Anyone else psychologically ruined from being raised by an overbearing mentally unstable single mom?

>single mother
>with bpd
>and alcoholism
bro fuck this honestly

>>81633691 (OP)
My mother was adopted, and I am the only child she was able to have so I am literally the only biological connection she has in this life, and the result of that is a suffocating amount of effort on her part to create a perfectly safe insulated environment for me to exist in.

>>81633691 (OP)
same but i forgive her cause moms are like that

>>81633691 (OP)
Extremely common. Sorry it happened to you OP but at least you're not alone.

>>81633691 (OP)
2nd.
It's unfortunate. I'll probably rope within the next few years. No joke. It just keeps getting worse

I try not to blame it on her, but I do feel a mixture of pity and disappointment about her life in general. Also question her narrative about my dad being some kind of drunken monster

>poorly educated
>no curiosity about anything
>very low intelligence
>high emotional reactivity
>incapable of having an adult conversation without A) making about her (e.g., "in the 1970s....") or B) finding a way to be offended and defensive
>many suicide threats throughout my early adolescence
>every argument involved her telling me I would regret being so bad when she's gone
>made no effort to reach out to ask if I was okay when someone I lived with committed suicide in the adjacent room to mine a few years ago
>went back home for Christmas a few months later
>family argument ends with her threatening to commit suicide
>divorced one husband
>broke up with a long-term partner and decided she would live with me
>got a panicked call telling me to go help her move her stuff out of her partner's house
>she's there sitting on the floor like a toddler trying (and of course failing) to unplug a DVD player that wasn't even hers so she could take it in the break up

She fed me, gave me shelter, ironed my clothes, bought gifts etc so I'm not going to go full schizo, I just feel a profound sense of disappointment about her. I remember a few years ago I visited home briefly and some kind of argument started and she interrupted by telling us all she was going to leave and not come back, and I instinctively grabbed her and pinned her against the wall to stop her leaving. She gave me the most scared, mentally absent, retarded look I have ever seen and I felt such disgust towards her. I'm no angel, of course.

I turned into a shy, quiet, depressive, guilt-ridden, over-emotional people pleaser with no social skills or ability to navigate life. It is what it is but fucking hell I've wasted so much time and made so many errors trying to teach myself very basic things about how to navigate life.

>>81633691 (OP)
No, but my mom might as well have been as single mom since my dad was schrodingers dad

>>81634950
He was absent most of your life?

Do you think you'll end up the same?

>>81633691 (OP)
I was raised in this environment, and I've seen kids raised in this environment. it's not a formula for success. Single mothers should not have custody of children.

I was raised by a single mother who survived a fucked up childhood and early adulthood.
Though she was over-protective with me. She left my abusive alcoholic father.
In the end, I was a shut-in autist, who never had a chance to make money or get pussy.
I miss my folks.