It's an obsession. I thought I had managed to fall out of love with a guy from university. We never talked, we only saw each other sometimes. And I still can't forget him and stop thinking about him. I check his social media accounts every day. It gives me comfort. I want to be free from it. I don't know what will be better, if he doesn't come back to university or if I see him again in October. I need to see him again but I know it will be the death of me.

>>81684303 (OP)
i stalked a guy that i really wanted to fuck (he had a gf) in high school and regularly fantasized about killing her, 10/10 would do it again

>>81684455
He doesn't have a girlfriend. And he's made for me. I prayed to God to send me a boyfriend and I thought of a man who looks like him. We have similar interests. We are both religious. His birthday is the day after mine. Just like my parents have birthdays after each other.

>>81684479
The narcissist parents brainwashing goes hard with this lil n*gga

>>81684303 (OP)
>we only saw each other sometimes
incoming 50 more posts about this

>>81684504
The God part? No, not really. My parents are religious but much less so than I am. I myself had an atheistic period but I realized that I believe in God. And I believe in the basic assumptions of Christianity.

>>81684303 (OP)
Who is the girl? Very cute

>>81684523
No. Not exactly. But probably

>>81684534
Osaka from Azumanga Daioh.

>>81684303 (OP)
>>81684455

Sluts like these will chase above average/chadlite men like their lives depend on it.

Lmao status seeking cunts

>>81684543
What do you mean by that? Would you mind expanding on your statement?

>>81684565
Is it forbidden to fall in love? Or are you just jealous?

Maybe, just maybe, that is one long series of circumstances that would end in you coming here to post this and meeting me, who is actually the one you're meant for.
Unlikely? Sure. But you can't say for certain, God's plan is strange and meandering.

What I will tell you, is that the behavior of checking on that stuff everyday is making it worse. It's becoming a part of your psyche, little different than smokers wanting something in their hand or lips when stressed even when not smoking.
You already know it's not good for you to be this way, so please, for your own sake, wrestle control of yourself.
Even if the minuscule odds are not there and we won't see each other again even anonymously, I want you to take care of yourself.
Bonus points if you realize an anonymous stranger showed you more compassion than the guy you're obsessing over ever did.

>>81684597
The latter.
And you aren't in love, you're obsessing over some dude who doesn't give a fuck about you because you know he's out of your league.

Welcome to the age of hypergamy

>>81684479
I would contact him to at least set up a time and place to introduce yourself to him and vice versa. I would just tell him that you're Christian and God wanted you to meet him. I've had a coworker who asked for the same thing and she ended up getting married to the guy. I would just play it straight.

>>81684303 (OP)
Had the same with a girl from uni, sadly she also had a gf otherwise i'd have asked her out

>>81684573
>Would you mind expanding on your statement?
No. If you don't notice patterns I can't make you notice patterns

>>81684610
Really dude? Not OP but this is unbecoming of you man, have some self-respect.

>>81684610
It's not very possible. I know that online relationships are not for me. However, I notice that you are nice to me. And I am glad. I know it's not good for me but I feel calmer doing it. I try to take care of myself, don't be afraid of me. And it's better than half a year ago when I had a literal delusions related to him.
>>81684625
It's possible that there's no love involved. But I doubt it. I often have obsessions, but they're short-term. I've been in love with him for a year. I've tried to make moves, but I'm too shy for that.
The hypergamy is a funny concept. No man has ever asked me out on a date or complimented me in real life. No one has tried to make a move on me in terms of relationships, so what's wrong with my fantasy? If no one wants me anyway, how am I contributing to hypergamy? I'll be honest, if anyone my age asked me to go on a date, I would do it. I would get to know the person and see if I had feelings for them. But that's not happening.

>>81684479
Ask him out you dumb bastard.

>>81684303 (OP)
>tfw all Chad has to do is make eye contact with a ltb a few times and she's obsessed with him for the next 5 years
"all people are born equal" my ass

>>81684702
I tried. But I am shy. Once I was so ashamed that I climbed the nearest mountain out of shame.

>>81684707
It's not like we had eye contact and that's why I'm obsessed with him. It's complicated. And very much related to my delusions. How paranoid I am. There was a point where I thought he was a demon who wanted to lead me astray. I thought I should kill him. Now I'm a little more mentally stable. But trust me. It's not all women, but how psychotic I can be sometimes.

>>81684689
>no man has risked getting publicly shamed for approaching me
Okay. Now answer the following question: How attractive was this guy? would you say he looks better than the majority of guys you see?
>if anyone my age asked me
I've heard this a million times. and yet somehow none of these people want to date me (ill be straight up, im not white. thats why, especially if the women are minorities themselves).

Just fuck off already, sick of you whores. Sluts are actually somehow nicer and easier to talk to than your kind.

>>81684708
How about you give him your number in writing you dork

>>81684751
He is very attractive for me. He is a twink. He looks like he is hungry. My type.
I wouldn't date you bc I know online dating isn't for me. I know I probably couldn't be with a guy that isn't from my country (or countries nearby). But I would. The guys in real life aren't just interested in me.
I'm not forcing you to talk to me. You can talk with girls you call sluts. And I don't know what you mean by "your kind".

>>81684776
We don't have classes together. I only see him in the hallways or in front of the building where he studies. I don't want to seem creepy...

>>81684708
Try harder you fuckin idiot.

>>81684797
I am. A few months ago I started socializing with people in my year. I'm not afraid to approach them anymore. But I still can't approach people I don't study with. I have no excuse to come to him and ask him out. Not to mention that he is much prettier than me.

>>81684303 (OP)
what makes a girl want to stalk you
do you need to be 6'2 fit chad?

>>81684850
I don't think he is 6'2. He is cute, my type. Looking hungry and needy. But the first thing I see in him is that his clothes are inspired by historical fashion. As a girl who is also into historical fasion (but has much less money) I was amazed to seeing how good his costumes are. Then the more I started to notice him the more and more similarities I noticed. And considering my prayers and signs from god I started to feel more and more that we were made for each other.

>>81684784
by "your kind" i mean women that actually want to be serious. sadly thats only reserved for pale twinks while most other women are just hypergamous sluts running around from dude to dude.
>>81684889
>shallow shit
every time. romance is dead.

>>81684961
Not only pale twinks. They're just my favorites. I had a crush on a "bear" type guy. A bigger one, with a beard and long hair. Great guy but he has a girlfriend. I'm not a home breaker.
As I said. This is the first thing I saw about him. That he is interested in historical fashion. I wrote earlier about other similar interests(architecture, history, games, movies etc), that he is physically attractive to me, that we are both believers. If you consider this shallow. Then yes, my attraction to him is shallow.

>>81684796
You're a girl why would you be creepy

>>81685087
You know girls can be creepy. I don't want to get kicked out of university for harassment or something.

>>81685001
>white chad literally just exists near a woman and she still obsesses over him
fuck this life bro

>>81684303 (OP)
>>81684455
How fucking tall is this man??

>>81684303 (OP)
>>81684479
> And I still can't forget him and stop thinking about him. I check his social media accounts every day. It gives me comfort. I want to be free from it. I don't know what will be better, if he doesn't come back to university or if I see him again in October. I need to see him again but I know it will be the death of me.

> He doesn't have a girlfriend. And he's made for me.

When will someone love me like this bros

>>81685001
Yeah you'd only date a guy that you found attractive. Not one they you would normally consider even if he had the same interests.

>>81684889
anon listen, I do this and I'm a guy so I'm not sure if it will work the same. I have been deeply in love with a girl who lives across the country from me and who barely replies to my messages. I have tried to distance myself from her since I slowly started to observe my behavior and became slowly disgusted by it. It's okay to fall in love but being this obsessed with someone to the point it feels like a drug will mean that you will end up driving away that person. Take this as a precautionary tale from someone who's done it two times and it has gone the same way. I always get blocked or realize I've made up an image of them in my mind so far away from who they really are they actively start to hate me. Do anything you can to get rid of the feelings before it's too late.

>>81685127
Are you ugly or something why would he think that about a cute girl giving him her number
Tell him you like his aesthetic

>>81684672
Sometimes i shitpost, and some times i effortpost. Rarely I carepost.
Don't worry about it. Notice how I made no attempt to leave contact info. I make the same consideration towards other (non-fem)anons as well.

>>81684689
The hypergamy bit usually implies the sort of monkey-branch swinging I'm sure I don't need to describe here. Most everyone's fantasies involve either an attractive person or someone they know.
I wouldn't worry about it as long as your torch-bearing doesn't blind you to others, and if you're willing to put the torch down when the time comes.

>>81684740
Holy shit. Thank you. That finally explains the mystery behavior of a girl in highschool like two decades ago. She claimed I was the devil and ran away and then a few days later transferred out. Was very confused. I thought she was cute.

>>81685366
You're right bro, better end it now.

>>81685624
His name is Morymoro, he is 7m tall.