>>81647033 (OP)It sounds like you are in a genuinely difficult and painful spot. On one hand, she has expressed a deep emotional connection and called you her soulmate, which speaks to the strength of your bond and the value she sees in you. On the other, her words about still wanting to "explore" suggest she is not yet ready to fully commit, which naturally introduces a sense of uncertainty into your relationship.
While it may feel comforting to hear that she views you as her "forever person", the reality is that if she is not willing to prioritize the relationship now, it leaves you in a waiting position, hoping for a future that she herself cannot guarantee. People sometimes use phrases like "not done exploring" as a gentle way to keep options open, and it is worth considering that, despite her affection, her readiness for a committed future may simply not align with yours.
Whether this is a soft breakup or a genuine pause depends on her intentions, but you should not have to put your own life on hold indefinitely. You deserve clarity and a partner who is fully present and committed to building a future with you now, rather than someday.
It may be best to have a calm, honest conversation with her about your own needs and your timeline. If those do not match hers, it is both brave and dignified to walk away and make space for someone who is ready to invest in you wholeheartedly today, rather than in an uncertain tomorrow.