is dating apps, I'm sure you'll find one easily

>>81632259 (OP)
I enjoyed reading Crime and Punishment but I liked The Stranger and The Castle more. I've got some Dostoyevski's books on my pending list regardless, wanna give White Nights a try and I bought Underground Notes a while ago but still haven't read it.
What are your fav books?

>>81632270
I would normally respond to this type of comment with my own snarky woman hating rebuttal that I formed based off my own horrible experiences with women but reading this just makes me sad.

Every girl I've been with, I've loved like we we're soulmates and I've gotten my hearts destroyed every time, so now I avoid women.

It's society as a general that has let ourselves get persuaded with hate. I don't hate my exes for their mistakes, they are human just like me, and I've made incredibly selfish and stupid decisions despite me trying to be a good man.

I hope you find happiness again Nona, I know it feels like all men are the same and a lot of men (me included when I'm delusional enough) think all women are the same.

I'm sorry

>>81632384
lose 20 pounds and then you'll be viable.

>>81632259 (OP)
You're overthinking, you're probably a kid.

>>81632426
>where they like pale and thin girls
nigga thats everywhere

>>81632259 (OP)
Wanna be penpals and discuss books to each other? I have read more Platonov though and barely any Dostoevsky beyond short stories, so have to get to speed on this

>>81632643
yeah the old adage is true,
if you're a girl and not losing a pound a week, then you're going to get mated by a jeet.
if it helps motivate you to exercise try to pretend you're running away from this guy, because in many ways you are. every second youre not running he's only getting closer.

>>81632259 (OP)
>was home schooled during high school because politics
Elaborate?

>>81632259 (OP)
post your discord then or shut the fuck up

OP posts and leaves. Again. Many such cases. Sad.

>>81633788
Got lost in thoughts while making dinner. Felt like hours are blurring together a lot

>>81633991
I think I need to detox from screens. They're bad for me

>>81632617
I'm probably thinking too much into it but I feel like a lot of relationships are superficial and we're constantly driving away from the fundamental happiness.

Relationships just feel transactional instead of the "two of us against the world" thing I was hoping more whole childhood.

People date other people all the time and cheating also become very common. It just makes me sad.

>>81634042
>the "two of us against the world" thing I was hoping
What a good way to put it.

>>81632555
I've read the stranger, it's probably one od my favorite books. I've always felt like a stranger even when I had "friends".

I have a few girls I talk to but their interest never align with me so it always make me feel like an outcast.

I relate to the main character a lot, like the way he doesn't care much about things that society consider taboo etc.

>>81632259 (OP)
Post-soviet state?

>>81632667
Sure, I'd like that actually.

>>81632529
I don't and it's because I feel like I'm too traditional for it.
Most guys my age on dating app just wanna fuck anyways. And I'm a bit picky (not about appearance/heights) but in interests and views

>>81634104
I'm from SEA but the bad ones, not developed ones like Singapore lol. The country I'm currently in isn't so much better

>>81632259 (OP)
It's another
>Brown girl pining after white dick
Thread

>>81632459
I haven't read that one but my favorite one is probably notes from underground. I pursued my whole life o be more "intelligent" and didn't realize what I really needed was to be wiser.

I have an "okay" social status despite feeling deeply lonely and isolated and I'm losing hope in whether it's worth living just to be stuck in a deadend job for the next 40 years of my life is worth it.

And I spent my days being bitter instead of changing my way of my life so I really don't have anyone to blame either

>>81632259 (OP)
Fuck off disgusting cuntoid

>>81634147
>I'm from SEA but the bad ones
>>81634147
Cambodia?

>>81632270
That is a very specific thing to accuse men of. Is there something you want to tell us anon?

>>81634147
>SEA
>the cute ones
AWOOOOOOOOOOGA

>>81634216
Yeah you're too high functioning for the outwardly mentally ill, too broken inside to relate to normie existence? I feel that 100%. I don't know what to do. I think a lot of us just die alone, read the essay "The Woman Who Hurt too Much to Talk". Maybe we can only really recognize each other through art and music and writing. I'm 44m and I have been asking myself a lot of these questions my entire life.
I love that passage from Notes btw where he's so proud he make a Chad step around him on the sidewalk. There's just something about how pathetic and petty and ultimately relatable it is.

>>81632259 (OP)
>I'm not even ugly and I don't smell bad but no one ever fucking talks to me.
maybe the problem is not in society but in you? not even in the place where you live but in you, something is wrong with you that needs to be changed

probably you just don't have the status or the beautiful face you're talking about

>>81632259 (OP)
Stop skipping classes like a retard, you're cutting your own chances of meeting people

>>81632259 (OP)
men don't chase women, women chase men, this is the natural order of things, i'm sorry that society taught everyone wrong