I am absolutely terrified of diseases, living, and death
It's true.
I don't mean like, I'm scared of catching a cold or covid or the flu or whatever, not even vaxxed. That shit is easy.
I mean I'm absolutely terrified of catching a chronic illness that slowly kills you and is debilitating.
I can get one minor symptom and throw myself into silent panic attacks, almost every single day, researching for hours on what it could be. It ruins my life and makes me not want to be alive, but at the same time I am terrified of death.
You would think im some health freak who takes care of myself, I'm not, I eat like shit, I sleep like shit, I vape, I'm an alcoholic.
This is my only way to vent since I am so alone.
Every living thing on this planet dies alone.
I don't mean like, I'm scared of catching a cold or covid or the flu or whatever, not even vaxxed. That shit is easy.
I mean I'm absolutely terrified of catching a chronic illness that slowly kills you and is debilitating.
I can get one minor symptom and throw myself into silent panic attacks, almost every single day, researching for hours on what it could be. It ruins my life and makes me not want to be alive, but at the same time I am terrified of death.
You would think im some health freak who takes care of myself, I'm not, I eat like shit, I sleep like shit, I vape, I'm an alcoholic.
This is my only way to vent since I am so alone.
Every living thing on this planet dies alone.
