Thread 81635556

Thread for discussions about self harm and mutual support

dang it's hot

Hello
>How are you doing today?
>Any plans for today?
>When was the last time you hurt yourself?
>Why did you hurt yourself?
>Is there anything bothering you right now?

Here's a bunch of helpful links

>a long list of self harm alternatives (thank you muddy):
https://imgur.io/a/7Q2zgw7

> first aid post cuting:
https://www.lifesigns.org.uk/first-aid-for-self-injury-and-self-harm/

>a wound care guide:
https://docs.google.com/document/d/1CsvJs8qNCVkHWHKekMSmCn6qn0GBEcgnq9fIqlA6Uv0/mobilebasic

> bpd workbook:
https://d-pdf.com/book/1781/read

> bpd Information Book (anon said it's exceptionally good)
https://annas-archive.org/md5/e678a1e6375e512f483a04e8291c9183

> bdbt (dialectical behavioral therapy)
workbook is intended for BPD but can work for anyone:
https://cursosdepsicologia.com.ar/wp-content/uploads/2021/05/THEDIA1.pdf

Please don't post any drastic images and if you have to, spoiler them

This is discord shit, take it to discord and stop spamming

>>81635556 (OP)
It's hitting 100 degreasxe where I live

>>81635733
My image did not attach....

>>81635743
Does your femtummy still hurt?

>>81635733
Hey kira
make sure to drink lots of water!!!
can you also at least stay inside ur house?

>>81635794
Yes. Surely eating more dairy will fix it.
>>81635826
No, in a while I must walk to work. Why me?

>>81635728
i wwould join a cutting discord that isnt all negative and weirdos with fetish

>>81635837
why does it keep doing this to me?

>>81635837
>Yes. Surely eating more dairy will fix it
What's your diet like?

didn't hurt myself today, face is starting to heal, still some bruising and swelling, especially on my forehead...
I probably shouldn't be driving, but I think I'll put on a hat and go get KFC drive thru for lunch. Someone mentioned chicken sandwiches the other day and now I kind of want one

im getting pizza
and my arm hurts
my throat is sore so i think ive got sick
hope you enjoyed reading that

>>81635837
>while I must walk to work. Why me?
noooo :<
I'm sorry to hear that
drink lotsa cool drinks !
when is it supposed to cool down?

>>81635872
Hay
>didn't hurt myself today,
good
don't do it anymore anon
let your face heal at least
>>81635974
have a nice pizza :D

>>81635856
I tend to have snacks rather than meals. I know it's bad. Today's breakfast was string cheese.
>>81635872
I am glad to hear you're healing.
>>81636052
Not until September or October.
Don't live in the desert.

>>81636105
>Not until September or October.
WHAT! D:
>Don't live in the desert.
damn
you think you could move out of there one day?

I hope one of you retards hits a vital vein or organ and die fuck you weirdos get this shit off here and go die already

hey y'all. hope your all well. I do think I'm getting better at spelling which I used to be awful at, so the practice has been helping at that at least.

>>81636713
u2

>>81636684
All my friends live here, but I suppose even one state away would have better weather.

>>81636870
Hello ali
>hope your all well
yep :>
hope u are too
I spent this whole day at home
but had some pish for dinner

>>81636885
>my friends live here,
hmm I see
I guess it depends how often you hang out, if it's something you have to plan out in advance living further away won't change much
>suppose even one state away would have better weather.
maybe maybe
what state do you live in if it's okay to ask?

I doubt anyone remembers me but hi its the miku anon.
Im relapsing again and my medication is being taken away from me, work is over working me, and im falling into a depression swing right out of an intense manic swing. And I feel so alone...I cant talk to anyone I know out of fear of disappointment.
I hope yall doing better than me.

Also meds being taken away cause I cant pay my programs monthly fee and for my meds, cause I dont make enough to afford both but im not poor enough for free care.

im durnk and listenign to my favorite song....

>>81637199
>spent this whole day at home
but had some pish for dinner
sometimes being at home all day is the best day. what kinda fish?

>>81637626
hai, I'm pretty sure I remember.
>relapsing again
well good to remember they happen, mainly when lots of stuff is going on.
>talk to anyone I know out of fear of disappointment.
I doubt anyone would be disappointed. I always get scared people don't like me, but I always try to ignore those thoughts. and of course you can always come here to talk.
>cause I cant pay my programs monthly fee
that's awful, I'm really sorry to hear that. medicine prices are already too expensive, that sucks.

>>81637756
hey chroma. sounds cool, have fun stay safe

>>81637777
quads!Thxxx

>>81637756
enjoy! whats the song you listening to?)) ?

>>81636052
thank you i did like the pizza
>>81637756
>>81637816
would like to know too

>>81637756
What's the song?

>>81637760
Hi gator, I hope you are well.

But yeah the instant cold turkey on my meds, work has me 5(about yo be 6 days) a week working 13hr days...im burning out badly. And cause its a small business I dont get pto, sick, or any kind of leave. I know I probably should go back to IP but ill lose my job if I do and I cant afford that medical bill...
And yeah maybe people won't be disappointed, but it feels like they will be.
Also yeah it sucks I make that amount of money where im in poverty but not enough to get easy access care.

Oh also my birthday is coming up and im gonna be working and all alone for my big 30th...so thats not helping. Just everything really shitty right now and only solace I have is the self harm.

>>81637626
Hello miku anon :]
>relapsing again
can't blame you, it sounds like a lot of stuff is not going well for you :<
Hope you luck changes soon
>cant talk to anyone
well at least you have this place ^^
and you can say whatever you want and it won't affect your irl
so if you want to you can share ur thoughts and vent here
>meds being taken away cause I cant pay
it sounds bad, sorry to hear things been so bad lately
>not poor enough for free care.
so te worst of both worlds >:c
>hope yall doing better than me.
thank you
I'm doing pretty well, not thinking about my responsibilities so my moods nice
also I may go on a bikeride tomorrow

>>81637756
Hey chroma
Hope you don't get a hangover
though considering you can still solve the captcha you're probably not super drunk or you got soem serious skills ^^
how was your day?

>>81637760
>sometimes being at home all day is the best day.
it was a bit boring but I decided to replay cry of fear for a bit, I love the atmosphere in that game, the main menu with the music and ambience is great
>what kinda fish?
I don't knuw :<
How's your day been?

>>81637838
hey anon
if those are fresh pls make sure to patch yourself up

>>81637816
>>81637859
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jH7Y6XxwVIk&ab_channel=nihongojouzu\
i think its this one but im not really sure anymorebecause my playlsit just changes everyti,e
>>81637838
AHH BEAN CUTS!! wtf pls dont do that ive had these before and they heal really really badly
>>81637925
i feel a little overwhelmd and feel like my heart bteats faster but thats ok i feel funny and nice

>>81637925
>patch yourself up
all done. thank you
>>81637965
>ive had these before and they heal really really badly
i know i messed up. ive had them before too and this time surprised me

>>81637786
yea :D. your welcome <3

>>81637859
im well.
>im burning out badly.
yes that sounds awful. that work sounds killing. I hope it gets easier soon somehow cause that sounds super intense.
>pto, sick, or any kind of leave.
oh :/ any reason you work there? sounds like a rough place.
>but it feels like they will be.
that's always the thing yea, our minds really suck sometimes. they try to protect but only hurt it feels like.
>in poverty but not enough to get easy access care
yea sounds like the worst possible it should be in :/ so dumb that making money is kinda screwing you over
>birthday is coming up
well happy early birthday <3
>big 30th
that's cool, I know a lot of people which loves there 30s

>>81637925
>replay cry of fear for a bit,
Ooo cool heard it's a great game!
>the music and ambience is great
gaming music can add so much to a game it's incredible!
>How's your day been?
boring.

>>81637760
here's the menu ambience, click around 1hour into it
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=1PNBv2iXGLY&pp=ygUZY3J5IG9mIGZlYXIgbWVudSBhbWJpZW5jZQ%3D%3D

>>81637838
>did like the pizza
nice :D
what pizza was it?

>>81637859
>week working 13hr days
that's so dang much!!!!
>also my birthday is coming up
sorry to heat you're can't even have a day to yourself even though you really need it because of that work

>>81637965
>but thats ok i feel funny and nice
at least you like it
how was your day today btw?

>>81635556 (OP)
>How are you doing today?
Overheated and exhausted. I had a surprise shift today because my job's schedule app malfunctioned hard.
But other than that, it's great because I found out I can stay cross trained as a lifeguard and work in maintenance full-time for a bigger pay check. So I don't lose my fun job and can always go back if I quit. It's such a huge weight off my shoulders.
But I think I'm going to night shift because it's so hot.
>Any plans for today?
I got to see if my school work is posted yet and rework my last semester around the new job.
>Is there anything bothering you right now?
I didn't get to ask out my coworker at all this week because it was so busy and she left early a few days.
>>81635733
hi kira
>100 degreasxe where I live
I know, it's so hot.
>>81637756
hi chroma
> listenign to my favorite song
always a good choice. I've been having an odd favorites trip recently too.
>>81636870
hi gator
>so the practice has been helping at that at least.
I'm glad it could help.
>>81637626
hi miku anon
>Also meds being taken away cause I cant pay my programs monthly fee and for my meds, cause I dont make enough to afford both but im not poor enough for free care.
That's a tough place to be in. Is your job not offering benefits when you're working so many hours?
>>81637925
hi cat. how was your day?

>>81638053
its ok i hope eveyrhting will be fine for you and the people you care for
>>81638090
ok now i feell REALLY REALLY overwhelmed somehow it just got even worse and my eyes start spinning a bit and i keep smiling like an idiot
>>81638134
hey cynic i hope you're doing fine

>>81637965
>https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jH7Y6XxwVIk&ab_channel=nihongojouzu\
I like it chroma. It's a nice fast beat.
>>81638090
>menu ambience
interesting. Definitely immersive.

>>81638195
>REALLY overwhelme
maybe it's time for a nap? what do you think?

>>81638090
>what pizza was it?
chees pizza and i didnt eat anything else all day so it saved me just energy drinks
>>81638195
appreciate the kind replies ITT and I mean that.
if youre getting dead drunk remember to drink water before you pass out

>>81638134
hey cynic
cute silly pic :D
>>81638134
>Overheated and exhausted.
hydrateee D:
>time for a bigger pay check
that's nice
>night shift
it'll probably be nicer
and less people to deal with right?
>didn't get to ask out my coworker
ow
>how was your day?
it was a big boring because it's hot so I stayed at home, I played some cry of fear and watched anime :>

>>81638281
>chees pizz
can't go wrong with chizza
>didnt eat anything else all day
hope it was nice and big

>>81638233
then you;l l probably like this one as well!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WkbEwLpDqEA&ab_channel=Sniper257
first 1 minute kinda sucks though ibut it get s really better at 4-5 mintues in
>>81638241
no not really i dont know yet im on my second bottle already
>>81638281
i appreaicate you being here as well i hope eveything will work out for you and please find betteter ways to cope with your stresss

>>81638090
>click around 1hour into it
thanks it sounds really cool and very errie. scary you can hear trains and stuff.

>>81638134
>Overheated and exhausted
not a good combo. working in the summer sounds awful.
>work in maintenance full-time for a bigger pay check.
bigger check bigger smile lol, but that's really good happy for you.
>going to night shift because it's so hot
fair definitely best to if it's a exhausting and grueling job as is.
>ask out my coworker at all this week
aw that's a shame at least you have the confidence to now.

i feel so miserablr

>>81638304
>I played some cry of fear and watched anime :>
oh cool, what anime?
>hydrateee
maybe. I still need to walk doggo. other family members have been doing it but he doesn't like the heat.
>and less people to deal with right?
not really, but I can get my projects done after operations.
>>81638195
>i hope you're doing fine
I'm doing a-o-k

>>81638402
sending u a hug
maybe you should stop drinking now?
sounds like you had enough

ui love you allllll its ok i can still haandle it lol >>81638576

>>81638402
Which is why you need headpats.

>>81638584
Soon you'll feel better.

Hiii every1 :D today was exhausting so haven't felt the energy to come and post here sorry..

>>81638314
>im on my second bottle already
sounds like a lot
but ig depends on bottle of what?

>>81638360
so flat :0
>errie. scary
yep that's how that game is
I really like that atmosphere
>you can hear trains
fun fact, I can hear trains form my room too sometimes, especially at night
Also you said your day was boring
you think that's going to change?
oh and did you have any dreams last night?

>>81638429

>>81638429
>cool, what anime?
do it yourself c:
I like it, it's very cute
>need to walk doggo.
oo and hydrate doggo too!
>not really,
why?
I guess I don't know how you job looks like

>>81638584
>can still haandle it lol
okay
if u say so ^^
btw is the temperature also hot where you live? it's been very warm over here

>>81638669
hey nyanster
>haven't felt the energy to come and post here sorry..
it's okay, you should rest and don't have to post when you don't wanna ^^
no need to apologize
also it's okay if you don't have the energy to reply to everyone
You can just tell us all about ur day
what was so tiring today?

uim palying ewith some random on roblox and he just listens to everthing i say in voice hchat lol

>>81638402
aww I'm sorry to hear that chroma. hope you can relax or something.

>>81638669
hey meowster :3
>exhausting so haven't felt the energy to come and post here sorry..
that really sucks it's been exhausting for you :( and dont be sorry we understand.

>>81638689
>so flat :0
it's so crazy the flatness.
>really like that atmosphere
yea from what I've seen it has a amazing atmosphere
>trains form my room too sometimes, especially at night
oh that's pretty cool, sounds nice but also pretty eerie I'd imagine.
>think that's going to change?
I'm about to play something with a friend so definitely :)
>did you have any dreams last night?
I didn't last night. which is good in some ways lol. did you?

>>81638779
hope you'd having fun on Roblox lots of fun on there. and sounds interesting lol

>>81638792
yeahhh its pretty fun that guy just questions my sanity
i accidnetalyly bought something with robux but icouldnt understand what that was i think it was a gamepass

>>81638887
he sounds like a interesting fellow. hope it wasn't too much robux lol and you use it well whatever you spent it on

sleep time
I'll be going, bye bye ^^

>>81638887
>bought something with robux
don't get into roblox debt

>>81638792
>about to play something with a friend so definitely :)
have fun :D

empteid the secodn bottle... my head si SPINNING

>>81639049
SPEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEN

>>81639132
yeahhh i betrayewd someone because imso stupid right now and he died because of me LOL

>>81638689
>I guess I don't know how you job looks like
it's a water park. so people are going from opening til closing.
>oo and hydrate doggo too!
he drank a whole bucket when he got back.
>fun fact, I can hear trains form my room too sometimes, especially at night
Somehow, I've always lived next to a train since I hit 18.

god ifeel liek puking alo tttt

>>81639628
Drink water. It's important that you hydrate.

>>81639674
ok i will now thank you anon

i accidentlay puked out the water i was drinking because i forgot how to swallow

>>81639711
You are welcome femchroma.

>>81639736
Tomorrow you will feel like absolute shit. You think that it's bad now but it'll get worse before it gets better. If you have to, keep a plastic bucket nearby. Suck on ice-cubes and once you start to feel better eat something that's light on your femtummy.

>>81639752
>>81639773

are you the only one in this thread becausei feel really reall miserable right now and i need to just talk to someone no mattter what im talkign about right now

>>81639783
I don't know? Maybe. It's pretty late. Go for it. What's on your mind.

>>81639851
i dotn know just talk about whatever
how are you how was your day?? im gonnma draw now myself
are you going to sleep now since its pretty late ?

>>81639868
>how are you how was your day??
It was fine but very boring. Not much to do.
>im gonnma draw now myself
Wonder how that is gonna turn out, with you being drunk and everything. Maybe abstract?
>are you going to sleep now since its pretty late ?
I have to go to bed soon because I have somewhere to be tomorrow.

>>81638978
goodnight cat.

>>81639049
hope your all well chroma I'll be here if you need. I am playing Roblox with a friend so will be slow

>>81639903
illl probalnby share once im done
i hope you have a good night
what are you gonna do tomorrow?
>>81639938
what are u playing can i join

>>81639955
>illl probalnby share once im done
Looking forward to it.
>i hope you have a good night
You too
>what are you gonna do tomorrow?
Booked a room at a hotel. They have a spa and a nice pool. It's Japanese themed.

>>81639993
i cannot comprehend what im doing right now
>Booked a room at a hotel.
why so?? is it htat you dfont like where you currently live

>>81639955
I want to smell your panties you are the love of my life hmmmmm panties yum yum

>>81640192
??????? ! whgat

erm... awkward.....

>>81639955
it's called clean your dirty chimney. mu username is hedeon7

>>81640336
sorry it took so long btw

>>81640390
>hedeon7
added

gator im too intoxicated ofr thsi obby

lol I'm having fun ^^ also what were you trying to say chroma?

>>81640599
okay let's play something else then <3

>>81640599
oh lmao, maybe we could all play smth more chill? or you could go to bed since it's pretty late

>>81640606
do you wanna play jailbreak
>>81640611
no ont yet i still ahve something to drink and chew on

>>81640615
sure thing sounds cool ^^

>>81640615
okay sure :3 don't drink too much tho lol

>>81640620
>>81640633
if u didnbt saw what i said in game chat im gonna go since i feel liek puking my guts out
sorry again

>>81640719
I hope your okay <3. you shouldn't be sorry we understand I should be sorry tho

>>81640719
it's okay!! goodnight chroma <3

>fucking around and drinking with friends in a hotel room
>lay down on couch and my skirt goes up enough to show my cut marks
>friend notices and asks about it
>tell him it's just scratches from work
>he was drunk enough to believe me
they're never gonna put me in the psych ward i'm too powerful

>>81635556 (OP)
> hru
idk i'm catching feelings for someone i'm not supposed to. i cant even fucking sleep or move my eyes from the screen because i'll get so horny i'll pass out (she's sleeping half naked i mean so am i but im the gay one here)
> plans for today?
idk drink anything caffeinated i can get my little gremlin hands on so i dont feel like im ded
> last time hurting myself
honestly at this point i have no idea, havent cut myself in like a month maybe, but ive been skin picking all the time and any open would immediately gets reopen ugh
> anything bothering you?
yes the fat ass of my straight friend with a boyfriend. thanks.

>>81641436
same anon, at this point i know exactly what to say and what to keep hidden, so i'll probably never get into a psych ward unless i commit but i think i have a plan for my life it sounds pathetic but maybe ill describe it l8r