I understand my miserable existence now.

>>81651706 (OP)
>understand
no you don't
if you did, you'd have done something by now

>>81651706 (OP)
I am still confused about mine

I lost my ability to feel my hatred

my anger is momentary n fleeting like it never existed

I relied on my hatred for all my motivation. Without it I got nothing to drive forward with.

I feel like I am crawling in the dark. Directionless n without motive.

>>81651731
Hatred is this deeply evil corrupting force in my experience don't mess with it.

>>81651772
its all I had

I have nothing now

>>81651793
You have Yahweh.

and you also do not have Yahweh, it's just pure negative, you're just doomed, dirt. You don't have nothing though.

In other words I'm just a subhuman and I finally understand it, and that's that all of that "filth" is probably sin.

I am a subhuman.

I am not even allowed to want a gf.

>>81651706 (OP)
and that's what it's all about anon, but there's always more to learn, more clarity to get

so no i can tell you, ahhhhh, don't stop moving. but apparently this is supposed to be... hard to do

>>81652977
Well at least we won't get too weird.

>>81652736
>not even allowed to want a gf.
Why not?

>>81653611
Because I'm a spiritual jew.

>>81651706 (OP)
No you don't. You're more confused than before, you've probably deranged yourself into retardation. You felt the need to tell r9k about your enlightenment, that's exhibit A that you're an insane person.

>>81651731
Anger is an extremely gay motivator.

>>81653746
I'm learning to not even want a gf and to not even be angry about the chosen people.

beddy bye

>>81651706 (OP)
Well...
Let's let the time slip by.

there's an entire fucking professional dissertation on it

>>81653786
If those are the most pressing matters in your life then good for you.

>>81651706 (OP)
I don't. I don't understand why I was born a sea monkey. The really bad part is I'm a 5'3 brown with a tiny dong