I love alcohol!!!! I also love being a 21 year old male with borderline personality disorder I just got discharged from the psych ward haha I met a really cute girl there inb4 fakecel I am a 21 year old virgin never had sex or kissed and also I've been here for 10 years longer than any autistic incel tourist anyways my girlfriend isn't responding to my texts she's probably cutting herself or killing herself with benzodiazapenes and alcohol but I am okay just gonna drink a tiny bit and call her again at 9 or 9:30

I have a tested IQ of 145 and study math and physics everyone I ever met called me a prodigy I would have won a nobel prize or fields medal if w*men didn't exist and I didn't have BPD my mom once told me during one of her manic episodes that I was cursed maybe she was right idk I'm not an alcoholic and I am a very mentally stable individual 1000 blessings 800 curses

>>81662152 (OP)
>I have a tested IQ of 145
woahhh smartie pants over here, you sound totally cool and unique, i definitely want to learn more about you and maybe become your friend

>>81662152 (OP)
I was just gonna start drinking with you since I have BPD but I can't relate to you at all....

>>81662152 (OP)
>Namefag
Fuck off to tumblr, retard drunkard

>>81662152 (OP)
If you would like I can personally coach you in how to obtain women I am a private tutor with 5 years experience in teaching math and physics I think $25/hr is reasonable but it is negotiable and I can waive it for the most desperate cases there's an autist with NPD I met at the psych ward sending me 15 messages per minute I should probably respond to him I don't wanna be mean

Seriously though you guys are not missing out if it wasn't for women existing (and me having BPD) I would probably have won a fields medal or nobel prize by now I envy schizoids apparently they have zero desire for social interaction at all its like they found a hack to not have to sleep like WTF lucky but seriously women will destroy you Plato was fucking right passion for soldiers (and women) and brain for philosophers and scientists that's why emperor Emperor Shaddam Corrino IV in Dune had to kill Duke Atreides the heart is not supposed to rule he was fucking right about Paul 61 BILLION DEAD HAAHAHAHAHAHAAH

Haha okay good yes. :p. I am a very mentally stable individual I promise.

>>81662183
>I was just gonna start drinking with you since I have BPD but I can't relate to you at all....
Sorry brother if it makes you feel better I can't truly relate to anyone either I literally have everything social graces I study math and physics in an ivy league university and I just published a paper on research gate it was a project I was working on since I was 17 I only have $3 in savings though like I study protein folding if I just graduate and leverage it properly I can be a fucking billionaire I am so fucking blessed but also cursed at the same time ADHD and my dad broke my ribcage when I was 7 lol I should be happy I HAVE EVERYTHING BUT IM FUCKING NOT BECAUSE BPD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA I LOVE BPD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Anyways toast friend I personally really like coolers only gonna drink 2-3 though I don't wanna be an alcholic everyone in my senpai is an alcoholic :p my aunt who raised me died of cirrhosis she literally wasted away much sad. Coolers are so yummy its like drinking pop no wonder why all the high functional alcholics like wolf of wall st. drink cocktails HAHAHAHA I'm not an alcoholic I promise.

>>81662241
I'm really concerned you have the wrong diagnosis

>>81662190
I am not drunk you absolute worthless stupid retard black-as-night gorilla nigger (I'm not racist btw) I only drank 1.5 beers worth of alcohol and I'm only gonna drink 2-3 I am completely losing my mind because someone I cherish is probably trying to kill herself rn XDDDD its alright though she's okay she's probably just cutting herself like she did a couple days ago light cuts everything will be okay also I have literally been here for 10+ years since I was like 9 or 10 just never namefagged I was here when you could post your face and when it was still r9000k-1 you are the imposter stupid revisionist retard this has always been the BPD/cluster B board incels can fuck off back to incels.is

>>81662278
No I really do have BPD + ADHD + GAD I'm just extremely high functioning I was diagnosed twice lol both by a psychologist in the psych ward first when I was 17 and second time in my more recent visit I got discharged 10 days ago it was an eminent neuropsychologist who studied BPD for 30 years she said I might also have ASD though which might explain things idk I don't sympathize with the struggles of autistic people like socialization but whatever I guess but trust me I definitely have BPD xDDD

This is all a very elaborate larp and shitpost OP. At least you are having fun.

hell yeah man i love alcohol too i'm gonna drink tomorrow

>>81662337
I really wish I was making all of this up but the funniest part is that EVERYTHING I POSTED IS 100% TRUE AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH life really is stranger than fiction I fucking wish it was a larp but seriously all of it is true and yeah I am having fun sorry for shitposting I'm just looking for 0 effort social interaction

>>81662152 (OP)
Your choice of alch could use improvement
I dont think you're that smart based on my observation

Ever taste your own blood?

>>81662422
>Your choice of alch could use improvement
What should I drink bro? Fucking whiskey or some shit? I drink vodka but seriously I'm not an alcoholic people who talking about having good tastes in alc are retarded I drink coolers because they taste amazing very very yummy

>I dont think you're that smart based on my observation
Based on what fucking information? You have nothing to work with want me to prove that the Axiom of Choice is equivalent to the Well Ordering Principle and Zorn's Lemma right here and now? Maybe you're just not the best at reading people idk seems rather judgmental from so little information but w/e I get it I really am claiming alot

>Ever taste your own blood?
Yeah not that much though tastes like iron

>>81662500
Drinking alcohol solely based on taste is patrician.
Good man. No complaints.

>>81662152 (OP)
How do I admit you back to the ward.
This is the most concerning shit I have read in a while. Please go back in you are clearly not all fixed up

>>81662152 (OP)
>borderline personality disorder
subhuman with a fake "disease" that was created to excuse your horrible behavior. kill yourself.

>>81662569
>How do I admit you back to the ward.
If you knew my identity and address you could call the local police and lie about everything and claim that I was basically schizophrenic and having a psychotic break and attacking people there was a perfectly healthy girl in there whose bf was a violent narcissist where that happened to her shit is fucked up I got sent in there for texting a suicide hotline I kinda deserved it though and I was in a bad place

>This is the most concerning shit I have read in a while. Please go back in you are clearly not all fixed up
Sorry lol but seriously I am okay I am doing alot better have alot of treatment options it is not good in there got assaulted twice 1st by a sociopath/ASPD and second by a schizoaffective having a psychotic break its fucked in there I never wanna go back I have good motivation to never return

But seriously I am doing okay this is just another evening with someone with BPD though this is my first time namefagging and the first time venting/externalizing it thanks for the concern but srsly I am alright

>>81662603
NO YOU DUMB MOTHER FUCKER
YOU ARE NOT OKAY
PEOPLW WHO ARE RIGHT IN THE HEAD DO NOT SAY SHIT LIKE THAT
DROP THE ALCOHOL TOO, RETARD
Last thing you need is an addiction on top of sounding like you just had your frontal lobe removed.
Jesus

>>81662580
BPD is definitely real but most BPDs who self-diagnose and claim to have it online are larpers who just have 'borderline traits' not actual BPD its pretty hard to actually get diagnosed with this shit you have to do alot of self-harm or try to kys
But it's definitely real according to my psychologist BPD is made up of two things - 1. a completely different neurochemistry that makes us emotionally hypersenstive this shit is from birth to death and 2. a broken/poor sense of self/identity/self-esteem from consistent and extremely negative feedback from the environment during childhood or adolescence usually through moderate to severe trauma lole this is the psychodynamical component

But you are right mental illness doesn't ever excuse accountability to your actions even if you have BPD if someone with BPD somehow hurt you I will apologize in their stead Gomen nasai Sumimasen!!!!!

>>81662632
>NO YOU DUMB MOTHER FUCKER
>YOU ARE NOT OKAY
>PEOPLW WHO ARE RIGHT IN THE HEAD DO NOT SAY SHIT LIKE THAT
>DROP THE ALCOHOL TOO, RETARD
Lol thanks dad yeah I can be kinda retarded sometimes emotional reasoning but seriously believe or not I am okay and venting makes me feel better thanks for the concern though

>Last thing you need is an addiction on top of sounding like you just had your frontal lobe removed.
>Jesus
I'm not an alcoholic/struggle with substance abuse (yet) everyone is my senpai on both sides is though so I understand the danger but seriously I only drink socially never struggled that much though I have friends who drink a ton but yeah you're right alcohol is bad I'm just a retard I guess the pain is just too much today not gonna drink all of that today though and even if I did I would probably be fine

>>81662663
>definitely real according to my psychologist
doesnt mean fuck all
>a completely different neurochemistry that makes us emotionally hypersenstive this shit is from birth to death and 2. a broken/poor sense of self/identity/self-esteem from consistent and extremely negative feedback from the environment during childhood or adolescence usually through moderate to severe trauma lole this is the psychodynamical component
sounds like a nurture issue. child neglect happens when the mother knows instinctually that theyre child isnt worth the effort it takes to care for it.
>if someone with BPD somehow hurt you I will apologize in their stead
the tears of a subhuman mean nothing to anyone

>>81662910
>doesnt mean fuck all
She went to school for 6+ years and got a Ph.D in neuropsychology and studying psychopathology for 30 years while practising it she is a licensing psychologist yeah I'm sure some random frog on 4chan knows better than someone like that LOL you are a worthless lying black-as-night gorilla NIGGER stay a virgin 4 ever

>>81662930
>she went to skewl!!!!!! you have to understand shes not just trying to get me to take pills that cost more money to fund the pharmaceutical companies!!!!! trust the science!!!!
rope yourself, "bpd" nigger. the world will be a better place without your kind around

>>81662152 (OP)
BPD males are so fembrained..

>>81662692
As lomg as it is just venting, I guess... athat does sound like a lot.
>everyone in my family tree are alcoholics
I am sorry to be the barer of bad news, but that means you are genetically prone to addictions
I am too
Got smokers on all sides
Do everything in your power to not do anything addictive, weed, alcohol, cuggies, gambling, absolutelt nothing. You will fuck up your life. Be a goodie two shoes if you have to and pixk up some hobbies instead.

>>81662152 (OP)
Nice creative writing exercise but as hard as it is to convey mental illness through text you overdid it just a tad. It went quickly from potentially believable to a bad cartoonish exaggeration. Sounding more like a 12 year old with ADHD than anything.

>>81662964
>I am sorry to be the barer of bad news, but that means you are genetically prone to addictions
Yeah, I know. Psychology is one of my main academic interests I believe there is a gene that makes alcohol like x2 more pleasurable...I think no I know I have it lol. Both sides of my family all alcoholics but I'm not yet but I really have been careful thanks for the concern and the BPD makes me 10x more impulsive I went from sober to drunk in like 15 mins xD grocery stores sell it at my country now not good. But there is hope for example my dad went to AA for like 30 years and hasn't drank in like 10 years and my mom never struggled with alcohol despite all her siblings and dad dying of alcohol though she did get depression and had manic depression for like 7 years shit was fucked but I don't plan on being an alcoholic.

>Got smokers on all sides
Never struggled with that and I would want to keep it that way nicotine is messed up it doesn't even feel that good saw people in the psych ward who need it 24/7 though if you're tryna quit alcohol or poly addiction its the least of the evils I guess

I smoked weed almost every day for about 4 months though but I stopped because it gave me seizures LOL haven't smoked in months it doesn't even feel good now just gives me a panic attack

But thanks for the concern seriously it's probably what I need to hear

>>81662987
Its all true lol I am writing at the speed of my thoughts I talk the same too believe it or not XDDD do you really think I could think and larp creatively this well and fast if I was I would basically be earnest hemmingway use occam's razor bro and see the temporal spacing of my posts and yes I have ADHD too and it is rather dominant so that's probably what you're seeing.

>>81663009
>"larp this well"
>the larp in question is just an autistic disregard of basic grammar and run on sentences
its extremely easy to type like this.

HAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA just called again still no answer from her :( I hope she didn't take like 5 advan which she has a prescription for along with a bunch of alcohol nah I'm being paranoid she's never done that before actually nvm she did she actually did it SEVEN FUCKING TIME BEFORE XDDDDDDD its fine she's probably just cutting herself like she did on 06/17 when she was sick with the flu and couldn't go to work am still a virgin at 21 and there was an older girl who messed me up when I was 21 and now I only exclusive feel physical attraction to nerdy high functioning BPD girls who are into anime, video games have phds and are 3-7 years older than me AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

I LOVE BPDI LOVE BPD I LOVE BPD I LOVE BPD

>>81663056
>an older girl who messed me up when I was 21
an older girl who messed me up when I was 12* it was okay though im still a virgin no SA or anything like that though she was kinda a perv IG my brain is fried now though I should text her and ask how she is doing

>>81663023
What do you want me to tell you though want my dick with a timestamp? I'm not fucking doxxing myself though to prove something to some stubborn autist fuck off

>>81663083
>"your larp sucks"
>"WANT TO SEE MY COCK as proof that im not lying?!?!?!"

>>81662152 (OP)
Love you Russian music, OP?

Absolute nigger of a hangover today. I shan't be drinking much this evening.

It's okay guys she texted me back she just said she was tired and at her cousins house said she'd call me tomorrow she's not dead hurray we back boys

>>81663424
idk what kind of proof would you like LUL you already decided reality in your head stubborn autist so typical

>>81662961
I mean yeah I guess 75% of BPD sufferers are female because a key component to it is emotional dysregulation which is supposedly a "feminine" trait though I think it's silly to define masculinity and femininity by that also I am not "fembrained" even in that sense I study mathematics and physics and engage in logical reasoning my dad was toxic masculine I literally come from a family of alcholic soldiers and police officers I got kicked out at 17 by my dad and he never gave me shit my parents sent me to kenda and my dad took me fishing and camping countless times alot of times I'm a very typical male grown up in a toxic masculine household my online identity and IRL identity are very different this is where I come to "unload" trauma dump if you met me irl or on VC you would think that I was a very typical male and probably even stoic I haven't cried since I was 10 because of an incident that happened with my dad turns out you don't need marcus aurelius to practice stoicism you just need to grow up with a toxic masculine dad and a family of soldiers/alcoholics haha I still feel everything on the inside most people just never get to see it. You are one of the precious few that got to see what I really am on the inside...at least I'm not dead inside like I used to think I was. Anyways feel free to ignore what I wrote. Most of you won't even read it or care anyways. Tsk...I guess I got a bit carried away. Just disembodied voices and whispers from the void that will be forgotten by tomorrow. Nothing of concern.